A/N: Fabian's point of view.

italics = live action

non-italics = Fabian's remembering his memories.

Song: "Suggestions" by Orelia Has Orchestra

EPILOGUE

"Fabian, Eddie wake up!" Trudy nearly screams as she ran into my bedroom. The lights flickered on and my hand covered my eyes, shielding me from the light.

"What is going on?" I stared at Trudy who is dressed in her nightgown and baby blue bathrobe.

"There has been a terrible accident."

Four Years Later

I don't forget it nor do I forget her.

I remember crawling out of bed, stumbling through Anubis House. I remember getting into that car with Patricia and Amber.

I remember arriving at the empty road, wondering what had happened and why was it so important for us to find out late at night. I remember that sinking feeling in my stomach that something horrible had something.

And when we arrived there, police tape was everywhere and through the darkness blue and red lights had flashed like strobe lights. I had felt awkward in my pajamas but still had pushed through the crowd forcing myself to the front.

I remember gasping, turning around with my hands on my head and wanting to throw up as bile ran to the tip of my tounge.

Even Amber had turned around.

Because I remember seeing Nina's body lying there.

I slipped under the police tape and ran to her side where paramedics were furiously working at her. What happened. I lefted my head up to see a car on flipped completely over being pulled from a ditch.

"Sir, you can't be here."

"But I know her."

"Sir-please wait behind the tape line." This time the officer sounded angry as the words came out like a growl.

"But, I'm her brother." I lied.

To this day, I suppose they thought I was a strange brother as I had ran to her body and kissed her forehead, telling her that I loved the day we had spent together, and that she should hold on for not just me but Amber and all the people who loved her so very much.

She had been so strong, she had held on for a while but then she let her breath go and I closed her eyes and slipped back into the crowd just needing to be alone.

Today is the anniversary of her death.

I still find myself alone on this day because it gives me time to think. To replay that day in my head. I've never shared that with anyone-the location of that lake or, the way Nina had said that she loved me-I kept those things secret.

Even my fiance doesn't know.

I love my fiance so much but not in the way I loved Nina. I suppose I haven't fully recovered from her death, but if it taught me one thing it's that; life is short so live it like it is.

I hear it. I hear her voice, I smell her scent, I can feel her hair and I see her face in every teenage girl. When people die, you want their last day to be different because at the time you didn't know but my last day with Nina was perfect.

I hope you can hear me. The day that you slipped away. Was the day I found out. Won't be the same.

A/N: The last part, in italics were lyrics to Avril Lavigne song "Slipped Away". I just changed 'it' to 'out.