hey guys sorry i couldn't update in so long. I was at my cuzzies house and they dont have a computer and all so i could do anything then my computer got munted and all yea.
DiScLaImEr: i dont own TWILIGHT THERE I CONFESSED i am delusional not really ok wateva on with the story.
again sorry for the really late update
I didn't know how to feel anymore it was just too much to see my best friend just leave me...like I did with me. Every time I see Bella I want to run up to her and hug the life out of her saying she finally got a sense in fashion, but she would probably push me away again.
*Flashback*
"Bella ...Bella stop running please let me talk with you!"
"Hell no Alice leave me alone," Bella said
"You cant run forever just please let me talk, please I'm begging" I was almost in tears the least she could do was explain myself.
"Alice for I care you could kill yourself I would not care instead I might even throw a party!"
Well yup that did it I, Alice Cullen, am crying.
"You don't mean it, no you would never Bel" before I could even finish she cut me off.
"No Alice you listen to me. I don't want to her it. You are already to late to apologize for everything you have done. You ignored me when I needed someone the most, where were you when I needed a shoulder to cry on, where were you when I was confined in hospital for pneumonia. You were not there Alice. You have never been there for me. so I don't want to here that you are sorry cause that is a load of bullshit. 2 years of agony. 2 years of wondering what i did wrong that could make you and Edward leave at my most weakest point. Even Tanya my so called best friend started fucking my BOYFRIEND while I was DIEING. But you know what Alice I have changed! If you think just by saying SORRY you will win me back well think again!. I don't want..NO I am NOT going to put my heart out there just so it can be broken again. So don't go apologizing to me because I can never forgive you for what you have done to me. You know what I used to cut myself..yes I went all emo shit. I finally get better and I start killing myself, you know why? because it felt good! So Alice for my sanity don't talk to me because i don't want anything to do with you. Edward, or that SLUT!"
BPOV
I was done! That's it fed up with this shit. Telling Alice off was a blessing…but why did I feel bad? SHE LEFT ME! Today was the usual party at James and his loaded family. I have been there so many times that I fucking knew the place like I owned that shit! Damn I remember waking up naked ..oh well.
*time skip to party*
The music was rocking hard. Ke$ha's song was blaring through the speakers. I
Was wearing a purple dress with the top half being black sequences and the
bottom a frilly sorta thing and a bow in the middle the dress was strapless
and went down to thighs I looked great (dress Link is on my profile) and my
hair that was naturally curly was left out. It was great. Just because I don't have Alice doesn't mean I can't dress myself. I was "dancing" more like grinding up against
some stranger I think his name was Jacob or something. I had to admit he was pretty sexy, but I was drunk everyone looks sexy haha he had copper skin and short black hair.I was getting bored and as I looked around I saw the last person person I wanted to see, Tanya Denali. And of course she was hanging from Edward's arms like usual something was creeping up inside me, but I didn't know what. Jealousy?...Yah right. I kind of felt bad for Edward he probably got STD from doing that whore. I couldn't tear my eyes him i tried but I wouldn't succeed to do so. And trust me it was not pretty.
They walked onto the dance floor and started grinding up against each other.
Edward still had not caught my gaze. The thought of If looks could kill ran through my head..ha Edward would be dead along with Tanya. I tried to forget them as much as I could so i focus on Jacob and with that we started grinding harder and trying in get closer. Then he whispered something into my ear.
"Come on lets go and have a private show upstairs," his voice was husky with
Lust and I could smell the beer still in his breath. He started at my body... it was not new to me. So I followed him into a room and the night of fun began.
Epov
Even though I was new to UCLA I was invited to James party at his parents house tonight. I didn't want to
think of Bella tonight so i asked Tanya to come with me to his party.
The party was in full swing mode when i got there with Tanya. We went inside
and was greeted by James. His gazed was fixed onto Tanya's breast, she didn't seem to mind. I said hello and simply walked away from
him onto the dance floor.
Tanya immediately started to grind up against me on the dance floor. I didn't
want to look at her. I looked around the place when i saw her. My jaw dropped
at what she was wearing. She was stunning that dress she wore was short
showing her long legs and her dress accented her curves her hair was left in
curly ringlets down her back. But then my blood started to boil when i saw the
man.. hell no BOY, she was grinding up against. Then she turned around and went to the pole.
