AN: I would like to thank all of you for still wanting to continue reading this story. Thank you to all of you, who have sent me reviews, added this story to your favourites and alerts and then also added me to your favourite authors and put me on alert which is a good thing as I have had some more ideas for stories which I hope to create once this story is finished.

I will apologise now for all of you who are wanting/expecting to see a POV from one of the children but when I tried to write one I just couldn't get it to flow very well so I have decided that you will get them as either another story made of random POV from various points in this story or will add them onto the end of this one when it is all finished.

For now though on with the next chapter.


Chapter 14

Shane's POV

I'm so glad that Claire has now allowed me to come back home. However right now though I would rather prefer that I was allowed to be in bed with her as well so that then whilst we slept I could be able to hold her tightly in my arms and know that she was also safe and sound.

In saying that thought I was glad that she has now allowed me to sleep in one of the spare rooms instead of one the settee which is not good as it can become very uncomfortable very quickly. It's great for sitting on but when you have to sleep on it, it can become very cramped and then painful when you wake up from sleeping at a weird angle all night long.

But I did manage though to get through the night and then when I woke up the next day it was surprising to me that I was the first one to wake up (something that never normally happens) but then I hadn't looked at the clock before coming downstairs. When I did, I then saw that it wouldn't be to long before everyone else was awake and so decided that I would do something that I had not done for a while now which is to make breakfast for everyone.

I don't know why I haven't done it for a while and made Claire do all of the cooking all of the time especially as I actually did have some lessons and then tried to do well at it so that Claire could take a break now and then from doing it all of the time but for some reason it didn't end up working out that way.

I didn't know what to do for breakfast so I then raided all of the cupboards and the fridge to see what to make which was what made me realise that I don't know or remember what they like to have for breakfast so I decided that I would make something that I had made before Alyssa and Daniel appeared and knew that people really liked then which is home-made waffles.

I think this is what made people then start to come running down the stairs. Although they were a bit unsure as to what was going on as I could tell that they were being cautious as they didn't know what was going on and I could hear Ethan leading the other children downstairs.

"Do you guys also smell something?"

"Do you think it's Mum?" I really need to do something like this more often if they will only now associate Claire as being the only one who ever does all of the cooking and not remember that I can do and have also done things like this as well in the past.

"I'm not sure. She doesn't normally in the mornings when we have school."

"Well what about Dad?"

I carried on cooking and pretending like I had not heard what they had been saying when they then did eventually come into the kitchen.

"Dad what are you doing?"

"Making breakfast. You can have cereal or I have also made waffles."

"Really. You haven't done that in years for us." Abigail told me looking very happy.

To then prove my point I put the plate of the ones I had already made along with the syrup on the table ready for them to dig in if that was what they wanted which they did decide to do.

After a couple of minutes I did notice that Claire had yet to come downstairs which I thought was odd as normally she would have come down by now to make sure the children were getting ready for school. I would have thought that she would be down by now and thought it strange that she wasn't.

"Do any of you know where you Mum is?" they were all too busy eating to listen to me. I guess that I will defiantly be making these again as I now plan to take more on responsibilities around the house and so Claire won't have do as much work then.

I left them then happily eating away to try and find Claire and see if she was still asleep as I knew that she would not have left for work yet if she was to be expected at work today .

And I found her still all tucked up in bed fast asleep.

I had forgotten how adorable she looked as she was sleeping. Not having to care about anything or worry about things that she would be worried about during the day.

It did feel odd for me to see her fast asleep with all of the sheets twisted on her side of the bed but for then the only thing to have then been touched on my side was a pillow which Claire was holding close to her and my mind was then hoping that it was due to me not being there to hold her close to me during the night. It also felt strange to watch her sleep as we weren't officially back together and I kept thinking that I should just leave her in peace until she was ready to wake up but for some reason I just couldn't get myself to leave her regardless of the consequences.

Which then turned out to be a bad idea as Claire woke up a couple of minutes later and was not expecting for me to be there watching her sleep. Now that I think about it does sound a bit creepy that I was quite happy to just there and watch as she slept not knowing that I was in the same room as her.

"Shane, what are you doing here?" All I could then think when I saw her was how she still looked really adorable after she had just woken up.

"Umm, I was just coming to see if you were awake yet or not and to then let you know that breakfast was ready. I did make some waffles but I think that the children may have just eaten all of them. They seemed to really like them."

"Are you trying to butter me up and impress me with getting up early to make these specifically?" She asked me whilst looking as though she was not going to believe the words that were to then come out of mouth.

"No, actually when I did wake up I hadn't looked at the clock to see what the time was and so was then surprised to see no one down yet and for it to all be dark. When I did then look at the clock to see what the time was I saw then that people would then be coming down shortly after me and so I decided that I would try and make something for breakfast but then I realised that I didn't know what people liked to have for breakfast so then I made something that I remember making before but did then tell them they could have some cereal if they wanted to have it."

"Okay I will admit that I am impressed. Will there be anything left for us to eat?"

"I think so. I mean there is always cereal if anything else." I replied trying to lighten the mood. "I might go and see how the children are getting on."

