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Tonight, I Love You

Chapter 9

Part 1: The Party

(Clare POV)

"He had the audacityto say I was jealous of him and Anya. Can you believe it Alli? We went from talking and IM every night to him ignoring me completely. I was just concerned about my friend but he called me jealous." I shook my head and looked over at Alli who was still rambling through my closet to find me something to wear to Drew's party tonight. She looked up from my clothes so she can see my face.

"Clare do not totally kill me for asking this, but are you jealous?"

"NO" I answered too fast. She nodded her head as if getting her answer. "I just don't think she's right for him. She's a just another rich girl, an original Holly J wannabe."

"I agree with you but if Eli is happy with the relationship, then who are you to say what's right for him?"

I sighed knowing that Alli was right. It wasn't my place to say who is right for Eli. Maybe it was jealousy that I was feeling. I can't admit this out loud; it might end in a disaster on my behalf. Alli interrupted my thinking.

"UGH" She exhaled loudly.

"What is it Alli?"

"Nothing in here is what I am going for."

"What do you mean? My clothes aren't that bad."

"No they are pretty good, but I was looking for sexy."

"Sexy?"

"Yes sexy. Clare, even though I think whatever Eli's relationship is with Anya is none of our business, he was still a jerk for what he said about that can't keep a boyfriend thing, so we are going to show him how to keep his mouth shut."

I knew that I didn't really own any clothes that showed my "sexy" side, so we were pretty screwed. Right when I was about to tell Alli to not worry about it an idea came to mind.

"Well, I can fit some of Darcy's dresses now." Alli's face beamed.

"GREAT" She grabbed my hand and dragged me off my bed. We walked of my room door into the hallway.

"Wait" I whispered before Alli opened Darcy's door. I had to prepare myself before I went in. Every time I went in her room I get emotional, I wanted to be strong tonight. Alli squeezed my hand.

"Ready?"

I nodded my head. She nodded her head in response and turned the knob.

Once we walked in, I inhaled the smell. It smelt smog, but it still had Darcy's scent. Alli looked back at me so I collected my thoughts and walked over to her closet. Alli came up behind me and started looking through her clothes.

I started walking around the room looking at Darcy's awards and pictures that were still on her wall. As I was about to walk back over to Alli, my eyes ran across a picture of me, Darcy, Dad, and Mom. Darcy was about ten and I was about six maybe. Our family looked sincerely happy. My mother was wearing that smiled I haven't seen since Darcy's death.

"It's perfect" I looked up at Alli and noticed she was holding up a black, short halter dress. I knew that dress. It was Darcy's favorite. I nodded my head in agreement and we walked out the room to get ready for the party.

(8:45 Drew's Party)

I rubbed my hands across the dress I was wearing. It fit perfect, so Alli was pretty satisfied. She did my make-up, and my hair, which was curly and pinned up on one side, perfectly. I had to admit it, not to sound cocky or anything, but I looked beautiful. I felt beautiful. I opened the door and walked out proudly as loud techno music filled my ears.

(Eli POV)

I knocked on the door and waited for someone to answer. Adam opened the door. He looked at Anya, then at me. 'What was his problem?'

"Chairs in the living room" He said before walking off leaving us at the door.

"Way to be rude" Anya said before walking in. I walked in behind her. Lots of people were already there eating, talking, and dancing uncontrollably. The party was a success I must admit.

"Let's go over there by Holly J and Chantey." She said pulling my arm.

Once we made our way through the crowd I saw Holly J and Declan Coyne, Fiona Coyne's twin brother, hugged up, along with KC and Jenna, Bianca and Owen, and Drew and Alli. When I looked at Alli she gave me that same look Adam gave me earlier. I guess she talked to Clare. The thought of Clare had me searching the room for her. I just need to see her, to see if she was okay of course.

As I was searching the room for Clare I noticed Adam walk into the kitchen. I leaned over to Anya's ear.

"Baby, I will be back. I'm about to talk to Adam."

"Hurry back" She said as I was walking off.

As I walked into the kitchen, I hear Adam cursing under his breath.

"What am I his fucking maid?" He said putting cocktail wieners on a tray.

