EmPOV
I should have listened to you.
You told me that as much as you wanted me, that my wedding day wasn't the time for us to be sneaking off for a bathroom blowjob.
I begged you, pleaded with you until you agreed.
I needed to feel our connection, and in my haste, I forgot to lock the door.
I needed to know that what we have is real, because marrying Bella today made me realize a lot.
I wanted it to be you who I was taking vows with.
I wanted it to be you who I was declaring my undying love to in front of family and friends.
As soon as the words man and wife were said, it all came crashing down.
I loved Bella, but I wasn't in love with her.
At least not anymore.
I truly believe I was once, but things change, people change.
Bella said I had to choose, and her anger, hurt and betrayal made you realize you deserved more than just being my dirty little secret.
I said I loved you both.
You told me to sort my shit out, and figure out what I wanted because I couldn't have you both.
I'm proud of you for standing up for yourself, for forcing me to realize what I want.
You awoke in me who I was truly supposed to be.
The only problem was that in the process of finding myself, I think I've lost everyone and everything that matters.