I then left her alone to see if the children were finished eating and to make sure they were going to get ready for school.

"So what is the verdict on breakfast?" I asked the children when I entered the kitchen.

They told me that they really liked and I was also asked if I could then make them tomorrow which I told them I would think about as I didn't know what Claire would think about me doing that. Then I told them to go upstairs and get ready for school which then made them all start to whine.

"Dad do we have to"

"Yes you do. Please don't start being difficult for me."

I did then manage to get them to get ready but then again I did have to get Claire to help me as she had come down just as I was trying to get them to get ready she was also there to help me get them out of the door and into the car with the minimum of difficulty.

After then dropping the children of at school I asked if Claire was meant to go into work today or not.

"No not today. I have been allowed to have some time off due to what has recently been going on between us over the past couple of weeks and then when I made you leave and I'm not sure when they expect me to come back to work. I expect that they will tell me when they want me to be back at work."

"So I guess that they will know about all that I've done to you and our family." She just nodded. "I plan to start making some changes about that starting today. I know one place where I went wrong which is that I had quit my job which then meant that I was then home all of the time which I guess then lead to me then becoming bored once all of the children then started school and then when we were given the news about you and any future children it just sent me into a downward spiral," at this point we were at home "I was in a downward spiral that I then couldn't get out of and then screwing up everything which led to making everything become all of the more worse. So I now plan to get a job once again but this time think about what it is I want to do so that I then won't become bored of it. What that then means I will do as a job I don't know but I do know that I will look into getting one and then until I do get out of the house more often so that I don't then become stuck inside all day everyday and then make sure that I'm home to spend the evenings with you and the children." That, I think, has been the longest time that I have ever spoken for but I just wanted to tell her and start to prove to her that I am serious about being her with her and our children.

"I'm glad to hear that you want to make changes and have plans and direction but what I want you to know is that though I'm happy for you I want you to be doing this and making these changes for yourself so that you can be happy with your life." She had placed her hands on each side of my face so that I would then have no choice but to look into her eyes. I have a habit of not looking into her eyes when we have conversations like this. I'm not sure as to why I do this but I think that it might have something to do with me becoming afraid of what her reaction will be and so now she has learnt that she has to actually make me look at her.

The rest of the day was quite peaceful for the two of us.

When it came to lunchtime it became interesting and it made me realise that perhaps I am trying to get things back together too quickly between Claire and I.

Claire was asking me what it is that I would have liked to have for lunch but I had wanted to be the one to make lunch so as to give her a break from doing it, which is also what I told her.

"And what is it that you would be making for us?" she asked as I think she was unsure as to what to make of me suddenly wanting to do something that I have not been doing for a few years now.

"Whatever you would like to have?" I told her honestly knowing that she would not ask for me to make her something difficult.

"What are you up to?" Definitely suspicious as to why I am acting like this and I guess I could see where she was coming from as it has been years since I have acted like this. I'm not even actually sure as to why I have this almost feeling or need to cook or do things that I haven't done for a while. Perhaps it has something to do with the wakeup call that Claire gave me. Maybe I'm doing too much too soon in trying to get Claire and I's relationship back to where we were before all of this started.

"I'm not up to anything. I just wanted to do something for you that I haven't done for a while that I had been planning on doing, started to and then for some unknown reason stopped doing so. I had actually learnt how to cook so that I could spend time cooking and so that you wouldn't have to do it all that often and have breaks from it after being at work all day. I know that it has been a while since I had last done anything like this and now I would like to get back into doing it again. Am I trying to do too much too soon?"

"I'm not sure but though whilst I'm glad you are trying to make changes I do think that for right now it might be a bit too much. I mean if you really want to be different I guess that you could help me with lunch and with dinner if you like." I think that she was just trying to appease me.

"That sounds good."

It did though turn out to be fun cooking with Claire instead of trying to take the task off her hands. When we were making lunch together as the children were not here it did give her a chance to act like how we were at the start of our relationship and then when Claire had become pregnant for the first time.

I just do now have to keep making sure that I don't try to push to do too much too soon and just let things happen in their own time.

Claire's POV

After getting past thinking how strange it feels to not have Shane lying there next to me in bed I was expecting to spend the night sleeping very little but then it felt like before I knew it I was waking up with no memory of ever falling asleep. I didn't even remember rolling over during the night to grab one of the pillows from Shane's side and hugging. I think my body wants for Shane to be back in bed with me and was so trying to compensate for his loss but a cold pillow does not make up for the loss of a warm body.

In saying that though I will admit that I did feel very comfortable that I then did not want to move from this spot even though I knew that I would have to at some point very soon as I would have to make sure that all of the children are getting ready for school and also have had breakfast as I don't know what Shane will be doing or how much help he will be to me with the children.

Then I got this strange feeling, almost as though someone was watching me which scared me as I don't know who would want to watch me whilst I sleep.

I was then surprised (not sure if it is pleasant or not) as to who it was. I had thought that it was going to be one of the children but instead it turned out to be Shane. This I had not expected as I had told him that for the time being I didn't want him to be in the same bedroom for the time being.

