part dos of the double update. hope you love this chapter!

(A/N: Logan's POV)

As soon as James ran away from me, I felt horrible.

Why had I said that to him? If I learned one thing about James over the years, I've learned he's a very sensitive person.

"James! Come back!" I cried out. He was sprinting at full speed, and I had no hopes of catching up to him. So I tried to calm myself down.

I rubbed my forehead. I needed to talk to James. He was right, I was the one who wanted to be friends again. So, I would be the one to make this work again.

I started running down the sidewalk, calling out James' name.

I knew he'd go to his house so I came to a stop and ran up to his door.

I knocked on his door. No answer. I continued to frantically knock. Still no answer. I jiggled the door knob. It was locked. I took out my wallet and pulled out my credit card.

Kendall and Carlos had figured this trick out. All the houses in my neighborhood could open if you stuck a credit card or something in between there.

It was a little scary, but completely convenient at this point.

"James?" I called out. I searched his entire house.

I finally made it to his room and gasped at what I saw. James was crying, holding a sharp piece of a razor to his wrist.

"Logan, go away." He sobbed.

"James, what the fuck?" I tried to keep calm but I felt like my heart was being ripped into two.

"LEAVE!" He screamed out. He seemed so broken.

"No." I replied. I walked over to him. "Give me the blade."

"Logan, stop, plea-"

"James, give it to me now." I said sternly.

James looked at me with scared eyes but gave in. He handed me the bloody sharp object and then continued to sob.

I ran out of his room, found the nearest trashcan in his kitchen and dumped it in there. I grabbed a paper towel, soaked it, and headed back to James.

I sat next to the brunette.

"James, why did you do this to yourself?" I asked, taking his wrist into my hand and softly placing the paper towel over it. "It's not deep enough to kill you, but it was close."

"I know... that's why I did it." James said in between sobs.

"Does anyone know?"

James shook his head. I felt the need to hug him all of the sudden, so I did.

"I had no idea." I said while hugging him.

"Logan, I'm so sad."

"Shh, I know. It's gonna be okay." I whispered.

James finally calmed down. I was still hugging him, but we were completely silent.

"Logan, do you still want to be my friend?"

"Of course. I'm always gonna be your friend." I replied.

"Good."

A few more moments of silence.

"I have feelings for you. I like you, Logan." James finally said.

"I love you." I said. I wasn't sure if I meant I loved him like a friend or more than that, and at that moment, it didn't matter.

All that mattered is that I was going to help the boy in my arms be happy again.

A few days later, I realized I had told James I had loved him.

I had constantly been with the boy the past few days and I got to know him a lot better than I had the many years we had been friends.

And even though he had a dark past, the more I learned about him, the more meaning came to the words I had said to him the day I found him attempting to end his life.

He made me promise not to tell anybody, and in return for that, I made him promise he'd never try anything like that again.

We were talking one day, when James brought up what I had been fearing he was going to bring up.

Kendall.

"Logan... Did you really mean it when you said you loved me?" He asked, not meeting my gaze.

"I care for you, James." I replied.

"But you don't love me..."

"I do love you. I care for you that much and I wouldn't be able to live with myself if anything happened to you. But I don't want to hurt you."

"What do you mean?" James asked. I didn't reply. I'm guessing he understood what I meant, so he nodded. "Right. Kendall."

I sighed. Kendall and I hadn't talked for a few days. He hadn't even tried to call me or text me. We hadn't fought or anything, but I wondered if he was mad I didn't talk to him first.

"I'll break up with him." I finally said.

"What?" James asked, clearly shocked. "No, no. Don't. Kendall will hate me more than he probably already does."

"He doesn't hate you, and he won't hate you. Kendall really believes in the saying 'if it's mean to happen, it'll happen.' so don't even worry about that. It's time anyways. It hasn't felt right to be with Kendall for a long time."

"Oh..."

"James, please don't worry."

"I won't."

"Good." I smiled.

The next day, I called Kendall and said we had to talk. We decided to meet in the park.

"Hi..." I said when I saw him.

"Hey..." He smiled lightly. He had something on his mind. I could see it in his eyes.

"I don't think this is working out..." I finally spit it out.

"Really? Cause I don't either." Kendall chuckled nervously.

"Oh..." I laughed a little. "So, it's a mutual agreement?"

Kendall nodded.

"That was easier than I expected."

"Same here."

"So, friends?"

"Friends."

"Alright well, see ya later Kendall." I smiled.

"Bye Logan." He waved and smiled back.

When I returned home, I laughed at how easy it was. Kendall was a great friend. I wonder why he wanted to end it, but decided not to linger on it. My thoughts almost immediately traveled to James.

James. James and his beautiful hazel eyes. James and his perfect hair. James and those gorgeous long eyelashes and that beautiful smile. Those rosy cheeks because of the cold weather. James was truly gorgeous. Every time I saw that beautiful face, I realized that I truly did love him and I would for the rest of my life, even if something happened and we couldn't be together.

It hurt thinking about not being able to be with James. I wanted him more than anything.

I called James.

"Hello?" James answered.

"Hey. Kendall and I broke up."

"Really? That was fast."

"I know. He agreed with me on the break up."

"Oh... Does he know you like me?"

"No, but he'll find out eventually. Are you gonna try to be friends with him again?"

"Yeah, definitely. It'll be nice to be able to have another friend again."

"Yeah. Well... I decided something."

"What'd you decide?" James asked, clearly interested in what I had to say.

"That I am in absolute love with you."

"Really?"

"Yep."

"Good. Cause I think... no, wait, I know I'm in love with you too, Logan."

I smiled. "I'm glad. Wanna hang out tomorrow?"

"Of course."

"Good. I don't wanna go back to school next week."

"Me neither." James groaned. I chuckled.

"Wait, what day is it?" I asked, realizing I hadn't been keeping track of the days.

"December 22nd. Why?"

"Holy shit, Christmas is in 3 days."

James laughed. "Yep. Well, if you're not spending Christmas eve with your family, would you like to spend it with me?"

"Sure, my family is mostly into celebrating on Christmas day anyways."

"Sweet. See you tomorrow then."

"Alright, see ya. I love you."

"Love you too. Bye bye."

After I hung up, I felt happier than I had been in months.

Alright well hope you loved the cheesy-ness in this. Lol, next chapter will be up tomorrow night.

There might or might not be many updates next week. Lots and lots of homework.

But I'll make sure you guys get at least 3 updates next week, not including the one tomorrow. (Obviously, since tomorrow's Sunday haha)