Title: It's All Your Fault
Author: Trance-Faith
Rating: M – suicide and suicidal tendencies.
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Disclaimer: I do not own Grey's. All characters in this story sadly do not belong to me; they're simply being borrowed for a little while, and then will be returned. This story was not written for profit and no copyright infringements are intended. Also the song words used in this fanfic are Paramore's "emergency" and Pink's "It's all your fault". Though this chapter will only use Emergency.
Author's Note 1: In terms of Grey's storyline – this is set after their break up, in 7x07. There is mention to the events in my fanfic "It's Enough Now" and also forfils certain people's wishes for that story– I would advise you read it!
Author's Note 2: I love that so many people have favourite me as an author and this story – keep it up! But I'd like comments too, just telling me what you like, what you don't, and if there is something you'd want to see!
Author's Note 3: I just want to say a huge thank you to those who do comment, offer support and suggestions to my stories. If it wasn't for those people who make the effect to comment I wouldn't be writing this story, in fact "It's Enough Now" would have been a one shot if it wasn't for them. The main people I want to shout out to are, Shamelmuts, gangrenes, funkyshaz57 and last but not least in any shape of form, my own fangirl y0ungalaska.
Beta: No beta was used while I wrote this, so all spelling and grammar mistakes are my own.
Reviews: Are much wanted please!
"I've seen you cry way too many times, when you deserved to be alive" – Emergency by Paramore.
Arizona's POV
Why she had ever agreed to leave the confines of Callie's warm, snug apartment she didn't know. Actually she did. Their journey into the Narnia like weather was worth it, watching the Latina half dance in around her as she collected what she had called "the best snow" for their snowman. Callie was smiling a smile which if she wasn't careful would melt the cold white stuff that they were both standing on. Arizona was stood basically watching the woman work, she had offered a few times to help, but was politely declined. Though occasionally Callie would ask for help in collecting the snow – as long as Callie had deemed it fit for their "perfect" snowman. If she was honest she missed this kind of thing, and hadn't done it since her brother was alive. Despite being in their twenties when Timothy was alive, every Christmas they could, both the Robbins children would visit their parents and end up making snowmen (and women), having snowball fights, and making snow angels. When they were younger Tim had take it upon himself to pour snow down Arizona's jumper, and run off leaving her screaming and trying her best to "run" away from the coldness that had melted on her skin and then trickled its way down her back. The chase and snowball fight that had followed was the best, longest and most tiring one they ever had.
The blonde jumped slightly as strong arms wrapped themselves around her waist from behind, and Callie's head came to rest on her shoulder. "Penny for your thoughts?" the raven said in a soothing voice. Arizona leant back slightly into Callie's embraced before responding, "Just thinking about Timothy". She felt the younger woman nod slightly. Callie knew it was difficult for Arizona to talk about her brother, so when he did come up in conversation, she wanted for Arizona to push the conversation forward, something the blonde was thankful for. "We used to play in the snow when we were kids, and when we weren't", she chuckled slightly. Sobering suddenly she simply said, "Our children will never know their Uncle Timothy", her voice caught slightly, and Callie's arms tightened further still around her. "We'll tell them about him, they'll know him, all about him", Callie soothed; turn her head slightly placing a gentle kiss on Arizona's cheek. The blonde couldn't help but pull a face as she turn her own head to look at the taller woman, "your nose is cold". Callie rolled her eyes "Ruin a heartfelt moment then" she said with an exaggerated sigh, but was followed by a soft smile. Arizona smiled slightly, "thank you". "Not a problem", Callie whispered, turning her head into the crook of Arizona's neck, causing the blonde to shiver slightly. "Just he won't be able to teach them how to make the best snowman", the PEDs surgeon stated. The Latina make a disgruntled noise, her head rose again, "What about him?" she pointed at the mostly fully formed, three balled snowman. The blonde couldn't help but smile slightly, "He's okay I guess". Callie's mouth fell open wide and a disembodied gasp fell from it, "Hey! He's perfect", she state in disbelief. Arizona couldn't help but chuckle at Callie's competitiveness, "Not as perfect as you", she said in her sweetest voice, flashing the younger woman her dimples. Callie moved her face closer to hers, seemingly to place a kiss on her lip, "hmmm nice try", she said just before their lips meet. Arizona let out a high pitch squeal, as she felt what felt like ice had just been place on her back. She realised Callie had snaked her hands under her thermal jacket. "Callie!" she shouted, pulling away from the other woman, "that's just mean!" Callie was literally crying with laughter, bent slightly at the waist, holding her hand to her stomach. Arizona shot her a glare, which only made Callie laugh harder.
