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For the first time in her life, Haruhi could honestly say that she felt horrible. As a naturally aloof person, she had never done much to anyone that had a heavy effect on his or her lives and, frankly, she had never planned to do that to anyone. But that had all changed yesterday… For the first time she had been forced to make another person's good day go suddenly awry and actually make them unhappy.
It was just rotten luck it happened to be Tamaki.
Haruhi sighed a heavy and shaky sigh, much like one that was used to stop unannounced tears from getting too far, as she lay on her bed staring at the ceiling. A part of her felt absolutely horrible, yet another livelier part felt refreshed and free and it was this quarrel that had confused the female after she returned home. Why? She didn't know…and it was enough to make her hate herself.
Why she had done it in the first place was a better question but after pondering it for a few seconds she realized the answer was simple. The twins had been right; she had gotten tired of Tamaki somewhere along the lines of moving, school and work. She had just been too blind and in denial to see it. She had long convinced herself that no one could possibly find Tamaki, the dramatic king of The Host Club, to be…dull, even after a prolonged time. Annoying yes, but never boring.
But she had been wrong.
She wondered why she hadn't noticed, or embraced it earlier. Was it because she still had a shred of hope that things would get better or because she didn't want to admit that things were slowly starting to shift in the former club? Or both? Haruhi didn't know, and she was getting tired of thinking about it. What's done was done and wouldn't be changing anytime soon.
Still…She wondered how the other former hosts would react when they heard the news.
The female groaned and turned to her stomach and back to the textbook that was folded open on her bed and tried to concentrate on it like she had before her mind had wondered aimlessly. Only to find she couldn't. Just like a few days ago a million questions were running through her head and all of them were centered around what had been her relationship with The King. How would everyone else react when they found out? Haruhi shook her head and told herself not to be so worried. Knowing the others it would probably end up that Kyoya had seen it coming, much like the twins (who would probably be glad the whole thing had gone up in flames), and then Honey and Mori…Well, Haruhi wasn't sure about them….
"This is ridiculous," The female whispered to herself. "Quit dwelling on it and get over it already."
Her voice disappeared into the quiet room and she sighed again, and stood up. Being in her room just meant she was going to sit in silence and let her mind wander. Grabbing a jacket she made up her mind to walk down the block and back as she grabbed her keys and opened her door.
Only to once again come face-to-face with Hikaru, though Kaoru stood next to him with the same startled expression.
"Running late for something again?" The younger twin asked, his surprise turning into that typical Hitachiin complacency after a spilt second.
Haruhi shook her head. "No. I was just going out…Why are you guys here?" She asked suddenly, feeling it was a better question.
In response the twins just looked at each other and shrugged. "We dunno," they said straightforwardly. "We were bored and you seemed a bit upset earlier so we decided to stop by and brighten your day," they finished with cheeky grins and Haruhi sweatdropped. Why couldn't she have one bad day without some other host butting into her life? Then again she supposed she deserved it after moping around campus all day where the guys that knew her the best were also enrolled.
"Thanks but I'd rather not have any 'cheering up' right now." The female rejected softly, causing the twins to tilt their heads in confusion and she cursed under her breath knowing what was going to come next.
"Is that so?" The brothers raised identical eyebrows in question as they leaned forward until they were well inside Haruhi's personal bubble, eyeing the female with those sly, golden eyes. "And why's that?"
They didn't expect a real answer, to be honest Haruhi hardly ever fessed up what was bugging her whenever something really was, but when the female took a deep breath and told them, the twins' simply blinked, thinking they had heard wrong.
"You mind repeating that?" Hikaru asked, cupping his hand around his ear.
"I don't think we quite got it." Kaoru added, mimicking his brother's action.
Haruhi sighed. "I….ended it with Tamaki…" she said, sounding no more pleased by it the second time around as the twins looked at each other, shocked. They had heard right but they sure didn't believe it. Even in their skewed way of looking at it, things between the former couple seemed just fine but when Hikaru thought back to his time with the female the other night he realized it was anything but.
"But…Why?" Kaoru questioned, sounding almost distraught by the news.
"It's not because of anything we said, was it?" Hikaru asked, ignore the look Kaoru tossed his way. To anyone else, the older twin's question would have sounded genuine enough but Kaoru could pick up on the tones that came with it. It was obvious Hikaru was secretly glad, but he was careful not to show it to Haruhi.
The female shook her head, slowly. " No," she replied. "It's just…I don't know…Things just weren't working out between us, that's all."
There was a silence, during which the twins looked at each other then to the female. "Haruhi..." They said softly, before narrowing their eyes and scoffing. "Don't give us that, what really happened?" They questioned forcefully, making the female scowl at them.
"Things between us just changed, okay?" She stated stonily, already annoyed (and somewhat uneasy) by the conversation. "I don't know how I didn't see it coming, but it did and there's nothing that can be done, alright? So let's forget about it."
