Thank you all for the wonderful reviews, I just can't stop writing more and more to update earlier! one shout out to All the people that reviewed, I love hearing what you have to say.

Dkgors: Look at it like this, I did skip a couple of months between each chapters so Rowan had a fair share of time to really sink his teeth into Renesmee. (Haha!) And make her vunerable. I mean its her first love, if you don't count her confused feelings about jake, Nobody wants to let go of their first love, no matter what they do, because the more time you spend with someone the more you become attached and can't see yourself functioning without them. So you start depending on them. And I know that she's half vampire, but he's a FULL vampire and much much stronger, so fighting with him isn't really an easy task. But in any case, I'm gonna have a couple of flash backs in this story so you can see how she did resist the abuse in the begining, and some other secrets I can't tell you right now! :)

And another thing, I hope this doesn't come off as rude but, Renesmee should be able to protect herself, but this is my story.

this is how I see things happening. It wouldn't be any good If she just punched Rowan in the face, Walked away and had Her family kill him, now would it?

Enjoy chapter 8!

Chapter 8.

Jacob

"I shouldn't have left her! I knew he was hurting her, but I left anyways! God, how could I be so stupid!" I cried to Quil.

"Jacob, man you needed to get some head space. She wont blame you for any of this. Its not your fault."

It was my fault.

I had let my emotions get in the way of protecting her. My imprint

"No, Quil it is! She broke my heart two months ago and did a break dance on it. And I ran away. Just like I did with Bella. I'm such a coward..."

He got up and sat next to me as I broke down.

" Jacob Ephraim Black is not a damn coward. He is the protector and leader of this tribe. You see, the Jacob I know, never gives up, never loses hope, and never, ever backs down from anyone or anything. Just because you were hurt and wanted to escape from it, does not mean you are a coward. It means your human. It means you have emotions. Your a man who likes to wear is heart on his sleeve and trust someone not to break it, and I admire you for that."

Wow.

"What happened to Quil Ateara? Did you actually just make sense, AND make me feel better?"

He laughed and punched my arm. "I know how to be deep when I need to. Your my brother Jake, I don't like to see you like this. Renesmee loves you and was just confused. It was her first serious boyfriend anyways, she didn't know right from wrong in a relationship. So don't blame yourself for what he did to her. Nobody was able to stop it."

I wiped my eye's and sighed.

"Yeah I guess your right. I am never letting her out of my sight again though."

We were both quiet for a minute, when we heard her small, frightened voice.

"Q-Quil?"

Renesmee

I heard voices around me as I started to wake up and realized I wasn't in Rowans room.

I looked around the room and suddenly it all came back to me.

Rowan hitting me. Rowan breaking my ribs. Rowan raping me.

I let out a small whimper and tears rolled down my face. I felt my stomach throb painfully, and went to grab it, when I felt it was all wrapped up.

Quil. He saved me from Rowans.

"Q-Quil?" I called out quietly.

I heard a door behind me open and two people rushed over to me. And one of them was...

"Jake?" I whispered.

He stepped closer to me, "Its me honey, Its me." He said softly.

I reach my hand out and touched his face with my trembling fingers, feeling his warm smooth skin under my fingers.

This had to be a dream, he couldn't be real... Jacob should hate me, and never want to see me again.

"Is this a dream?" I said more to myself rather than him.

He hesitantly grabbed my hand and kissed my palm. Then shook his head.

"Your wide awake."

I couldn't help but feel a small burst of happiness on when he smiled at me.

"Your here! Your actually here! You don't hate me."

"No baby, never. I could never hate you."

As I stared into his brown eyes, I could see all the pain I caused him, yet there was still love in them.

"I love you Jacob." I choked out, tears falling from my eyes again.

"I love you too Nessie. So so much. Is it okay for me to hug you?"

I nodded and he wrapped his strong arms around me and I broke down, weeping about everything. Him, Rowan, what I did to my parents, and my lost innocence.

"He hit me Jake..." I sobbed. "He hit me every single day... I tried to escape, come find you... I wasn't strong enough... He just...Oh god it hurts so bad."

"Shhh, honey. I know he hurt you. But I'm here now, and I'll never let you go." He whispered.

"He took it... He took my innocence and laughed when I tried to fight him." I felt Jacob momentarily tense up, before relaxing again. "I-I... I didn't want my first time to be like that... So brutal..."

"You still have your innocence. He can't take that from you. I refuse to let him have it."

"Jake, I feel so dirty... I should have trusted you... I shouldn't have said what I said to you... I shouldn't have moved out the house."

