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Chapter 18

Shane's POV

A week has now passed and there is still yet to be any change from Claire. Our new baby daughter is improving with each and every day but Claire just remains to look as though she is still sleeping. I don't think that I can ever remember a time when I've been going from feeling despair from the lack of improvement from Claire to then becoming very happy at seeing our daughter improving continuously improving.

There has however been a hard point with our daughter in that I've been asked for a name for our daughter so that the birth certificate and some things can be filled out but I just can't bring myself to do it. I need for Claire to help me with it as we have never officially or fully decided on a name. For all of our children Claire and I have chosen the name for our children ad so if I were to choose her name by myself I would feel as though it is the end of everything between Claire and I and something that I never want to even think about happening.

I come to the hospital everyday whilst the children are all at school to see if there has been any change with Claire and I think that I might be annoying the doctors as it is always the first thing I ask about when I see the doctor and sadly they always tell me that the answer is no. I see my daughter for a bit as well and the somehow get myself to leave to pick the children up from school where we then come to the hospital for a couple of hours so that they get a chance to see Claire after which we then head home for dinner and to get any homework finished as I don' think that they should be allowed to stop our regular routine due to Claire being in the hospital it has just been changed slightly so that they are allowed to see Claire.

I really want no need for Claire to wake up and for it to be now. Our lives are really looking bleak right now and Claire is the only think that can brighten them up again.

One Week Later

Another week has passed and Claire is finally starting to look as though she will be returning back to the land of the living. She has started to regain some of the colour back into her cheeks and doesn't look as though she is on the verge of dying.

Then on Sunday I was certain that I had felt her hand twitch once or twice but when I would then call her name trying to coax her into waking up but nothing more would then happen and I would then think that it was just mind mind making me see what I wanted to see.

That was then until today. I had felt her hand twitch and then tried to get her come back to me but once again got nothing back so I went to check on our daughter where they did ask me if I would like to hold her. I really wanted to say yes but thought that Claire should be the one to hold her first but I was exceedingly happy to hear that she was well enough to be held and then it increased even more when I headed back to Claire's room.

When I reached Claire's room I could hear movement coming from within. I walked inside and saw that it was Claire making the noise.

"Claire, Claire can you hear me?" and her eyes then at last opened.

"Shane?"

"Oh Claire you have no idea how happy I am now." I placed kisses all over her face. "I will be right back; I'm just going to fetch a doctor. You have no idea how happy I feel right now. I'm glad to see you awake again."

I found the doctor who came and checked on her and found her to have nothing physically wrong with her but did decide that it would be best for her to remain in the hospital until the weekend. For the moment though I just could not be happier as Claire has now finally opened her eyes. It though did then mean that I felt reluctant to leave her but I had no choice as I did need to collect the children from school and they need to know the good news.

When I saw all of the children coming out from school I didn't care if it embarrassed them in front of their friends but I did yell for them to hurry up and get in to the car.

It defiantly wasn't appreciated by Ethan.

"Dad was the really necessary?" we don't really talk to each other anymore and I think that has been the first thing that he has said to me since yesterday morning when he ask if he could meet up with his friends on Saturday

"Yes as I wanted to get you lot into the car quickly as we need to get to the hospital." I then debated with myself as to if I should tell them the truth about Claire or if I should just let them wait until we get there.

I decided then that I would make them wait. I know that it could be seen as cruel as they know that when we get to the hospital it is to visit Claire and they think that Claire is still yet to wake up. I then began to think what I would do if Claire had not woken up yet. Then I began to think what should tell the children if Claire has fallen asleep as I have made it seem as though something important has happened and then I may not have anything to tell them like they think I do.

Thankfully today was appearing to be my lucky day so far.

When we reached Claire's room I opened the door slightly so that I could see if she was still awake which she was and even sat up and smiling when she saw my face.

"Okay children I would like for you to do me a favour and try to not become too loud, please?" I asked and then opened the door so that they could go inside.

"Mummy" I heard the children cry out when they saw that Claire was now awake and even sat up in bed.

I felt so happy seeing all of the children smiling after all that they have been put through over the last two weeks. All that I feel needs to happen now for it to be complete is for our last child to join us but I don't know when that will be but I doubt that it will be for much longer.

I also know that I have still got a lot of information to give Claire regarding what has happened to her and also about our child but I think that it can all wait until tomorrow when the children will be at school and also it will mean that she is not getting over loaded with information straight after having woken up after two weeks of being unconscious. I also do not know how well or badly she will take the news and I would then hate for it to be the cause of making her worse than she is now.

It is really good to see everyone so happy and for Claire to be awake. Our child is improving with each and every day that is passing and hopefully tomorrow Claire and I will actually be able to give her a name that she really does need.

For now though I am just going to bask in the happy feeling that I have right now knowing that things are getting better each day.

Claire's POV

I don't think that I have ever felt pain like this before. I can remember vaguely being surrounded in darkness before but never have I felt pain on this level before.