The twins looked at her before glancing to each other and shrugging. Their curiosity was far from gone but they knew better than to drag on a subject that was likely going to end with Haruhi yelling at them. So, as if the last few minutes had never happened let alone existed, they linked arms with the female and dragged her out of her house before she could even begin to protest.
"Well, since you're free," Hikaru began good-humoredly as the trio continued down the hall without breaking stride.
"Wanna catch a movie?" Kaoru asked, though if the pace they were walking was anything to go by the twins weren't about to let the female refuse by any means.
Haruhi had half a mind to smack them both as she looked at them in disbelief before seeing the sincerity in their eyes. As annoying as the twins could be, and no matter how outlandish that last request may have sounded, she knew they were just trying to help in their own way. Sighing inwardly, and figured she had to get out of her apartment anyway, she reluctantly agreed. It was a rare thing for the twins to show any type of compassion towards anyone, and a part of her was glad they chose her to partake in the sporadic event.
The twins didn't let her go until they were halfway out of the building and only after she threatened to kick her way free. The trio continued to walk while chit-chatting about anything that came to mind (though they made a point to veer away from a certain broken relationship) until they reached the theatre, bought their tickets to a movie neither of them was quite sure of and watched it with no little amount of amusement.
By the time the movie ended, the sun had almost set completely, though rays of oranges and reds were still shining through the trees that surrounded the theatre. The air had long gone chilly and Haruhi was immediately glad that she had managed to grab a jacket before being kidnapped on her movie date. Regardless, the wind blowing through the city still managed to chill the former hosts even as they did their best to conserve what heat they could by walking shoulder-to-shoulder. Haruhi had to admit, the movie had definitely taken her mind off the day's earlier events and she felt almost relaxed, as weird as it seemed, to the point where she could enjoy the setting sun and feel a renewed sense of sovereignty as well.
The silence that had engulfed the group was only broken when Kaoru's voice rose up in a question. "Did you hear that Honey-senpai and Mori-senpai are coming by for a visit?"
Haruhi did, though "coming by" made it seem like nothing more than a Sunday drive to downtown. All things considered, to the rich, it probably was just like a casual journey so it made sense, she supposed. "It'll be nice to have us all together again," she said with a small smile and Hikaru nodded in agreement.
"I'm sure The Boss will have a field with us all here, though," he added flatly.
"Meaning he's probably going to drag us all downtown for some needless shopping or something," Kaoru agreed in much the same tones as they continued to walk in silence once more, the only sound accompanying them was their footsteps on the cold pavement and whatever noises came from the world around them. They stayed this way until they reached their building and say their farewells and goodnights to each other, then went their separate ways for the night. The twins had hardly been back in their room a second before Kaoru's voice rose up into another question, this one far less happy-toned then the last.
"Are you happy now?"
Hikaru looked up to meet his brother's eyes, noticing the emotion that had been behind them all night for the first time. A cold disappointment was staring Hikaru right in the face as he felt an odd mix of guilt and annoyance wash through him as he narrowed his eyes.
"How was I supposed to know this was going to happen?" Hikaru defended sourly. "Besides, it's not like it was our fault. You heard her…things weren't working out."
"But if you hadn't keep prodding the subject, none of this would have happened." Kaoru pointed out.
"What else was I supposed to do?" The older twin walked to the bedroom and plopped down on their bed, staring at the ceiling absently. "Even you could see Haruhi wasn't happy…"
Karou sighed and sat on the opposite side of his brother, staring down at his brother's face. "But it's not your place to mess around in people's lives, Hikaru."
Hikaru stared back at him, slightly annoyed. "This coming from the one who's always telling me I need to 'open up'"
"I also told you to let her go." Karou reminded him then, after a short silence, sighed. "Face it, we screwed up. Both of us…"
"So what do you think will happen now?" Hikaru asked quietly, the worry clear in is voice. "The club's never had anything like this happen before…"
"I know…" Kaoru sighed, "but there is no club anymore, you know that."
It was, strictly speaking, the truth but the twin's didn't like thinking of the club as disbanded per se. After all, the club had been the one place where they had learned to actually like other people as apposed to locking away their emotions or care for others like they had as kids. The club was the first place were people had actually came to think of them as two different people, where others had actually bothered to at east try to tell them apart and care about them. Somewhere along the lines The Host Club had become more than just an afterschool thing they had bothered to be a part of: it had become a second home with people who had become their friends, even if they didn't want to admit it.
But now that was about to be tested, they knew.
They just hoped what the former hosts had was stronger than this trial.
Yep. There's only 2 chapter (and an epilogue) left before this ffic is complete AND I'm almost done writing it all! I'll be glad to have another finished ffic off my shoulder XD That way I can just write more ;P If you read please, please, please review!
