WOW! For some reason you guys decided to show me some major love and ATTY quickly passed the 1k review mark. I thank you from the bottom of my angst filled heart. I read all reviews and I swear I squeal like annoying Alice who most of you wanted to slap last chap.

Thanks to my one and only edwardrocksmysocks for not being mean to me when I screw up the English language.

Here is Edward, who most of you worried would f**k up again. Let's see if he did…

Ch25/Edward/Sharpie Girl

I'm so fucking stupid.

God, can't I be right about something for once in my life? I thought she wanted my love. I thought she could see it. I thought she could see, but I was wrong.

Just because she doesn't want your love, doesn't mean she can't see it!

Just shut the fuck up!

I punched the ground I sat on and immediately felt the sting. I grabbed my hand and bit down on my tongue to keep me from screaming like a little girl. I had punched a tree on my way to my meadow and, at the time, I didn't think much of it until I repeated the same dumb ass move. I realized my knuckles were bleeding now and the dirt made it sting worse. I exhaled loudly and glared at the scenery ahead of me.

I was acting like such a fucking cry baby, but I couldn't help it. I know I needed to grow up and face the music that my Bella didn't want me the same way. But did she have to play with my fucking heart this way?

I knew I had no right to question her since I myself had yet to confess to her the real reason I had approached her in the first place.

After I had taken Bella out that Sunday, the next day at school, Rosalie reminded me that I had a responsibility to finish with what we had planned. I fucking spat at her, telling her she could kiss my ass and walked off. She, of course, didn't appreciate it, but kept her claws away. Though she didn't do anything more, she would give me these looks when she would catch me walking with Bella or say little comments about popping cherries and other bullshit. I hadn't realized how much I really hated Rosalie and how much I fucking wondered why my brother liked her.

He of course was confused with everything. While I walked up to my room, leaving Bella with Esme and Alice, he stopped me to ask what the hell I was doing bringing her to our house. I ignored him and threaten to kick his ass if he said anything to her. He didn't say anything back and nodded. We had already had a huge fight earlier this week. I exploded on Rosalie when Emmett brought her home yesterday. She was talking shit about Bella and I called her a bitter bitch that couldn't get over what happened to her and Emmett hated when someone would remind Rosalie. Nobody had the right to remind her of the fucked up shit that happened to her, but it was nobody's fault. He almost punched me, but Carlisle stopped him. Rosalie left crying, of course, and I was made out to be the bad guy.

Emmett hadn't talked to me all day today and when he finally did, it was to nag about Bella being in his house. It worried me that he had started to dislike Bella too. It wasn't like Emmett to hate someone but I understood. Bella had pissed Rosalie off and Emmett, strangely, feels love for that monster so whatever she decides to do he will follow. Like hate Bella…

Rosalie's persistence made me nervous all week.

I couldn't sleep with the guilt and fear weighing heavy on my thoughts. I felt guilty I hadn't told Bella the truth, but it seemed that every time we took steps forward to something good, something bad from me always fucked it back up. I was tired of having her mad or upset with me and I feared that once she knew, she would not forgive me again. I wouldn't be able to live without her. It was fucking crazy how dependent I had become upon her.

I was fucking needy and I had tried to back off and give her breathing room, but then she would text me at night hinting that she missed me and acted like she wanted me around. I began to have false hope and I really thought she wanted me to kiss her at my piano, but then reality slapped the shit out of me.

How could she have said yes to fucking James Whitley? She said fucking yes! I, who has begged her, sit all alone in my fucking pathetic state while she's with my sister probably planning what to wear on her date with that motherfucker. I wiped away the few tears that escaped my eyes and groaned as my injured hand reminded me again that I had a bad temper.

It was getting dark. I knew I should probably get back home since I had no flashlight with me, but I couldn't make myself move. The moon, from afar, started to fully show its face and I shook my head. Time passed, but my fucking heart didn't seem to fucking notice. It still hurt like a motherfucker.

I had put myself out there and it cost me the worst pain. Though I resented Bella for this, I knew I would keep begging her. I knew I would be at my knees for the rest of my life and not for the reason I sometimes fantasize with a ragging hard on, but because I would spend the rest of my life trying to be good enough. She would have to see it eventually. Right?