"Everyone makes mistakes baby. Like Quil told me earlier, this was your first serious relationship, of course you were gonna want to trust him not to hurt you. I'm just sorry that I left you here unprotected. I was just so hurt... heartbroken.. I needed to go away..."

I didn't reply that time, just held onto him tighter, for the first time in awhile feeling safe.

"Ness?" He called quietly after I'd stopped crying.

"Hmm?" I answered sniffling, snuggling tighter into the nook of his neck that I claimed as mine when I was just a baby.

"I hate to bring it up right now, but... when did this start? I know you and you wouldn't have let anyone put their hands on you. This... this isn't you Renesmee."

I took a shuddering breath and closed my eyes as the memory came rushing back at me.

"It was a week after nobody had heard from you..."

LIke any other day, I laid curled up in my bed staring at the ceiling, fight with myself to keep from calling Jacob.

But I felt so lost without him.

Rowan was the only person who could hold me together. And I clung onto him, desperate for just his presence around me constantly.

"Moping again I see?" He had said walking through my bedroom door.

I rolled my eyes and sat up. "I was not moping, just thinking. What are you doing here?"

"I wanted to see you and your parents let me in when they were on their way out. They told me to make this visit quick so you could go join them at the main house."

"Well im really glad you came over I needed you today."

He climbed up on my bed and pulled me to his chest, placing a kiss on my lips.

"And why might that be?"

"I want to talk about Jake." I had whispered.

"Of course you do." He tried to keep his voice neutral, but the annoyed and angry expression on his face said it all.

"Excuse me?"

"You talk about him too much. I'm sick f hearing about him."

"Well sorry for not healing fast enough for your liking. I actually loved him, he was my bestfriend. My love for him won't just disappear over night."

"Your love for him? How can you still love him after what he said about you? He called you a whore remember? That you would get on your knee's and-"

"See thats the thing. That just doesn't sound like my Jacob. He's never said anything like that towards me or about me before. I'm starting to think you just made that up to make me stay away from him."

"Now your accusing me of saying those things?"

I narrowed my eyes at him. "I never said that, but now I'm think about it."

"But you implying it."

"I said-"

"I know what the hell you said." He snarled. "After all the shit I've tolerated from you? Your such a selfish bitch!"

I jumped up off the bed, Furious, and he followed suit.

"You don't have to stick around while I hurt over my BESTFRIEND! Your just an insensitive, bi-polar asshole for saying that to me! "

He back handed me across the face before the words were even out of my mouth good. I clutch my throbbing cheek staring up at him in shock and disbelief.

"Don't you dare speak to me like that again, do you understand me?"

Once it had finally registered in my mind that he had hit me, I jumped up and smacked him back with all my strength.

"DON'T YOU EVER PUT YOUR HANDS ON ME AGAIN! HOW DARE YOU!"

He bared his teeth on me then tried to hit me again but I dodged it and ran downstairs, ready to dial my parents number, when something hit me from behind. I screamed in surprise and struggled to pushed him off me.

"GET OFF ME! I SWEAR I WILL MURDER YOU!" I said jumping to my feet again.

I was scared out of my mind, but I kept a straight face.

"WE ARE OVER! YOU HEAR ME? OVER! YOUR CRAZY AND I SHOULD HAVE LISTENED TO JACOB WHEN HE WARNED ME ABOUT YOU!"

"We're not over until I say we're over." He growled.

Then before I could process what was happening, He had a hand around my neck, the other one wrapped around my hands keeping them painfully tight in his grasp. I struggled and yelled obscenities at him, and tried to kick him, while he just laughed and pushed me up against the wall.

"You are mine, Renesmee Cullen. Nobody will ever take you away from me. We aren't over until I get sick of you."

"I hate you! And we are over! You just wait until I tell my family. You won't even know what hit you!"

He chuckled softly in my ear, then scraped his teeth across my neck, breaking the skin. His venom burned my skin and I struggled harder.

"Oh Renesmee... You tell anyone and I will end your life. Then I will go after your family. Killing them off one by one...Then I would make sure Jacob had the slowest...excruciating death of them all. I would sink my teeth into his neck, injecting my poison in his blood stream-"

"NO! SHUT UP YOUR SICK! STAY AWAY FROM HIM!" I screamed, tears filling my eyes.

He just went on like I never interrupted, "Then I would let him scream in pain for a minute. Then slowly rip off all his limbs, while he begged for mercy. But I wouldn't stop. I would watch him bleed to death and hope he lived a couple minutes after I removed his arms and legs, so I could watch cry."

By time he was done describing Jacobs death, my resolve had melted and I crumbled into tears.

