Edward & Bella grew up together being the best of friends. Until Edward's 16th birthday when Bella left town. Outtake of that night from Bella's point of view. Originally written for contribution to the Fandom4Cancer cause.

20th June 1999 (Edward's 16th birthday) BPOV

Looking in the mirror again for the fifteenth time since I'd got ready, I checked myself over. It was my Edward's birthday so I wanted to look good for him. I smoothed down my short midnight blue dress again with a small smile on my face. I had brought a new bra and panties set; light blue lace and was just bursting to tease Edward with that fact all night.

We still hadn't got any further than second base but tonight, I wanted to make that leap to third. I loved Edward and he loved me. We would have to sneak into his room or somewhere quiet without anyone knowing, especially his parents, but I was more than willing if he was, and I was sure he would be.

"Come on Bee! I have places to be!" My dad, Charlie bellowed from downstairs. He always seemed to have places to be at the moment.

"Okay Dad, I'm on my way!"

I kissed my Dad on the cheek as I climbed out of the police cruiser with the small gift bag in my hands, Edward's birthday present.

"You still okay to pick me up at midnight Dad? I can't change your mind about me stopping over with Shorty?"

"No way! You're not staying in the same house as Edward. I've been sixteen before myself and I remember the thoughts I had back then." He shuddered before continuing, "No, I'll be okay to pick you up at midnight, after... work." He paused staring at the dashboard then after a few seconds, he continued, "Tell Carlisle and Esme I said hello and wish Edward a happy birthday from me." Okay, that was plain strange. He'd been acted a little more weird than his usual weird self over the past few days. I'd put it to him not sleeping well and the fact he was working too much, again.

"I will Dad. Love you."

"Love you too Bee."

I waved at the cruiser as it continued down the street and out of sight. Straightening my dress again, I walked to Edward's front door but before I could knock, it swung opened. Edward was at the other side, looking as gorgeous as ever. His unruly hair stuck up in all different directions, he wore his black fitted t-shirt and low hung jeans. His emerald eyes shining to me as my favourite Edward smile was lingering on his lips. I couldn't help but smile in return as I reached up to press my lips to his. The kiss was brief because I didn't know whether his parents were stood in the kitchen behind him.

"Hey."

"Hey beautiful." He kissed me again before tugging on my waist to get me inside the house.

"Happy birthday Edward." I handed the gift bag to him as we lingered in the kitchen, alone.

"I hope you like it." I'd been stressing about his gift since I'd brought it almost a month ago. It was a watch that I'd had personalised with a special message on the back. It said 'It's always been you. Love, your Bumble Bee.' I knew it was completely corny but I knew it would be special, something we could look back on in years to come. God, I want to marry Edward. I had since I was six when I met him in our sandpit. We still visited it almost every weekend but now we just sat on the nearby bench, making out. It was the best.

Edward gave me a frown, "Hope you didn't spend a lot on this Bee."

"Oh shut up and open it."

He gently lifted the box out of the bag then placed the bag on the kitchen countertop. He lifted the lid slowly to reveal the shiny silver of the watch.

"Oh wow Bee. It's fantastic!" He smiled broadly as he took the watch out of the box.

"Look on the back."

He looked at me before his eyes wandered to the back of the watch as he turned it.

"It's always been you..." he whispered. Then his face beamed with the biggest and best smile ever. He grabbed me quickly around my waist and pulled me towards him in a big hug. Edward gave the best hug ... along with other things.

He squeezed me and whispered into my hair, "Thank you Bee. I love you." I smiled into his warm chest, "I love you too."

"Urgh, will you two get a room already!" I looked up to see Shorty, Edward's big little sister and my best girlfriend leaning on the door frame with a smile on her face. She was always smiling at us lately. I could feel the blush creep up from my chest to my cheeks.

"Shorty, shut up! You're just jealous anyway..." Edward squeezed me tighter.

"Jealous of you little brother!" She scoffed. "I don't think so."

"Yes you are! You want a boyfriend but you can't find one that will live up to Leo! What's with that guy?"