I'm pathetic.

I should have seen this coming. I saw when James went up to her before English. I wanted to go up to him and rip him a new asshole for even daring to speak to her, but then I saw her giggling at him and looking at him with those traitorous brown eyes I love. I let it go and went to class and I thought I would get over it, but then I saw her when she came into class and her beautiful smile reminded me that I didn't have her. It reminded me that she could fall for any other asshole out there. Assholes like James, Mike, Eric fucking Yorkie or even Jacob Black. She would fall for them. They didn't take on a bet to take her virginity for vengeance. They didn't lie to her. They didn't act like total jerks to her or make her cry. I have and I hate myself so fucking much for it, because I have ruined any chance of her ever loving me back.

I lost her, before I even had her.

I glared at the sky.

I feel like a child.

I stayed in the same position for a few minutes until I heard footsteps. I snapped my head up as a few twigs broke from the feet making their way to me. I turned to find the source of the noise and my body jumped up when I saw her pretty face. I felt weak on my feet, but my heart raced as she made her way to me.

Her cheeks were flushed and I finally noticed that it was cold as a motherfucker. Her lower lip was in between her teeth and her brown eyes looked at me nervously. She had slowed her steps when she had spotted me and slowly made her way to me. I quickly wiped my face and sniffed away any evidence that I was crying like a bitch, but Bella noticed it anyway.

At first I thought I was seeing shit. Maybe God wanted to pick on me and make a fake Bella appear just to tug at my feelings. But when I sniffed in her sweet Bella aroma, I quickly apologized to God and held my breath as she made it to me.

She finally stood in front of me, examining my face with her soft eyes. I looked down in shame and shook my head.

"You found me," I muttered.

"I did," she simply whispered back and closed the distance between us. She took my face in her small hands and I finally looked her. "I did," she repeated and neared her lips to my face. I closed my eyes and bent my knees to meet her short stature and she kissed under my right eye and then my left. She ran her sweet, soft lips down to my jaw and placed another kiss there. I couldn't help but let out a broken breath as she brushed her beautiful lips across to my chin placing another sweet but longer kiss.

I opened my eyes to meet her soft and warm gaze. She smiled at me and I smiled back. She licked her full lips and looked at mine.

Was this really it? God, I wished it was. I wouldn't be able to handle it anymore if something else interrupted. Just this once. Please, just one real kiss and I will die a happy man.

Before I could be disappointed, Bella pulled me down to her and wrapped her arms around my neck. With her eyes halfway closed, she neared my lips with hers. Before my heart could give out, she pressed her sweet, soft lips against mine. I hummed as soon as our lips touched and kissed her back. I wrapped my arms around her small waist, pulled her up from the ground and pressed her tight to my body. She felt so warm and soft and so fucking right. I could tell she had never kissed anybody as she didn't move her lips. I broke away just for an instant to smile, but quickly took her lips with mine again. This time I pressed her lips a little more forcefully with mine.

I moved from her upper to her plump bottom lip making her whimper. Sucking and tasting and I really felt like I couldn't get enough. She was so warm and tasted like heaven with a hint of vanilla and it was quickly becoming a sweet, addictive drug. I moved my lips against hers and Bella finally got the clue and started to move her lips with mine. She threaded her fingers in the back of my hair and, to my surprise pulled me closer to her, deepened the kiss. A shock of warmth spread through my chest as I felt like she really wanted this as much I did.

A part of me was thrilled it was finally happening. God only knows how much I've wanted this kiss. In a way, her being the one to initiate it made everything so much better. It made me forget the pain in my knuckles and the reason I was so pissed at her. I would happily drown in a sea of this overwhelming feeling spreading like wildfire across my chest.

After another few seconds of Bella's sweet lips in my mouth, we both broke away gasping for fucking oxygen. I mentally cursed at my lungs. I never wanted to stop. I wanted to attack her beautiful mouth again, but her heavy breathing against my lips made me hold back. Our foreheads were pressed together and I opened my eyes to find hers still closed. Her skin was flushed and her mouth slightly open as she tried to catch her breath. She was so fucking beautiful.

