So here is an update my lovely readers! Thank you for the lovely reviews. I may not reply to many of you, (insert excuse here) but PLEASE know that I love and read every single one of them. I need them like Edward needs for Bella to finally trust him. Speaking of which, here is Bella.

Title of chapter taken from the very cool vampire movie of the same name. It's not in English and you have to read subtitles, but it totally rocks. Thanks again to edwardrocksmysocks for her lovely comments and fixer-uppers.

Ch24/Bella/Let the Right One In

"So what do you think Bella?"

"About what?"

"We've…no, I've been talking for the past twenty minutes. Bella where is your mind?" My mother asked and I shook my head in embarrassment.

With Edward…

"I just don't feel well, but I'm sorry Mom. You were saying…"

"Would it be okay if Phil came over and had dinner with us Saturday night?" I stared at my mother in disbelief. I had been in a bad mood all week. The word bad didn't seem good enough. It was more like scary, dark, and painfully frustrated. Does that make sense? My vocabulary doesn't expand past those words, so that would have to do.

It wasn't my mother's fault. It wasn't anybody's fault, really but I really didn't feel like seeing Phil or having him in my house. I smiled at my mother and I knew she could tell it was fake, but she let it pass.

"Sure mom," I sighed.

"Honey, he doesn't have to come."

"Just tell him to come over mom," I whined. God what is wrong with me? It wasn't like this all day. All week, I got up in an alright mood, spent my school day with a smile on my face, which I never thought I would, and then I would come home and feel like utter shit.

One name is in mind all day and every day…

Edward

No, he hasn't acted like a jerk again and no he hasn't ignored me or acted like he hated the world. In fact he has been all smiles, nice, sweet and so damn cute. I can't help but smile and giggle like a little girl with a school crush the whole time I'm with him.

Crush?

No!

That's not what's happening, I swear…

He's my friend. Friends don't have crushes on each other. This isn't a bad romantic comedy where friends of the opposite sex can't be friends because love happens. Really? Come on. But then Edward drives me home, makes me laugh, says sweet things to me and then leaves with a short goodbye. He doesn't even try to convince me to let him stay. He doesn't push it or say anything about staying. Then the shit fest happens. I feel hurt but I don't blame him. I blame my stupid mind for over thinking things.

I pushed him away. Did I want him to kiss me? God only knows how much. I've dreamt about it ever since. Now, I stare at Edward's lips and wonder how it would feel to kiss him back. I know how soft and warm they are. I get flustered just thinking about it. I really wanna kiss that boy, but what he said to me and what I fear exploded in my mind.

He felt so much for me?

That's what he said.

Like what?

Puppy love? Friendship? Gratitude? I didn't even wanna know. I'm scared to know what he feels.

Why?

I don't know if I can trust myself.

I told him that I didn't trust him and in part that's one of the reasons I held back, but in reality I'm more afraid that I will fall forever into his embrace. I will get attached and then, when I least expect it, he will pull away. He'll leave me or lie to me. I can't help it. I've been surrounded by nothing positive in my life. My own father acted like I was everything he hated. He almost killed me. I could see the hate in his eyes every day of my life. How can I trust Edward when I've only know him for a little while? Maybe it's stupid of me to doubt Edward. After all, he's been there for me. But I fear.

I fear…love.

That's what's supposed to happen between boyfriend and girlfriend, right? Could I love Edward Cullen? Could I do that without him hurting me?

My time when he's not around certainly is hell. I can't stand when he's gone.

I don't feel like doing anything and mope around at work and at home. I don't even feel like drawing. I toss and turn in bed at night and feel like screaming. I may be overdramatic, but I feel like so anxious and nervous.

I figure that…I miss him.

I grabbed my phone one night and sent him a text message.

Goodnight Edward

That's all my cowardly self managed to text him. I waited for what felt like an hour, but was only a minute.

Goodnight Bella

Come on! Tell me more. Tell me anything. Ask me anything. Tell me how much you hate me for rejecting you. I deserve it, but you have to understand.

I'm so fucking scared.

I do it every night after that.

Goodnight Edward

And he never fails to answer back.

Goodnight Bella

After, I would stare at my balcony door wishing he would magically show up. I would let him in. In a heart beat I would let him in. But I figure that it's better this way. That way I don't have to see that crushed look on his face when I reject his kiss... yet again.

