Here's the second part to the first drabble. This one is done in Cole's perspective. I'm going to redo the first one but these two drabbles are supposed to be their first thoughts on each other. I kinda got carried away though xD

Lucy. Lucy. Lucy. Her name is legit stuck in my brain. No matter what I do, it doesn't wanna get out. It's like, just the sound of her voice brings me forward. When she's around, I wanna be a better person.

Ha. Just that thought alone is enough to make me laugh.

Normally I don't try to change myself for a chick. I'm just the usual asshole who tries to get inside any woman's pants. On some days, I don't like myself for it. But I wasn't really raised like other men.

My dad was always full of himself. My moms only cares for her looks. Hell, my moms probably cheats on my dad and he doesn't care cuz his jobs too important. All they ever really cared about was money.

They did care for me. To an extent. But not enough to raise me right. No one needs to know that tho.

Back to Lucy.

She's the kind of girl that I normally would do.

Blonde. Nice ass. Smart. Smells nice. Nice boobs.

She is kinda crazy with all her horses. I sometimes wonder if she was actually raised by them. Although it'd be pretty cool if she was. That'd be the first chick I ever banged that was raised by an animal!

But, I never thought I'd actually like, Like her. It's nothing against her or anything.

It's just, I never go back to the same chick.

I'll do 'em. And then ditch 'em. Safer that way. I never asked to be in a real committed relationship. I don't think it'd be fair to her if I dated her the way I am now.

When we're alone, she actually sees through my facade. It's crazy! No other chick has done that before.

Then again, I never let one get physically and emotionally closer to me.

But with Luce, I keep going back to her.

And again, and again.

It doesn't matter how many times we have sex.

I always keep going back. It's almost as if I'm saying "she's mine! You can't have her!"

But I don't understand why.

I just blame it on stress. I can tell that she's very stressed. 'Specially with Dr. C always attackin' her. He never lets up on any of us in class or at rounds. He loves humiliating all of us.

There are times where I wanna get mad at him for it. But then everyone would know the truth.

That I really liked her. I actually had feelings for her.

And I can't have that. I don't show my weakness to anyone. That's why I'm never in a real relationship. I don't think I can handle being committed to one girl.

That's why I keep tellin myself "be mean to her. Be an arrogant son of a bitch."

But there are moments where I let it slip.

And even though I know I should stop sleeping with her;

I don't want to.