"Wow," she managed to breathe out and I chuckled placing her back on her feet.

"That's a fucking understatement, more like fuckawesome," I whispered against her lips and she smiled at me while opening her eyes.

"Such a romantic," she teased and glanced at my lips. I could see it in her eyes and the joy of knowing she wanted to kiss me again almost made me cry like a fucking girl. Before she could think of anything that could change her mind, I cupped her face and kissed her again. She held onto my chest and for a moment I panicked thinking she would push me away. Instead she grabbed onto my sweater and pulled herself up to press her lips more firmly against mine.

We both hummed in unison as our lips met again. It was amazing how her lips molded with mine and her lower lip fit in between my lips, like the belonged together. I could do this forever. I would. My hands roamed down her back and to her waist, squeezing her soft skin that was now exposed as her sweater rose up with her movements. I really wanted to move them a little further down and maybe make her mouth meet my tongue, but decided not to be a horny douche. Instead I settled for a quick and gentle swipe of my tongue across her lower lip. She tensed up and I wanted for her to feel loved, so I began placing chaste kisses on the side of her mouth, across her jaw and finally on her neck.

"Bella," I moaned into her skin. "You don't know how long I've waited for you." She sighed at my words and I wrapped my arms around her small waist as I buried my face into her neck. With parted lips I kissed her neck and ran them up to the back of her small ear. "You taste like sparkles," I said playfully. She giggled and I sighed, feeling relieved she was still with me.

I pulled my head back to look at her and her smile quickly faded as she licked her lips and her eyes looked down at her feet. She touched her lips with her fingertips and gulped. The blush on her cheeks gave her away. I chastely kissed her blush, something I always want to do when her shyness makes an appearance.

"What's wrong? Did I suck?" I asked arching an eyebrow and she quickly shook her head.

"No! No, not at all…"

"First kiss disappointed? I've never kissed a girl who I really liked. I'm a total fail. I fucking…I'll get better…if not…"

"Edward, will you shut the hell up?" She shouted and I laughed with her.

"Then?"

"Then…it was the most amazing experience ever. I can't believe I get to say that was my first kiss," she whispered, but her face still held worry.

"Then what is it?"

"I've never kissed anybody," she whispered into my chest and she wrapped her arms around my waist and resting her head against my heart. "Was I any good? Did you enjoy it?" He worried voice let me know that she was seriously worried. Silly girl. I rolled my eyes at her and, instead of saying anything, pulled her away from my chest and gave her three quick pecks on the lips, before taking my favorite lip of hers in my mouth again. After we both ran out of breath again, I broke our kiss and pressed my forehead against hers.

"Bella, I've fantasized about kissing you for the longest time," I whispered breathlessly and her eyes snapped opened. "It's true. I obsessed over it like a freak. You can attest to how hard I've tried." She nodded and shook her head.

"I'm so sorry Edward," she said and wrapped her arms around my neck. "I've wanted to kiss you too, but I was scared."

"Don't apologize, love." I don't know where that came from, but I've wanted to call her that for the longest time. Yet I was too chicken shit to say those three words to her. "I know. I was just an impatient bastard," I muttered and she softly giggled.

"And about James…" Suddenly my smile faded and I was about to pull away when Bella pulled me closer. "Don't run off cry baby," she warned and I couldn't help but laugh at her attempt to sound tough. "If we're gonna be any good at this…you and I…you have to stop pulling away when something bad happens." I nodded and apologized with a sad smile. "About James, I was just bullshitting. Alice was just annoying me and I just exploded. I didn't mean for you to hear or hurt you," she said seriously and I wanted to kick my own ass for making her apologize when I had to apologize for years of teasing and for that fucking bet that clouded over me.

"So Alice was annoying you?" I asked trying to change the subject and she nodded.

"I really wanted to kiss you." My heart swelled and I felt like squealing...Alice style.

"We now have two things in common."

"Yeah?" She asked playfully.

