-i do not own the greatest show on the planet. thats degrassi. sigh. i dont own the characters. double sigh. i do own the story :)
-i was pretty bored today so i decided to write three chapters today! IM ON A ROLL! l0l.
-i thank you guys for the reviews. Pease keep reviewing I get really happy reading them.
*btw i was listening to The Mortician's Daughter by the Black Veil Brides (BEST BAND EVERR!) and I'll Be Loving You Long Time by Mariah Carey. i like her voice.
Tonight, I Love You
Chapter 3
Your Eyes Says Enough
(Eli POV)
I sat in the desk in front of her hoping to get her attention. It worked perfectly. I felt her chair shift as she leaned in by my ear.
"You know, I'm not afraid to tell Simpson you're stalking me." She whispered. I smiled and turned around to face her. I faked a hurt look.
"I thought you enjoyed my presence Blue Eyes? Now I feel like an ass for transferring into this class." I then gave her my signature smirk. "You do enjoy my presence right?" I saw a blush rose onto her cheeks. 'I think I like this' I thought. I waited for her to respond.
"I uh…I don't…sure, maybe." She stumbled.
"Wow for the first time no comeback?" She looked up into my eyes. "I enjoy your presence." She looked around the room quickly and leaned up so our faces were inches away.
"I have to warn you though. . . If you enjoy my presence for too long you might fall in love with me. "As she said that her blue eyes felt as if they was looking into my soul, reading my heart, and melting away the painful memories. I didn't think about Julia, I didn't think about our fight, I didn't think about my fears; I thought about Clare, how she might be the cure for the nightmares, the cure for my misery, the cure for my heart. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to forget about Julia. I didn't want to lose the good memories we shared, I wanted to be able to stop feeling guilty, I want to stop obsessing, and I need to stop hurting. But I couldn't do that to Clare. I couldn't lead her on knowing, knowing I can't love her in all the ways I could because I am afraid, because I am a murderer. After she learns my secret, she will reject me, and I don't know if I will be able to handle that. Adam knows my secret and he haven't left me hanging, but he's not my type.
What if she never wants to talk to me afterwards?
Clare noticed my mind was wondering so she smirked and leaned back into her chair twirling her ring.
"But that won't happen." She said barely above a whisper.
"And. . ." I started before Mrs. Dawes started talking.
"Mr. Goldsworthy, Ms. Edwards I need your attention please." She said looking over her glasses.
I looked at her before I turned around in my chair.
I have to admit, English, Literature was my favorite subject. It was the only class I can get straight A's in. All the other class I was destined to only make C's. But I don't try in those other classes as much as I can either. I sighed quietly and thought about Clare and the Assignment Mrs. Dawes was handing us. We had to write about an experience that changed our lives completely.
Oh great, another thing I have to do to make me think about Julia.
(Clare POV)
"But that won't happen"
I replayed our conversation over and over in my head as I walked home. Eli's presence made me feel confident. Of course I enjoyed it. I said the things in my mind, I was usually afraid to say out loud. But look at me. I'm not beautiful enough for Eli. He only flirted with me because I was the first girl he knew here. KC grew tired of me, and so will Eli.
I looked up at my door, not really wanting to go inside. I wonder what my mom will blame me for tonight. Will it be the divorce? Will it be Darcy's death? Or will tonight be one of those nice nights we have with each other.
I held my breath and walked inside. I looked around and noticed no one home so I let my breath go in relief. I walked up the stairs and opened my room door. My room was my escape from the cruel world outside. I thought being with KC would make the world better, but he made it lonelier now that he left me. I thought about Eli and I knew it was impossible to like him since I know nothing about him and don't anything about me.
I kind of wanted it to stay that way. He didn't need to know that my first boyfriend dumped me for a put out. He didn't need to know my dad got tired of mother and decided he's better off alone. He didn't need to know my mother verbally abuse me every other night. He didn't need to know my sister killed herself because she was raped at a ski party and had so many nightmares she couldn't bear to live.
I missed Darcy. She made me feel beautiful about myself. She was so confident and beautiful, and she didn't need to have sex with a guy to make him fall in love with her. I admired her for that. But she did want to have sex with Peter because; well anyone could tell he loved her unconditionally. She never got the chance; she never gave herself a chance. And I still feel that I could've stopped it, I could've stopped her from dying. I guess my mom felt I could've stopped it too because every since then I was blamed.
As I was looking through my sister's pictures, I heard the front door open and close, and I waited. I waited to find out how my night was going to end. I slowly closed the photo album and put it on my night stand.
"CLARE. . ." I held my breath. "I brought Chinese Take-out." I exhaled thinking this was a good start. I jumped off my bed and ran down the stairs.
"Hi Mom." I said hoping I didn't speak too soon. She turned around with a sincere smile on her face.
"Hello Clare-Bear. How was your day?"
We ate dinner and talked as if we were a happy family. I told her about my second day of school and how great it was going. Once I got into my room, I logged on to my IM page and noticed I had a friend request from Eli. Of course, I accepted it, and I waited until he IM me.
Eli-Golds: I see you accepted me ;)
ClareRockx: yea. You seemed desperate.
Eli-Golds: Ouch Edwards, that's gonna leave a mark.
I giggled at his fake hurt.
ClareRockx: sorry, I didn't think that a guy that wore all black like you could easily get his feelings hurt.
Eli-Golds: there's more to me than what meets the eye Edwards.
I thought long about what he said. What could it mean? I wanted to get to know the real Eli Goldsworthy. I looked at my screen as another message from Eli popped on the screen.
Eli-Golds: I have to warn you though. . . If you get to know the real me you might fall in love with me.
Eli-Golds is offline.
-Author's Note-
I decided to start with Eli's POV this time instead of Clare's. Tell me how you feel. Review. Thanks love you guys!