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It felt great to have my life back, to feel alive again, my actions had worried and hurt some of the most important people in my life I had a lot of apologizing to do.
"Mom, would you mind if I went out for a little while?"
"Where are you going?"
"I should go to AliRose and apologize to Alice and Rosalie."
"That's a great idea; they were very worried about you."
"I feel badly about all of this, but I just couldn't react, I couldn't make myself move…"- Memories of the feelings that had hold me to my bed filled my mind, but I quickly pushed them away.
"Well that's behind out backs now, let's not talk about it ever again. You know I hate that, we should look forward. So if you want to keep your job, I think you should go there. Do you want me to go with you?"- This is why I loved my mom, she never dwelled in the past, she always forgave and moved on.
"Thank you, but I should do this alone."
"Will you be late? Is Edward stopping by there?"
"I don't know…would it be ok, if I did?"
"Just let me know first."
"You know, you are the best mom ever."
"Yeah…yeah…"- She said rolling her eyes.
I went upstairs and changed into something more professional, I fix my hair a little bit, but looking at my reflection I doubted it would improve anything, I looked awful. I got my keys and went downstairs, I kissed my mom and left.
"Wait up, Bella."- I heard Jacob's voice behind me, and my blood started to boil. I couldn't forget that things would have never gotten so far if Edward hadn't seen that stupid kiss. I turned around fuming.
"What do you want Jacob, I have to go somewhere."
"Are you meeting him?"- He said in a cold voice, making angrier.
"It's none of your business, what do you want?"
"I just wanted to see how you were, and from what I see, you are a lot better."
"Yes, I'm much better."
"Are you ever going to tell me what happened?"
"No, probably not."
"Did it have to do with the mystery guy?"
"Yes."
"Humm…he must be a real jerk to make you suffer like that." I felt my heart bit faster with anger.
"No, you're wrong, he is a great amazing guy. You're the jerk, Jacob; in fact it was because of you that things got so bad."
"Ah…because of me? Right…You are so blind."
"Yes because of you, and that stupid persistence, that will never take you anywhere."- I could see that my words were hurting him, but he needed to know his actions made me suffer.-"He came by to talk to me and saw you kissing me, you moron. So if you want to blame anyone, blame yourself because you were a part of this too."- I said coldly, his mouth dropped in surprise. I turned my back and opened the car door, I was about to enter but he held my left arm.
"Let go of me Jacob, I don't want to talk to you right now."
"Bella, I'm sorry…I just…"
"Please just let me go!"
"No, you have to listen to me."
"Let me go!"- I shouted.
"No."
"If you don't let go of my arm right now, you'll be very sorry."
"What don't tell he'll come and smash my face? Uh… I would love it if he did."- With that I lost it, and with thinking took my fist to his nose that started to bleed with the impact. He froze stunned by my reaction, I turned around, got on my car and left not turning back to see if he was ok. When I started to calm down, my hand started to hurt, really bad.
I got to AliRose and used the keys Alice had given me, the place was really quiet, and they were already building the catwalk for the opening. I went upstairs, opened the door to the reception area where I worked and saw their office door open. I felt a little nervous, I actually I felt embarrassed for the way I acted.
I came to the door and looked inside, they were working at their desks, so I knock on the door, and the pain I felt in my hand send tears to my eyes.
"Bella!"- Alice said running in my direction and hugging me.-"You're up, it's so good to see you."
"Cinderella is out of bed, did the prince kiss you?" - Rosalie said smiling.
"My God! You look even worse than he does. What happened? We were freaking out."- Alice said.
"I'm so sorry. I just got really down, I couldn't get out of bed…it was really childish of me to do that, and neglect my responsibilities here."- She took my hand and led me to the couch and we all took a seat.
"Don't be silly, Bella. We understand."
"Yes, honey, we've all been there."- Rosalie said with a sympathetic smile.
"I feel really bad, I'm really sorry. I'll understand you if don't want me to continue to work here."
"Don't be silly."- Alice said.-"Could you, please just tell us what happened? Edward didn't say a word."
I told them everything that had happened since Friday night, about how we let our fears and insecurities take over; I told them everything, even about punching Jacob."
"You really punched him?"- Alice asked laughing.
"Yes, I lost it. But I probably did it wrong because my hand hurts like hell."