He said he felt something for me and I told him that I didn't feel the same. It didn't sound how I really meant it. It sounded like I had no feelings for him, but that was so false. I just meant that I wasn't feeling like giving my trust to him like he was ready to give it to me. I'm starting to think Edward doesn't wanna be my boyfriend anymore and I start to panic. Then I freak out. I don't like that I panic thinking that he won't want to be my boyfriend, because that was never my concern. Why do I care? I don't wanna be his girlfriend anyway…right? Do I secretly wish he would keep asking to be?

I'm a sick individual.

I'm a mess.

I'm so stupid.

I wish I had an older sister or a close girlfriend that I could ask what the hell to do. Though my mother acts like my older sister most of the time, she's still my mother and I don't feel like telling her anything. It's not like we're friends or anything, it's just plain weird. It's times like these when I wish I had a friend like Alice. I thought about talking to her, but then I thought that was a bad idea since we would be talking about her brother. She would be biased and I would have no real opinion.

Renee sighed bringing me back from my thoughts. I sat up and looked at my mother in the eyes. She looked hurt. I cursed at myself for feeling bad for her. My inner bitter bitch wanted to keep acting like a brat towards her, but I scowl at it and insist that I'm not like that. I don't hold grudges.

"I'm sorry again Mom. It will be fine with me if Phil comes over. But I do have a question," I said and my mother nodded.

"What is he?"

"What is he?" She asked confused.

"Yeah, is he your…boy uh um…Mom just don't make me finish the sentence. It feels weird," I mutter and she giggles.

"He's just a close friend. I'm still married to your…"

"Yeah, I get the point," I cut her off. I don't want to have a conversation that will eventually lead to Him.

"Maybe dinner is weird. How about a late lunch in Port Angeles on Saturday after you get out of work?" I nodded feeling like there is no way I could say no even though that is really what I wanted to say.

You're such a fucking push over Swan.

I know.

On Friday, some new student was the topic of the day. Strangely I hadn't seen this new student at all, but from what I had heard, he was "sexy as hell." Alice and Angela, who still sat with me during art class, discussed how "cute" and "sexy" he was while we drew. I rolled my eyes at them when they said I would agree when I saw him.

Before English, I walked to my locker and found a letter from Edward inside. I smiled like a fool as I read it. Sometimes he did have a way with words. That reminded me that he always carried a journal with him. I would have to ask to read it one day.

He invited me to come to his house for dinner with his family tomorrow night. He said the letter was my official invitation. I giggled at his fancy writing as he was trying to make it look like a real invitation letter, but then I felt sick to my stomach.

His family?

Like with his parents and stuff?

I began to hyperventilate. What if they don't like me? And why does he want me to have dinner with them? I'm over thinking things again. Friends do that all the time. What do I wear? Geez I'm worrying about clothes now? I stopped my inner torture, when I felt someone stand beside me. It wasn't one of the whores because this person smelled like expensive cologne and cleared his throat.

I turned to face him, because I knew he was looking at me. He was standing ridiculously close to me and making me feel uncomfortable.

"Hey there pretty girl," he said to me with a wide smile. He winked at me and I felt blood rushing to my cheeks.

Stupid blush.

He was tall, slim, but I could see the muscles through his tight green t-shirt and he had blonde hair and the bluest eyes I had ever seen. I guess Angela and Alice were right.

"I'm James, the new guy I guess you would know me by that." He smiled at me and I could tell he was trying to charm me. It was working a little, but he wasn't that great. I knew someone who…

There I go again.

"Hello James," I said and mentally cringed at how my voice sounded like I was a nervous twelve year old girl. "I'm Bella."

"I know, I asked around until someone told me your name. I have to say it fits perfect with you…beautiful."

"You asked around for my name?" I asked a little confused, ignoring that he had just called beautiful. What the hell did he want?

"Yeah, I saw you in my math class. You didn't see me I'm guessing?" He arched an eyebrow and I shrugged. Honestly I hadn't as I had too much on my mind. Still do…

"Um, no I'm sorry."

"Its okay beautiful, we'll be seeing each other a lot now." He smirked and I'm sure he looked handsome to a lot of girls. He was very handsome, but he was just starting to creep me out.

"Why is that?" He chuckled.

"I come to this school now."

"Oh," I said dumbly.

