Roxas' face was expressionless as he stared up at Twilight Town's Clock tower from center Station Heights, waiting for Axel. He had planned to just tell everything to Axel right here, right now, even about his feelings for Xigbar. Then, Demyx, Zexion, Marluxia, and himself were going to search for his beloved Xigbar and Zexion's boyfriend, Lexaeus, with Vexen on standby in case they needed medical attention; They were all the members going out with someone else in the Organization, Demyx and Marluxia, Zexion and Lexaeus, and against Xemnas' forbidden love policy. He hadn't even had the tiniest inkling that Demyx and Marluxia together, until two days ago, when the sitarist had told him everything, and that he would help however he could, then Zexion came and told his his story. Each of them had been together almost since they joined Organization, Zexion and Lexaeus having been together for even longer. A breeze flowed through Roxas' locks and he turned towards the sunset, looking out over the town, golden buildings and streets. He could see nearly every inch of the Twilight Town from the Station Heights, from the strage lime green sea, to the rail road tracks heading into the horizon. Twilight Town was the perfect place for their meeting, no one but Axel, Xigbar, and himself ever came here for missions or just to relax, every other member stayed away. Roxas could only imagine how Axel might react to his confession, but... the fire user needed to know... it was the right thing to do, for all three of them. Roxas brow furrowed in slight fear, biting his lip, but he breathed slowly to steel himself as a portal opened behind him, and he heard boot steps, then his name.
"Roxas.. I think I sorta know what you want to talk about..." Axel announced his presence quietly, but Roxas could hear the subdued anger in his voice. Demyx told him that he had spoke to Axel, just to try and help the red head, but it almost went south. He could tell what Axel was angry about.
"I think I know, Demyx told me a little bit about what you two talked about Axel..." Roxas murmured softly as Axel approached him, but he didn't get too close, keeping space between them.
"First, Axel... I sorry... I'm so sorry..I don't even know how to explain this to you.." Roxas turned towards Axel, and their gaze met, Axel's hard and enraged, and Roxas' determined; He could do this... he had to. If he didn't, all three of them could get hurt permanently.
"You're sorry... you're sorry? Ha." Axel sneered, crossing his arms as he rolled his emerald orbs."Why would you even go out with me, if you liked Xigbar. Don't you realize that I love you? I.. I can be better! He didn't even try to be with you when you flirted with him, so why do you still care so much about him?"
"Axel..I know, I'm sorry... I did like you romantically, but... I like Xigbar more. I love him Axel... I do realize that you love me, but... I just... I know Xigbar didn't try to be with me, he had some problems, okay? And I didn't try hard enough to be with Xigbar, so it's partly my fault. Don't blame it all on Xigbar... Do you have a problem with me being with Xigbar, Axel?" Roxas fired back, clenching his hands to keep himself calm, so his voice wouldn't crack under the emotion.
"Okay, so you blame it on yourself? Don't do that, it's not your fault, it's his! Which is why I'm better, I'll try to be with you, Roxas! And yes, I do have a problem. He's too old for you, and... it's weird! Now, answer me! Why did you go out with me when you liked that goddamn sniper?" Axel snarled, lashing his arm out at nothing. Roxas just didn't understand that it would be wrong for Xigbar to be with him! And.. Xigbar wasn't right for Roxas, he was..
"Xigbar's only two years older than you, and I'm eighteen, I'm not underage, Axel! And so what if it's weird? It's not your choice! I went out with you because I was depressed, I wanted to be with you... Maybe I was in denial! And it's not really Xigbar's fault, it's mine! Like I said, I didn't try hard enough!" He couldn't hold it back, and Roxas' voice cracked as tears welled up in the corners of his eyes, but he wiped them away angrily. How could even Axel be acting like this, like he could control him, make his desicions, decide who was right and wrong was wrong for him.
"But still, that seems wrong!"
"You're near the same age, it might as well be wrong to be with you!"
"B-But..." Axel paused, trailing off as he looked away; Roxas caught him that time."Yeah, okay, so what. I'm still better than him, Roxas. Why can't you see that?"
"Because I really don't love you anymore, Axel. I'm sorry, I really am! Axel, you'll never know how sorry I am! You're my friend.."
