Imaginative Reality
The closeness of his lips still linger in my mind, but that is nothing but a fleeting memory now. How is it that only months before we had progressed so much, only to end up steps behind our first endeavor, the moments are emotions had reached other. Was I again too hesitant? Did I end up below your expectations? The touch of your fingers affectionately grasping mine and that once suffocating space between has disappeared. Here you are again, in our final youthful autumn, in front while I cautiously trail behind. Everything I knew of our second year has vanished. What did I call you by? Was it Shouta-kun, or did we get closer than that? What did we talk about? I don't want to lose the reminiscence of your laughter, our mutual embarrassments that always resulted in bashful grins. All that's left of the memory of spring, summer are still in my drawer, engraved in those candid photos. I did not take many, so now I wonder. Were there more sides of you I failed to capture? And our group photo in Okinawa, did I happen to sit next to you?
Where now are those moments that made my heart race? The hand that always reached out to me and gave...warmth, love, patience, as well as snacks and even drinks...has retracted and has become firmly attached to your side once again. My own hands are doing the same, involuntarily so, gripping my school bag fervently, it cannot give the same comfort as your own hand. Huh? Did you say something? I may be late in hearing people's words, but how can I now miss your voice? Maybe it's just my imagination, but did you mention something of the weather? Isn't that quaint conversation as can be? All I can see now is the back of your neck, yet that's not enough for me anymore. I want to see your face, your smiles, your laughter again; they have all disappeared without a trace. Does a new season equate to a new slate to our relationship? Should I even be calling it a relationship anymore? It must be that when you took back all your emotions, and feelings, you must have had taken my sense as well. Our distance, which was had been overcome, is fighting back, stronger than ever. For now, I cannot look straight in your eyes anymore, I understand you even less than before. Is this it, is it wrong for me to still be wishing for something more?
A/N: It really has been too long. Since the release of Ch.60 I recaptured my love again for these two. Their struggles, perseverance, I know it will surely endure (;^;). Thanks again for your patience. I really will try to update all my other stories frequently as well.