"Yeah, I'm really from Port Angeles, but I did some stupid shit and got in trouble and my father sent me to this small town as punishment. He's just embarrassed as he's the mayor and all."

"You're James Whitley's son?" I knew this guy was just trying to impress me and I fought the urge to laugh. Why would he want to impress me? Besides, I wasn't impressed by him. He seemed more of a…what Edward would call a douchebag.

"James the second of course," he said smoothly.

"Well congratulations," I muttered when the bell rung and I started walking towards English.

"Wait Bella," he shouted and was about to grab my arm when I pulled it away. I didn't feel like freaking out in front of the new kid. "Wow, you have a little sass. I like that," he chuckled and I realized he had taken my actions wrong.

"I need to get to class," I said trying to get away from him.

"Oh, just one question beautiful," he said and I smiled at his nickname for me. Really? This guy is smooth. I'm being sarcastic of course.

"Ask away," I said dryly.

"How about we hang out tonight?"

HUH?

"Uh, why? I don't even know you. You don't know me?"

"Well that is what dates are for, beautiful. Besides, I'm bored in this town and all the girls in this school look fake and like total bitches. This one chick, Tania, Tanua, Tanny, I can't remember her name."

"Tanya," I muttered with boredom.

"Yeah her, she was totally trying to hook up and to be honest with you, beautiful, she was not my style and too loose," he said leaning close to me and I took a few steps away from him. I ignored that I wanted to gag at his word usage and smiled at him.

"Well James, I'm totally honored that you would ask me out," I lied. "But I sorta already have plans," I lied again, but I knew this James guy wouldn't give up. "Besides I don't think you wanna be seen with me. I'm the loser of the school," I said sarcastically. It was the truth. I was the girl who was picked on throughout all of the school years and now, it only stopped because I wore pretty clothes Alice picked out for me and did stuff to my hair. It doesn't change anything for me.

"I don't give a shit about that beautiful. Besides, don't you know men always crush on the nerd or loser of the school?" I giggled and shook my head.

"Well, I guess you have a lot of competition. Sorry James, you're nice, but maybe next time." I walked off. I could hear him chuckle and I rushed to English.

I made it just in time and headed toward my desk. I met Edward's green eyes, but felt the cold feelings they held. Something was wrong with him. I smiled at him and he gave a quick smile back, but he returned to his blank face. I was about to ask what was wrong when the teacher began to talk.

She talked all class period.

"What's wrong Edward?" I finally asked as we made it to my locker. He sighed and stood by my side as I grabbed my stuff.

"Nothing," he muttered.

"Bullshit Cullen, spit it out!" I gave him a threatening look which only caused him to smile.

God that smile is so beautiful.

"I'm just worried."

"About?" He shook his head and looked down. He didn't answer me and instead waited for me in silence as I finished grabbing my backpack. We stopped by his car and he leaned against the passenger door.

"Just ignore me Swan and answer my invitation? You coming for dinner Saturday?" He asked and I smiled. He sounded so cute when he called me by my last name.

"Um, yes but may I ask why?"

"Why not?"

"I don't know, it just…I'm a little worried that they won't like me or that I'll do something embarrassing. You know I'm clumsy, Edward. Like stupidly clumsy." He chuckled and ran his hand up and down my back sending shivers all over my body.

Yeah, friends do that all the time. All the time…

"You're only clumsy half of the time and its endearing actually. Besides, Alice already wants you to be her BFF and I do mean forever. My mom already loves you just by hearing about you and I'm sure my dad and Emmett will too."

"You've told your mom about me?" I asked shocked. I don't know why that made me feel so warm and happy to the point of tears. I'm being too emotional. My period must be coming soon. But he freaking told his mom about me! Me!

"Yeah, she asked and I had to tell."

"She asked you what? Quit messing around Cullen and get to the damn point! I'm dying here." I poked his belly causing another round of beautiful chuckles. He took my hand and wrapped my fingers around his.

"I like it when you call me Cullen."

"To the point Cullen! What is it? What did she ask?" He smiled sheepishly and surprised me when he pulled me to him with his hands on my waist. I gasped as I felt his chest against mine and his breath on my forehead. He kissed it with his soft and warm lips and a shaky breath escaped my mouth. My heart was beating like I had ran into his arms and a warm and tight feeling spread through my chest. I couldn't breathe and I found it odd how much I loved this feeling. It's kinda painful, but I love it.

