~Adam's Pov ~

"I cant believe this, how could ive been so stupid!" Adam yelled out load frustrated as hell. some how he made it through his last class and made it home without loosing his head. But now, in the conference of his own house, he couldn't control himself anymore.

Adams hands started tugging on his hair as he fell down to his knees crying. He felt heartbroken, he never had felt like this before, it was all new to him

"how could Ive not known something like this would happen to me" he said more quietly this time

After a few minutes, Adam finally controlled him self enough to stop crying, but a new emotion was starting to build up in him,... anger, and before realizing he started feeling a strong urge, an old bad habit...

he quickly got up and moved to the other side of his room. He searched for a small box he secretly kept under his bed and pulled it out. He quickly pulled the continents out of the box

"don't do this" he hear his consents say as he brought the razor near his arm.

Adam shooked his head as he ignored his thoughts and brought the sharp razor closer

"do you really want more scars?"

Adam shut his eyes tight not caring as he slid the razor against his arm, he felt his blood start oozing out from his new fresh cut, it felt nice...

no wait! what am i doing! he thought to himself

he quickly dropped the razor and moved away from it

"this isn't the answer" he said to himself as he got up from the ground

he had to get out, he didn't want to risk cutting again,...he knew where he needed to go

-oOo-

Adam sat down

he was in his secret spot, where he went to get away from everything. He found out a few years ago that there was a blind spot on top of his roof where no one else could see him, expect from his neighbors window...Fiona's

but luckily for him, she wasn't home yet so he didn't need to worry about her seeing him

He put his head phones in his ears as he searched through his I phone for songs

He came a crossed the song passing afternoon by Iron and wine and decided to play it

"There are times that walk from you like some passing afternoon
Summer warmed the open window of her honeymoon
And she chose a yard to burn but the ground remembers her
Wooden spoons, her children stir her Bougainvillea blooms..."

He found himself singing along to the song, soon he felt his eyes grow heavy

without realizing it, he shut eyes, while drifting to a deep, peaceful sleep...

-oOo-

Adam opened his eyes but the lighting was different, the sun was gone and replaced with Dark grey clouds, it looked like it was going to rain

I must have been asleep for awhile he thought to him self as he stood up to leave but something to his right caught his eye

He looked over and noticed that Fiona's blinds were open, when he looked closer he noticed two figures...Fiona and Hayden

Adam felt tear feel down when his face when he realized that they were making out on her bed, he couldn't watch this anymore

he looked away as more tears fell from his eyes

Adam's body might have been but his mind was somewhere else, it was like something finally snapped in his head

He slowly started walking over towards the edge of the roof, he felt rain drops starting to drop on his head but he couldn't careless

He looked down over the edge

"I wonder how far down it is" he said softly to himself

*Author note: omg whats going to happen,...find out next chapter :) make sure to review, -jamie*