"Uh huh. Annoying Alice and I really wanna kiss you too." I gave her another chaste kiss. "Did James really ask you out?" She huffed and rolled her eyes.

"Yep."

"That motherfucker!"

"Calm down Cullen. He seemed nice and took it like a man…well sorta… when I said no." I groaned.

"Bella, you remember when you found my broken ass in the woods and took me to your house to fix me up?"

"How I could I forget? I was so scared for you. You're pretty little face was all bruised up and bloody," she teased and I playfully squeezed her tight against me, making her laugh. "It was the first time we really bonded. It was when I stopped feeling nervous and awkward around you." She smiled at the memory, making me smile once again.

"Really? It was the same for me," I confessed. She caressed my cheek with her hand and I really began to think the smile on my face was permanent. "You really think my face is pretty, though?"

"Oh totally," she giggled.

"Well, guess who fucked it up that one time?" She widened her eyes.

"James?" She gasped and I nodded. "No, he's…" she paused and shook her head. "I knew he was a douche bag." I laughed and when I remembered that her father had also been the one to kick my ass that night, I was quickly returned back to reality. I decided not to tell her that part. "I'm cold," she said snuggling into my chest.

"Well, let me take you home. It's getting late anyway."

"Ok." I kissed the top of her head and, though I really didn't want to let her go, I pulled away and took her hand in mine to start our walk back to my house. I hissed when her small fingers grazed my injured knuckles. She pulled my hand to her face and glared at me.

"Cullen…"

"It was an accident."

"The truth Cullen."

"Fine, I got into a fight with a tree," I sighed and smiled sheepishly at her.

"What did I say about fighting?"

"You said no more fighting with anybody, but I did keep my promise. I only fought with mother nature this time," I teased as she walked over to my other side, taking my other hand.

"Well mother nature is not at fault for you hot head. You should apologize."

"Sorry mother," I muttered while looking around the woods. She laughed and we began to walk back to my house. I would playfully pull her to me and plant kisses on her cheek and she would kiss me back or slap my arm when I would catch her off guard by kissing her lips. It probably took us twice as long to get back home than it should have, but I didn't care.

I quickly grabbed my keys while Bella said her goodbyes to Esme and Carlisle. I could tell Esme wanted her to come back and I promised her with a smile that Bella would come over again soon. I glared at Alice while she hugged Bella, but my glare didn't bother her as she ended up hugging me too. Emmett was nowhere to be found, but I took that as a good sign.

We rode back to her house in silence which wasn't a bad thing. I was just too damn happy to say anything. I would turn to look at her and a smile was always on her lips. I tapped my fingers on the steering wheel out of excitement.

I held her hand as we made it to her door and sadly had to let it go so she could unlock it.

"I can't believe my mother isn't home yet," she sighed as she pulled me into her house. I didn't question and just followed her as she pulled me to her kitchen. "Sit," she ordered while pointing at a chair and I happily did as I was told. Yeah, I guess I'm whipped. She grabbed a towel and ran it under water. All I could do was stare at her and wait eagerly for the right moment to ask.

"Maybe, the tree won," she said as she cleaned my hand. I chuckled and nodded.

"Totally."

She finished cleaning my hand and quickly threw the bloody rag away. "I'm sorry I'm always making you clean my wounds. It must be hard to put up with me and my tendency to bleed when I get pissed. I promise to never let you see my blood again," I said and she just smiled.

"You know I hate blood, but I don't hate you. I will swallow the lump in my throat, push away my stupid fear of the nasty red liquid and kiss away your booboos every time you get hurt," she teased as she wrapped my hand with a small rag.

"Speaking of kissing," I whispered and neared my lips to hers. She smiled against my mouth and kissed me back. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her to my lap.

"I think I'm spoiling you with all of these kisses. You're too greedy."

"Well I would apologize, but I'm an addict," I sighed and kissed her again.

"I don't mind."

"Really?"

"Not at all," she whispered and kissed me instead. She wrapped her arms around my neck and pressed her lips forcefully against mine.

"You're a liar," I breathed out and she furrowed her eyebrows.

"Why?"