I sighed as did Alice. Leo was one of our hotties, especially after watching Titanic. The steamy car scene... I couldn't help but think of me and Edward when we were watching it for my birthday. Alice had such a crush on Leo that no boy could live up to. Not that she wasn't having good times. When Alice would sleepover at my house at weekends, she'd tell me all about the latest boy that tried to 'get in her panties.' I couldn't think of anyone else other than Edward who I wanted in my panties. Oh my plan... Third base...

"What you thinking about Bella? You've gone all red." Alice smiled too sweetly at me. She was the only other person who knew my plan for tonight. I only had until midnight so I needed someone to help us sneak off and cover for us.

"Come on love birds. We have a party to get started."

"Wanna dance?" Edward asked close to my ear. I nodded and bit my lip. I was never very good at stuff like this but I knew Edward wouldn't let me fall and make an idiot out of myself. He took my hand and led me out to the make-shift dance floor as My Heart Will Go On drifted out of the speakers. Edward didn't know but I'd always thought of this as our song.

I placed my hands around his neck as he wound his around my waist. I peeked a look at Esme and Carlisle who were holding hands themselves smiling softly at the two of us.

"Your Mom's looking... no naughty stuff." I joked. Edward leaned in to nuzzled my ear before kissing it gently, "Wouldn't dream of it." Tease. Two can play that game!

As we swayed from side to side, my hand trailed up the side of his neck and my fingertips reached the back of his head. I played with the hair at the nape of his neck before moving my lips to whisper in his ear, "I have a new set on. Light blue lace, wanna peek?" One to Bella. I smiled as I pulled back to see the tempted look on Edward's face; he wanted it, no doubt about that.

He leaned back down to whisper back, "We'll it is my birthday..." He pulled back to give me a smirk to which I couldn't help but laugh. My thoughts entirely. I was just about to fill him in on my plans for later this evening when the music suddenly stopped and was replaced with upbeat dance rap music.

"Emmett!" Both Edward and myself shouted in unison.

"Oh come on! We want a party!" He smiled broadly at us both before performing a sort of dance move that looked like he was having electric shock treatment.

"Come on Bella!" Emmett grabbed my hand from Edward and started to twist me around. I laughed so much. Edward watched on as his little brother showed me how to 'bust a move'. I just found it funny. I was exhausted after about fifteen minutes of Emmett's dancing so silently told Edward to rescue me, which he did.

We crashed on the couch and chatted before Edward went to check if everyone was okay. We spent most of the rest of the early evening eating, chatting and watching others dance.

When it got to nine thirty, I escaped for ten minutes with Shorty to go through our plan. I would take Edward outside for some fresh air around ten, Shorty would cover and I'd have an hour to execute plan 'third base'.

I returned back to Edward and pulled his hand into mine. "It's a nice night Edward. Wanna go out for some fresh air?" He smiled and nodded.

Edward walked ahead of me, his hand wrapped around my own. When he reached the garden chairs near the bottom of the garden, out of immediate reach from the house, he sat in one. His back was to the house, facing out to the rest of the garden. I'm not sure whether he expected me to sit in the one next to him but I didn't. I stood in front of him before climbing onto his lap, straddling him. He grunted with the contact and my insides came alive with excitement that I could have this affect on him.

Once I was settled fully on him, he started to make small circles with his finger to one of my exposed thighs. The short dress had rose to around the tops of my thighs and the slow movement made it hard to contain the bubbling excitement I felt inside. He definitely wanted this tonight; his intent was loud and clear. His other hand moved to lightly grip my other thigh, his fingers spread out now over both. He moved his hands up to my hips without breaking contact. The material of my dress moved with the movement of his hands, exposing more and more of my skin before they slipped around to my ass. His fingertips brushed the edge of my lace panties as he squeezed gently and I almost came undone right then and there. My hips moved of their own accord. Pushing down on his crotch, I could physical feel his excitement too. Oh what I would do to put my hands on him. He squeezed again and a girly giggle escaped me. His face had been sexy and solemn up to this point but on hearing me giggle, he smiled at me.

I bent forward slowly a little to kiss him but before my lips could reach his, he spoke for the first time we'd been sat here."You have great boobs, Bee." His voice was so low, a husky whisper but again the giddy girl came to the surface and I giggled again. My giggle last long though as Edward closed the gap between us and kissed me.