"Shane, what are you doing here?"

"Umm, I was just coming to see if you were awake yet or not and to then let you know that breakfast was ready. I did make some waffles but I think that the children may have just eaten all of them. They seemed to really like them."

"Are you trying to butter me up and impress me with getting up early to make these specifically?" I asked him due to it seeming a bit strange that after going through years of him not doing a lot around the house to doing a bit of cooking for breakfast all of a sudden.

"No, actually when I did wake up I hadn't looked at the clock to see what the time was and so was then surprised to see no one down yet and for it to all be dark. When I did then look at the clock to see what the time was I saw then that people would then be coming down shortly after me and so I decided that I would try and make something for breakfast but then I realised that I didn't know what people liked to have for breakfast so then I made something that I remember making before but did then tell them they could have some cereal if they wanted to have it."

"Okay I will admit that I am impressed." And I was due to him just deciding to make some form of breakfast and not knowing if it would go down well or not. "Will there be anything left for us to eat?"

"I think so. I mean there is always cereal if anything else." I think that he was trying to make a joke but it wasn't all that funny and pretty much like how all of his jokes are. "I might go and see how the children are getting on."

And then he left me alone.

During the time that I was alone I managed to leave the bed and get dressed but then felt really tired once again and wanted to just get back into bed but knew that Shane and all of the children will become worried about me if I do not go downstairs.

When I did make it downstairs I arrived at just the right time as I could the children whinnying about having to go to school and him then asking (although it sounded to me like he was begging them) not to be difficult for him.

Eventually we managed to get the children into the car without much fuss and then dropped off at school.

It was then that Shane asked if I was to be in work today or not.

"No not today. I have been allowed to have some time off due to what has recently been going on between us over the past couple of weeks and then when I made you leave and I'm not sure when they expect me to come back to work. I expect that they will tell me when they want me to be back at work."

"So I guess that they will know about all that I've done to you and our family." I just nodded my head. "I plan to start making some changes about that starting today. I know one place where I went wrong which is that I had quit my job which then meant that I was then home all of the time which I guess then lead to me then becoming bored once all of the children then started school and then when we were given the news about you and any future children it just sent me into a downward spiral, I was in a downward spiral that I then couldn't get out of and then screwing up everything which led to making everything become all of the more worse. So I now plan to get a job once again but this time think about what it is I want to do so that I then won't become bored of it. What that then means I will do as a job I don't know but I do know that I will look into getting one and then until I do get out of the house more often so that I don't then become stuck inside all day everyday and then make sure that I'm home to spend the evenings with you and the children." I do think that this has been the longest that I have ever heard him speak in one go but I do feel as though he is making all these changes and doing all of this for me instead of doing it for himself.

"I'm glad to hear that you want to make changes and have plans and direction but what I want you to know is that though I'm happy for you I want you to be doing this and making these changes for yourself so that you can be happy with your life." I told him whilst making him look me in the eye. I would like to know the reason as to why he does not like to look at me in the eye when we have conversations like this. Maybe he has now become scared as to the reaction that he will see on my face.

The rest of the day was then spent quite peacefully. When it did get to the moment for making something for lunch it did become interesting as Shane decided that he would also like to be the one to make this as well. I was not sure as to what to make of this.

"And what is it that you would be making for us?"

"Whatever you would like to have?"

"What are you up to?" I was suspicious as to what he was up to and wanting to know why he was all of a sudden willing to do this for us after years of not doing it when he had a t first been willing to do some of the work.

"I'm not up to anything. I just wanted to do something for you that I haven't done for a while that I had been planning on doing, started to and then for some unknown reason stopped doing so. I had actually learnt how to cook so that I could spend time cooking and so that you wouldn't have to do it all that often and have breaks from it after being at work all day. I know that it has been a while since I had last done anything like this and now I would like to get back into doing it again. Am I trying to do too much too soon?"

"I'm not sure but though whilst I'm glad you are trying to make changes I do think that for right now it might be a bit too much. I mean if you really want to be different I guess that you could help me with lunch and with dinner if you like."

"That sounds good."

It was fun cooking with Shane which is something that I have never done before. In the past it was either Shane or me doing the cooking until it then became just me doing all of the cooking. This is actually something I would be willing to do again if he really wants to.

After lunch I began to feel tired once again and even then struggled to keep my eyes open. We were sat in front of the TV at this point and I was willing to allow Shane to hold me against his side.

"If you are tired Claire you can go to sleep and I will wake you up when it is time for us to go and get the children from school." He told me whilst pulling me closer to him and placed a kiss on my head which did make me feel more comfortable and safe that I no longer started to fight my eyes closing.

I think I need to do something different at night if the same thing happens tomorrow and I know what it is that I need to change which is to allow Shane to come back into our bedroom and this time to stay. It is going to happen at some point. When it would have happened I don't know.

I guess we will just have to see what now happens over the next few days.


AN: So what did you think of it? Good? Bad? Needs work doing to it? Let me know what you think.

I have written most of Chapter 15 and will hopefully be posting the next chapter no later than Sunday.