I do not own "kingdom hearts". Or Roxas. Or Axel. But I do own this AkuRoku fanfic. Emphasis on FAN fic.
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It's been six months since Axel moved.
Barely any phones calls. A little bit a of texting here and there, and a few photo-updates.
Nothing more.
I feel like my days have been dragging on more and more. Like there's almost nothing to live for. I go to school, come home, study, and then try to go fall asleep. A daily schedule that almost never changes. On weekends, I sometimes find myself at Axel's old house, half expecting him to be blasting his rock music, air-guitaring his way to total nerd-dome. But he's not there. The blue-white condo is as empty as it was the day before, with no remnants to show what presence was there before.
And with no Axel, meant there was no one I can rely on in school. I was never really the most popular guy, and didn't have many friends, but for as long as I could remember, Axel would come to my side for anything to defend me.
"You're a retarded loser" one kid, a senior named Seifer, lashed out at me. We're standing in a red-brick courtyard after school. No teachers or any other students around. "Now that Axel's gone, you think you're tough shit? Well too bad, faggot. I think I need to show you where you belong". The blond boy comes forward, and picks me up easily by my shirt's collar. He slams me into the brick wall multiple times, and then throws one good punch at me in the stomach. I feel the breath knocked out of me, saliva and a few drops of blood are coughed up as I try to breath. Seifer lets me go, and has be on my hands and knees, still trying to breath. "I bet you were doing something gay with that Axel kid. You're a little faggot aren't you?" he grips my hair roughly, and pulls my head up while he crouches down, making me stare into his cloudy, corrupted gray eyes. I manage collect enough saliva to spit at him point-blank in the middle of his face. He lets go of his hold on me, and backs away to try and wipe it off. "You disgusting little fuck!" as I begin to get up to make a run for it, Seifer catches me, wraps his large hands around my skinny arms, and sends me tumbling to the ground. The soft Spring grass cushions my fall, but not by too much. The sun above me was blocked out as Seifer stood above me, raising his muscular left leg, and ready to kick.
"STOP!"
I look over to see Naminé standing at the top of the path that lead into the courtyard. Seifer disregards her command, and instead, pulls back his leg for greater force. I felt like I died a little inside when his foot impacted with the rest of my body. It was the worst agony I'd felt in a long time. I couldn't breath. I could see large black spots commandeering my vision. I curled in to try and hold my stomach, to try and ease the pain.
"You deserve it, fag". Seifer walked away, as if nothing had happened.
"ROXAS!" Naminé screamed. She dropped her backpack, and runs down to me. She was wearing a white T-shirt with a white lace skirt, and a white hoodie to match. Her angelic blonde hair blew in the breeze as she came to meet me, tears pooling on her face. I begin to cough a bit, and put my hand over my mouth, trying to at least get on my hands and knees."Roxas. I'm so sorry. If only I'd come here earlier. I'm so sorry." she bawls. She kneels in front of me, and holds her hands out in case I stumble. As I get up, the black circles in my vision increase, and almost go down to the ground again. If it weren't for Naminé, I would have fallen, but instead, she took hold of my arm and wraps it around her shoulder, to lead me to a black iron bench a few feet away. She rests my limp body on it while she takes a seat, and then reaches out to me, to rest my head on her lap. I lay there for what seemed like hours, while she stroked my hair. I cough a little bit here and there, sending small spots of blood to stain Naminé's pretty skirt. The sun soon started to set, sending waves of vibrant oranges and soft pinks to ripple in the sky, casting an orange, angelic glow around Naminé when I looked up to meet her vibrant blue eye on mine.
"I'm sorry, Naminé. I stained your dress. Sorry." I apologized.
"Don't worry about it." she mumbled. "Don't let Seifer do this to you. You don't deserve it. Stand up for yourself, Roxas. I know you can." the wind started to pick up a little bit, making her hair blond hair that is usually draped around her right shoulder fly around her head. She looked panicked, and tried to put it back that way it was.
"Hey.. Naminé?" I start.
She replied with a small "Hm?"
"Why.. why are you helping me? We don't even talk that much anymore. Not since... Axel left." I mutter solemnly.
