I waited out front on the porch, sitting on the porch swing my dad had installed a few months ago as I waited for Ponyboy. I wiped my eyes of any stray tears, and wiping away the make-up that was running down my cheeks. I nearly jumped when I saw Pony and Two-Bit running towards the house. Whenever I saw Ponyboy It feels like I'm going to drop to my knees, like there's no one else in the room but us, and then I'd reach out and hug him, knowing he loved me too, and then my dream would be destroyed as I realized we couldn't stand together forever.

Pony ran up the steps, and as I stood up, I nearly ran into his arms. He got here really quick didn't he? It kind of reminded me of the time Kaylyn's water broke and Darry had to rush her to the Hospital. When we called Soda down at the DX and told him, he ran to the Hospital himself and arrived right on time. I don't know why I kept comparing myself to Kaylyn, or why I compare my relationship with Pony to Kaylyn's with Sodapop. Ours was completely different. We weren't meant to be like they were, it just didn't seem that way.

"He called a lawyer and everything; he's really going to take me away for real this time!" I sobbed into Pony's chest. Ponyboy's hand rested on the back of my head as he silently tried to soothe me. "I don't want to leave…I just can't leave…" Two-Bit had wandered away somewhere, probably into my house so me and Pony could be alone for awhile. I cuddled into Pony's arms, my grip not loosening on his shoulders. Ponyboy didn't seem to mind too much.

"C'mon, Kim, it's freezing out here. We don't want you to catch a cold, and I wouldn't fancy catchin' one either," Pony led me inside, never releasing me from his warmth as he guided me to the couch. He sat beside me, letting me lean against him as another wave of depression hit me like a train. Fresh tears began to slip down my cheeks, and I began to sob into my hands. I think Pony panicked a little bit, because he kind of flailed by my side for a second.

"I don't wanna leave!" I cried out, "I don't wanna leave, I don't wanna!" Ponyboy shook his head, his arms wrapping around me as he pulled me as close as he could to him.

"Kim…" He murmured into my ear. "Want to know a secret?" I sniffed, wiping my eyes and looking up at him.

"Yes…" I nodded, "I do."

"I love you." Pony's lips slid against mine softly, I let out a surprised squeak before I leaned forward. That weird feeling in my stomach started again, but this time it had an airier feel to it. I don't know how to exactly describe what I felt, but I can tell you, I enjoyed it. Ponyboy's hand was on my cheek now, his thumb drawing circles around my cheek bone. I shivered, letting out a soft moan as his…bottom part pushed against mine. I swear I felt something hard down there, but I wasn't about to question anything while I felt so good. Ponyboy pulled away from lips, kissed my cheek and made a trail of kisses down to my neck. I shivered again, pressing myself against Ponyboy. He groaned softly, rubbing again me again.

"P-Pony…" I stuttered. He pushed me down gently, so that he now had total control over me, not that he didn't before. I stared into his deep blue-green eyes, panting quietly. Pony looked slightly un comfortable, I was curious as to why, but when I looked down, I understood immediately. "Y-y-you're ha-hard…" He smiled, looking down.

"Guess I am…s-sorry." He murmured, standing up and trying to cover it. Let's see, Kaylyn told me about this. When a guy got hard, that meant that he was horny for you. But I couldn't have sex, I mean, it's not that I wasn't ready, well maybe it was, it was just that I was nervous how could I even imply I wanted to see his…thing. I mean, I had always been curious about it, which I had confided to a few people, including Kaylyn, which sent her off on a rant about guys and why I wasn't innocent and things like that.

"Wait…" I stood up, quickly walking over to him and stopping him from walking out the door. Ponyboy covered himself abruptly.

"Ah, Kim, this is kind of painful…" Pony groaned and moved his legs unhappily. Well, it was now or never, I might as well sneak a small glance at it.

"Stay there." I murmured, slowly sinking to the floor and kneeling. I tugged at the sides of his pants, softly tugging them down, revealing the underwear, and noting the bulge that was in his pants. I let out a soft gasp as Pony moved from above me. "Don't move." I let go of his pants, taking a deep breath, and pulling down his underwear at last. Ponyboy bit his lip; I could tell he was watching me to see what I could do. Well, it definitely didn't look average, I mean, it was bigger than average, or I think it was. Not that I had ever seen one before.

"Uh, Kim, we can't do this here-Ah!" I couldn't believe what I just did, I actually…licked it. It made me feel dirty and weird, but if this was what Kaylyn did for Soda, was it so wrong for me to do this for Pony? I grabbed it; I guess I was too shy to say P-p…his thing. I put it in my mouth, softly sucking on it, kind of like a lollipop. Ponyboy let out a loud moan, his hand rested on the back of my head, gently pushing me forward. I was blushing as I moved my head back and forth on Pony's thing, I had this weird knot in my stomach and another weird feeling down there whenever I heard Ponyboy moan. I don't know, I guess he was just that sexy. I closed my eyes, cupping his balls, as I sucked him off some more.

"K-Kim!" Pony stiffened for a second, and as I pulled away, some white liquid-like substance fell on my face. I squeaked, glancing at the white stuff before putting it in my mouth. It wasn't that good, it was pretty salty, but I liked the taste. I stood up, helping Ponyboy put his pants back on and everything. He seemed a little tired as I hugged him again. "Kim…that's not…Darry's gonna kill me, so is Kaylyn…" Pony let out a groan of annoyance. I smiled.

"We don't have to tell them," I murmured into his ear, "It'll be our dirty little secret."