"I can't believe you did that."- Rosalie said.-"Oh…Emmet is going to love that."- I could almost imagine all the jokes he was going to do about this.
"Let me see your hand."- Alice said, I extended my hand and we both gasped when we saw how swollen it was.-"You need to go to the hospital, I think you broke you hand."
"Really?"- I said studying my hand.
"Yeah, look how blue it's getting. You need to go to the hospital."
"No, I hate hospitals."
"Don't be such a baby, come on I'll drive you."
"Can I go too?"- Rosalie asked.
"Sure but, why?"
"Are you kidding? I want to see the look on Edward face when he finds out."- I rolled my eyes and let them take me to the hospital. On the way there they told me about all that had happened in my absence. Alice had talk to Principle Clapp who was very happy about AliRose using the football players, on the other hand the players took a little more convincing to do, in fact that had to use the cute girls card. Alice and Rosalie would be going to school tomorrow to finalize things and to choose the players.
We got to the hospital and Alice didn't take me to the Emergency, she walked into another building, we went up an elevator into a reception area.
"Hello, is Dr. Carlisle available?"- She asked a nurse.
"I'll check."
"Thank you. Tell him that his daughter is here."
"Oh…"- The nurse said and got on the phone.
"Alice, you don't have to bother you dad, I'm sure he has like really sick people to help, this is nothing."
"Stop whining. My dad is the best doctor I know, and you are my friend, I'm not going to let some amateur look at your hand."
"This must be my lucky day."- Carlisle said from behind us and we all turned around. He was wearing blue scrubs and a white doctor overall on top. I had to admit he look really hot.-"Three beautiful women waiting for me."
"Hi, Dad."
"Hello, princess."- He said hugging and kissing her.-" Hello Rosalie…"- He kissed her cheek and looked at me, then he came closer and hugged me.-"It's so good to see again, Bella. We were worried about you."
"It's nice to see you again too, Carlisle."
"So what brings you all here?"- He asked and Rosalie laughed.
"Oh, Bella injured her hand punching a guy."- Rosalie said and Carlisle looked at me with the most surprise look on his face.
"Don't worry it wasn't Edward."- Alice said.
"Oh good…let me see it."- He said and extended my hand for Carlisle to examine it.-"Come with me, we better get an X-Ray done."
"We'll wait here."- Alice said.-"Do you want me to hold your purse for you?"-She asked.
"Thanks, if my mom calls, please answered it and let her know I'm fine."
"Sure."
I fallowed Carlisle trough a long corridor he put his arm around me and led the way, when we got to the X-Ray place he came close and talk to a nurse explain what he needed and she smile melting, and promptly did what he asked.
"Let's take a seat over there and wait for the X-Ray."- He said after it was done, we sat down and I felt his eyes on me.
"You don't have to do that, I'm sure you have more important things to do."
"Family always comes first."- He said and I rejoice at the sound of those words.-"So, does your being here mean, you and Edward worked everything out?"
"Yes, we have. I'm sorry for worrying you, I feel really bad about it."
"So, you are back together again."
"Yes."- He sighed of relief.-"We still have a lot to talk about; it was just a huge misunderstanding, we let stupid things get in our way."
"I see…well I'm glad it is over. I don't think either of you could take it a lot longer. Have you been eating properly? You look worse than he does."
"So, I've been told, we'll be fine. I'm really sorry, I just overreacted, I was so afraid of losing him…that I ended up pushing him away."
"Well, the important thing is that it is over. You and Edward are only starting your relationship; you're still getting to know each other…a strong and lasting relationship takes hard work."
"I know, I'm just really new at all of this."- He smiled.
The nurse came back and handed him the X-Ray, we went back through the corridor and he took me to an empty room, and looked at the X-Ray and told me to sit on the empty bed.
"Well, it has a minor fracture, nothing serious."-He said smiling.-"You must have hit the guy really hard."
"Well, he really deserved it."
"I'll just put a splint around it for a few days. Wait here I'll be right back."- He left and a second later, Edward came flashing in the door and put his arms around me holding me tightly.
"Are you alright? Why didn't you call me?"
"I didn't want to worry you. How did you know I was here?"
"I called you and Alice answered and told me what happened."- He pulled away and looked at me appraising me, from top to bottom, like he would do with a car or something, checking if there was more damage.-"Did he hurt you? Did he try anything?"