Kissing Edward was like nothing else. I'd kissed other boys before but never like I kissed Edward. Our kisses, when we were alone, we're a lot different to the quick peck on the lips we did in public. He sucked my lower lip in his mouth before groaning and opening for me. My tongue sought out his as I ground my hips into him. I moaned and he groaned again as his hand crawled up my side to place over my breast. Oh God, he has his hand on me.

I was just about to see if I could get his belt undone without moving when I hear the Cullen's front door close with a bang. My dad's voice followed shortly after, "Bee!"

Shit, shit, shit! Had we been out here two hours? No, we can't have. I jumped off Edward and on to the chair next to him in a heartbeat, my hand still in his. I glanced over to see Edward check his watch, half ten. Why was Dad here early?

Next thing I knew, the back door was flung open and Charlie came rushing out.

"Bee! Thank god honey, you okay?"

"Uh yeah Dad. What's up? It's not midnight yet, you said midnight?"

"I know honey but something came up and we need to... go home"

Dad looked at Edward then at our joined hands and then to me. Weird. What's with him? Then disappointment washed over me. Damn! My plan wasn't complete... but I did get further than I thought possible outside. No point in arguing with my dad; he owns a gun.

"O... K... Can I just say good night to Edward then?"

Dad just stood there looking at us. Come on Dad, think. I don't want to say goodnight to my boyfriend with you standing in front of us being all weird.

"Eh, sure but hurry."

Then he turned to Edward, "Edward, I'm truly sorry." Yeah Dad, we know already! He stared at Edward for a couple of seconds before walking over to the back door where he watched and waited.

"What's that about?" Edward whispered to me so Dad couldn't hear. We both stood to face each other.

"I'm not sure… he's been acting all weird for the past couple of days... anyway, forget him for a second. I want a goodnight kiss."

"That may be a little difficult with your dad staring at us." He nodded in my Dad's direction.

I looked over. God, why is he watching us? Come on Dad, sixteen year olds here! I rolled my eyes before fixing them back on Edward, wrapping my arms around his neck, "Just pretend he isn't there." I pulled myself closer to him as I kissed him. As he sighed into the kiss, he opened his mouth and that was just the invitation I needed. I dipped my tongue into his mouth and that's when Edward really got into the kiss. Well, that's until my father decided to make his presence known by coughing, loudly.

With one more sweet kiss on his lips, he tickled his nose with mine gently before whispering, "See you tomorrow yeah?"

"Yeah. I love you Edward."

He smiled, "I love you too Bee."

Another soft kiss and we stepped away from each other. I walked towards my Dad with a scowl on my face. Still can't believe he's come early and ruined my plans. He placed his arm around my shoulder and shouted towards Edward.

"I'm really sorry Edward. I hope you'll forgive me..." Yeah, Edward will forgive him for cutting short my evening but I'm not sure I will. Well... probably.

I took one last look at my birthday boy who smiled and waved as we walked through the door. I waved to other people as I went including a confused looking Alice. I just shrugged my shoulders and we continued to walk out of the house. When we got out of the first door, I noticed Charlie didn't his police cruiser with him. Our car that my dad hardly ever used was out front.

I gave my dad an eyebrow as we got in the car and drove away. We'd been driving for five minutes when I realised we weren't on the right route to go home.

"Dad? Where are we going?"

"Err, yes. Sorry. I didn't want to say anything in front of Edward." Strange. "Your Uncle Chris called to say Aunt Chloe had been taken into hospital. We need to go and make sure everyone's ok."

"But you hate Aunt Chloe, Dad?"

"Yes but she's family."

"But she's in Forks right? We can't drive over there now..."

"Yes we can. And we are young lady, stop arguing now." My dad looked upset about it so I didn't say anything else apart from a small 'okay'. Half an hour into the drive, I could feel my eyes grow heavy. The silence in the car along with the movement rocked me gently to sleep.

I woke up with a pain in my neck from sleeping in the front seat of the car. Glancing at the clock, I could see it was past midnight and we looked to still be in the middle of nowhere.

"Hey Dad, where are we? I don't recognise this route."

He just stared straight ahead not acknowledging my question.

"Dad? Are you okay?"

"Yes, everything will be ok... soon." He glanced at me for a second before his eyes fixed on the road ahead again. He had a haunting look in his eyes.