If he only knew what he made me feel, I would have no chance and my walls would crumble. They are already cracked and dangerously shaky. He would waltz in and I would not put up a fight.

"She asked why I was so damn happy," he whispered in my ear and kissed it lightly. He moved us around and before I knew it, I was in his car as he drove me home. He was so…dazzling? I guess that's the word. Yes, he was very dazzling.

He dazzles me.

I took his hand in mine as he drove and, though he didn't turn to look at me, I could see the smile on his face. It made me sigh.

I feel like a cheesy girl.

That night, I tossed and turned. I grabbed my phone, and feeling a little more courage, I dialed the number instead of texting.

"Bella?" He asked a little shocked and with a sleepy voice.

"I'm sorry, did I wake you?"

"No, I'm still asleep."

"Smart ass."

"You know it," he teased and my cheeks ached from my wide smile. "I'm honored you decided to call me in the middle of the night, Bella. Really, but what is the reason for this lovely call?"

"Me being an insomniac mess."

"Hmm, well aren't I lucky?"

"Shut up, I could call someone else."

"No!" He shouted and we both laughed. "I was just kidding, love." I decided to ignore that he just called me "love" it was too much. He ignored it too. "What's wrong? Why can't you sleep?" I sighed loudly and stared at the balcony door wishing he was here with me.

"Am I the reason you're so happy? Please tell me if I'm sounding a little self absorbed," I said and took a deep breath.

"Yes," he simply whispered and I felt that weird warm feeling again; that painfully good one.

"Me? Really?"

"Hell yes." I giggled. "You're not being self absorbed. You're the only one in my world, so there is nobody else to worry about. It's just you and me with you as the most important part." I felt the tears running down my cheeks and I sniffed. I hoped he didn't hear. We said nothing for a moment. I finally cleared my throat.

"Edward?" My damn voice cracked.

"Bella?" I couldn't help but notice his voice sounded a little heavy too.

"You don't know how happy your world makes me. I wish you would let me stay there forever," I wiped away the few more tears that escaped my eyes.

"I will let you stay forever. You'll always be where you belong which is with me. No matter what, I'll keep you safe."

"Thank you."

"Yeah."

"Goodnight Edward."

"Goodnight my Bella." I kissed the phone after he hung up and hugged my pillow wishing it was him.

I am a cheesy girl.

Phil was nice. He didn't make my mother feel useless or stupid. He also didn't threaten me and actually tried to make me like him. He was sweet and even knew stuff about me that I didn't think my mother knew. I guess I was wrong about some things.

I could tell she liked him. She liked him a lot. The scorned and bitter part in me wanted to hate my mother. I wanted to shout and ask her why she never fought for our happiness. Why did she only think of herself?

But I didn't say anything or even glare at her.

She giggled at the funny things Phil would say and I gave her an honest smile. The selfless part of me felt so happy for her. The rest of my angry self didn't say anything. This was Renee, my mother. I had accepted it, though it wasn't easy. There was no point of holding grudges. Holding them wouldn't give me my childhood back. All I could do was promise myself never to be that way with my future children. I would be brave and fight. I would kill for them.

I promised.

Mike had let me go early again on Saturday, so lunch with Phil and Renee happened pretty early itself. Phil took us shopping and, even though I refused to accept anything from him, I still ended up with a bag of new clothes. My mother was excited that Phil seemed to like me and I had to admit the guy wasn't that bad. They took me back to my house and they left to do whatever it was that they did. I didn't want to think about it. I locked all the doors and windows in my house. I had become a paranoid freak, but I didn't care.

I texted Edward and he promised to pick me up in a few hours. I spent those hours finishing my homework and drawing. I always looked out my window just in case anybody was to show up. I worried that it could be Him.

When I spotted Edward's Volvo in the drive way, I ran out of my house and into his arms. He chuckled as he spun me around. It felt silly, but I had never been so damn happy and relieved to see him. Even the way he smelled made me feel safe. He always did smell amazing. The drive to his house wasn't a long one and, before I knew it, he held my hand as we walked into his beautiful home.

My hand trembled in his and I felt as if my heart was in my throat.

The last time I had been here, the only Cullens present were Alice and Edward, so when I spotted a slim and beautiful brunette walking towards me with a wide smile I quickly felt out of place. I could feel my nerves practically vibrating my whole body and I took a few breaths trying to ease them up. She was so elegant and seemed like the kind of person that goes to fancy colleges, eats at fancy restaurants and who doesn't curse. But she did seem nice. Very nice.