"No, we were just arguing and I lost it…and I punched him in the nose, there was blood all over his face."- He smiled.
"I can't believe you did that. I wish I had been the one to do that, it's been on my mind for the last couple of days. Can I see your hand?"- I lifted my hand and showed to him and he grimaced when he saw how ugly it looked.
"It looks a lot worse than it actually is."- I said.
"I should just go there and teach him a lesson."
"I think I made my point clear."- He laughed.
"Yeah, I think you did. I'll make it all better."-And he gently kissed my hand.-"There, now it will feel a lot better."- How cute…I missed him so much; those four days without him seemed like months.
"Hum…You know I really hurt right here."- I said pointing to my cheek and he gave me that crooked smile I absolutely loved and kissed my cheek.
"Anywhere else?"-He asked grinning.
"Right here."- I said pointing to the corner of my lips and he kissed me and my body reacted instantly to his touch.
"Anywhere else?"- He said with uneven breaths.
"Yeah…just a little to your right."- I whispered and he kissed my lips gently, and it felt so good. I needed him so much… I used my good hand to pull him close to me…I was desperate for his touch.
"Ahem…"-Carlisle cleared his throat to get our attention, we turned around and he was standing at the door with a nurse. He smiled and winked at us and of course I blushed. Edward moved to let his father work but didn't leave the room.-"Ok…that should do it."- Carlisle said.-"It will probably hurt a little for a couple of days; you should ice it, to stop the swelling."
"Thank you Carlisle."- He came closer and whispered in my ear.
"Thank you for bringing back the smile to my son's face."- Of course I blushed again and Edward smiled, looking at me with his eyes filled with love and adoration.
"Thanks dad."
"You're welcome; it's great to see like this again."
"It's great to be like this again."- He said winking at me.
"You should call your mother."
"I already did."
"Good, I'll see you later, take care of her."
"I will."- Carlisle left and Edward smiled at me and held me in his arms.-"My little tiger…"- he said kissing my hair.
"Can we go? I hate hospitals, this smell makes me sick."
"Sure."
When we got outside, I was surprised to see Emmet and Jasper standing there. When Emmet saw me, he smiled widely.
"Wait to go, Bella."- Emmet said mimicking a punch and Rosalie started laughing; I followed her eyes and looked at Edward that had a really annoyed expression.-"It's great to see you again."- Emmet said hugging me really tightly.
"It's great to see you again, too."- He smiled and it was Jasper's turn.
"Good to have you back with us."
"Thank you."
"You know Bella, next time you punch someone, this is how you do it."- Emmet said, showing me his hand.-"If you put your thumb over your fingers, it will make your punch harder, which will cause more damage, and you won't get hurt."- I had to smile, and Edward rolled his eyes in disparagement.
"There won't be a next time, right Bella?"- Edward said with a very serious face and pushing Emmet away.
"I would be so sure about that."- Emmet said laughing.-"Bella has an inner warrior, she hasn't discovered yet, so it is always good to know what you're doing."- He said smiling.
"Thank Emmet."
"We should go."- Edward said in that stern tone, that made my body crave him.
We walked side by side, afraid that someone would see us, but I could feel that warn electrical current flowing between us, surrounding us. We go on the elevator and he stood against the opposite wall, his eyes met mine, I got lost in the intensity of the feelings I saw. I could hear the others talking but I couldn't understand what they were saying; all my focus was on the gorgeous man in front of me.
I couldn't believe that I almost lost him, I missed him so much, it felt like we had been apart for years and were now finally reunited.
"So, I'm guessing you two need some alone time tonight."- Alice said when we got to the parking lot, and I blushed.
"Yes, sorry."- Edward said.
"I'm happy to have you back to normal."- Alice said hugging him.
"Yeah."- Emmet said.-"I couldn't stand that ugly sad face anymore. Hum… This definitely calls for a hug."- He said putting his arms around his brother and sister.
"Aww…aren't they cute."- Rosalie said with tears in her eyes.
"Ok…Emmet you can let go now, I can't breathe."- Alice's muffled voice said.
"Not just yet."- He said laughing and Edward joined him
"You're going to kill me."- She said trying to move.-"Don't make me take a drastic measure."- Immediately he let her go.-"Thank you."