I couldn't even describe it, it was the most sexy thing I have ever seen Bella do. She jumped off the pole and went to the mystery boy she swayed her hips on her way to him. She pushed him on the bed then she got on
her legs and arms and started to crawl his body. His hands roamed her body
groping her ass and breast. Then their lips crashed and my anger was set
loose.
I stormed into the room with a rage burning up in me. I saw nothing but red. I
threw him away from Bella and started punching him.
"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING. LEAVE HER ALONE AND DON'T TOUCH HER
LIKE THAT AGAIN. OR SO HELP ME I WILL KILL YOU."
"WHO T-THE H-HELL ARE YOU. H-HER B-B-OYFRIEND?
Then Bella screamed at us "SHIT EDWARD FUCK OFF WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING! GET OFF OF HIM !"
"IS THIS WHAT YOU DO. YOU SEDUCE MEN FOR YOUR ENJOYMENT. WHO DO YOU THINK YOU
ARE. STOP ACTING LIKE A WHORE BECAUSE QUITE FRANKLY MEN ONLY
WANT YOU FOR YOU BODY. NOTHING ELSE! WHO THE HELL ARE YOU AND WHAT HAVE TO
DONE TO THE BELLA WE ALL ONCE KNEW AND LOVED BECAUSE SHE AINT IN THIS ROOM."
After those words came out f my mouth I regretted them.
Bella froze and her eyes started to water, but what threw me off was that she was laughing.
"Where is she? Ha Edward …YOU WANT TO KNOW WHERE SHE IS! DO YOU? Well she is a block down the street and take a right. Do you know where that ends to?"
I was completely lost so I just shook my head saying no
"That ends up to a graveyard because the OLD BELLA IS DEAD YOU KILLED HER! YOU KILLED ME! Ha what a great way to spend your day, the day I finally was out of the HOSPITAL! What do you think I felt like, coming home to surprise my boyfriend, telling him the one thing that was on my mind the whole time I was at the hospital."
She walked right up to me so that she could be able to look right into my eyes. The words that came out of her mouth cut me deep in my heart. It was a whisper, but I could hear it loud and clear.
"I wanted to tell you that I loved you…DAMN IT I LOVED YOU!and I come home to see you CHEATING on me. Was it not enough I already told you that I didn't want sex I WANTED LOVE! Is that why you had to crawl to Tanya cuz I couldn't do the job!
"NO, Bella uldn't finish because with that she slapped me and ran away.
BPOV
His words replayed over and over in my mind. Those words really hurt. I ran
out of the room because I couldn't take it anymore. I needed to go. But i ran
straight into Emmet, Jasper and Rosalie. Emmet was like my big brother, we
looked almost identical that my friends teased me that we were twins. Rosalie
is Emmet's girlfriend. Rosalie is my only true best friend that knows
understands me because she went through the similar thing. And Jasper was
Rosalie's twin brother. They looked exactly alike from the blonde hair to the
blue eyes there facial features were the same but Rosalie's was femine and
Jaspers was manly. Jasper was quite built.
They all saw me crying and were instantly concerned.
I ran outside with Emmet, Jasper and Rosalie right behind 1901TeamEdward1918
Jun 25th, 2:03pm me. Then I stopped
in the forest. I was soon engulfed in the arms of Rosalie. I turned my head
and cried into her shoulder. Letting all the emotions i have been holding in
me for so long.
"Rose why does this always happen to me. Of all the colleges to go they go to
UCLA. Why does my past want to catch up with me. I am so confused I just don't know what to do" i sobbed relentlessly into her.
Befor she could answere Jasper cut in he always had a calming aura and words of wisdom for
everything.
"Bella sometimes things happen for a reason. We have to let it out. Then move
on. Sometimes bad things happen to good people to make them stronger. Bella
you are one of the most strongest women i have met. You need to deal with your
past to have a sense of peace Bella. Be strong and never lack courage."
I knew Jasper was right. I needed to face them and be strong. I needed to
do this for me. Not Edward or Tanya. I needed it to do this for me.