A/N: Hey guys! Its been like, what, a year since I first posted this story. Someone Remind Me was supposed to be a one shot, but I thought, why not add a little bit more to it since so many amazing people favorited and story alerted it. So walla! This is part two... it sort of took a mind of its own because this is absolutely NOTHING like how I wanted it to end. So... that's why there is going to be a part three! Expect it out either during the weekend, or next week. I hope you like it! It took me forever to write, and it was 13 pages on Microsoft Word... the longest chapter I've ever written. Anyway, read on...
Disclaimer: I don't own the Twilight Saga... If I did, I wouldn't be writing about Edward, I'd actually be with him. ;)
Someone Remind Me- Part Two
Bella's POV
I looked at the computer screen and clicked on the saved button; my English assignment was completed and it wasn't even due until Friday- today being Monday.
After signing off of the computer, I walked over to the school librarian and asked for my paper that I just printed. I know, why am I not home doing this, right? Well, my dinosaur of a computer broke down on me, and I'm waiting for the Mac that my mom ordered for me.
"Where is Mr. Cullen today?" Mrs. Birdie asked as she handed me my paper.
My mood suddenly turned sad at the thought of him. "He went home, said he had things to do," I waved my hand in the air dismissively. "Um, Mrs. Birdie, I'm sorry for the noise that we made the other day when we were..."
"Arguing?" She finished for me.
I nodded, "Yeah."
"No problem, Bella. Just make sure it doesn't happen again, okay?" Her smile was soft as she looked at me over her spectacles.
"Most definitely, Mrs. Birdie," I laughed as I tripped while walking backwards, ready to get out of there. "Thanks, again!" I walked out the library doors and into the nearly deserted parking lot, my thoughts only on one thing.
Edward Cullen.
After that party in July, he and I became inseparable. He took me out on that first date and we've been going out for almost three months now. It was mid October, Halloween right around the corner.
After almost two months of dating, he took me to this secret meadow of his that was the most gorgeous place I've ever been to. He had a picnic set up along with the trees lit up with lights. It was romantic, and it was the first night we ever made love.
Then, two weeks ago at the beginning of October, we were at his meadow again, and I just had to tell him how I felt. I was in love with Edward before we even started going out, and it was killing me keeping my feelings to myself. However, I knew that it wasn't the right time, but it just slipped out without my consent.
Flashback
"The stars are so beautiful," I whispered as Edward and I gazed up at the stars. My back was against his chest as I sat in between his legs.
"Yes, you are," He whispered as he nuzzled my neck.
I turned my head so it rested on his shoulder, and when I saw his confused gaze upon me, I raised an eyebrow. "Edward Cullen, you did not just use that corny, cheesy line on me!"
I laughed as I saw his panicked expression, "Maybe…?"
I shook my head as I kissed his cheek, and turned my head to look up at the stars again. "Only you would, but I love you for it."
I felt his body stiffen from behind me, and then mine did too as the words registered to me. I just told him I loved him. As I was having a mild panic attack I felt his hands turn me around so that I was cradled in his lap.
"Bella?" His voice was soft.
"Hmm?" I turned my head to the left and looked up to the sky. I didn't want to meet his gaze; I didn't want him to know just yet. I wanted to make sure he was ready for those words; I wanted him to say them first.
"Bella," This time his hands came up to cup my face and turn it towards him. I looked into his eyes, trying to get some emotion from him, but all I saw was shock. "Did you mean it?"
I sighed; well, here we go. "Of course I did, Edward. I'm not the type to say something that I don't mean, you know that."
He looked away from me and took a deep breath before turning his attention back to me. "Say it again."
"What?" I was so confused.
"Say it," He stared at my lips.
I looked at his eyes and I didn't know what I saw there, but he wanted me to say it, "I love you, Edward."
I hardly got to finish my sentence before he kissed me, nearly bruising my lips with the intensity.
When we pulled away, he looked like he wanted to say something, but he hesitated. "I… I love you too."
End Flashback
At that time, I was ecstatic that he had said it back, that the Edward Cullen loves me, but now I'm starting to think differently. After that night, he seemed different… more like the person he was before he had me. I should have known what was going to happen because of that one hesitation.