The last thing that I remember is lying in bed at home bored out of my mind then feeling a lot of pain and there being blood and right before I passed out I saw Shane's face with tears in his eyes begging for me to keep my eyes open.

I hate it when he looks to be on the verge of crying or even just crying as it mean that he is scared or worried about something (often me) and I hate that he is feeling that as he has been through so much all of his life already and since he has then been with me it has been fairly often.

I wish things like this would stop happening to me as I hate the way the pain and things make me feel and I also have children now, two of which are still fairly young and could become sacred about what has now happened to me. Then Shane has had enough pain in his life even before he met me and I just seem to be making it worse.

I don't like the way I am now feeling right now. I'm still surrounded in darkness but then also I don't feel any pain. I actually don't feel anything. I'm stuck lying here seeing nothing and feeling nothing as well. It is making me feel very scared and very lonely. I really don't like this as I don't know what is now to come or will be happening next.

Thankfully though after what felt like a long time I could hear something. At first it was just a sort of humming or buzzing noise but after a while to cleared up slightly and I could make it out to be Shane talking to me.

I did now just wish though that I could fully hear what he was saying to me as I would like to know what has now happened to me and what has also happened to our child. Also how much the others are aware of what has happened to me and what Shane has been brave enough to tell them about me.

I'm feeling really bad now as I'm still surrounded by darkness, cannot move but now I can no longer hear anything and also the pain is starting to come back.

Thankfully a couple of minutes later I found that I was able to move my fingers a bit. Then I found that if I tried harder I could then move more parts of my body and I could hear Shane calling my name.

"Claire, Claire can you hear me?" I managed to open my eyes to see myself looking at the ceiling of a room at the hospital.

"Shane?" I turned my head to the side and so that I could look at his face.

"Oh Claire you have no idea how happy I am now." When he saw that I was now awake he started to place kisses all over my face and sadly though not on my lips. Then again maybe it was as it might lead to something and I don't know what sort of damage I'm suffering from and it could then make it worse. "I will be right back; I'm just going to fetch a doctor. You have no idea how happy I feel right now. I'm glad to see you awake again." He placed a final kiss on my forehead and left.

He then came back with the doctor who told me that I was healing up nicely and then that I would be staying here for a couple of more days just so that he can make sure that I'm healthy enough to go home. I did ask him what was wrong with me and had happened as I would really like to know. I am also aware of the fact that I am now no longer pregnant and I really do want to know what has happened to our child and also what it was that we had.

All that I was able to get out of him was that we have had another daughter who is alive and that I do need to be careful of the stitches in my stomach. Nothing else but I could tell that there was a lot more for me to know.

I was also told that the child has not yet been given a name yet as Shane was asked but he didn't want to without me having a say in it. He then also told me that he did fear that if he were to give her a name that it would mean something bad in terms of me as we have always decided on the name together but I wouldn't have minded if he had done it without me but I guess he needed to use this to give some peace of mind.

I was apparently out of it for two weeks which it didn't feel like to me and I would love to never go through it ever again.

Not long after that (or at least that was how it felt) Shane had to head off to collect the children from school and to bring them here. He told me that he had been bringing them here to visit me every day after school for a couple of hours which I liked as it meant that they could get the chance to see me every day but hate it as I just feared about what they thought was/would happen to me.

When Shane left me I felt really bored and I did then start to hope that he would not end up being too long as I would hate it if I could end up falling asleep and then waking back up once everyone has left again. I also really want to see my children again if it has been a couple of weeks since I have last seen them. I wonder if Shane will have told them that I was awake yet or if he will just be bringing them here to be surprised at seeing me now awake.

Some minutes later he did return and poked his around the door, I'm guessing so t hat he could check to make sure that I was still awake. This made me smile again as it meant that my children were just outside the door. He had kept the door open slightly which then allowed me to hear what he was saying to them.

"Okay children I would like for you to do me a favour and try to not become too loud, please?"

He then opened the door properly allowing them to enter and making them clearly happier than they were before

"Mummy" I heard then cry out to me.

It was great seeing them all smiling at me and having them all try to tell me all about what they have been up to which I have missed out on. It was great seeing them all smiling and getting excited about filling me in on their lives.

Sadly I did start to feel tired which Shane could see was happening also and so tried to get them to leave so that I could get some sleep.

Daniel however didn't want to leave me.

"No, I want to stay with Mummy." Daniel cried and clung onto my arm. I could see Shane about to intervene but I thought that it might be best for me to be the one to do it.

"But Daniel, I'm afraid that you can't stay here as the doctor's wouldn't allow for you to stay here with me. If you go home now for something to eat and sleep the sooner you will wake up be going to school and coming back to see me and tomorrow I may even be able to stay awake longer but Mummy needs to sleep now and if we are lucky I may even be allowed home on Saturday which is in only four more days from now. Wouldn't you prefer that?" I asked him and when I could actually see him thinking it over and released my arm and allowed for Shane to pick him up.

"Do you want me to bring you anything specific from home tomorrow?"

