Ummmm: Its your opinion, Why should I be mad? Some people don't like the thought of suicide being portrayed in stories, and it is a tough thing to write, and I thought I did exceptionally well. SO as long as I thought I did okay who cares? Im sorry you didn't like the last chapter though, and I have to say I was alittle upset, but like I said, Its your opinion and anyone elses. And for future references, I REALLY don't like bad reviews, so message me next time.

With that said...

Please enjoy chapter 11!

Chapter 11

Then next morning, I woke up before Jacob did and smiled at him. His face was so innocent, almost child-like. It was so adorable I had to lean in and kiss his cheek.

"Goodmorning." He said.

I gasped and smacked his arm, "Jesus Jacob, I thought you were still sleeping. You gotta stop doing that!"

He chuckled and patted my hip before standing up and stretching.

And those abs... Those abs almost healed me.

"I'm gonna go start some breakfast for me you and Quil. Then I... I wanna talk. About last night."

I nodded, "Okay, but hey, why doesn't Quil hang around Claire anymore? He's always over your house."

"I never told you? Claire moved to london. Her parents wanted her to go to some fancy private school, and neither them or Quil have money for a plane ticket. So he hasn't seen her in what? A year now maybe?"

"That's horrible! Quil use to love that girl!"

He smiled, a look of sympothy for his brother on his face.

"He still does. He misses her so much. We try to keep him distracted so he won't get all depressed, that's why he's over here most of the time."

"Poor Quil..."

"Yeah. Try not to act like you feel sorry for him. It bugs the hell out of him."

He walked out of my room after that, and I dragged myself out of bed, feeling better than I have in awhile.

I felt refreshed.

Yesterday was an eye opener for me. It showed me that I didn't need death to bring me peace. All I need was the people that loved me, and I would be alright. I just had to stop shutting them out. I walked downstairs and saw my parents sitting next to Quil on the couch and they all smiled at me.

"Good morning Renesmee," Daddy said. "Did you sleep well?"

"Yeah, better than I have in awhile." I answered.

"Well that's good loch ness, i'm glad your not all suicidal anymore." I heard Jacob slam something in the kitchen so I gave him a look "Eh, Too soon?"

"Way to soon." Jacob growled.

"Mom, Dad can I talk to you guys? Outside?"

They nodded and we all ran out the door, far enough so Jake and Quil wouldn't hear.

"First off I just wanted to say i'm sorry for the way I scared everyone yesterday. It was a selfish act and I should have just come to you when I was feeling so lost."

Mom hugged me, "We're just glad your okay and safe sweetie. I don't kow what we would have done if Jacob didn't get to you when he did."

"Yeah he always knew when to be at the right place at the right time."

She pulled away and I smiled at them.

"Now I need you two to do me a HUGE favor."

...

I've been somewhat ignoring Jacob for the past few days, which wasn't a easy task considering I was in his house, but I really didn't want to talk about my incident just yet, and I was too excited about something else.

I got the call around three in the afternoon, and dragged Quil down to the beach.

"Nessie seriously, where are you taking him?" Jacob asked, trailing behind us.

"Yeah and why do I have to be blindfolded? Although I kinda like this. Its kinky." I giggled and Jake growled. I came to a stop where we were suppose to meet them and looked at my watch. They should be here any minute. "Are you gonna be naked Loch ness? I would die and go to heaven." I laughed again and Jacob went to smack him, but then his eyes widened at the person walking towards us.

I saw her little eyes light up when she saw us.

"QUIL!" Claire yelled.

Quil ripped the blindfold off his face and his jaw dropped.

"CLAIRE-BEAR!" He yelled back then went racing toward her. He lifted her off the ground and spun her around. "I can't believe its you..." He whispered, setting her on the ground again and kneeling down to her height. "Look at you! What happened to my little princess! You got so big!"

She giggled and threw her arms around his neck again.

"I missed you so much Quil! I told all my new friends about you, and they want to meet my bestfriend."

"Well maybe I can one day sweetheart. Gosh, I missed you so much! I will beat your tail if you ever leave me for that long again!"

She laughed and pulled away from him. "Well Nessie sent mommy plane tickets, and I get to stay for a whole month!"

Quil turned to me, raced over and embraced me.

"I owe you my life... Thank you so much for letting me see her." He whispered.

I smiled, "Just think of it as my thank you for saving me from Rowan."

He pulled back and gave me a sloppy kiss on the forehead.

"God Jake I love your imprint!"

There goes that word again. Imprint.

"Quil! Goddammit!" Jacob growled.

He smiled sheepishly and him, "Sorry dude it slipped!"

He ran back towards Claire and her Mom, scooping Claire up, and spinnig around again.

"Come on kiddo! Lets go get some ice cream!" He took off running, with Claire squealing on his shoulders. Her Mom just shook her head and waved at us.

"Jacob, let go to that meadow you showed me. Its been awhile since we've been there."

"Okay let me go phase. Stand near the edge of the forest so nobody will see me."

I followed his to the forest line, and waited as he went deeper to change. A Couple moments later he came back out as my favorite russet wolf. I petted him in his favorite spot, behind the ear, making a satisfied purr.

"Who's a good boy?" I teased. He growled and licked me from my neck to my hairline. "Ew! Gross Jacob! Thats disgusting!"

He barked in laughter and I couldn't help but giggle. "Shut up and put your big head down." He did and once I had a good grip, he took off.