"You must be Bella!" The beautiful lady said and hugged me tightly. She smelled like flowers, vanilla and pure kindness. "I'm Esme Cullen, Edward's adoptive mother," she assured me as she pulled away, but now holding both my hands.

"She's my mother Bella, forget the adoptive part," Edward muttered and it only caused Esme to hug me again. I giggled at her strong affection. I didn't even know her.

"Nice to meet you Mrs. Cullen," I said shyly.

"Call me Esme dear and you must meet my husband." She took my hand and asked if she could walk me to him. I nodded and giggled when I heard Edward groan and complain. He begged his mother not to smother me, but I assured her that I didn't mind.

Dr. Cullen or Carlisle, as he preferred, was just as kind and strangely happy as Esme was that I was here. He was a handsome man and I vaguely remembered him from when I visited the hospital when my usual clumsiness would kick in.

Esme led me into the dinning room where I found Edward waiting for me. He grinned at me, but I think it was the fact that his mother had her arm wrapped around me that made him happy. I sat next to him and wondered where Alice and Emmett were.

"They are on their way. They were hanging out at the mall," Edward said and I nodded.

"Why didn't you go with them?" I asked and he chuckled.

"Bella, would you go with Alice to the mall? Shopping?" I quickly shook my head and we both laughed.

"Besides, I was too excited that you were coming over." He smiled at me and took my hand in his under the table. "Did my parents scare you?"

"No, they are the sweetest. I like them very much."

"I think they love you," he assured me. "Let's just say, you're my mother's favorite person right now." We talked and joked for a few minutes when I heard the front door open. Alice ran into the dinning room and hugged me. We both giggled as we spun around. I hadn't even noticed she had lifted me out of my chair. The pixie was stronger than she looked.

"You're going to hurt her, Alice!" Edward warned which only caused us to laugh, though his tone was serious. I sat back down and Alice promised to be back after she washed her hands. Emmett walked into the dinning room, joking about how he was ready to eat a whole cow. Edward called him a cow and Emmett realized I was present when I laughed at the joke.

"Hey," he gasped as he stared at me. "Um, uh…you um…Isabella," he furrowed his eyebrows and I mentally slapped myself for forgetting that he was Rosalie's boyfriend. He probably hates me.

"It's Bella and quit looking at her like she's weird," Edward said angrily and I squeezed his hand which was still hidden under the table. I could tell by his eyes that Edward was ready to take a bullet for me. I didn't understand, Emmett didn't seem so bad when he smiled at me.

"Yeah, Bella." Emmett nodded and slowly took a seat across from Edward who was still shooting daggers at him with his eyes. Emmett looked at Edward seeming to ask what I was doing there with his stare, but Edward didn't say anything. Instead, he looked down at me and gave me one of his crooked smiles that I loved.

Alice came back holding a tray and Esme was behind her carrying a few bowls. They both declined my help as they set the food at the table. Alice sat across from me and Esme sat to my left at the head of the table. Carlisle sat at the other end and smiled at me when he caught me looking.

We started eating and it was starting to become difficult eating with one hand, but Edward wouldn't let go. I smiled when he would playfully tug my hand or play with my fingers. The Cullens were talking, but I wasn't paying much attention. They asked me a few questions about myself and school. I gave them honest answers, but I stuttered and lost my words as I spoke. I was so nervous and the way Edward's warm hand felt was too distracting. I did catch Emmett eyeing Edward and me suspiciously a few times and it started to worry me.

"Bella dear, what are your plans for after high school?" Esme asked and the room was silent waiting for my answer. I swallowed my nerves and smiled at her.

"I uh…um I'm thinking of moving to California," I said and I could feel Edward looking at me. I hadn't told him, because I had just received the letters Friday morning. "I've looked at some art colleges there and I've been applying for some scholarships. I just got the letters yesterday that I was approved for some of them."

"That's amazing honey. It sounds exciting," Esme said cheerfully and Alice nodded.

"You should see Bella's art mom. It's amazing and inspiring."

"It is," Edward agreed and smiled at me. I was nervous for his reaction, but his smile assured me that he wasn't upset.

