Xigbar breathed slowly, nearly shaking from the rage boiling in the pit of his stomach, painful sorrow not far behind; It had already been two days and he was still so angry, so...hurt. M-Maybe Axel was just whispering something to Roxas and got close to him, o-or Axel was just... he had to face it; He knew exactly what he saw and was close enough to tell it wasn't a accident and Roxas was enjoying the entire thing. He sighed, holding his head in his hands; Why was he getting so worked up over this? He should... be happy for Roxas... and they weren't supposed to have hearts, to feel any emotion... Xigbar growled. He had no indication Roxas even liked him more than friend, so that was another reason why he shouldn't be bothered by them kissing! He let himself fall back into the rather rigid and uncomfortable cot, not caring that it hurt because of the metal the thin mattress was placed on.

This was all so complicated and Xigbar didn't have a clue what to do besides just go on with life, but he wasn't satisfied with that... there was something wrong about seeing Axel and Roxas, and he couldn't go on with it like this; It would drive him insane! And he didn't dare talk to Roxas... it would be too difficult...

"What am I sayin'..." Xigbar muttered, shaking his head. He might as well just go on about his business...He supposed Saix had a mission for him, so he stood, pulling his hood over his face to hide any showing emotion.

Xigbar exited his room, stepping down the stairs slowly, hand in his pockets. His boots thumped along the stairs until he reached his intended destination, the platform holding the doorway to the Gray Room. As soon a he walked inside, he was glad his hood was up; Axel and Roxas were together, not doing anything romantic: Xemnas' forbid anything of the sort and straying from that law was cause for 'severe punishment', as the man put it. Xigbar tried to ignore the two, but Roxas just had to be nice and greet him.

"Hey, Xigbar! Why do you have your hood up?" Roxas questioned, unaware as he sidled up to the man, eyebrows raised; Xigbar side stepped away quickly.

"'Cause it is." Xigbar gave a curt response lanced with irritation, and Roxas sensed this.

"You must not feel good. So... I'll see you later?" Roxas said, as the sniper approached Saix.

"Whatever." Xigbar nearly snarled, and he could see out the corner of his good eye that Axel gave him a dirty look, pulling Roxas back towards him. Roxas was acting like nothing had happened... but then again, the blond didn't know a thing, and he certainly wasn't going to say a word...

"Hello there, Number II. You've come for your mission, correct?" The blue haired berserker turned towards Xigbar in a bored and vain manner, before his yellow eyes met Xigbar's single orb, which shined through the darkness beneath his hood like a animal's.

"And your hood is up for what reason?"

"'Cause I want it up, got it?" This time, Xigbar snarled, clenching his hands into fists, which surprised Axel and Roxas, who looked over with concern, even Saix' eyes widened at the suppressed anger."Just gimme my damn mission!"

"Calm yourself. You're to go to Fantasia and search for Heartless," Saix hissed, glaring at the sniper.

"Shut the hell up!" Xigbar barked, leaving without another word through a portal.

His boots splashed in mud as he was greeted by a strong downpour, but he could care less as he barreled through the undergrowth, hoping he found a Heartless just so he could destroy it and make a little of his rage go away. Finally, walking for what seemed like a hour, he finally gave up, tired, slumping against a tree.

"Gragh!" Xigbar snarled as he punched the nearest tree, hand instantly exploding with pain and he hissed, holding his injured hand down by his side. Everything was making him so infuriated! Saix with his higher-than-thou attitude, Axel pissing him off at every chance and Roxas not having a clue how much... he hurt him.. He sighed, breathing in and out slowly to attempt to calm himself down. He almost hoped that Saix or something caught them in the act, and they would be disciplined...

Xigbar summoned his arrow guns, stalking off into the jungle.

II~XIII~II~XIII

Crashing, churning, hateful feeling

Many emotions they are concealing

Must come out, must expel

A little thing here and there enough to make pain swell

Wondering, dwelling, acting out

Mind and heart filling with doubt

II~XIII~II~~III

"Axel, what do you think was wrong with Xigbar?" Roxas questioned his new found boyfriend as they rested atop the Clock tower, a safe place where they might share a kiss. He could imagine what horrible things Xemnas might do to them if he found out they were having a romantic relationship; But he couldn't help thinking about Xigbar... the man was just so angry and he even lashed out at him, though not as much as he did to Saix... And he never saw Xigbar with his hood up for any reason. Could... could Xigbar have seen them kiss? He was known for eavesdropping...

"Eh, who cares." Axel stated, giving Roxas a peck on the blond's soft cheek."He gets like that."

A lie.

"Maybe he saw us... and it made him angry?" Roxas said nervously, gripping Axel's arm, and the latter pulled him a little closer.

"I doubt it and if he did, I'm pretty sure he wouldn't say a thing. It'll be okay, Roxas." Axel assured the tiny male, giving him a soft grin.

"You're right... but I'll still talk to him later." Roxas sighed, moving to sit in Axel's lap. He had dreamed of that, loving looks from emerald eyes..only, he was still thinking of Xigbar. He dismissed it, figuring that he was just worried about the man as a friend. Roxas was happy to be with Axel, and he hoped it was last without Xemnas' finding out.