Mercedes' POV
"Do you believe in fate?" He asked me as he smiled awkwardly.
"I thought I did." The song started and I took a deep breath.
Saturday Morning 10:52 am
Mercedes' Jones House
Bold is Mercedes
Italic is Sam
Normal is Both
That's how much I love you (yeah)
That's how much I need you (yeah yeah yeah)
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No...)
I had my eyes closed and his touch on my hand made me open them.
But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did
We faced each other, and only sang to one another as we were holding hands. I tried not to make the tears that were accumulating inside me come out.
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong
I nodded in disapproval, making him remind me of his lips on Santana, even though I could never say mad at his Trouty ass face.
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
He came closer and let go of my hand to stroke my cheek.
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you
I stepped back and turned forward to see that everyone wasn't clapping, they were all surprised, they had their mouths wide open, especially Kurt.
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oh..)
You completely know the power that you have (power that you have)
The only one makes me laugh (one that makes me laugh)
He winked at me and smiled his crooked smile.
Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right
I faced him and the tears I tried holding in fell onto my cheeks. He came closer and just stayed there as we sang to each other.
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl (noo…ooh)
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so
He grabbed my hand as he pulled me in closer.
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
I buried my head down because I didn't want him to see me.
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...
He grabbed my chin up to meet his gaze. He wiped my tears away.
Yeah... Oh...
That's how much I love you (as much as I need you)
That's how much I need you (how much I love you)
That's how much I love you (oh need you)
As much as I need you (I need you)
We were in kissing distance from each other. We had our head on top of the other.
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy (hey)
He grabbed my waist with his free hand and I grabbed his shoulder with my free hand. He was singing to me with such passion and truth and it made the tears come down faster.
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (girl)
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so (ooh...oh)
We once again placed head on top of one another with our eyes closed and stayed like this until the song ended.
And I hate that I love you so.. so... whoa…oh
A loud raspy cough brought us back into reality, brought me back into reality. We backed away from each and turned to see Santana with her hands on her hips pissed off, as I looked so embarrassed and ran off the stage and headed up stairs.
"Mercedes!" I heard his voice call to me as I closed my bedroom and fell on the floor and muffled my mouth so they wouldn't hear me cry.
Saturday Afternoon 12:01pm
Mercedes' Jones House
After a couple of hours, I heard a knock on the door that made me jump because I was still leaning against the door.
"Mercy." It was Kurt. I quickly stood up and opened the door. He saw that my eyes were red from crying, so he came towards me giving me a warm hug, which I really needed at the moment. He release me from his bear hug and entered the room closing the door behind him.
He grabbed my desk chair as I sat on my bed. I wiped my tears off with some tissues I had.
"How could I have been so stupid?" I looked at him as he smiled his embarrassed smile.
"What are you talking about Kurt?" I fixed my hair because it was covering my face and I hated that feeling.
"Mercy, do you really think you can fool me, fool everyone after that little performance with you and Sam?" I groaned and placed my hands between fingers. He leaned in closer and stroked my hair in comfort.
"How long have you had feelings for him?" From my face buried into hands, I looked at him and sighed.
"Since Night of Neglect. The song I sang was…for him. In my heart, I set it out to be for him."
FLASHBACK TO NIGHT OF NEGLECT
"Ladies and gentlemen, Mercedes Jones." His voice made me shiver. This song was for him, even though he would never see me like I do to him. The curtains raised and I saw him sit next to Santana. I started the song slowly.
Ain't no way for me to love you,
if you won't let me.
It ain't no way for me to give you all you need,
if you won't let me give all of me.
I looked at him for a split second and he was smiling at me, his smile was wide and made my stomach do a back flip.
I know that a woman's duty is to help and love a man,
and that's the way it was planned.
Oh, but how can I, how can I, how can I
give you all the things I can,
if you're tying both of my hands?
Oh, it ain't no way (ain't no way).
It ain't no way (ain't no way).
I closed my eyes and then opened them to see Sam staring at me, looking at me like I was someone special, someone beautiful.
It just ain't no way, baby (ain't no way).
Ain't no way baby (ain't no way).
It ain't no way for me to love you,
if you won't let me.
Stop trying to be someone you're not.
I saw he tensed up and looked at Santana then back at me. He knew I meant it.
How cold and cruel is a man
who pay too much for what he got?
At this point, I didn't care if someone notice, I was singing my heart and soul to Sam.
And if you need me to love you, say, say you do.
Oh, then baby, baby, baby don't you know that
I need you.
Oh, Oh, it ain't no way.
I'll tell you that it ain't no way,
It ain't no way.
It ain't no way, baby, no.
It just ain't no way.
I saw Kurt and Blaine staring at me with fascination, Artie was praising in the air, Mike and Tina were cheering.
It sure ain't no way
It ain't no way for me to love you,
if you won't let me...
Once I finished everyone stood, but it was him who was the first to stand up. He was clapping loud and everyone else joined them. I laughed and got off the stage.
FLASHBACK ENDS
"When I was singing it to him, it felt right to me. But I didn't make it obvious I was singing to him." He laughed at me and hit my shoulder playfully.
"Yes you did Mercedes. You couldn't stop staring at him. Occasionally you stared at Blaine and I, and then you stared back at him." I laughed softly and grabbed his hand.
"Kurt…I don't know what to do." He smiled and grabbed my cheeks and placed them in between his hands.
"Tell him how you truly feel." Oh god Kurt, if only you knew we sort of slept, without having sex, on my bed. I knew I had to tell him what happened; once I did he nearly fell off my chair.
"Mercedes Marie Jones! You shady lady." I pushed him playfully.
"Kurt you're making me feel worse than I already feel." He laughed and fixed his composure, because he was to laugh and scream at the same time.
"That is why you ask me that question. You don't know what to do, and honey let me tell you I've never been in this situation before. My best friend slept with Sam Evans." I shushed him since he was loud.
"Shut up Kurt. The problem is that he is still with Santana, after sleeping with me." He was trying to laugh; I punched him hard on his shoulder.
"Ow!" I rubbed it and looked at me.
"This is serious Kurt! We kissed and after telling him to get lost, because I thought he was going to reject me he practically slammed open the door to…well you know what happened, and wipe that grin or I'll punch you in the face this time." He squealed and protected his face with his hands.
"Not the face!" He managed to make me laugh. We heard a knock that made us both jump. It was loud and rough.
"It's probably Santana! What if she found out what happened?" Kurt laughed as I stared at him with disbelieve. Didn't he care his best friend was going to die in a few seconds?
"You gave her a taste of her own medicine, I'd say you're my hero." I laughed and he started headed towards the door.
As he opened both Kurt and I were surprised who it was.
"Sam?"
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