JPOV
I knew fooling around in the bathroom during your wedding would lead to trouble.
I never expected it to be Bella though who caught us.
Damn Alice and her big mouth.
Maybe it's for the best though.
Seeing Bella's reaction, as much as I hated hurting her, made me realize that I deserved better too.
No more coming second best.
I love you, and you say you love me…so you need to start acting like it.
I know it's not an easy decision, but it's one you need to make because you can't have us both.
Bella knew all along about my feelings.
She told me she knew from the minute you told her I was gay, could tell by how I looked at you.
She just never thought I'd act on them, hurt her the way I did.
She said she considered me a brother, someone she could trust.
I didn't apologize.
I don't regret my actions, because that would mean regretting you.
It's the timing of when it all happened that I regret.
And the fact that by standing up for myself and forcing you to choose, that I may have lost you for good.