DO I REALLY WANT REVENGE?

Disclaimer: The Cullens, the Swans, and most of the characters mentioned in the story that are known from Stephanie Meyer's beloved Twilight Saga, are all hers and hers alone. I neither have nor wish to pass them off as mine. I do appreciate the fact that she did bring them to life and allows us to play with them in our imaginations. The only thing I will claim is the current storyline.

All of the chapters of this story has been beta'd by the lovely dowlingnana and the chapters with mistakes are being replaced.

The next morning as Edward got into his office he instructed Carmen to get a hold of Angela and schedule time for him to meet with the Queen. She was not to take no for an answer as it was extremely important for him to meet with her. Carmen acknowledged his instructions, gathered her notes and the necessary reports that had piled up due to His Highness's absence and to give him the planned schedule for the day.

She had everything laid out in front of him that was needed to bring him up to date on all that needed to be known, including all that she had handled while he was gone. The situation and what she had done to deal with it as well as the necessary paperwork that needed his signature and the responses that had been coming in concerning the new Sykes Project. After spending the next thirty minutes going over all of this, she left to contact Angela about getting Prince Edward's appointment scheduled.

The same circumstances were taking place in the Queen's office as what had occurred in the Prince Consort's office. Bella was being brought up to date on all the happening, problems and resolutions during her absence. And as Angela returned to her desk she knew without asking that Bella hadn't taken the time to speak with Prince Edward as yet about what was bothering her. The tension was still there in her posture and could be seen deep within her eyes.

The phone rang and Angela answered, listening to the voice on the other end and then looked at the schedule that was in front of her. She said the Queen would have about fifteen minutes in an hour, but, nothing else was available. She wrote in the name for that space and ended the call.

Carmen reported to the prince that the queen would be able to see him in an hour for about fifteen minutes. He nodded to let her know he had heard, but, continued with what he was looked at.

CHAPTER 19: TALKING

Time passed swiftly for both Bella and Edward. Before he realized it the hour had flown and it was time for his appointment with Bella. He walked down the hallway towards her office trying to get his thoughts together of all he wished to say and discuss with her. The main purpose of his appointment is to tell Bella what has been discovered about her two advisors that have been in question as to loyalty.

The next subject he wants to discuss with her is why she is starting to withdraw from him. He misread her signals the last time they were together and for that he is regretful of his actions at that time, but, he does have hopes of being with her intimately in the near future.

As he arrived Angela held up her hand while at the same time motioning for his silence. Edward was puzzled by her actions, but, complied nonetheless. "I am interfering in the Queen's personal business, but, I am doing it with love. She is not sleeping well and is greatly stressed about her conflicting feelings. You two need to talk and get things resolved for everyone's benefits. Please, if she doesn't make the first move to talk with you, then you make it to talk with her. At present she had not been told that her next appointment is you."

"I know, Angela, believe me, when I tell you that I know. I have been trying on numerous occasions to get in to talk to her about the matter, but, as you know, she is always busy with something or someone else.

"Can you possibly give me more than fifteen minutes with her? I will use the time wisely, I hope, to try and get her to talk with me to resolve things."

"Yes, and I already have." Angela answers him with a smile. With that knowledge, he nods and returns her smile.

"One last question, and, only answer it without betraying her confidence, but, do you know exactly what the problem is?"

"Yes."

"Under the same condition for answering me, but, can you give a direction that I should concentrate on to try to bring things back to where they should be?"

"Admitting to personal feelings" And with that, Angela answered no further. She moved towards the Queen's office to open the door and announced her next appointment. With that Edward walked into the office, motioned for Angela to return to her work and then he closed the door behind him before walking towards Bella.

"I wasn't told that we had an appointment." She commented to him.

"It was a last minute thing. But, necessary since we have several things that need to be discussed between us." He said.

"Are they that demanding in attention that you need to crash into my schedule?" she snarks at him.

"Yes, I believe it is" Is the answer he gives ignoring the tone she uses.

"Very well, proceed."

"I told you that I would check into the further information concerning the two royal advisors that we had questions of loyalty. This I have done and received an answer and need to discuss this with you. Also, I need to talk with you concerning a personal nature." Edward whispers in her ear as he had approached her from behind while she had turned back towards her desk. Bella whips around only to find that Edward is just inches from her. She tried to step back, but, was prevented as Edward reached for her to draw her closer to him. At the same time he was lowering his head towards her to gently place a kiss upon her lips.

Bella tried to protest, but, Edward held her firmly with no escape. Instead, he deepened the kiss drawing her even closer. She could feel his full arousal as she ceased to struggle and put her arms around his neck to draw even closer and she begins to kiss him back with the same emotion as what he was displaying.