The blonde ran the seven paces between them, and pushed into Callie, causing her to lose her balance and both women ended up on the floor. The look of shock that took over the raven's face caused Arizona to chuckle slightly, before she remembered she was annoyed at the woman beneath her, and the glare returned. "Don't laugh at me Calliope", Arizona warned. A slightly bemused look fell over Callie's face, however she couldn't help herself and she rolled the smaller woman over. Arizona for the third time that day let out a small shriek, "Callie its cold", she continued on in a high pitched voice. "That's what you get for picking on my snowman!" Callie shot back. "Callie get off me, its cold", it felt like tiny knives were stabbing her in her back, as the snow melted and soaked through her jacket. "Hmmm I like it when you're demanding", the Latina's eye brow shot up in her signature move, which usually would have caused the blonde to go weak at the knees. "Callie…" she growled, half warningly. Callie sighed but stood up, not looking Arizona in the eye "fine" came her short reply. The younger woman walked over to her snowman, adding the details like stick arms, and his face, without another word, leaving Arizona to stand up by herself. To say Arizona was confused was an understatement. Shivering slightly, she stood and watched as Callie took off her own scarf and wrapped it around the snowman's neck. Standing back she took out Arizona's phone, which she had stolen from the blonde earlier, from the depths of her jacket, and took a picture of her masterpiece. Had Callie actually taken offence at her words? She had only been joking, and yet she still hadn't even looked her direction, and now she was walking back towards the apartment building. "Callie?" the blonde asked, hoping Callie would turn back around, but all she got was a kinder grunt noise. Arizona jogged the distance between them, grabbing the other woman's arm. "Hey, I was only joking. He is pretty awesome, definitely the best snowman I've seen. I could never make them very well, when Tim and I used to make them, so yeah, it's pretty awesome", she said at a rush. Callie's eyebrow shot up again, and it was only then Arizona realised that Callie was grinning at her. "I know you were. You coming? Get us out of these … wet clothes", Callie's voice dropped octave. Arizona couldn't help but let out a disbelieving sigh, but said, "Well you did promise to warm me up". Callie's eyes sparked slightly as her tongue trailed across her bottom lip, "I did". Arizona heard the other woman chuckle slightly. She realised she had been staring at Callie's lips, and couldn't help but mirror her action. Blushing furiously at being caught, she gave a nervous chuckle. Callie grinned back at her with a mischievous glint in her eye. "Whaaat?" Arizona dragged out in what could only be said as a whine. "Nothing", Callie grinned even wider, "You'll just have to catch me first". With that the taller woman was off, running back into the building before Arizona could register what she had said. When she had, she ran after the raven haired woman, cursing as the elevator doors closed with Callie inside. Arizona then took the stairs, running as fast as she could, slipping every so often as the water of on shoes slipped on the floor. Her momentum and motivation waned with each floor, and by the time she reached the fifth floor, she had stand holding the stitch which had taken residence in her side. She hadn't beaten Callie to the apartment, and now she was in pain. After taking a few minutes to catch her breath she walked the small distance to Callie's apartment.
Opening the door she saw there was a trail of clothes "Hansel and Gretel" style from the front door to the bathroom. Grinning, she turned locking the door, and half ran towards the bathroom, when she heard the shower running and Callie humming some song she only knew from when Callie showered. Walking over to the bathroom door she opened the door quietly and saw Callie had her back to her. Arizona quickly but quietly stripped her clothes, shivering slightly. Sliding the door close she climbed inside, pressing herself into the back of her girlfriend, causing Callie to let out a small gasp in surprise and at the coldness of Arizona's flesh. Callie turned to face the blonde, and slid the door behind the smaller woman shut. "You're so cold" Callie stated it seemingly quite shocked. "It's all your fault", Arizona replied her teeth chattered together. Callie looked momentarily guilty, before smiling, "Hmmm true but it means I can warm you up now". The Latina wiggled her eyebrows, causing the blonde to shake her head slightly. Callie's arms wrapped themselves around the smaller woman, causing both of them to shiver slightly at the change of temperature. Arizona felt herself being spun slightly and her back came in contact with the tiled wall, which didn't feel as cold as it usually did, though the blonde still let out a small gasp. Callie instantly latched herself on Arizona's collarbone pushing her entire body into the smaller frame, saying "Don't want you going anywhere". Arizona's hand rose, tilting Callie's chin upwards so they were eye to eye, "I said earlier, I am not going anywhere". The look on Callie's face wasn't of happiness or, it was sadness, hurt, betrayal, anger. "You promised", came Callie's broken timid voice. It was then Arizona realised they were stood in the airport, fully dressed, yards away from each other. The unabashed tears fell down Callie's face, unashamed of who could see. "You promised, you wouldn't leave again!" this time Callie's voice sounded harsher, full of contempt. "You promised!" her love's voice resounded in her own head, causing her to jump.
Waking with a jerk, her heart pounding in her chest, as she struggled to breath, Arizona looked around searching for Callie before she remembered. She was here in Callie's hotel room, completely alone.