"No please... Just leave him alone... Leave my family alone...You can have me okay? Just please don't hurt him."

He slowly released me and I rubbed my sore wrist.

"I thought you'd see things my way." He smiled.

I glared and spat him. "You are a sadistic maniac!"

He laughed "Goodnight Renesmee, I'll see you tommorrow."

Goodnight? It was 3 in the afternoon.

"Goo-"

Before I could finish he punched me in the face and everything went black.

When I finished telling the story, Jacob pulled me tighter his body and my tears started again.

"Why didn't you fight more baby?" He whispered. "He could've hurt them if he wanted to. Me either. We would've kept you safe."

"I did fight Jacob! Everyday, but he wouldn't let me hunt. He would feed me small amounts of food, but I kept getting weaker and weaker. And he had other vampires watching the houses. He knew every move we made and no one even noticed a thing. He was just to smart for us."

"Why'd you move out of the house?"

I sighed, "He told me too. I refused to do I so he beat me until I agreed. So the next day, after he beat me again and sent me home at two in the morning, he told me to fight with my parents, to cause a big thing and maybe they'd say some stuff to make me want to move out. And trust me, what they said would've made me even if I wasn't in that situation. But anyways, I packed a bag, jumped out my window and ran back to his house. Someone was following me in the woods too, to make sure I didn't run away."

He held me without saying anything for a long time.

"Your gonna come stay with me okay?" He whispered again. His voice was heavy with emotion, I wouldn't be surprised if he was crying. "I know your family probably won't approve, but I'll feel better if your on the rez and under my roof."

I pulled back and did see his eyes filled with unshed tears. I wiped away the one that fell down his cheek, but didn't say anything.

"Okay, I'll stay with you."

He smiled alittle and hugged me again.

...

Jacob convinced Sam to allow Mom and Dad over the treaty line so they could come see me. While we waited, he never left my side, and I was glad because just his presence helped distract me from thoughts of Rowan.

When Mom and Dad finally got to Jakes house they rushed to my side, Mom dry crying and Dad looking furious.

"Oh gosh! Are you okay Renesmee? How could we have not known! We should have suspected something... We are so so sorry..." She cried into my hair.

I held her just as tight as she was me and cried. Again.

"I was so scared that he was going to hurt you guys...I couldn't let anything happen to anyone on my behalf...But i'm so sorry for the way I acted." I said.

"We would've handled it in the best way we could've Renesmee, If a few of us got hurt, nobody would blame you." Daddy soothed.

I pulled away from Mom and motioned for Dad to come closer. When he did I buried my head in his chest and he cradled my head, holding me like I was so fragile.

"I'm still so so sorry Daddy... I should have listened to Jake... I should've trusted him..."

"You should have. But we do not love you any less. We all make mistakes. Its okay." He kissed my head. "We're going to find Rowan and kill him, I don't want you to worry about him."

I nodded.

They stayed awhile longer, just holding and comforting me. Then when they left Jacob carried me to my room in his house, laid me on the bed and place a soft kiss on my forehead.

"I love you so much. If you need anything or just me, I don't care if I'm asleep, wake me up and I'll be there."

I nodded, "I love you too."

He smiled then closed my door, leaving me to my thoughts.

I closed my eyes and all I saw was Rowan. Him beating and raping me. I balled up my fist in anger as tears filled my eyes for the umpteenth time tonight.

I absolutely hated this person he made me. So weak, so fragile, so scared.

I could barely even remember the person I was. Especially when I was with Jacob.

Carefree.

Happy.

Alive.

But now I was the cold shell of the person I use to be. Dead inside. A body with no soul.

I lay there for a few hours, not being able to sleep, so I got up, wincing at the pain in my stomach and wobbling from my other wounds. I walked down the hall the Jacobs room and quietly walked in. I saw him sprawled out all over his bed and gently tapped his shoulder.

"Jake?" I whispered.

Loud snore.

I tapped him harder, "Jacob."

More snoring.

"Jacob!" I almost yell.

He jolted awake and jump up.

"What? What? Are you okay? What happened?" He asked disorientated

I couldn't help but smile a bit at how adorable he was.

"I couldn't get to sleep, do you mind If I sleep in here with you?"

He visibly relaxed and smirked, "Of course you can, climb in."

We both got settle into his bed and I curled up, pressed to his side. He wrapped an arm around me, pulling me impossibly closer and sighed contently.

"Try not to think so much and go to sleep okay ness?"

"Okay, goodnight Jacob."

"Night honey."

I closed my eyes, cleared my head and fell asleep for the first time in months, peacefully.

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