I got into my trusty, old, red truck and started the engine a couple of times before it actually went on. As I pulled out of the parking lot, I thought about what Mrs. Birdie has said. Edward and I had gotten into an argument Friday night when we were studying for our Calculus test in the library. It was the biggest fight we've ever gotten into, but I just couldn't handle it.
I mean, we were in the library studying and he wasn't even paying attention to what I was saying. Usually it was the other way around because I could care less about the subject; I just loved to look at Edward when he was explaining something that he knew about. He would get excited with the knowledge that he had, and his eyes would light up.
But no. Not this time.
I was the one explaining to him, and I thought he wanted me to explain so that I would get it in my head, but he wasn't even paying attention. He was texting on his phone, under the table. Under the freaking table! Really? I'm his girlfriend he doesn't need to be secretly texting someone in front of me… only if he wanted it to be a secret. I ignored it for the first half hour, thinking that it was Jasper or Emmet, because they hardly texted each other a long time anyhow.
So, I got curious and asked him who he was texting. Do you know what he told me? He told me, "None of your business."
I gripped the steering wheel tighter in my hands.
Not only was that childish, but it just pissed me the hell off. All in all, Mrs. Birdie came over to our table where I was furiously packing up my things and trying not to look him in the eye because when I get angry I cry- horrible trait. She told us to leave and I happily did; well, not happily, but you get my point, don't you?
I ignored him when we got to Calc, and for the rest of the weekend. I'm a sensible person, so I knew I didn't have to apologize for anything, he did. But he never texted or called me, not even to tell me goodnight. I even left my window open for him because I knew that we needed to talk, but I got nothing. That scared me a little, where had my Edward gone?
I shook my head, and I made a quick decision and turned in the opposite direction of my house.
Then, today, at school it was like we were back at square one. He didn't even talk to me the whole day, and we have all of our classes together!
I felt my eyes start to get misty, and I had to blink my eyes a couple of times before I missed the turn. I knew I shouldn't have told him those words because look at what happened. His distance from me, and the texting and talking to other people was building up to something big. And I'm scared of the outcome because my Edward hasn't been here for the past couple of weeks, the old Edward has been.
I turned off my car as I parked it next to Esme's Audi. I didn't go home like I should have; I came to his house to talk to him about what was going on between us. I needed to know if what I said changed our relationship because we shouldn't carry it out if he feels differently. As much as it hurts, I realize that he never meant it when he said those words back to me; he was just saying it to pacify me.
We were going to discuss this, we had to. I walked up to the door of the Cullen Mansion, as I liked to call it. This place still seizes to amaze me. I rang the doorbell looked around me, that's when I noticed an unfamiliar car in the Cullen driveway.
The door opened and I turned my attention back towards it. "Good evening Esme, is Edward around?" I knew the answer to the question since his Volvo was parked outside, but I was just being polite.
"Yup, he's in the den," Esme told me as she gave me a hug. I will always love her hugs because of the love that I feel from them. I nodded and made my way down the hall, but stopped when I heard her call my name. 'Will you be staying for dinner?"
I didn't know how this "discussion" with Edward was going to end, so I just thanked her, but declined. As I got closer to the den, I heard two voices in the room: one being Edward and the other being… a girl. That was definitely a giggle.
I took a deep breath as I put my hand on the door knob. Maybe it was just Alice… but her car wasn't in the driveway. Another car was in the driveway, a car that I didn't know who belonged to. Maybe my fears were really coming true.
I opened the door and the noises stopped immediately, two pairs of eyes locking on me. I shifted from foot to foot as I glanced at Edward and Lauren Mallory, and then looked away trying to blink my tears away. When I walked in, they were leaning towards one another and Edward had that smirk on his face; the panty-dropping one that could charm any women to do what he wanted. It looked horrible from where I was standing, and this only added fuel to my growing anger.
"What's going on here?" I asked as I walked more into the room and crossed my arms over my chest.
"Nothing, Bella. I was just helping Lauren study for her chemistry test," His tone was exasperated as he spoke to me, not even making eye contact.
I didn't even know what to say because of the way he spoke to me, "Oh."
"Um, I guess I should get going. Thank you so much, Edward," She leaned in and kissed his cheek. Right. In. Front. Of. Me. That's low. "I'll call you later," She walked out the door, her hips swaying as she went. I looked at Edward and saw that he was staring at her. She was pretty, prettier than me.
