Tears
By: Jaylonni Love
Chapter Two – Anger
Anger: strong feeling of displeasure and belligerence aroused by a wrong; wrath; ire.
3 Weeks Later
Rin sat on her bed with her pregnancy pictures clutched tightly in her hands. Tears streamed down her cheeks as she looked at the old photos wiping them away with the back of her hand. She sniffled as she thought about what could have been; the baby she could have held; the love she could have given it.
My baby, she thought tracing the bump that was her stomach. It had gone down significantly since the accident.
No longer able to bear looking at the photos, she placed them back in the oak chest then sat it on the night stand on her bed side. She curled up on the bed bringing her legs underneath her as she let her head rest against her pillow. Her finger played with the fuchsia diamond wedding ring. She sniffled wiping the tears away as she looked up at the ceiling.
I wish this didn't happen, she thought as she pulled her pillow closer to her chest.
Just then the bedroom door opened and her husband walked in the room.
"Rin," Sesshomaru said noticing her lying on the bed cuddled up with the pillow. "Is there something wrong?"
"I was just thinking about the baby," Rin spoke still looking up at the ceiling. "What do you think it would have been like, Sesshomaru. Who would it look like, me or you?"
Sesshomaru smiled sadly at his wife. The loss of their baby had really taken its toll on her.
Walking over to her side, he sat down on the bed beside her and pulled her into his arms. Rin let her head rest on his chest as her left hand came to rest on his shoulder.
"Sesshomaru," Rin said quietly, "I wanted to be a mother. I wanted to know what it's like to have something to nurture and love unconditionally. I wanted to experience what my friends have."
"Calm down Rin," Sesshomaru said wrapping his arms around her tightly. "I know you do. And some day you will."
"Are you sure," Rin asked looking up at her husband with large red puffy eyes. "I'm going to be a mother some day? How do you know that something like this won't happen again?"
"I know because I won't let anything like that happen to you again," Sesshomaru said nuzzling her hair with his nose.
Rin nodded lightly as she clutched his shoulder tightly.
"But for tonight, we have to go out and support Inuyasha and Kagome on the four year anniversary of their couture boutique," Sesshomaru said kissing the top of her head. "Come, get yourself dressed and ready to go. Besides, Izayoi and father would be glad to see you again. You've been locked up in the house since the incident. It is time you go out for some fresh air. It will do you some good."
Rin nodded as she let him go and sat up. "Thank you Sesshomaru."
"Always," Sesshomaru said answering the message behind her thanks.
Rin stood from the bed letting her night gown fall to the floor and headed for her closet. Sesshomaru watched her for a moment before standing himself and going to his own closet.
…
Rin smoothed out the bottom of her long black dress as a deep sigh escaped her. She closed her eyes trying to clear her mind as best she could. The haunting feelings of her lost baby kept clouding her thoughts making it hard for the young woman to concentrate.
"Relax Rin," Sesshomaru said placing a hand on her bare shoulder and rubbing it to sooth her. "You will be fine."
"You're right," Rin said looking over at him.
Sesshomaru brushed a stray curl out of her face and smiled at her. "Don't worry; there won't be too much attention on us tonight. This night is about my half brother and Kagome. They will stay out of our business – for the most part."
Rin nodded before leaning over and kissing his nose. "Thank you my love, for staying by my side through this."
"It is my job," Sesshomaru assured. "I am your husband; your pain is mine. You don't have to go through this alone."
Rin nodded before kissing him again. "Thank you."
"Always."
…
The limo pulled to a stop and Sesshomaru heard the driver's door open before footsteps fell against the ground. The door opened a moment later and Sesshomaru stepped out. Cameras flashed as he turned and reached into the car and took Rin's hand helping her out as well.
They began walking down the red carpet together, Rin's arm tucked in Sesshomaru's as she slightly let her head rest on his bicep. A smile adorned her features making her glow under the lights of the cameras around the event but underneath she was still hurting.
But I can't draw attention to myself, she chided. Tonight is Inuyasha and Kagome's night and I want them to enjoy it to the fullest. Nothing about me or Sesshomaru is going to ruin that for them.
"Rin," Sesshomaru said looking down at her with a soft smile, "are you thinking again?"
"No," Rin said looking at him, "well yes but it's not about what you think I'm thinking about. I was thinking about how I want this to be about Inuyasha and Kagome; not me and you."
"Good, I thought that you were stressing again," Sesshomaru said softly as he patted her hand with his.
Rin smiled as she leaned her head deeper into his shoulder as they continued to walk down the carpet only to be stopped by a reporter running up to them.
"Mrs. Takahashi, Mrs. Takahashi, how are you feeling about the recent loss of your unborn baby," the reporter asked.
Rin froze; her eyes growing wide as she looked at the female in front of her. She didn't want to break down but she felt the tears wailing up in her eyes. Sesshomaru looked down at his wife and saw the first signs of tears. He knew what was about to transpire but he didn't know if they would be tears of sorrow or tears of anger. From the look on her face he could tell.
"Rin, be calm," Sesshomaru said patting her hand that rested against his. "Breathe, honey; breathe."
Rin looked up at her husband before turning back to the reporter. "I'm sorry but what did you just say to me?"
Tears of anger ran down her cheeks as she stared at the woman. Her eyes narrowed dangerously at the woman; the anger she was feeling radiating off of her.
"I'm sorry," the reporter said cocking her head to the side.
"You have no right whatsoever to ask me something like that," Rin seethed. "What is going on with my personal life is not your god damn business so stay out of it!"
And with that she pushed forward leaving the stunned reporter behind. She couldn't believe that she had the gall to ask her that. She was trying to make this night about her in-laws; not herself. She shouldn't have asked that.
"Rin, are you alright," Sesshomaru asked letting his hand rest on her waist.
Rin wiped the tears from her eyes and nodded. "I'll be fine after I cool down."
Anonymous Acknowledgments
Kaneko: Oh my gosh hon, I'm so sorry to hear that. But thank you for the wonderful review, I love hearing from you.
Strength in Numbers: Thank you my dear. I'll have the last chapter for you some time soon.
Jolie: Thank you hon. I didn't mean to make anyone sad – myself included – with this one. It was just something that I felt I needed to write for a friend who lost her baby.
Anyways, thanks for all the love on the first chapter guys. I'll have the final installment for you soon hopefully but I have to focus on Stronger now if I want to make my deadline. Until next time, ciao!