"You said you've never kissed anybody."

"I haven't!"

"You're too good of a kisser," I teased and she rolled her eyes and returned her lips to mine.

I couldn't believe I was making out with Bella. Finally!

Feeling a little bolder, I gently ran my tongue along her lips causing her to gasp. As her lips parted I quickly snuck my tongue into her mouth finally meeting hers. I groaned as her tongue began to dance with mine and her small body relaxed in my arms. Her hands found their way into my hair, deepening the kiss. Bella's wet mouth tasted amazing. We were breathing heavily through our noses and the way she hummed, whimpered and moaned as my hands worshipped her back and hips made my dick twitch. As our mouths and tongues moved passionately together and with a hunger I didn't know we both held for each other, my pants started to become a little too tight and my hard on was begging for some love. I knew it would hate me for leaving it neglected, but for the first time I was thinking with the right head.

Bella was new to this and, without realizing it, I was letting her lust take over. I couldn't let her do that and pulled away from her. She placed her face in my neck and held on to me for dear life as she tried to catch her breath. The way her warm breath hit my skin wasn't helping my erection and I painfully shifted in my chair so I wouldn't scare her with my body's eagerness and need for her.

Tight and wet, I bet she feels amazing. I bet she smells and tastes…

Dick, shut. The. Fuck. Up. This isn't some stupid chick at a drunken party. It's my Bella and, even though I bet she does feel amazing and even though I want that soooo incredibly bad, we're taking this slow. So cool it.

I shook my head and felt like an idiot for having an inner conversation with my dick and kissed Bella's hand before placing it on my chest. I took deep breaths to calm myself and Edward Jr. down. It was mind blowing how Bella could get me so hot and bothered with just kissing.

Hahhaa blowing?

Fucking…

Bella sat up and started to pull away, but I stopped her, pulling her back to my body.

"I must be heavy," she sighed into my shoulder as we hugged.

"You're not. Let me hold you a little longer. I've waited so long for this," I confessed.

She sat up again placing her hands on my cheeks and smiled while shaking her head. "What is it?" I asked.

"Nothing," she whispered and pressed her forehead against mine. This was the perfect time to ask.

"So how about now?" She looked confused.

"How about what?"

"Will you say yes now? Will you be my girlfriend?" I asked. Her eyes widened and her mouth dropped. "I know it's tacky shit to label us and cheesy for me to ask, but damn it I want it so bad. I want cheese with you." Her face softened. She let out a soft giggled and nodded. "What? What does that mean? Bella, I know our kisses are fucking awesome, but I know they didn't make you mute. I must be a great kisser then."

She rolled her eyes and slapped my arm causing me to chuckle. "You are a great kisser, but I'm not mute so…" she chewed on her lower lips and pretended to look pensive.

"Swan, you're killing me here!"

"Yes, you dork!" Before she could say anything else, I stood up and pulled her up placing kisses all over her face and neck while she giggled.

"Hell yeah!" I paused while she tried to control her laughter. "I can't believe I have a girlfriend. Who would've thought?" I mused.

"Well, the most popular guy, Edward Cullen, is taken by the biggest loser of the school. Typical," she teased. I looked at her in annoyance.

"You're not a loser."

"In school world."

"School world can go fuck itself…twice."

"Ok then." I smiled and kissed her again.

"Does this mean I get to buy you stuff?"

"No, Cullen," she muttered.

"Why not?"

"Because I don't need anything. I just need you." Her last words were whispered, but I would be able to hear them miles away.

"Does this mean I get to make out with you?"

"Sometimes."

"Hell yes, and does this mean I get to hold your hand in school?"

"You want to hold my hand? In public?" I glared at her and she quickly got the point. "Um, yeah I'm your girlfriend right? That's what couples do, isn't it?"

"I suppose, I've never had a girlfriend before, but I want to hold your hand because I want to, and not because that's what we're supposed to do."

"Edward, you have evil powers. You and those words you say." She wrapped her arms around my neck again. "I'm dazzled," she sighed.