Riding his back always made me laugh, but today it didn't. I just rested my head on his soft fur and enjoyed feeling the wind rushing past us. After about ten minutes, he slowed to a stop, let me off then went to change back. I kicked off me shoes and sat by the water again, closing my eyes and relaxing.

"I've been coming too this place alot lately." Jacob said sitting next to me.

"Yeah? Why?"

"To think. Get away from everything."

I opened my eyes seeing him, sitting with his knees up and his chin resting on them.

"What do you think about?"

He smirked, "You, most of the time. I try to figure out, how can this beautiful girl, the love of my life, be treated so horrible? What did she do to deserve everything thats on her plate? But I always come up empty. Because you didn't deserve what you got."

"I ask myself the same questions everyday." I whispered. "Then I think, everything happens for a reason, right? Maybe this was suppose to happen. To make me take life more seriously or to toughen me up, I don't know." I shrugged.

Jacob turned to me and I rested my head on his shoulder.

"Maybe it was suppose to happen. I know it made me love you even more though." He said quietly.

"Is that even possible?" I teased.

He snorted, "Probably not."

We shared a small laugh.

"You know Jacob, I think i've been falling for you for a really long time now and just haven't realized it because I didn't want to lose you as my bestfriend, I was just really confused at my feelings towards you."

"Well what are you feeling right now?"

I sat up and looked straight in his eyes.

"I know I said I couldn't love you the right way... But when you held me last night, let your guard down and cried in front of me, It made me realize just how bad it would hurt if I could never see you face again. Even in heaven or hell! But most importantly, It made me realize just how in love I was with you."

I saw so many emotions run through his eyes at that moment.

Happiness.

Relief.

Fear?

I ignored my confusion at the last one and rested my forehead against his.

"You have to go slow with me Jacob... I'm still healing."

He cupped one of my cheeks and kissed my nose making me smiled.

"I'll go slower than a snail."

I giggled and he smiled this time.

"I want to kiss you so bad Renesmee, my lips are practically on fire over here."

I laughed again and shook my head.

"Oh Jacob..." I sighed "I-I want you to kiss me."

He licked his lips then slowly leaned forward, whispering my name as he gently pushed his lips to mine. His lips were so soft and warm, I heard myslef moaning. His arms wrapped around my waist pulling me onto his lap and my fingers ran through his hair.

It was a simple closed mouth kiss, but the electricity flowing through my veins was amazing.

All to soon Jacob pulled away and put his forehead back on mine.

"Is it hot, or is it just me? No pun intended." He panted.

we both smiled and I hugged him around the neck.

"I love you, I'm sorry I was too blind to realize it before." He kissed my shoulder.

"Yeah well you made me wait long enough woman! Now I can finally do this, You might want to cover your ears." I did and he smiled at me before tilting his head back and screaming. "RENESMEE CARLIE CULLEN IS FINALLY MINE! ALL FUCKING MINE!"

This time I practically died laughing. He looked back at me and joined my laughter.

"You crazy you know that?" I said.

"Yeah. Crazy for you."

He pressed his lips to mine again and i'd never felt so content in all of my life.

...

Jacob

Kissing Renesmee had to have been the best moment of my life.

She tasted so good, and her lips molded with mine perfectly. Even though I left with a painful erection, I was happy. More than happy, if that were possible.

As I was running back to my house though I felt someone phase in.

'Jake? Jake is that you?' Jared thought in a frenzy.

'Yeah, whats wrong? Did you catch his scent?'

'No, but dude, Rowan might be planning something bigger than we all thought.'

'What do you mean?"

'Five boys on rez had weird growth spurts. One of them is 13!

'13?' I yelled in my head. "Thats younger than Seth when he phased!'

'I know! You really need to come check this out. Maybe we should speed up the process, and make them phase faster. You know, so they won't explode into a big fur ball somewhere in public'

'Yeah, especially with guys this young... Thanks for filling me in. I've got to go drop Renesmee off home, but I'll be back. Gather up the rest of the guys, and leah, but don't bother Quil. He's with Claire, I'll fill him in later.'

'Got it, boss!'

He faded out of my head and I pushed my legs faster. I saw Renesmee's dreams in my head while she slept soundly on my back, and it calmed me down to see she was dreaming about us.

It looked like us making love.

And It got me excited. Even in wolf form.

'Naughty naughty nessie,' I snickered in my head.

I almost didn't want to wake her up when I slowed to a stop in front of the cullens house, but unfortunately she did it on her own.

"Jake why are we here? I thought we were going back to your house?" She asked climbing off my back. I just whined and gently pushed her with my nose urging her to go in the house. "Do you have to leave?" I nodded and she sighed."Is everything okay? Its not... Rowan is it?" I shook my hed, not knowing if it was or not, but everything just reeked of him (Metaphorically, of course). "Okay well be safe and come home in one piece."

I licked her face again today and she squealed angrily. I ran away, before she could reach out and hit me.

"I HATE YOU!" She screamed in the forest. I howled in amusement.

'Yeah I hate you too. I hate you too...' I laughed in my head.

This is ridiculusly short, but I was running out of Ideas for this chapter and had to end it kinda horribly O.O, But I promise, It'll be better next time, and the drama will be calming down for awhile, to focus on Jacob and Nessies new relation ship. (Yay!) But I wouldn't get use to it! ;))

I hope you enjoyed, please please PLEASE review! Lol.

Until next time darlings!