Charmed Love Chapter 9

September 28

Lunch

Really I do not know why my friends think that there is something wrong with me. I personally don't feel any different from how I did last week to a month ago. I really think that I am completing my what I hope to accomplish for this school year list. I even told them that I had a list of things that would get me through this year. To which they only laughed at me and said "Only you Lily would do something as pointless as that." After I said every one of the items on my list they then proceeded to explain how I had not accomplished that item.

I have been paying attention in all of my classes this year. I have taken the most diligent notes, and quite frankly I answer the most questions. But my friends really think that my academics have been failing. Alice once again pointed out the whole looking-at-James-Potter's-empty-seat-every-ten-minutes-thing. I personally think that I don't even do that. I will admit that I check at the beginning of every class, but doesn't everyone do that. Don't most people check to see who is at the class when they first get into the room? To which Alice replied that I always stop looking around the room (which she said that she personally disagrees with the everyone statement, and she think that I just look for him) when I come across his desk. But what that has to do with my school work, I really don't know. To which she sighed, rolled her eyes, and muttered something under her breath that sounded like to stubborn for her own good.

Next, I mentioned the whole eating breakfast every morning. Beth laughed for a whole minute after I told her that this was on my list. I tried to explain that breakfast is the most important meal of the day, and that I sometimes forget to have it which makes me lose focus in class. Then she said "The fact that you felt compelled to include it on my list was just a sad statement on my life. That why I felt the need to add it said that I was seriously suffering from memory loss, because she said that eating breakfast should just go without saying." I told her that I have kept this one seeing that I eat something every morning for breakfast. Then she told me that my piece of toast with jam on it does not count as a full meal when lots of other food it there to eat.

The next thing on my list is the one about not staying up all night reading the twilight books. This one I can say without a doubt that I have kept without a problem. I have not read anything in those books since, well I don't know when. I just have not been in the mood to read about fictional character falling in love against all odds, even nature. That type of plot line has not been favorable to my moods for a few weeks. To which Vanessa just snorted and said that if the only reason I have not read those books is in my mood; she understands because I have not been exactly happy-go-lucky lately. But also that I have not been up all night for other reason is entirely my fault, and commented on how long I can hold a grudge if I set my mind to it. That statement caused my cheeks to blush scarlet and my mouth to fall open. Because No One but Beth would have had the Nerve to say something that suggestive to me. No, I take that back. So far in my friendship with anyone has someone said something that suggestive to me.

The next thing on my list was the one about wearing flat shoes. I told them that this really is a necessity for me because I am horribly clumsy and wearing shoes with heals would not be good for my balance. They said that they could not really argue with the necessity that I include this on my list. But they also jokingly pointed out that I have managed to get into a few accidents without the help of wearing shoes with any heal to speak of. To which I just gave them my best did-you-really-have-to-say-that glare.

I told them that I have done all my homework this year for every subject. I have not even handed an assignment late, but I didn't tell them that because it really wasn't necessary. They said that this really didn't surprise them because it seems that my passion is doing my school work. That I really have nothing else better to do at night (Vanessa said that part) so that I might as well get something accomplished.

I didn't mention the last thing on my list because I knew that I had done that one with no problem at all. I have managed to ignore Potter with such dedication and effort it could have been an Olympic sport. I have not talked to him in weeks. I don't have any reason to talk to him during the day. He hangs out with his mates while I spend my time with my friends. We don't see each other in the evening because he has been staying out really late doing God knows what, and I have been up in my room every night by 10:00 trying my best to fall asleep. Even though I know it is hopeless because I never fall asleep until I hear movements from downstairs which can only mean that James Potter has decided to head in for the night. I can't explain even to myself why this happens. I doesn't make any rational sense, and I really don't think I care to know the answer if my self-conscious has anything to do with it. We have even managed to not have to talk to complete our heads duties. He just takes care of all of the scheduling for the patrols and I take care of everything else: meetings, making sure people follow the rules, and that sort of stuff.

So I personally think that I have been following my list of how I am going to survive this year. It's just too bad that I didn't think to include anything that I could do to make the school day go by any faster.

But I guess that life is just not always perfect.

A fact that I know very well.

Author's Note: This entry was not originally in my notebook. It still is not in my notebook because I like to keep everything in order and I am way past where this entry would be in my notebook. So this one I just typed when I sat down at my computer today. It really is just a filler chapter because I wanted to be able to push more of the dates back without have it seem that she went a month without writing. Just want to say that the Depressing Interlude is just one more part of a chapter! James will be back, sort of, by the end of the next chapter.

I personally am very excited about this. I don't know about you, but James is my personal favorite. Don't get me wrong, I love Lily like she was a real person, but she is just not James.

If you get my meaning.

Please review and let me know what you think.

Love Allison