"Dad? Have you heard some news? Is Aunt Chloe okay?" Still he chose to ignore my questions. "Dad! What the hell is going on?" Just then, I saw it. The Canadian border crossing sign. What the hell was going on?

As calmly and slowly as I could speak I asked again, "Dad? Why are we approaching the border?"

"Bella, please. Just let me... please. Everything will be okay."

"Dad, you're scaring me."

"We'll be okay. Just let us pass through the border..." I trusted my dad but something was definitely wrong. "Okay, Dad."

We passed through the border and kept driving until two am before we stopped for a much needed bathroom break so I could change into my comfortable clothes my dad had brought with us. He kept telling me everything was okay... but I felt like everything was all but okay. He wouldn't tell me where we were going and why. I was tired and confused but I trusted my dad knew what he was doing.

The next morning, I asked if we could stop so I could call Edward from a pay phone. He refused and said we needed to keep going.

By the end of the second day of travelling, I tried to refuse to go any further until I knew where I was going. We had travelled all day and I knew Edward would be asleep now which meant yet again, I couldn't call him.

"No, I'm sorry Dad but..."

"No buts! All you need to know is that we need to go."

"Go where Dad?"

"Just get in the car Bella... NOW!"

We rolled into a town, Anchorage I think the welcome sign said after almost four solid days of driving. We stopped outside a large building and parked.

Dad breathed in and out a few times before turning in his seat to face me. "We're here."

Crossing of arms over my chest before looking at him, "And where exactly is 'here'?"

He looked at me, his eyes red from the exhaustion and strain of driving so much. Without saying another word, he opened his door and got out. I scrambled out of the car to see him pop the trunk.

"Dad, please, tell me what's -"

My sentence was cut short. Our trunk was jam packed full of, well everything.

I chuckled, "You know Dad, when you visit someone for a few days, you don't need to pack the kitchen sink..." I looked back at my dad who had unloaded two suitcases and had started to walk towards the building.

I looked at his fleeting form, my jaw slack. What the hell had got into him? I closed the trunk and ran to him.

"Dad, wait up..." I followed him up two flights of stairs before coming to a door with the number 13 written on it. My dad lifted the door mat to reveal a key which he retrieved and proceeded to unlock and open the door.

"I didn't have time to pack everything so I just got what I thought you'd need for now. We can get you some new clothes that's no problem."

He closed the door behind me as I entered the room as he continued to ramble. "We can get some new things for your room, new sheets and we can decorate. Everything will be okay..."

I aimlessly followed him as he entered a small room with a single bed, a small set of drawers and a wardrobe. A sinking feeling crept down my spine. He laid the suitcase down in the middle of the bed and started to unpack. These are my clothes.

"Okay Dad, I'm official freaked out. What's happening? Why are you putting away my clothes in a strange apartment? Why aren't we in Forks? Why aren't we home?"

He stopped suddenly. His knuckles turned white as he clung to the set of drawers and hung his head, "We can't go back Bee, it's not safe anymore."

"Can't go back?" My words were slow and sluggish. I felt like I was having a nightmare, one of those nightmares where you're screaming for help but no one can hear you.

Dad shook his head before looking up at me, "I'm sorry Bee, no. Our life is here now."

"What... What... what do you mean we can't go back! Why can't we go back home?" Edward. "No, no, no, no this can't be happening. Where's the phone? I need to talk to Edward. I need to tell him, I need to..."

"You can't Bella, it's not safe! If he finds out where we are... I'm doing this to protect everyone. I'm doing this to protect the Cullen's too."

"If who finds out Dad? What. Is. Going. On?" I was almost hysterically and gasping for breath. I felt light headed. No, he can't do this! He can't keep me away from my Edward NO! My Dad grasped me before I fell and everything turned black.

*sniff* Hearing this for Bella's point of view made me cry :'( Hope this give you an insight to what happened with Bella. I have another Loved & Lost outtake written, but the next one is a fluff, sweet future-take that might make you cry for other reasons :')

As always, thanks to my beta and bestie, SweetLovinCullen - you rock bb! And thank you all for reading and supporting my stories, love you guys 3

I have lots of things in the pipeline so pop me on author alert.

So until next time ... TwiLucy_UK x