Oh come on Bella! We've been through this, you are beautiful.
I scoffed internally at that comment from my conscience.
I went and closed the door before turning back to Edward, who was packing up his books. Not even glancing in my direction, or giving me a kiss like he used to.
He has changed.
No, that's who he was. The person he's always been.
"What's happening, Edward?" My voice was soft as I spoke, I didn't want it to crack in front of him.
He stopped what he was doing, but didn't look up. "What do you mean?" His hands went to grip the sides of the table he was at.
"What's happening with us, Edward?" I went to move closer to him, but he just turned around and stuffed his book on the shelf behind him. I stopped in my tracks, my heart breaking a little.
"I don't know, Bella," He shook his head before turning around to look at me, his expression angry. "Why don't you tell me because you're the one that has a fucking problem right now, not me!"
I took a step back, it felt like I was hit. "I…" Why was he angry with me? "I don't have a fucking problem, Edward! You're the one with the problem!" I know it was the childish remark, but I couldn't think straight.
"No. I. Don't." He glared at me, did I hit a nerve?
"Really? So, maybe I do have a problem," I'll be the bigger person and actually admit it. "I have a problem that you are fucking cheating on me! How could you? I know, for a fact, that Esme raised you better than that," I yelled at him, taking one step closer to him.
"DON'T bring my mother into this, Bella!" He avoided the accusation entirely. I took a few steps back, and wrapped my arms around my waist.
"Edward, I will not be in a relationship with you if you're going to be seeing other people behind my back. I can't take that," The words were hard to say, but I had to.
"Well then don't! I can't handle your fucking whining anymore!" He ran a hand through his bronze hair. But he was slowly going out of focus to me, I was feeling really dizzy.
"What happened to you Edward?" I shook my head as my thoughts became fuzzy. I wanted to ask what happened to my Edward.
"Nothing happened to me, Bella. I've always been like this, you just never noticed it," I nodded my head, not bothering to argue. He wasn't like that, he changed. It was my fault.
"So, I guess we're… done?" I felt like I couldn't breathe, I knew I was panting, trying to draw in some air.
"Yeah, we're through," I didn't even look at him. I couldn't. I didn't want to see his expression because I felt like I was dying, and I didn't want to know how happy he was feeling. This was my entire fault. I shouldn't have said it; he wouldn't have changed back to who he was before. I should have known Edward Cullen wasn't a serious commitment type of guy, one that wouldn't be afraid of those words.
I turned around and walked towards the door, trying to hold myself together with my arms wrapped around me. I blinked and felt my tears running down my face. We are over… done. I put my hand on the doorknob and turned it, but didn't step out of the room.
"Edward?" I heard his response, but I didn't turn around. I wasn't going to show him my pain; I brought this upon myself. I cleared my throat to make sure it didn't crack, "I'm sorry. So, very sorry."
With that said I ran out of that room as fast as I could, tripping as I made it to the entry way of the kitchen. "Bella?" Esme's concerned voice asked me, but I didn't stop. I needed to get out of here.
I ran out of the house, and fell down on the last step of the front porch. "Bella!" I heard my name being shouted from somewhere, I knew it was a man's voice, but it wasn't the velvet voice I was hoping for. I felt two arms wrap around my frame and lift me up. My body was shaking from the sobs that were coming from me. "Bella? Bells, what happened?"
I looked up and saw Jasper, his eyes shining with concern. I tried to calm my breathing, I tried to stop crying, and I tried to stop the pain that was in my chest, but I couldn't. I just couldn't. I shook my head, and tried to form words, but they wouldn't come out. "Jasper, what's wrong?"
I heard car doors slam as Emmet and Alice asked Jasper the question at the same time. "I don't know, but I have a damn good idea," Jasper's eyes narrowed in at the house. I glanced to the front door, but saw that it was still locked. He wasn't there.
"Baby girl, what happened?" I gave up trying to speak, just resting my head on his shoulder and crying my eyes out. I could feel Alice's hand running through my hair soothingly, and Jasper's hand rubbing my back, but I still felt the pain in my chest. Like my heart was being torn in two, I felt like my life was being taken away from me. "What did Edward do, Bella?"