The dinner continued and as I laughed with the Cullens, I took a look around and the melancholy was quick to remind me. I've never really had a family dinner like this one. I quieted myself and turned to look at Edward who was laughing with Carlisle about something. I wanted to kiss him and thank him for this. I don't think he realized how special this was to me.

After dinner, Edward wanted to go outside, but I made him wait as I forced my help on Alice and Esme. He smiled at me and kissed my cheek before he led me to the kitchen. I helped Esme wash the dishes as Alice put the leftovers away. Edward had left but I was too entertained with Esme's stories about younger Edward and how he used to get in trouble with her for silly things.

It made me smile to know that most of the time Edward was a quiet and smart kid. I could tell by the way Esme spoke about him, he was her favorite son though she would never admit it.

"There was just something about a broken Edward, you know? I just wanted to fix him and cuddle him," she said as we finished.

"He's never really been 'cured' of his past demons, but I have always held out hope. He didn't deserve what happened to him as a child," she said sadly.

"What happened to him?" I asked and Esme just shook her head.

"It's not my story to tell dear. But know that under that dark cover Edward likes to hide behind, he is the sweetest boy. His heart is so big, but bad things made him not use it. He put it away and locked it. But you Bella," she whispered and her eyes watered, "you have made him use it again. For that I will be forever thankful to you. You managed to do what I have failed at. You made him want to live again. I can see it in his eyes and when he looks at you. It's as if it couldn't get any better for him. He looks at you as if you were his world." Esme brought me into her arms again. Alice was nowhere to be seen. I guessed she wanted to give us a moment. I smiled as Esme thanked me again.

"I've done nothing, Esme. He's the one who has done so much for me," I assured her as she looked at me. In that same moment, piano music started coming from another room. Esme laughed and shook her head.

"You say you've done nothing, but just listen."

"Is that…"

"Yes, he hasn't played in years and just a few days ago he started playing again." I didn't say anything. Esme excused herself, but not before pointing to where he was. I smiled at her and headed towards the living room.

There he was, my Edward. His back was to me as he lost himself in the piano notes he brought to life. It was beautiful. I slowly walked to his side but he didn't notice me until I sat next to him on the piano bench. He opened his eyes and gave me a warm smile while his hands kept playing. He returned his gaze down to the keys and closed his eyes as I watched.

I watched while he played his sweet and beautiful song. His face at a beautiful peace and I never thought I could feel this much in my heart. It was as if it was an explosion of everything that I felt for him. How could this be wrong? How could this hurt? It felt so good.

He finally stopped playing and slowly turned to look at me.

"That was beautiful," I whispered. He smiled at me and caressed my cheek with the back of his fingers.

"I wrote it for you."

"For me?" I gasped and he simply nodded. "You wrote such a beautiful song, Edward. I don't deserve it," I choked and I tried hiding my eyes from him. He placed a finger under my chin and pulled my face up to look at him in the eyes. His pressed his forehead against mine and his warmth caused me to sigh.

"Of course you do. It's what I feel for you Bella," he whispered and, without realizing, I placed a hand on his chest. Instead of pushing him away like I once thought I would, I pulled him closer to me. His green eyes were soft as they looked into mine and, through his shirt, I could feel his heart beat. He placed his hand over mine.

"You feel that for me?"

"I do." His voice broke and I closed my eyes trying to contain my emotions. "Don't close your eyes. I need to know that you want this too." I opened my eyes again to find his looking at my lips.

I want to. I want this so much. It feels so right.

He kissed my cheek and I gasped as his soft lips made contact with my skin. He again asked me with his eyes if he could kiss me. I didn't say anything but he knew the answer. He slowly neared my lips with his and my heart raced as we both anticipated the moment where his lips and mine would finally join together. His lips lightly and smoothly brushed against mine and we both gasped. He gently placed his hands on both sides of my face and pulled me to him to finally give us what we needed. I closed my eyes and waited. I was going to let him do this, because there had never been anything I had wanted more than this.

Just as I felt his warm breath against my lips a loud and obnoxious voice scared us apart.

"Bella! You total b word!" Alice screeched as she flew down the stairs. Edward groaned in annoyance as I pulled away. Alice finally got to us and looked between Edward and me suspiciously.

"We totally have to talk!" She said anyway and Edward sighed heavily and stood up. "Oh shut up Edward, you get to have her all the time. We never get to hang out," she whined. Edward didn't listen and instead left the room, but not before smiling back at me. I smiled back feeling my heart so heavy for him.