"So, we'll see you tomorrow, Bella?"- Rosalie asked.
"Of course you will."
"Great!"- Alice said.-"Now let's leave them alone."
We said goodbye and Edward escorted me to his car; he looked around and then opened the door for me.
"So, where do you want to go?"- He asked as he took his seat.
"Home…I want to go home with you."- His eyes met mine and we got lost in ourselves for a long time before he started the car.
We drove in comfortable silence, just enjoying each other's company; Edward took my hand in his and held it all the back to his house…our home. I texted my mom on the way there so she wasn't worried about me.
When we got there, he opened the car door for me again, cupped my face with his hands and smile.
"Welcome home, my love."- I felt my lips open into a wide smile right before he kissed me desperately.-"Thank you for forgiving me, my life has no meaning without you."- He said with tears falling down his cheeks.
"Thank you, for taking me back after I acted like such a child."- Our lips met again, with every movement I could feel that healing again, removing all our sorrow, all the hurt.-"Edward, I don't want us to cry anymore, I don't want the memory of what happened to haunt us, I want to forget about it and be able to be happy and laugh."
"I want that too, I don't ever want to make you cry again."
"Well, that won't be easy…I can be very emotional."- He smiled.
"Ok, only tears of happiness are allowed, deal?"
"Deal. I love so much, Edward."
"I know…and I love you too."
"Wow…that was really mushy."- We started to laugh and it felt so good to be able to laugh again.
"Come on; let's get some ice on your hand."
We went inside the house and Edward got an ice pack that he put on my hand, while we snuggled on the couch, just holding and enjoying the feeling of being in each other's arms again.
EPOV
Bella was sleeping in my arms, it felt amazing being with her like this again, I gently caressed the outline of her face; she was so beautiful, even with her face reflecting all the pain she had suffered in the last few days. I realized that, what people usually say about us only true appreciating something after you almost lost it, was very accurate. That's how I felt, I was noticing things in Bella I had never notice before, the shape of her face, of her nose and lips, her eye brows. It was almost like I was seeing her for the first time.
Looking at her right now, it seemed unbelievable that I had almost lost her without even trying to fight for her, I had been so cowardly stupid. I knew that something like that would never happen again; because I would never let her go even if that cost my life, I had no life without her was sure of that. When we kissed earlier after our conversation, I felt the change occurring in my life, we were now connected deeply, and our lives were now completely intertwined in each other. We had both been so broke and in that healing moment I felt every little piece being put back together, mine's inside of her, and hers inside of me, and now we were the same. The same heart, the same feelings, the same breathe, the same life. One could not survive without the other, this feeling was empowering and at the same time scary…I never felt so strong and so vulnerable at the same time.
She moved in my arms and I adjusted my body to give her room to be comfortable, I saw when her face twitched as she moved her hand and anger filled my body. How I would love to break Jacob's face. How I wished I had been the one to punch him. I smiled picturing my little fragile Bella, hitting him in the nose; it must have been so funny.
She looked so small and fragile; all I wanted to do was to protect her, to keep her safe in my arms forever. But deep down I knew Emmet was right, there was this other Bella inside of her, I had seen bits of her…she was strong, independent, bold and fearless, which made her even more irresistible. My beautiful angel could sometimes become a fierce puma…
I felt tired, but I couldn't sleep, I was so afraid of waking up and realizing I had being dreaming for the last hours, I wanted to be sure she wouldn't disappear from my arms again. So I set there watching her sleep in my arms and filling my lungs with her scent, I felt almost high like if I was a junky getting a fix of my favorite drug.
The time went by, it was dark outside. I moved my body slowly and got up; I was going to surprise Bella with a special dinner. I could almost see the smile she would get on those beautiful delicious lips.
I went to the kitchen and started to get everything ready. I was going to cook Fettuccine with Porcini Mushrooms; I knew she was going to love it.
I set the table elegantly, I smiled remembering when I used to pout every time my mom taught me this kind of thing, she always said « Trust me Edward, one day you'll find a special girl who you want to please, and you'll thank me for this» She was so right; I should call her later and thank her. I decorated the table with candles and rose petals, it looked beautiful, Bella would love it. This was perfect for what I wanted to do.
