EmPOV
The light pouring in through the window wakes me up.
I'm a little thrown by the body snuggled up next to me because I know Bella is away this weekend.
It's when I feel your dick poking me in the ass that I remember what happened last night.
And I remember all of it.
I bolt out of bed, whispering to myself "What the fuck have I done?"
My movements startle you and you sit up in the bed.
I don't know what this means for me…especially because as my eyes look you over I feel my cock getting hard.
"Em…" You start to say, but at this point I just want to put this all behind me.
"I'm not gay Jazz." I tell you in a stern voice, all the while my subconscious is screaming at me for lying…to him, to myself, to Bella.
My words hurt you, I can tell. You have the same look on your face as the day you watched your dog get run over by the garbage truck when we were in high school.
"I don't love you like that Jasper. I love Bella. I'm marrying Bella." I continue to say, and now I don't know if I'm trying to convince him or myself.
"I think it's time for me to go," you whisper. You sound so broken, so hurt…I didn't mean to hurt you like this…but we can't happen.
I don't know what to say so I stay quiet as I follow your lead and throw on some clothes.
I stop you before you leave.
"This doesn't change anything Jasper. You're still my best friend, my best man…you always will be."
I can see you trying to fight the tears, and what you say to me as you walk out the door cuts straight to my heart because I don't know where to go from here.
"Don't try to fool yourself Em. There's no going back…this changes everything."