His name was just too much. I broke away from Jasper's embrace and ran to my car. I searched my coat pockets for my keys and found them, but I was shaking so much that it wouldn't go into the ignition. I leaned my head on the steering wheel and cried. We are over. He doesn't want me anymore. I had hoped that he would at lease object to the idea of us breaking up.
I heard the truck door open, and looked up and saw Alice in the passenger seat. She had tears in her eyes, and I just didn't know why. Her arms were stretched out, and I went into them. "I'm sorry, Bella. It's okay. Everything is going to be okay," She whispered assurances into my ear as I heard the engine of my truck come to life. "Rose is driving, okay?" I nodded my head.
The drive home was quiet except for the sounds of my truck. My crying had stopped, but the pain was there. I saw the look Rose gave me as I wrapped my arms around the waist, but I was just trying to hold myself together. I felt like I was literally falling apart.
Jasper's POV
I laughed as Alice tried singing to a Mariah Carey song that she put on in the car. I couldn't stop laughing when she tried to go even higher than her normal voice and it just had me dying with laughter. I had to wipe my eyes as we turned into the long driveway that was the Cullen's place.
Alice turned off the song, "Hey! Don't laugh!" But she betrayed herself by giggling.
"Sorry, darlin', but that was just too funny," I smiled as I parked Alice's Porsche next to Bella's truck. Finally, I thought that they were never going to talk to one another. "I didn't know Bella was coming over," I looked over at Alice while turning off the car. "Alice?" She was looking out the window with a broken and shocked expression. "Baby, what's the… Bella," I jumped out of the car and ran towards Bella's body that lay shaking on the ground.
"Bella!" I picked her up and cradled her body to me. Her eyes opened and looked up at me, and I felt like I was punched in the gut. She looked so broken, and her eyes were dead. The light in them was gone. "Bella? Bells, what happened?"
I know she tried to answer my question because her mouth kept on trying to form words, but the sobs overtook her. I'm going to kill him.
"Jasper, what's wrong?" Emmet and Alice asked the question as they both slammed the doors that they just exited from. We had all been coming here for a fun afternoon, but not anymore.
My hands balled up into fists and I glared at the front door of the house. "I don't know, but I have a damn good idea," He should be hiding at this moment.
"Baby girl, what happened?" Emmet asked her and she just put her head on my shoulder. I knew that she had given up on trying to speak with the sobs wracking through her body.
I rubbed her back to try to calm her down, and Alice smoothed her hair. It was sort of working, but then Emmet had to open his mouth. "What did Edward do, Bella?"
In an instant she was out of my arms and dashing for her car. I glared at Emmet and told Alice and Rose to take her home. I had someone else to deal with.
Once Bella's red truck was out of my line of sight, I started for the steps. "That bastard is going to get it from me! How could he do that to her?" I was beyond angry, I was furious. He may be one of my best friends, but Bella was like a sister to me.
"Jasper!" Emmet pulled on my arm to stop me from entering the house even more, since we were standing in the foyer. "Dude, you need to calm the fuck down. Don't do anything you might regret," Now he chooses to be sensible.
"Boys, what's going on?" Esme walked into the hallway with a concern expression, and I took deep breaths to calm myself.
"Nothing, Esme," Emmet lied to her, but I knew that she knew something was up. It was all in her face.
"Where's Edward?" I spat out his name, and Esme looked shocked.
"He's upstairs, in his room. Jasper!" She yelled out my name as I sprinted up the stairs.
I saw his bedroom door, and I slammed it open. "What the fuck, Jasper?"
"You have got some fucking nerve, Cullen!" He stood up from where he was laying down in his bed.
"What the fuck are you talking about?" Like he didn't know.
"Bella! That's what I'm talking about!" I saw him roll his eyes.
"Did she already go crying to you? She just can't keep her mouth shut, can she?" I went to go lunge myself at him, but Emmet grabbed me from behind and locked my arms together.
Just because I can't hit him, like I want to so much right now, it doesn't mean I can't yell at him. "Did she go crying to me, Edward? No! I found her fucking lying on the ground crying her heart out! You have no idea what you just did to her Edward, no fucking idea!" I shook my arms free from Emmet after he gave me a warning glance. "I don't know what you did to her, but-"
"I didn't even do anything to her! So, why don't you get your fucking facts straight before you come barging in here trying to play the hero because you fucking aren't!"
