Yay! Ryoma pov...Now we'll see what Ryoma saw,that made him run to America with his big brother.
ChordOverstreetFan- Even though what u first said(me being the secret wuss) got me scared, I love the way ur brain works.
MintLeafeon- Ok, I might have jumped the gun on the death threats parts,no pun intended, regarding pairings...I shall reveal nothing for a couple more chapters.
Oh yeah in the last chapter, I just wanna make sure everyone understood that convuluted sentence on the pov's for the last three chapters. If not i'm sorry I don't think I could word that any better.
However I do want to wrap up the sequel(once again im just editing thats why their getting updated daily, sometimes hourly). Because I will be attempting a very interesting vampire pot fic. Ill post the prologue after the last chapter of the sequel,once again im just editing, that particular fic,will be explicit fuji/ryo and I already have 10 of those chapters done.
Chapter 19- The Heart Really is a Fickle Thing pt.2
Ryoma pov
I'm surrounded by darkness. I hope for even a sliver of light but that hope is just wishful thinking. My eyes try to adjust, but all I can do is squint at nothing.
"Saa, Ryo-chan".
A light, at last. Within the light stands a single person silhouetted against it. He seemed to contrast the darkness. He beckoned for me to follow. So I ran to him, forgetting all else, I ran. No matter how quickly though, I coulden't grasp his hand. He was repeatedly just out of my reach.
He placed his hand back against his side, he no longer beckoned for me. He no longer wanted me.
With that painful realization, a chill ran down my spine. I waited for the tears but none came. I watched as he walked away from me and with him went the light.
I awoke as a cold gust of wind froze my arms,forcing my teeth to chatter and my arms to quake. I stretched languidly, rubbing the sleep from my eyes.
As I stretched back I smacked my head against the tree trunk, and I waited for the chuckle that would surely follow.
Slowly, I opened one eye slightly cautious. I half expected to see Syuusuke sitting in front of me with a smile gracing his lips, but when I looked, all I could see was darkness. A painful sense of foreboding sank into my bones. As my dream crept back into my thoughts.
'Was it Syuu I saw? He would never leave me.' Questions continued to swirl in my head.
'If Tezuka made his move, what has stopped others. What if he already has someone, what if in those three years I was gone he fell in love with another?' I pinched the bridge of my nose in an attempt to calm myself.
I stood and wondered where Syuusuke was.
I know we fell asleep, well I fell asleep. Hmm, I'm so thirsty. I had an aha moment. Ponta. I walked towards the machine. When I could hear a conversation,"and I love you Syuusuke." I heard a soft voice persist.
"Please, just give it a chance." The soft voice pleaded once more. I waited for the no that would surely follow, but to my surprise all I heard was hesitation.
"I- I don't know what to say." 'What does he mean he doesn't know what to say? It's obvious, no. I began walking closer, to interrupt the two. I stopped just at the edge of a building, when the taller man leaned down to kiss my Syuusuke.
I was shocked, but it quickly turned to happiness as I saw Syuu push the mystery male away. However that happiness too, quickly died away. My heart sank as the next words left Fuji's mouth.
"Let me talk to Ryoma first". So Syuu's breaking up with me. The taller male leaned in to hug Syuu, and Syuu allowed it.
"Thank you, so much...for this chance." He whispered into Syuuskue's ear before claiming his lips once more.
At that point my heart shattered. I felt a hand jerk me backwards but I coulden't take my eyes off the man I love. Why does this have to hurt so much?
I felt the horror on my face but I didn't have the strength to remove it. I coulden't put up my emotionless mask. I coulden't hide my pain. I coulden't even enjoy it.
How I would give anything for him to say my name, to care for me. I would've never imagined my love would love another. Just turn around Syuu,look at me, reach for me again...say my name.
"Ryo." That's it Syuu remember me, but the voice continued speaking.
"What's wrong. Are you in pain?" I looked away from the couple before me to the person behind me, in slight shock.
'It wasn't Syuu.' He would never call me again with such love in his voice. He would never care for me the way I care for him. How could fate be so cruel, to have me love a man that would never return my love.
I gripped my heart, as pain racked through my chest.
"It hurts Kei-chan. I-It hurts so much. How could he do this?" I tried to think, to find an answer,anything, but nothing could be found. I am nothing now but a hollow, vacant shell of the person I once was.
Kei pulled my body against his, in an attempt to comfort me. All I can do now is cry, as my heart becomes Ice. He can be happy now and I vow to never love again.
Keigo placed his chin above my head and I felt him stiffen. I knew what he saw, and I knew I had to stop him. I still love Syuu even if he doesn't return what I feel. I pull back to look Kei in the eyes, in an attempt to settle him.
"No Kei-chan, let's just go...he's right, it has been three years. I should've never come back from America." Every thing seemed so hazy, I coulden't control my legs.I felt my body fall forward, and I no longer had the strength to wake up not that I would want to.
I awoke slightly as my back hit a cushion. I slowly opened one lid to see Kei hesitating clearly angry. I grip his wrist, in an attempt to calm him once again.
"No Kei-nii-san". Then I slid my eyes shut once more this time feigning sleep. I don't want question, I knew Kei would get me home. I slacked my arm, as Keigo stiffened at the use of his name in such a manner.
He closed the door and growled,"Fine".
It was so unbefitting of the king I inwardly chuckled. I felt the car door next to me open and close, as Kei turned on the engine. He pulled out his phone and dialed a number.
"Get the jet fueled, I'm leaving to America tonight. You have one hour." I smiled a bitter, blissful smile. As I realize, i'm running to America once more, to escape my problems.