"I'll show you dazzle." I was about to move in for another kiss when someone cleared their throat. Bella quickly pushed me off and I ignored the little that caused pain in my chest when my eyes caught her mother staring at us.

"Hey mom," Bella said nervously.

"Hello, Mrs. Swan." I'm an idiot.

"Hello Edward," she said calmly. It was sort of scary. "I trust that you two have had fun, but it's late. I'm sure your parents are worried Edward."

"Probably," I muttered. You idiot, she wants you to take the hint and leave. "Um, I should get going." Renee nodded with a smile and I turned to Bella. "Wanna hang out tomorrow?" Bella turned to her mother who just smiled and then back to me.

"Sure," she said softly and I took her hand kissed it. I would've kissed her lips again, but that idea was out the window when Renee decided to show up. I smiled at Renee as I passed her and I headed for the door. I walked to my car with a smile on my face, but before that could change, the door to the Swans opened again.

"Edward!" Bella shouted as she ran to me. She wrapped her arms around me and I hugged her back.

"I'll miss you too love," I laughed.

"Don't ever stop calling me that," she whispered and kissed me goodbye.

/~/~/

To say I wasn't fucking happy the next morning would be blasphemy. Of course I had Alice trying to show me her excitement, annoying the hell out of me and Emmett glaring holes into my face as if I had killed his puppy, but I didn't give a shit.

As soon I made it to Bella's house, my lips were on hers. We watched a movie in her living room. I fought the urge to suggest some normal and innocent teenage making out during the movie, but the way her body curled up next to mine was enough…for now. I settled for chaste and once in a while deep, breath taking kisses.

"You're really going to California?" I asked as she prepared lunch for the both of us.

"I've thought about it a few months ago when Mr. Freeman encouraged me. He said I was gifted or something like that. I didn't hear anything back until a few days ago. I really want to." I nodded and smiled.

"I'm proud of you. You should go. I'm sure you'll impress them with your art."

"What college are you going to?" She asked and I shook my head.

"I don't think I'm going."

"Why?" She sounded worried and I sighed.

"I don't know. It has really never crossed my mind. Besides, I'm not really good at anything."

"That's a lie and you know it. You're an awesome writer."

"I love to write. It doesn't mean I'm any good."

"I read your English assignments when we did our tutoring sessions in the library."

"What? I feel hurt."

"I'm sorry, I couldn't help it. You should see your face when you're concentrating. I knew it had to be good and it was way past the 'good' mark." I smiled feeling a little on cloud nine.

"College? I might take a look into it." Bella clapped.

Renee arrived just in time to have lunch with us. She wasn't so bad. She was nice and funny; I would say a little childish, but Bella loved her. I could tell she still held back from her mother and acted as if she was someone new in her life, but Bella loved her. Why on earth would she stay with a selfish person like her mother if that wasn't the case? I would act totally cool with Renee.

Besides, Renee released some top secret information about baby Bella. Unfortunately for Bella herself, of course. Bella was clumsy as hell from the stories Renee told and a little smart ass. Bella blushed and laughed at some of the stuff I heard but wouldn't protest. I couldn't help but notice Charles never made an appearance in Renee's stories.

"I can't believe you almost set Jacob Black's house on fire?"

"It was an accident and I was only five!" She defended herself as we made it to my car. I laughed as she poked my belly.

"So I'll pick you up tomorrow?"

"Yep."

"And I get to hold your hand."

"As we agreed."

"Good, I can't wait to see the look on James' face when he sees us."

"Oh so that's why?" Bella said angrily and started to walk away.

"Bella, I was only kidding. Shit, I'm sorry." I panicked running after her. She abruptly stopped and giggled as she turned to look at me. "You jerk!" I huffed, but she quickly made me forgive her when she attacked me with a deep kiss.

"I can't wait to see the look on his face either," she said breathlessly.

I took a deep breath as we walked into school. Bella's hand was tightly secured in mine, but the looks everybody was throwing at us made her tense up.

"Chill out, love," I whispered into her ear.

"Everyone is staring."

"Let them. I don't care. Do you?" She smiled warmly and shook her head. "Good." I gave a quick kiss and we continued to her locker. Alice and Angela walked behind us as we made it to Bella's first period and giggled as I gave Bella another kiss before I left.

