Bella's POV
"Felix can I ask you question?"
"Well you already did but go ahead kid."
"Why me?"
"What do you mean, why you?"
"Why was I chosen to be brought here?"
"That's not really something I can explain."
"What do you mean?"
"Well you see kid; I don't really know why you were chosen. The Masters don't make it a habit to explain their actions. They are more doers then explainers."
"Oh ok. I just seems odd to me that they would choose me when they could have someone much prettier and better than me."
"Hey now don't talk like that. You are one of the most beautiful people I have ever seen enter this dungeon of Darkness"
"Ya maybe before, I was beautiful, but now I am nothing but a monster who would make small children scream and run away in terror."
"Stop it kid and I mean it. You were beautiful then and you are more beautiful now."
"It's just hard Felix. I don't know how much longer I can last."
"I know kid, I know. Well I have to get going and do some stuff but I'll be by later ok."
"Ok Felix. Hey can you see if Heidi will come by later too?"
"I will try but I think she is still away on her mission. She isn't due back for a few days."
"Oh."
"Hey don't be so glum. I may not have her looks but I am the smarter one."
"Ya right! She so has you beat."
"Your just saying that because you're a girl."
"That's right and girls always stick together."
"Hum I see how it is."
"Don't worry Felix you will always be my love crumpet."
"Oh yay I have been reduced to the status of tea snacks."
"You know I love you."
"I love you too kid but now I really do have to go."
"Hey be safe. Come back to me."
"Every time."
Felix left in a blur of color and I am once again alone. I pick myself up off the floor where Felix and I had been sitting and make my way over to my bed. Sleeping peacefully atop the bed is my baby boy; Binx. Heidi said that I needed companionship for when they were away so she got me a cat. Binx is black with white just under his chin. He is a bit of a grouch but loves to sit on your lap. I climb up and curl my own body around him and begin to pet his soft fur. He does not wake up but an echoing purr starts up that reverberates around the room. It's moments like this that I feel at peace; just me and my baby.
It's the middle of January now and life has once again gained a routine. Every few days Felix will arrive to administer a sedative that knocks me out before he takes me to see the Masters. This is to ensure that I don't attempt to escape. I wouldn't last two minutes alone in these halls let alone escape. Once Felix has brought me to the "playroom" I usually wake to find myself in the company of at least one of the Masters. Sometimes they like to play with me together or get impatient and start early. Once done Felix and Heidi take me back to my room and tend to my new wounds. I am always unconscious or so out of it that they don't bother sedating me. Scares crisscross their way across my body as a constant reminder that I am nothing but property in which they can do with as they please. The old scars have healed leaving white lines behind in memoriam, while new angry pink ones rise above the old to scream at me that I am useless and nothing but a vessel to be used. Heidi tries her best to make better but without proper medical supplies there is not much she can do to prevent the scares.
Heidi and Felix have become my only light in this dark world besides my baby Binx. I was hesitant to trust them at first but both have shown such kindness to me. They have become like a brother and sister to me. They bring me food and clothing. They really care for me. They try to visit as often as they can but they have their own duties they must perform and sometimes it will be several days between visits. Heidi once brought me a scarf from one of her missions. It is a beautiful blue grey color and is made of a very soft woven cloth with tiny knotted tassels on the ends. It is the kind that I can drape over my head and around my shoulders several times. I wear it every day to cover my head, since the masters decided my hair was unnecessary. Well I do have hair but Aro decided that it was a bother for it to be long so, they had it buzzed. Well at least they can't pull it anymore. Caius was disappoint at first since he loved to drag me around by it but has since found that he can better grip my head when he, as he so eloquently loves to call it, skull fuck me. I imagine to the outside world I would look like a cancer patient with my lack of hair and emaciated appearance. Felix tells me I am beautiful, but I know he is just trying to be nice. He and Heidi try to get me what I need to survive but in the end, though know they fear it is not enough. I know they try to hide it but I see the way they look at me when they think I'm not looking.
They know what is happening to me physically but not mentally. I keep that to myself. I feel myself slipping away slowly. Each session sends me hurtling further and further into the darkness. During the sessions I end up blacking out as my mind races to protect itself from the twisted horror the Masters seem to thrive in. Maybe blackout isn't the right word; it's more like my mind runs away to a safe place. It takes me back to the forests of Washington. It's always foggy and I cannot see more than ten feet in front of me. I used to be happy there but lately it's changed. The woods have become…I don't know how to describe it. It's like they are hiding something; something just beyond my comprehension. It has also gotten harder and harder to come back. I used to awaken safely back in my room with Heidi and Felix with little effort, but now I have to fight my way back. Every session locks me further and further into the recesses of my mind. Sometimes it is hours before Felix and Heidi are able to revive me. Heidi thinks it due to my weakened state but I know better. I don't tell them the real reason. They already worry enough about me without adding mentally disturbed to the list. I don't know what frightens me more; the terror world of the masters or the labyrinth of my mind…
"You know thinking too hard will cause wrinkles."
I jumped out of my skin at the voice and Binks hisses his displeasure at being awaken so rudely. I look up to find my favorite female vampire looking back at me.
"Heidi!"
"Hey doll."
"Felix said you wouldn't be back for a few days."
"Ya, well I got called back early."
"Is something wrong?"
"Nothing you need to worry yourself over. I just wanted to stop by real quick and say hi before meeting with the Master's. I needed to see your beautiful face, before I went off to those fuckers."
"Thanks Heidi. I have missed you."
"I missed you too, love. I'll be back after my meeting."
"Bye."
She looked down upon me and I gave her a weak smile. She had such a sadden look upon her face. She stood up and walked across my room. She gave me one last sad smile before disappearing out my door. She is worried about something. Felix seemed like he was hiding something earlier. The energy around Volterra feels super charged. It's as if impending doom is knocking on the front gates and demanding I be turned over. I just wonder which foe will find me first. I fear it is the one in my head that will win the war for my soul.