"If you didn't do anything, they why can't she stand to even hear your name, Edward?" Emmet piped in.
"I don't know!" He threw his hands in the air and turned around with his back to us. "We broke up, okay? That's it!"
My anger disappeared, but sadness quickly replaced it, "You what?" My voice was just a whisper as flashes of Bella not too long ago went through my mind. I saw him turn around to look at me. "You have no idea what you did, do you?" After everything that I've told him, that she cared about him so much, he did this? No wonder she was broken.
"What do you mean?" His voice lowered also.
"After all the times that I told you, Edward, I told you she cared about you. I told you that she thought she wasn't good enough for you. I told you how she fought to change herself for you. I told you all you needed to know, and yet you do this to her? You have no idea what she looked like a few moments ago, Edward," He was quick to defend himself.
"It was her idea in the first place! She suggested we break up, not me," Sometimes he was so ignorant.
"Did you even try to convince her otherwise? I doubt it. She told me what she thought you were doing behind her back, Edward. Bella's a smart girl.
"She knew you were cheating, Edward, and as much as I want to hurt you, I know she'll resent me for it, so I won't," At this moment, at lease. I shook my head and let out a humorless chuckle. "I bet she even blames herself for you cheating and for the break up."
At that Edward collapsed into his desk chair and put his head in his hands. "I never cheated on her," It was quiet, like I wasn't meant to hear it.
I looked out the window, and was flooded with pictures of Bella's dead eyes. "She looked so dead," I murmured, yet Edward's head popped up to stare at me, and I finally saw what I was looking for. His emotions weren't blocked by that façade that he puts up; they were there for me to see. I saw how broken and torn he looked. I knew he was confused, he had been for the past couple of weeks, and I was starting to understand now.
"You have to understand what a mistake you made, Edward. I know what this is about, and you can't throw her away, the best thing in your life, because you're scared and confused.
"I have never seen two people more right for each other than you and Bella, and when something comes between a great relationship, one or both gets hurt. And Bella's hurting, man, like she's dying. I saw her with my own two eyes. You know how she has that light in her eye, the one that never diminishes," I looked at him, and I saw his eyes become cloudy.
"It was gone. The light was extinguished, and I have never seen someone alive look so dead at that moment when I picked her up," I shook my head as I felt myself tear up at the thought of Bella in that much pain.
"She had her hands wrapped around herself?" He questioned, looking down at the floor.
"It was like she was trying to hold herself together," Emmet answered from his spot leaning against the wall next to the door.
I looked back at Edward and I saw a teardrop fall to the floor. He body shuddered as he took a deep breath, "You're right," His voice was heavy.
"About what?"
"She told me," He wiped his hands over her eyes and then looked at me. "She told me, 'I'm sorry. So, very sorry', like she really did blame herself," His voice cracked and he turned his face away from me as more tears fell from his eyes. "I just didn't know what to do. You are right about so many things," He got up and walked to the window.
I waited for him to talk. That would be the only way to fix this. "I was… am confused. After she told me… I love you, I didn't know what to do. There were so many things going through my head. How could she love someone like me? I used to sleep with every girl in school. I used to make fun of her at every chance I got,"
"That's the thing, Edward, used to. Not anymore," He turned his attention to me now, instead of the window.
"I know that, now I do, but then I started thinking why? Why did she love someone like me?"
"But you're different around her. She changed you for the better," Emmet cut in.
"Yeah, I did change. And then, I changed back. I didn't even know if I loved her back. Let me finish," He saw that I was going to interject. "I have never been in a committed relationship before, you both know that. I got scared when she said those words to me that I went to my natural response," This time I did cut in.
"To be a womanizing jerk?" That earned me a glare. "Okay, sorry. But Edward, I even see the way you look at her, the way you treat her, I know that you do. How do you even doubt you love her?"
He looked lost on that question, "I don't know, but I know differently now. I lost her for just under two hours, and I realized something,"
I smiled, "What?"
"I do love her, and I've been a complete dick to her by cheating on her. But in my defense, I wasn't actually cheating because I never slept with or kissed any girl… I only flirted," He gave a sad me a sad smile. "Was she really that bad?"