Girls…

I couldn't sit still in class. I wanted to run to Bella and make sure she hadn't changed her mind, plus I fucking missed her. When I saw her walking to the lunch line, I ran up to her taking her hand in mine. I bought our lunch after she protested and whined and followed her to her table. I sat with her at the band geek table as it was raining outside. I groaned as everybody stared, but became a little at ease when Alice and Angela appeared. They sat with us and I almost fell out of my chair when Jasper sat next to Alice. I loved the guy, but he was someone who knew about the fucking bet and was fucking related to the blonde monster. Bella tensed up around my arm that was holding her against me.

"Hey dude," Jasper said with a friendly smile and turned to look at Bella. "Hello, Bella." Bella nervously smiled at him and I could feel my heart racing like a jackhammer and sweat on my forehead. But then Alice gave me a reassuring smile and winked at me. It made me relax.

Rosalie and the whore bags glared at us from their table and Emmett didn't even look my way the whole lunch period. James walked in and chuckled when he saw Bella and me and sat with some blonde, never looking at us again.

The lunch hour was spent on Jasper and Bella discussing rock bands and best lead singers. At the end, I was happy he was here. As lunch ended so did the rain and so did my nerves. Jasper surprised Bella with a goodbye hug and patted me on the back.

"I'm glad you're back, Ed."

"What the hell you talking about? I haven't missed school."

"No, I meant I'm happy you sent Doucheward back to hell where he belonged and brought the cool Edward back," he said and I rolled my eyes, but knew he was right. "I really like Bella, she's sweet and cool. You should keep her around."

"I'm fighting for that to happen."

"Good to know."

My class period before English ended and I panicked when I didn't find Bella at her locker. I looked around for her and was even late to English. I hoped she would be there, but she wasn't. Mrs. Morris started talking about Hamlet, but the empty seat in front of me made me nervous and worried sick to my stomach.

Surprisingly, Mrs. Morris gave me a pass to the nurse's office when I asked. She usually was a bitch and wouldn't give a shit if we didn't feel good. She told me to feel better and handed me the note to visit the nurse, but I wasn't headed that way. I was going to look for my Bella. I sent her a text, but she didn't answer and I desperately walked through the halls, craning my neck at every direction hoping to spot her brown hair.

"Hey fucktard!" Emmett's voice was too recognizable to pass.

"Hey jerkoff." I kept walking until he pulled my shoulder, shoving me against the lockers. I pushed him off and I could feel the anger in my chest and my fists were ready, but I had promised Bella no more violence. "Get the fuck away from me, dude."

"Not until you tell me what the fuck is going on?"

"I have no idea what you're talking about."

"Hell yeah you do!" I sighed annoyed as fuck. "Dude, you're my fucking brother."

"Not by blood."

"Who gives a shit about blood? We've been there for each other since we were kids. We always had each other's backs. You're my best fucking friend. But now you act like I'm an asshole and treat my girl like shit. She lost Alice's friendship and Jasper is giving her the silent treatment." I laughed darkly.

"Emmett, I'm only mean to your girl, because she's an evil bitch. You're the only one that doesn't notice. She pissed me off for talking shit about Bella. Your girlfriend from hell, can't leave her alone. How can you love someone that would plan a sick joke like that?"

"You're the one that agreed to the fucking bet! You're just as fucking evil."

"I know. I am, but I'm going to make it up to Bella for the rest of my life."

"Dude?" Emmett looked at me confused as hell. "I don't get it. Is that why you're acting like you actually give a shit about her?"

"I fucking love her Emmett," I sighed. "I love her and I will not let anybody hurt her. Not you, not the whores that follow Rosalie around and especially not Rosalie." Emmett and I stood in silence for a few minutes.

"So it's real? The whole meet the parents and playing fucking piano as if you were in a girly movie, was that real?"

"Very." I laughed.

"Wow, I never thought you had it in you bro." He shook his head in disbelief.