"Would you be willing to bring me some books along with the clothes tomorrow please?" I could do with having something to do whilst I'm stuck here and at any point left on my own.

Shane placed a kiss on my forehead and guided all of the children out the door. Daniel gave me a sad little wave as he left and looked sad once again to be leaving me here.

I wish that I was back at home as well now as I do hate to sleep in hospital beds, they are never as comfortable as the one at home and Shane is never here to wrap me up in his arms all safe and warm.

I do hope that it will be Saturday when I will be allowed to go home and also that when tomorrow comes someone will give all of the missing details that I really want to know about what has happened to me and our daughter.

The next day I woke up really early, I think, and then thought what can I do now? Hopefully when Shane comes today he will have remembered the books so that when he has to leave again I won't be bored as I will have something to do.

A couple of minutes later a nurse came into my room to check on me.

"Good morning Claire."

"What time is it?"

"It's eight O'clock. How are you feeling this morning?"

"Alright, there's no pain yet. What time do the visiting hours start?" I'm really bored and need something to do or have someone to talk to.

"They start at nine o'clock. Your family has been normally coming by about ten but they might be here earlier than before." Great so I've got about an hour or two to fill before they will be arriving. Maybe this can give me the chance to see my daughter. I don't care if I don't know all of the details just so long as I can now see her with my own eyes.

"Would I be able to go and see my daughter or be allowed to speak to someone who can give me all of the missing details that I'm yet to be told about her?"

"I'll find out for you. I'm not sure if you should be moving around yet so I'll go and fetch the doctor." And she then left me and once again I have nothing to do.

Soon after that a doctor came to see me.

"Good morning Claire. How are you feeling?" Are people going to be asking me that question every time they see me? If they are it is really going to grate on my nerves pretty quickly.

"I feel fine. Would I be allowed to see my child this morning? I woke up yesterday and I haven't seen her and I also have not been told anything about her apart from that she is alive. I want to know all of the full details and see her with my own eyes." I had folded my arms at this point trying to look as though I was not going to be taking no for an answer but I think it came more off like I was looking like an unhappy child. I didn't really care as all I wanted was to see my daughter and get all of the facts that I need to know about her.

Thankfully I didn't have to get into an argument and all that I had to agree with was to be in a wheelchair and I didn't care about that as I was getting to see my daughter.

It felt strange to see my child the way that she was. She had wires attached to her and then a couple of machines which I would love to be told about what they were doing.

"Am I allowed to touch her?" I asked the nurse who was there.

"Of course you can." She seemed happy that I would like to do that as well.

"Hey baby girl, I'm your Mummy. I'm sorry it has taken me until now to get to see you and also that it is due to me that you are in here. If only I could have been that little bit stronger you wouldn't be her right now and you might still be inside me until you were fully ready to be out."

"It's not your fault Claire." I turned to see Shane standing there watching me. I didn't even hear him arrive.

"Yes it is. I hadn't been able to get the pregnancy to last the full term and I was unconscious for two weeks and she is now in here." I couldn't help the way I think and mu eyes started to fill up with tears and Shane was now right beside me.

"Claire, look at me. None of this is your fault. You didn't make yourself ill; you didn't make yourself start to bleed putting you in a lot of pain and then passing out from the loss of blood. I don't want to hear you saying that it's your fault anymore." I can still think it though can't I. "Or think it. I know you Claire and I'll know when you are thinking it as your face gives you away." Damn. Well I still don't believe him but I might one day, hopefully soon.

"She doesn't have a name yet does she?"

"No, that's something that we could think about. Got any ideas?"

"Not really. Did you bring a name book with you?"

"Yep it's back in your room along with two people who would really like to see you."

"Let's head back down there then." I told him whilst giving our daughter one last look.

Back at my room I was really happy to see who had come to see me.

It was Eve and Michael.

"I'm so happy to see you are now awake Claire." Eve told me and giving me a hug.

"I'm happy to see you are going to be alright now as well. Shane won't have to worry about you so much now." Michael said whilst hugging me as well.

"I'm always going to worry about her, her and the children." Shane told us.

"That's true. Anyway you two came on a good day as we are finally going to give our children a name at last."

"You haven't chosen a name yet?" Eve seemed surprised at hearing that. "Wasn't she born two weeks ago?"

"Yep but we couldn't decide on a name before she was born and whist I was unconscious Shane couldn't bring himself to do it by himself."

We then spent the rest of the afternoon trying to decide on the name and we went through a lot of name and neither I nor Shane could picture calling our daughters that name but they could be good middle names and then we finally decided on a name for her:

Sarah Eve Collins.

We chose Eve for her middle name as Daniel was given Michael as a middle name and it seems to flow nicely as well.

It feels really good to have finally settled on something and then we spent the rest of the day talking and then were joined by the children when they had finished school and it felt really nice to have fun whilst stuck here.

I do feel now as though my life is verging on perfect and that all that is missing is me being free from this place and then being able to hold Sophie in my arms.

Maybe I will get to do that over the next couple of days.

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