"Shut up! Just shut up!" Axel suddenly shouted at the top of his lungs, fisting his spiked red locks in anger and pain; betrayal. How could he, how could Roxas even go out with him if he liked Xigbar, and then not even give him a good answer... It was sickening. He couldn't let Xigbar get Roxas... no, he wouldn't. He was so sure that Xigbar would do something to Roxas... rape him, abuse him, hurt him... The list when on and on. Or worse, get them in trouble with Xemnas. That would spell torture and punishment for both of them. He could deal with it happening to the sniper, but not Roxas, not if he could help it, but... he still couldn't stomach it; How could Roxas, his best friend turned boyfriend, betray him like this? He bet Xigbar didn't even like the sweet blond...
"Axel, please, just listen to me!" Roxas insisted, hands quivering.
"For all you know, Xigbar could be dead. I bet he ran away to Fantasia and got himself killed on purpose. Then what? You'll come crawling back to me, crying about how he's dead."
Roxas didn't respond. It had to be one of the worst things he had ever heard, and he wouldn't have expected it from Axel; His best friend. It was apallling. He used to think Xigbar was dead, the sniper... just couldn't, just couldn't be dead; It was still possible, but he didn't think it was true. Demyx helped restore his confidence in both Xigbar... and himself. Confidence... that Xigbar could take care of himself, that if Lexaeus went missing, they might be together which raised their chance of being alive, and that he could admit his love for Xigbar.
"Axel... I know for sure, that Xigbar would never do that. Even if he doesn't like me by some random chance, I will not crawl back to you, because you've said this to me. I wouldn't do it, even if I didn't like Xigbar. I don't have time to be verbally abused like this, I have to find Xigbar! This entire time, I've felt guilty because I didn't tell you anything! Now, I really don't! I know you're angry, but still! Go... Just go! " Roxas screamed at the top of his lungs, face reddened and hands clenched into fists. Angry tears came down, but they were instantly wiped away as the two males glared at each other, before Axel turned away, cloak flapping in the sudden whining fire wielder didn't say a word as he stalked away into Twilight Town, head bowed down in shame, and guilt. Roxas let out another angry cry, unable to hold it in; Everything was so infuriating, Axel and himself being at the center. He was at rest with his guilt about Xigbar, but he didn't have a clue when he would be at rest with what Axel just said or how he acted, even when he poured his heart out into a apology, but he had to take into mind that Axel was angry... and probably felt betrayed.. He couldn't dwell on Axel right now, he had to look for Xigbar, that was his main priority. He had told the little group to wait outside Memory Skyscraper for him so they could meet up before they left for Fantasia. Roxas steeled himself for whatever he may find, inhaling and exhaling as he breathed slowly, images of Xigbar entering his mind, and his heart stirred in his chest, anticipating the sight of the man Roxas came to love. Roxas opened a portal for himself, walking through; He promised that Xigbar and he would return to Twlight Town, have ice cream together, and watch the precious sunset, a nessecary part many of the Organization took for granted. His boots hit the violet pavement and he was cloaked in darkness, only brightened by the neon lights of Memory Skyscraper and the surrounding buildings, Kingdom Hearts pale moon light illuminating the figures he saw awaiting him. They weren't the strongest members, but they would be okay.
"There you are Roxas...If I may ask, how did it go?" Zexion asked softly, just in case any lesser Nobodies may be near, but he was sure Demyx's Dancers and Roxas' Assassin Nobodies had taken care of any aapproaching Nobodies. Xemnas could sense when they were detroyed, but he couldn't tell where, so it was a safe tactic in case Saix or Xaldin had sent their nobodies after them.
"Not as well as I had hoped, but.. I'm fine.. Let's go." Roxas replied, and the small group summoned their weapons.
"Don't worry, we'll find them, I'm sure of it." Demyx assured the tiny male with a soft grin as Marluxia opened a portal. Demyx called two of his Dancers from darkness, and the feminine Nobodies quivered, resonating their confidence in there master between the two; Roxas nodded his thanks. Marluxia called two of his lesser Nobodies up, Reapers, they were called. They stood at attention with tall black bodies seemingly clothes in a cloak like the Organization's that fused into leaves at the bottom where their needle like legs were and collars akin to an open rose. Their gun metal gray sleeves morphed into pink rose buds with long, sharp swords protruding from the bud. They filed through with the pink haired assassin leading the way into Fantasia, then Roxas, Demyx, Zexion, and last, their lesser Nobodies. When the portal closed, only they did a Sorcerer Nobody fly into the light from behind a building, strangling a Dancer in one hand and a Assassin in the other. The silver, mage like being suqeezed the struggling lesser Nobodies until they faded, leaving no trace of evidence as it shuddered, disappearing in a flash of white to report to it's Master.