Josh's P.O.V

Fuck man matt and mike need to mind there own fucking business ,
its fucking freezing outside , did I mention in Vancouver we have the coldest winters EVER ! but I needed some more heroine I was almost out ,
and that wasn't good, I went down to 132 road and turned in the back ally and saw him

'hey! Josh'

'hey man' I spoked to Greg my dealer

'you got the money?'

'yah you got the stuff?'

'of corse I do ' he chuckled

'great ! Here's the money'

He handed me the heroine I gave him the money we said bye and I went my way and he went his.

I walked to the park sat on the park bench , it was probably 11:48pm no one was outside so I didn't care ,

I did what I had to do to get my high, every little thing i went through to get it was worth it, i felt amazing, well actually i felt nothing at all excatly how i wanted to feel, see when i was younger i had depressiong , an eating disorder and became additced to heroine, but my family found out when i was about 17 they told me to either get out or go to rehab so i was 17 i had no where else to go to i went to rehab i was just gonna go to get them off my back, but once i was clean for so long i didnt go back ... until now.. My band Marianas Trench

you may have heard of us , we got pretty big. Some of our songs are based off my problems , and the band may have not known but singing those songs each night, made me realize how much i loved my addictions, how they were the only things i felt like i had, and i still fell like there the only things i have, so everytime i sang those songs it made me wanna go back to them , then it got to the point where i well..did go back to them and here i am now relapsing on all this shit , i kow eventually everyone will find out, give me shit , ill get sent back to that hell hole but i also kinda figured bu then ill be dead anyway , so i might as well enjoy this till then.

I got up off the park bench once the herione kicked in real well and started walking home, im not sure if the guys will still be up and i hope there not, but if they are i dont really give two sense if they are, its just ive never actually been in contact with them when im like this and what i mean by like this is high .