I did everything as quietly as I could, she didn't wake up, she must have been really tired, I couldn't help but feel guilty about it. But I pushed those feelings away, I didn't want to think about that anymore, I wanted to be happy and make her happy.
"Hey, there."- Bella said stretching and yawning and I came around the kitchen counter and hugged her.
"Hello, beautiful, did you get some rest? How you hand?"
"Yes I feel rested, and my hands still hurt a little…humm…something smells delicious."- She said smiling just like I knew she would.-"How long was I sleeping?"
"You slept for about three hours."
"No… really? That long?"- She said with a sad face.-"I can't believe I slept when there is so much kissing to catch up to."- I laughed, God…I missed her.
"We have time…"- I said kissing her lips gently, and pulling away.
"We could start right now…"- She said putting her arms around my neck and pulling me close to her.
"Very tempting, but…dinner is ready, Ms Swan."
"Ok…but only because I'm starving. I'm just going to wash my face, ok?"
"Sure take your time." – She went to the bathroom and I put some music on, lighted up the candles and dimed the lights, everything was perfect.
"Wow, this is beautiful."- Bella said looking at the table, she looked at me and smiled, just like I knew she would, it made me happy knowing that I knew her well enough to predict her reaction.
"You deserve this and so much more."- She blushed and I went closer to her and caressed her now deep red cheek.-"I missed this."- And I kissed her softly.-"Now, please sit down.
BPOV
He held the chair out for me, like he usually did and kissed my cheek before he set down in front of me. The table looked beautiful; it was really romantic, just what we needed.
The food was delicious has always, and we ate a lot, and laughed when we both finished for the second time.
"It was delicious, Edward. Wow, I was really hungry."
"Me too, I haven't eaten very well the past few days."- We both felt the weight of the guilt and smiled sadly at each other for a little while.
"Edward, I want to ask you something."- I said breaking the silence.
"Anything, Bella, you can ask me anything."- After this morning, I knew it was true, we were so deeply connected that we would do anything for one another.
"Next time you have one of those…mind overloads, I want to be with you."- He thought for a little and said:
"Ok, the next time it happens I won't send you away."
"Thank you."- He smiled and took the plates away; when he came back he pulled his chair close to mine.
"Bella, I want to give you something…"- I was about to protest but he kept going.-"and before you complain about it, let me explain."- He took my unharmed hand in his and looked deep in my eyes.-"I don't want you to ever doubt my feelings for you, I'm only yours. It's like that Neruda poem we read last week "So I love you because I know no other way than this: where I does not exist, nor you, so close that your hand on my chest is my hand, so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep"- I loved when he quoted poetry like that, it was beautiful.-"I never really understood the true meaning of these words until today when I felt my life being connected with yours. You felt it too, didn't you?"- I nodded, not wanting to interrupt his chain of thought.-"So, I want to give you something to always remind you of that moment, that every time you look at it, you know how much I love you, and how I don't exist without you."- His voice tremble with all the emotion he felt and I had to fight my tears. He put his hand in his pocket and took out a little black box and my heart went into a frantic mode. He put the box in front of me and studied my reaction.-"Open it."
My hand was shaking when I took the box in my hand, in my mind there were a lot of possibilities on what was inside that box, but only one truly scared me.
My heart was pounding when I opened the little box, inside there was a heart shaped crystal with a gold chain.-"It was my grandmother; she gave it to me on my eightieth birthday, she said I should keep it until I found someone worthy of it."- My eyes filled with tears again, but at the same I felt a little relieved.
"It's beautiful."
"It represents my heart and my life, which belong to you now."- He said getting on his knees putting the chain around my neck.-"I promise you, I'll do whatever it takes to make you happy, my love."- Ok, so now my eyes couldn't hold the tears anymore, and they streamed freely down.-"Those better be tears of happiness, Ms. Swan."
"They are…thank you, I love it, and I love you."- He put his arms tightly around me with his head resting on my chest.
"I'll never hurt you again…I promise…"- His voice was almost a whisper due to all of the emotion he felt, suddenly he started to cry, his shoulders moving has he let out his sorrow or guilt. I put my arms around him, and hugged him as tightly as I could.-"I'm so sorry…"
"Shh…its' ok, I'm here. I'll always be here; I'm never going to let you go. I love you."- I kept repeating this not just for him but for me as well, and I let him cry, he needed this moment, he didn't tell his family what happen. I knew he had been keeping all his feelings inside. We cried together, holding each other for a long time.