She stopped trying to fix her wild hair, and looks down at me. "Roxas. We may have known each other through... Axel," she paused, not knowing if saying his name would hurt me, "but you're my friend too. And even if you weren't my friend, I would try to help you. You know that, right?" she pleaded.
And the thing was, I honestly believed her. From what I knew about Naminé, she truly tried her best to make everyone and everything okay. I sat up on the bench, and began to look at the sky. My eyes were transfixed upon the colorful swirls in the sky, and how elegant they looked. "Naminé", I whispered, "I know. I truly know. I just... don't know what to do without him. I just don't know anymore. I don't know who to talk to. I don't know how to react. Hell, I don't even know who to trust. But thank you. I know I can at least trust you. Thank you, Naminé." I looked at her then, and smiled sweetly, but with sorrow touching my features. And I truly meant this. I was extremely happy in knowing that someone was here for me when I needed someone,
but not the right someone I wanted...
Naminé's face went slightly pink, and she looked down at her lap, and started to fidget with her hands. "N-no, problem, Roxas. I know that Axel's move hurt you in a lot of way.. but it was just for the better."
for the better? I gave her a confused look, and began to feel panic set into me. "What do you mean? Do you know why he left?" I begged.
She looked somewhat taken back at my response, almost like she didn't see it coming. "You mean.. he didn't tell you?"
"Tell my what?" I urged.
"it's nothing. It's probably better that he didn't tell you anyways. And if you want to know, I suggest that you ask him yourself." she replied sweetly, and got up from her place from the bench. I began to stand up. Ready to call her back, to demand answers from her – but somewhere inside me, I knew she wouldn't tell me.
If it was something Axel told Naminé, than I was sure that he would tell me if I asked. Right?
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When I finally got home, I plopped down on my white comforter, and whipped out my cell phone. I began to write a text message to Axel. "so, I was just sort of wondering, but why did you move in the first place?". I pressed 'send'. I lay down on my bed, and tried to relax. My stomach still hurt from the kick Seifer gave me, but other than that, I felt fine. I looked out my window at the last remnants of the beautiful sunset, and heard a 'ping!'. I looked over to my light blue cell phone, and flipped it open. Axel had replied. "don't worry about it Roxy. I'll tell you the next time I meet ya ;D". "the next time I met ya"? Honestly? It's been six months! I began to write a reply.
"And when will that be? It's already been six months. We barely talk as it is now. My life's been a living hell since you left".
And then he replied.
"I'm sorry Roxas. I'm trying my best to be able to visit you. I truly am. I'm just not... in a good place right now. Give me more time."
now I was worried.
"are you okay? What's up?"
it took him five minutes to respond.
"nothing. Forget I said anything. Just.. wait for me babe, ok ;D"
Same old Axel, all right.
"All right. And I've been waiting for you, dipshit. And I'll keep waiting. Jerk." I giggled a little before I sent it. This aught to teach him a lesson.
"Aw, Roxy, now you're being mean D: . I thought you loved me. Remember? When you came up to my doorstep and pretty much slobbered on me? But man, it felt nice touchin' your cute ass XD"
I felt blush rise to the tips of my ears. Ugh, why must he be so embarrassing?
"I was NOT slobbering on you. I'm glad you think my butt is cute. Maybe If you VISITED soon, you'd get to see more of it." was it too obvious that I was flirting? I hope not.
"Roxy, you flirt! What has happened to you while I've been gone?" I face-palmed. How could he tell?
"Maybe if you VISITED, you would find out! Ugh, you're so thick."
"LOL, that's what he said XD".
"Honestly?" I replied
"Yep. Night, Roxy. It's late, I have to go to bed. Ttyl."
late? It was what.. only around seven? Eight?
"Late? Geez, where are you . . btw, don't use girl text lingo with me. Creeps me out."
"lol, 'night, Roxy. Love you 3" I blushed slightly.
"... love you too". And I shut my phone.
At least I knew I'd see him soon. I wonder what he meant by "not in a good place right now"? He never even answered my question...
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AUTHOR'S NOTE: so, I hope this was okay. Again, sorry for spelling mistakes (if any). I do not own Microsoft word, so I use OpenOffice, which doesn't have.. the best spell check. Also, I was thinking about making Naminé Axel's second cousin (cousin of Kairi, who is cousins with Axel), but I thought that that would be too confusing.. should I? It's not too late to change it...
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