"Yeah, well me neither. But sometimes, you find someone that's worth more to you than your own life. It slaps you in the face and kicks you in the nuts and makes you man up. I'm going to man up." Emmett smiled and patted my shoulder.

"I'm happy for you bro."

"Thanks Em," I sighed. "Tell Rosalie and Jasper to come over tonight. I have to talk to them. I have to stop Rosalie and explain." He just nodded and agreement and I started walking away from him.

"Dude, wait." He ran to my side. "What are you doing?"

"Looking for Bella."

"I'll help you." I really loved Emmett sometimes. We finally gave up on the inside of the school and walked out the building. We walked halfway around the school and I started to panic when I couldn't find her. "Dude calm down, maybe she just went home."

"She would've told me and she doesn't have a ride."

"Oh, well let's keep looking." I was about to send her the twentieth text message today when the noise of a spray bottle caught my ear. I ran to the noise and when I got past some bushes, I spotted her pale hands and brown hair.

"Bella!" I shouted causing her to jump, but she quickly relaxed as she saw it was me. I don't know if Emmett followed me, but all I cared was to get to Bella. She dropped the bottle of liquid she held and the rag and waited for me to wrap her in my arms. "I was so fucking worried," I said in between kisses. "Where did you go?"

"I wanted to tell you, but the assistant principal took me right out of class," she said out of breath. I smiled in relief and kissed her again, but she quickly pushed me away when Emmett finally caught up.

I ignored him. "What are you doing, baby?" I asked looking at the bottle and dirty rag on the ground. She laughed and picked them up.

"You remember the time you and your friends got caught smoking weed?" All my happiness faded and I nervously nodded. "You remember how everybody thought it was me who told on you?" I gulped and quickly glanced at Emmett who looked too intrigued with what she was saying. "Well, I didn't tell on you. I was actually pulled out here by Mrs. Walton. She wanted me to clean my drawing off from the wall, but instead smelled your stuff. She finally remembered to make me clean it and pulled me out of class today," Bella laughed as she pointed to the wall behind me.

I slowly turned and spotted the drawing of a little girl sitting on a big hand, her arms and legs wrapped in vines. It was the same drawing Jasper and I had seen that same day. I gulped and my knees felt weak and my stomach turned upside down. With trembling fingers I traced the little girl's hair. The Sharpie marker was too strong and Bella had only managed to smudge it a little and so the sad little girl still lived on the wall.

I turned to look at Emmett who was staring at the drawing with wide eyes and an opened mouth. "Edward, you okay?" She asked and I nervously smiled at her.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I kissed her lips one more time, hoping she hadn't notice my shaking. I hope she didn't hear my heart pounding against my chest. I hoped she would hear how much I wished she could forgive me.

I dropped Bella off at her house and promised to pick her up from work and drove in silence to my house. I slowly made it up the stairs and into my room feeling like every step I took was the heaviest I had ever taken. I sat on my bed staring out the window, wondering how the hell I was going to do this. I don't want to lose her. I finally had her. My love. My life. I felt it running through my hands like water and I panicked. I hyperventilated and cursed at the heavy emptiness in my room.

I fell on my knees and buried my face into my arms while resting them on my bed. I let out an ugly sob.

"Please God, don't let it happen. Help me keep her. Make me worthy of her forgiveness. I don't wanna lose her. Please help me. Please!" I begged and the tears soaked my bed sheets and the sobs escaping my chest echoed in my room. I ignored the opening of my door and the heavy movement on the bed from the body that sat beside me. "Please," I cried and the person patted my back.

"You have to tell her dude," Emmett said sadly. I looked up at him with a watery vision, but I could still see his honest remorse in his face.

"I know."

Take a deep breath my lovelies. It's not as bad as it looks. Trust me on this. So what do we think Rosalie will say to our dear Ed?

Hope everybody who celebrates Halloween had a good time. And for you who don't, I pass to you imaginary candy : ) All I can say is that I looked ridiculous in my outfit and have a sugar rush that will last me all week.

Please let me know what you think of this chap or anything else and I shall love you forever.

Adios and TTYL

P.S Don't you just love some lovey dovey Edward and Bella?