I nodded my head, "I wanted to kill you, is that answer enough?"
"Is she going to forgive me?" He looked like a lost puppy.
"Knowing Bella, she probably thinks that you should forgive her. You know she can't stay mad at you for that long," He ran a hand through his hair. "I know."
We were all quiet for a while, until my phone chirped with a text message.
Bella's asleep. She was exhausted. If ur still at my house, tell Edward he better sleep w/ 1 eye open b/c he is so getting it from me! Love u! ~Alice
I saw both Emmet's and Edward's questioning gazes, so I explained the text to them. Edward's face falling as he heard about Bella. "What am I going to do?"
Edward's POV
I'm such an idiot. I can't believe I let the girl of my dreams slip through my fingers because I was scared.
But I know better now, all I needed was reassurance, and that's why Jasper's my best friend.
Now, I needed to fix all of this. I needed to get to my Bella; I needed to stop her from feeling any more pain.
"You go to her, Edward," Emmet said like it was the most obvious thing in the world, and I guess it was. "If you feel the same way about her that she does you-"
"I do," My voice held a lot of conviction even to my ears.
"Then go to her, man," He smiled at me, and I nodded. I grabbed my jacket and searched for my car keys.
"Edward," I saw something coming my way and caught it: my keys. "Just know that if you don't fix this, and I see her in the same state tomorrow as I did today… I will hurt you. No matter if Bella might hate me for it," I knew that Jasper wasn't lying, and all I could do was nod my head.
I ran down the steps and out the door, Emmet and Jasper right behind me. They both were about to get into Emmet's Hummer, but I stopped them. "Jasper, Emmet. Thank you, for making me realize," They both nodded their heads and got in the car.
I started my Volvo and raced out of the driveway and towards Bella's house. I just prayed and hoped that she would forgive me.
Bella's POV
My head was pounding, like someone was drilling at my temple. I looked around me and saw that I was in my room. That's when everything came back to me. Edward and I broke up, I had a breakdown, Rose drove me home where I noticed Charlie was still at work, and I collapsed on my bed because I felt drained.
My chest started hurting, overtaking the pain in my head, and I felt like I couldn't breathe. My heart literally felt like it was damaged.
As I was trying to steady my breathing and not break down crying, I heard yelling from downstairs. I went to my door and walked out into the hallway right near the staircase.
"No! Absolutely not!" That was Alice, but who was she yelling at?
"You know that you can't stop me, Alice. So, move," I gasped when I heard that velvet voice. It was him.
I ran into my room, tripping on my own two feet, but caught myself on the door. I slammed it shut behind me, and slid down it. The tears falling on their own accord and I wrapped my arms around me as my heart made me feel physical pain.
I pulled my knees up and laid my head on them as I cried silently to myself. Through my crying I heard footsteps run up the stairs and I heard them stand at the door. I could hear whispering, and I bet they were trying to figure out who should confront me.
I knew it wasn't going to be Edward. So, I got up and moved to my bed, having to stop a couple of times because I felt dizzy.
I fell onto my bed, not even bothering to turn around and face the person that entered my room. I heard them stand by the door, and then take a couple of steps closer to my bed.
"Bella?" My heart literally jumped, and my breathing stopped. No, he wouldn't… he couldn't. I lay there, frozen, as he took a couple of more steps closer to me until he was at the side of the bed. "Bella?"
It was him. He came… but why?
Maybe he wants to get back together.
No, I won't get my hopes up.
"Bella, baby, can you look at me?" How dare he! My pain lessened a little as anger took its place. I turned around and stood up, my brain not even registering how close I was to him. I didn't even look at him; I just stared anywhere but at him.
"Don't you 'baby' me, Edward Cullen! I'm… I'm not your baby anymore," My anger disappeared as the sadness took over once I realized what I said. I took a deep breath and wrapped my arms around my body. The pain wasn't as bad as before because I was in his presence, but it was there.
"Bella…" He whispered it so low that I don't think I was meant to hear, but I looked at him anyway. And he looked broken; he had tears in his eyes, and he kept on opening and closing his mouth like a fish out of water. He actually looked concerned for me, and unlike before, I felt the love in his eyes. But he possibly couldn't.