Alice sat next to me on the bench after Edward left and clapped her hands as if she were six years old.

"Bella, why didn't you tell me James Whitley asked you out?" She squealed and I looked at her confused.

"Um, uh I didn't think much of it, I guess," I mumbled but Alice cut me off with another squeal.

"So it's true! Angela said someone told her that James told someone else who told Ben who totally told Angela that he wanted to ask you out! Then Angela said that James told Ben he had asked you out!"

"So?" I questioned and Alice rolled her eyes.

"So? Bella he's the hottest bachelor in school! Even Tanya Denali wants a piece of that ass! But apparently he only wants yours!" I rolled my eyes at her. "Tell me you said yes! Tell me, tell me,"

"Yes! God damn it Alice! I totally said yes!" I was just annoyed and being sarcastic, but the loud grunt that came from behind us didn't hear my bad attempt at sarcasm. I turned to see an infuriated Edward staring at me…glaring at me. I gasped and stood up ready to make my excuse, but Edward didn't wait for it. With his fisted hands on his sides, he marched to the door and left, closing it with a loud bang behind him.

"Edward!" I called out and as I tried to go after him, Alice grabbed my hand. I was about to shout, but I held it together. I pulled my hand out of hers and glared at her. "I have to explain this to him! He can't hate me!" I panicked, feeling the tears running down my face and Alice sighed.

"Bella, this is good. I knew he was listening. I just said those things on purpose so that I could piss him off.

"What? That's sick!"

"No Bella, I was just trying to stir him up. I'm tired of him being a coward about his feelings for you. He needed that so that he can stop being such a pussy and finally tell you how he feels about you instead of pushing you away," she explained and I wanted to grab her and shake her, but all I managed was to shake my head.

"Alice, you're wrong! I'm the one that pushed him away," I cried and she furrowed her eyebrows in confusion.

"What? What do you mean?"

"He made it pretty clear how he feels, but I'm the one who pushed him away."

"Why?" She asked worriedly and I wiped my tears away.

"I'm just scared. I can't open the doors to him so quickly," I told her and she smiled at me.

"But Bella he adores you! Haven't you seen the way he's changed? You should've seen how he acted around here before you happened! Now he walks around like he's got freaking wings. That ain't no Redbull girlfriend! It's them fuckawesome feelings he has for you! You're just blind! You're gonna go around waiting for the right time, but in the meantime, you'll both walk around empty and sad because you can't be with each other due to your insecurities! Quit wasting time. You only live once. And this may scare you, but you can't see what I see. You can't see what my mother sees. That boy would do anything for you. He would put the whole world at your feet. How the in the world can that be bad?" She shouted and I knew she was frustrated, but I couldn't help but chuckle.

"Oh Bella, I'm so sorry." She walked to me and hugged me tightly. "I have no idea what your life has been like. I have no right. You should just open those doors when you're ready and let the right one in."

Let the right one in.

Alice is a genius.

"No Alice, I want to explain things to Edward. I said 'hell no' to James. He's such a douchebag," I said and Alice giggled.

"He totally is! Oh my god I thought I was the only one that thought so, but all these little sluts at school throw themselves at him," she said in disgust.

"And you're right Alice. I also…" I took in a shaky breath and smiled at her. "I wanna let Edward in. I don't wanna be empty anymore. He makes it better. Way better." Alice squealed, jumped up and down and clapped her hands again and couldn't help but laugh at her excitement.

"Is he the right one?" Alice asked waggling her eyebrows at me. I didn't answer her and instead marched away and opened the door to the Cullens house and headed out.

I was going to find him.

I was going to find my Edward, because he's real this time. I was going to find him.

Soooo do we still wanna slap Bella? I never wanted to because to be honest, I made this Bella up. Bahahaha Many of you are worrying about the bet. Please trust me on this. The bet will come up and I hate it as much as you do. I promised happy times and I meant it. Edward has some explaining to do first.

This story may be coming to its end in a few weeks if I can get my shiz together. There is a lot that still has to happen so hold on (love, fluff, some more angst, then more love). For sure, it will be done by the end of the year.

Review and I shall love you forever. Every moment of forever that is…oh movie Edward how I love thee and thy romantic cheese.

Chao!