A/N: Hey guys please don't hate me. So, I have no problem begging other authors to write new chapters, but it is a lot harder than it looks!!! I am so sorry. I have been trying to be better, but I want the chapters to be relatively good. Sorry about all the grammar and spelling mistakes, but I try my best. I someone really wants to be my beta then just send me a private message. I have no problem with having a beta, but if you do want to be my beta, know in advance that I am very inconsistent in my updates. I sadly do not own Glee (insert sight here).

Rachel and I entered her house and sat on the large, beige couch in her living room. It had been years since I'd been here. I had barely interacted with her outside of school since I started 9th grade. The only other time I saw her was at the few gatherings our two very Jewish and very rare families. My mother had always pictured us getting married. I secretly always thought that we would get married too.

Then Finn moved in next door to me. I was so jealous as I watched her look at Finn with moony eyes, totally in love. That is why I just stopped hanging out with her one day. I ignored her constant calls. My mom had gotten me a cell phone for my thirteenth birthday, because I always got annoyed when she would listen to my conversations with Rachel on the other phone. I threatened to quit talking to Rachel if she didn't stop. There was no way that was happening and she knew it, but she still got me a phone. Rachel got her very own phone line in her room. She also got a pale pink phone to match the different shades of pink splattered across her room.

One day, I was sitting on the couch moping while drinking a big grape slushy. I knew it was Rach's favorite and wanted a sense of her for just a little while. I was walking towards the door when I saw it was Rachel. I sighed. Opening the door slowly, I noticed I still had the slushy in hand. When I opened the door the entire way, I saw Rachel's wannabe boyfriend Finn behind her.

"Hello Noah." Rachel said softly, almost inaudible to human hearing.

"Uh, hi" I had said in return, scratching my neck nervously.

"I wondered if you wanted to play with Finn and me in a respectful game of hide and go seek around the neighborhood." Rachel said in a now brave voice.

That is when I lost it. She and Finn in the same sentence was just too much. It hit too close to home. "No Rachel, I don't want to hang out with you and your new best friend!" I said this as I threw the slushy in her face, throwing away any reminder of her at the same time.

I continued the slushy throwing in high school. Other football players threw slushies at random losers, but I only threw them at her. She always held her head high as she made her way to the girl's bathroom.

I made a friend in Finn, only to check on Rachel through him. I started calling her Berry to distance myself from her. This was basically shot to hell when I joined glee. She always looked so sad and vulnerable. No one else noticed. To them, she looked extremely brave and happy. I knew differently.

I continued to distance myself, but lately she has been giving me these looks, like she needed me. It turns out she did.

Rachel had been asleep on my lap, while I sat on the couch for an hour. She began to move before opening her big, brown doe-like eyes. She gave me a faint smile.

"Hey, will Mr. Sheu be home soon?" I asked her, not wanting an awkward situation to come up.

"He hardly ever stays here. Most of the time he is at Ms. Pillsbury's house. Today he might stay here though." She answered automatically

"Alright hon, why don't we watch some Pride and Prejudice? Get some Colin Firth action up in this place." I said as I got up to make popcorn.

She grinned back and agreed. We could talk about things later. For now, I was just going to let her relax.