They both became so engrossed with their emotions they forgot for a brief moment where they were. Both, as the need to breathe made itself known, slowly break apart to gaze into each other's eyes before completely stepping back from each other. "Okay, tell me what you have found out about the advisors."

"No, not until you tell me what is wrong with you. I apologize for my actions the last time we were together and had overstepped by misreading what I thought you were wanting as much as I did. Ever since that time we had, just the two of us in my apartment, you have withheld yourself from me never wanting to be alone with me again. Never wanting to talk to me about what I had done wrong. Never wanting to tell me what I could do to fix it, and, never wanting us to get beyond that point. You stepped completely back from me. Talk to me Bella, tell me what is wrong. Tell me how you are feeling and what you're feeling towards me." Edward spoke quietly to her and then waited.

"Edward, I don't know that I can right now. I am so confused about a lot of things and I don't fully understand what I am supposed to be feeling."

"Just begin talking. Don't try to put any sense to your thoughts. Just begin to speak them. Once they are all spoken we will start to make sense of them then. But, for you to even begin to understand them you must speak them first." He advises.

"I am st-"She starts and then stops. Edward waits patiently for her to begin again. "I'm start-"Shaking her head as if to clear it, she tries for a third time. "Edward, I am developing feelings for you, but, feeling very conflicted and confused for even having those feelings. Trying to work through what is proper to feel and what isn't, is causing me some stress and many sleepless nights. I am not able to rest without guilt.

"The events that led to our marriage and the death of my parents are things that you are involved in. So, I am very confused as to whether my developing feelings for you can be considered a betrayal to them."

"Bella, I am asking you to please know that what we feel for each other is not -"

"What we feel for each other? I don't understand, Edward. What do you feel for me?"

"Love, and for a long time, even before we met, I had feelings for you. I saw a picture of you when you were younger and felt a stirring of emotions that I had never experienced. So, I set out to learn everything I could about you. Everything! And all that I learned just deepened my feelings for you more. I knew that one day you and I would be together, together as man and wife forever.

"It was unfortunate, that the situation in Wystonia became disastrous, and, that it was what was the cause of what happened to your parents. We were not aware of the circumstances existing in regards to the threat surrounding Vargia and you at the time that we made the move to take you to Wystonia. Believe me, when I say, if we had known things would have been handled differently.

"But, when your father dismantled the conference without further notice, refused my suit for your hand without reason or cause being given, and the situation in Wystonia becoming more desperate we thought we were taking the path of what would be the most effective without being the more threatening. We had no idea of the consequence that would follow. If we had known we would never have followed through with our plans the way we did." Edward paused for a moment then continued to say, "I loved you then as I love you even more now. You own my life and I give you my heart to do as you will."

Bella didn't say anything for several minutes. She had tears in her eyes, but, remained silent after he had finished speaking. Then pulling herself together she said, "You mentioned some information you found out about the royal advisors."

Edward took her lead, understanding that she needed time to think about what he had just told her. But, he vowed that he wouldn't allow too much time. There was no way he was going to chance losing her. "Yes, all of the advisors except for the two that we discussed before are doing nothing more than acting as they see fit for their priorities at the time. However, Laurent Adams and Maria Southland are a different story. I did have some research done and just got the answers back that I think you need to be made aware of what's in the report."

"Okay. Is it bad?"

"After I tell you what was found I will let you tell me if it is bad. Laurent Adams is intimately involved with Jane Northsom, but, also, a distant relative of the Northsoms. Maria Southland was distantly involved with Marshall Everson who at one time lived in Noragia and was related to the Denali family. Tanya, Kate and Irina Denali left to live with a distant relative after death of their parents. Their father had been trialed, condemned to death and their mother committed suicide." As he finished speaking Edward noticed the surprised look on Bella's face. What had he said that brought that look forth?

"You said Denali?"

"Yes. Why? Does the name have meaning to you?"

Bella didn't answer his question. She simply told him that she needed time to think through all that he had told her on both subjects. In the meantime, they had work to get done. With that, Edward knew that the Queen was dismissing him from her sight. He nodded then turned to leave. Once he got to the door he turned and said, "Bella, I will give you time to consider what I have said on our personal lives, but, I will not allow you to dwell upon your thoughts. We will talk again and get things straight so we can start moving forward again." So, he turned back to the door, opened and left closing the door quietly behind him.

A/N: Well, Bella and Edward did talk about their personal feelings somewhat, but, nothing was resolved. How long do you think Edward will allow her to consider all that he had said? Why did Bella react as she did to the Denali name?

What do our friends in Noragia have planned that is going to get rid of both Edward and Bella?

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