"I think you should quit." I said trying to lighten his mood. He looked up at me and glared. Adam was obviously mad at me too. "Adam, man, what's up?" He rolled his eyes.

"What do you mean Eli?"

"The look you gave me at the door and you just did it again. What did I do to you?" He turned away, and looked back at me. We were awkwardly silent for about 30 seconds before Adam started back talking.

"Why did you have to say that to Clare?" I was confused at first then the conversation, well argument, I had with Clare quickly replayed in my mind. I sighed.

"Which part?"

"The part about how she can't keep a boyfriend. You know that really hurt her to hear you say that."

"I tried to apologize Adam, she wouldn't let me."

"Why say it in the first place Eli?

"I was mad okay."

"Okay, so it's okay to hurt people when YOU are mad?

"I didn't mean it that way"

"So what did you mean? You are confusing me."

"She was saying shit to make me mad Adam."

"So she says how she thinks your relationship is a joke, and you hit her with a low blow? I understand how you operate now."

"So you wouldn't get mad at something like that?" Adam was starting to piss me off.

"Yes I would be mad but I wouldn't low blow a friend, knowing that that's a soft subject for her. The Eli I met this summer didn't hold much back but damn I didn't know he was ruthless and heartless too." He grabbed the tray and sat it on the food table. "You know its one thing to abandon a true friend and blow them off for your girlfriend, but it's also another if you don't care. I took the constant cancelation of guy's night, and the sudden ignoring for these months but only because I felt you weren't doing it purposely; but to know you really didn't care, that showed real friendship."

I looked at Adam finally venting how he felt about the whole situation. I didn't realize how much I hurt my best friend. Adam has been putting up with my bullshit and I haven't even been a friend back to him.

"Adam" He gave me a small smile, but I knew he was still mad.

"Don't worry about it Eli. I understand."

"No I don't think you do. Okay, I know I messed up. Clare helped me realized that I did. All I cared about was being with Anya, sex, and getting what I want. Man I apologize for acting an ass. I mean I can't take anything back all I can do is say I'm sorry and hope you forgive me." Adam looked at me this time for what seemed like minutes. Then he rubbed his hand across his face.

"I can't believe I'm going say this" he looked back at me "As long as you help take these trays to that table, I might be able to try that forgive you thing." Adam and I fist bumped and I picked up the trays.

I was sitting my tray on the table when I heard Clare's giggle. I knew it anywhere. I looked around the room and there she was. She had on this sexy black dress that hugged her hips perfectly. Her hair was the curliest I've ever seen it. I couldn't take my eyes off her. She was the most beautiful person in the room.

I knew I was staring because I couldn't take my eyes off of her. Her perfect blue eyes started roaming the room until they landed on me. I could see the mixed emotions in her eyes before she turned her gaze back on the person she was talking to. Adam came up behind me and put his hand on my shoulder.

"Staring at her won't help"

"She hates me"

"She doesn't hate you; she's just upset with you right now."

"How can I get my friend back?"

"Only you would know dude, but in the mean time I think Miss Coyne will be looking for me in a minute."

"Ya dude, go have fun"

"I plan to" he looked back at me and patted my shoulder "Hey do the right thing man"

I watched him walk over to where Fiona was sitting and kiss her cheeks, and then I walked back over to where I left Anya.

Once I made it over there Anya wasn't sitting where I'd left her, she wasn't there. I looked over at Holly J who were making out with Declan on the recliner. I needed to ask someone where Anya was. Then I noticed Bianca and Owen watching me so decided to ask them instead.

"Hey, do you guys know where Anya went?"

Bianca looked at Owen then back at me.

"Are we supposed to be your girlfriend's keeper?"

"Whatever" I walked away from them before my temper gets the best of me.

"She said something about the bathroom!" Bianca called after me. I didn't bother to turn around and say thanks because I was already far enough away.

As I was walking down the hallway, I heard a familiar voice coming from Drew's room. I knew it was Anya's but who exactly was she talking to; the better question is what was she doing?

I opened the door to see Anya and Sav making out on Sav's bed.

"ANYA?" I yelled walking futher in the room. Anya jumped off of the bed and ran towards me.

"Eli it's not what it looks like"

-Author's Note-

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