"I'm sorry, Bella. I didn't want to cry like this…I was just so…"- Edward said wiping his tears.
"Overwhelmed?"- I said cutting him off.
"Yes…I actually I think I just felt really relieved. God…I'm such a cry baby. If Emmet saw me like this…he would make fun of me for all eternity."- He said smiling and wiped my tears way.-"I'm sorry."
"No more apologies remember."- He nodded and kissed my lips.
"Bella?"
"Yes?"
"Are we still going to dance on Saturday?"
"Do you still want to?"- He smiled widely.
"Well, it would be a waste not use that beautiful dress, not to mention how disappointed Alice would be."- I rolled my eyes and laughed.
"In that case…we have a date."- He hugged me.
"Thank you."
"Oh…don't thank me yet, you'll probably regret it when you dance with me."- He looked at me seriously.
"I doubt that, but if you are worried about that, we should practice."- He said with a grin on his face. He got up and bowed.-"You'd you give me the honor of dancing with me?"- I laughed.
"It's your feet…"- He rolled his eyes and pulled me close to him.
"Just fallow my lead."- He took me in his arms and we danced, well he danced graciously while I laughed trying to step on his feet.-"You're not even trying, Bella."- He said in that fake stern voice that made me shiver.
"That's because I can't concentrate with you this close to me, and I get confused with what I want to do, and with what I'm supposed to do."
"Hum…you are…"
"Impossible?"- I asked trying to hide my laughter.
"No…I was going to say irresistible."- He said smiling and kissing me, he lifted me and took me to the couch and we got some kissing catch up time, a lot of it. But it was not desperate or needy like before it was slow, deep and filled with love and longing.
"Bella, can I ask you something kind of personal?"- He said looking in my eyes.
"Sure."
"What were you thinking, when you saw that box?"
"Oh…you noticed that."- He nodded.
"It's kind of stupid and embarrassing."
"Ok…"- He said expectantly. I fought to find the less embarrassing words.
"Well, for a minute there, I thought I might have been something more committing."
"Like what?"- He asked amused. He knew exactly what it was, but wanted me to say it out loud.
"Like something that would involve the M word."- He chuckled.
"The M word?"
"Oh…come one Edward!"
"Tell me, please."- It was impossible to hide the amusement in his face. He loved to see me embarrassed like this.
"Yes, like in marriage."
"Oh…"- He got a serious and looked deep in my eyes.
"What if it was? Would you have said yes?"- Ok now the table had turned, I was my time to tease him.
"Well…I guess you'll have to ask me find out."- He smiled.
"Fair enough."- And he kissed me again, once more it was a deep slow kiss, it was not like the passion was gone, oh no, it was right there beneath the surface boiling even more intensely than before, but neither of us allowed it to take control.
"Can I stay here you with?"- I asked kissing his jaw line.
"I would love that, but I don't think your mom would like that very much…"- I pouted.
"Yeah…you're probably right…I just wanted you to be with me."
"I can always break in…"- H said giving me that beautiful crooked smile.
"I would love that."- Our lips met again, and we kissed taking our time to explore with our tongues, with slow movements it was so intense that made my head spin, but I didn't care. And we lost track of time again.
It was almost midnight when I arrived home, my mom was sleeping in the couch waiting for me. I woke her up.
"Hum…what time is it, Bella?"- She asked yawning.
"It's late…I'm sorry, I lost track of time."
"We'll talk tomorrow; my brain is still sleeping so be quiet"- She said dragging herself up the stairs."
I went to my room, took a shower and dressed my pajama, I got my things ready for the next day and tidy up my room a little and turn of the light. Two minutes later Edward was in my room, but this time we locked the door, I didn't want to get scared like last time.
My bed was small, and that meant we had to be very close to each other, but neither of us complaint, in my opinion this was definitely a plus, all though I loved the room Edward's bed had to roll around.
It was amazing to be like this with him again.
"Sleep well my love, I love you."- It was the last thing I heard before falling asleep.
So did you liked it? I really hope so...I'm ging out of town for a few days, so don't expect anything new before wednesday, unless you really, really want it and ask for it :), but i can't promise anything.
Major events coming...The dance...and Spring break...