But he could, Bella. That's your Edward. Your Edward shows emotions, your Edward cares about you.
We haven't even been broken up for four hours… Maybe he realized. Maybe he stopped with his façade, and my Edward is here to stay. The pain in my chest lessened as I thought about it.
God, I hope so.
Edward POV
I am a monster.
Jasper's words didn't even compare to what I was seeing. But he was right about her eyes; her beautiful eyes… her beautiful, brown eyes that shined no matter what were dead. The luster was gone… and it was my fault.
"Bella…" I didn't even know what to say to her. She looked so broken because I broke her by us breaking up. By not realizing.
She finally looked at me and I saw something spark in her eyes, but it quickly extinguished. I wanted that spark to come back. I wanted the light to come back.
I saw the arms that she had wrapped around her body loosen their grip, like she wasn't trying so hard to hold herself together.
"Edward, what are you going here?" I guess I had taken too long to speak because she did, and her voice was monotone. I needed to fix this, even if she didn't forgive me, I needed to.
"I'm sorry," The words came out before I could think properly, and she looked shock by them.
"I am so sorry, Bella. I was an idiot, a jerk even, that doesn't deserve your forgiveness, but I am so sorry," I was having my second breakdown of the day. Tears fell from my eyes as I thought about what happened.
"But I was the one that said it," She interjected, her voice small and her face turned from mine. That's why she was sorry. We were right, she did blame herself.
I ran my fingers through my hair, tugging at the ends. "No. You have no reason to be sorry. You told me how you felt and I ran away like a little child. Instead of talking to you about it, I ignored you; I treated you so badly. No one like you deserves to be treated like that," I took a step closer to her so that there were only inches between us, and I saw that spark in her eye, this time it stayed.
"I never truly cheated on you, Bella. I flirted with a lot of girls, but I never kissed or had sex with another girl. I could never do that. I didn't fight off your accusation because I was still scared. I was just so confused on everything, but I know now.
"After you left, I felt like my heart was being torn into pieces, but I tried to hide my emotions. Then Jasper came and almost killed me, but Emmet stopped him. Still, Jasper made me realize what I already knew, what I was running from," I stopped and looked deep into her eyes, I saw hope in them.
"What?" She whispered as she fiddled with her fingers.
I brought my hands up to cup her face, "I love you, Isabella Maria Swan. I'm not lying to you, I truly, with all of my being, love you," Her eyes filled with tears as my words registered to her.
"Are you sure?" Her question pained me. I will live with how she looked and how she felt because of us breaking up for the rest of my life. I vow to never make her feel anything close to what she was feeling when we broke up only hours before because my angel didn't need that.
"Bella, I have never been more sure of anything in my entire life," This time the light did come back into her eyes as she smiled at me, making a grin take over my face. "I love you, so much," I whispered to her as I kissed her tears away.
"I love you too, Edward," She whispered back as she brought her arms up around my neck, her fingers rubbing my jaw.
"Can I kiss you?" I whispered against her lips. She nodded, and I pushed my lips to hers for the first time in over three days. It was like heaven. Kissing Bella will always leave me breathless and wanting more. Her taste was just exquisite.
It was just a short kiss, but I was panting when I pulled us apart. "Will you please take me back? Will you be my girlfriend again?" I held my breath.
"Of course!" She slapped my shoulder. "What kind of question is that? Did you think that after you professing your love to me, and me saying if back, that I wouldn't have said yes?" She pretended to be mad.
I kissed her nose, "Sorry, love."
She wrapped her arms around my waist and laid her head on my chest, over my heart. "It belongs to you," I felt her smile.
I rested my chin on her head, "As does mine belong to you, Edward. It will always belong to you," She whispered to me.
"Can I call you baby again?"
I felt her giggle in response, "Yes, Edward."
I smiled at how things turned out. Someone remind me to thank Jasper Whitlock later on when I see him.
A/N: So... how was it? Good, bad, somewhere in between? Did you hate it? Did I have grammar or spelling errors? Please review and tell me what you think. It doesn't have to be long, just a simple "nice" or "i hated it" could work. Thanks for taking your time to read. Oh, and maybe you could go check out my other story if you want too. ;) Have a nice day! ~Christine
