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Randy woke the next morning absently reaching across the bed. Tears wanting to well up in his eyes. He rolled over grabbing his phone hoping maybe there was a missed call from Paul or something. The screen was blank except the 9am of the cloak looking at him. "Come on man she would want you to push through this." He got up going into the shower he braced his hand on the back wall as the water ran over his body. Why didn't he just tell Paul to just try to end it, try to stop Kane from these random attacks? He saw what Kane did to those guards so he could get his hand on her. He lost her, he failed to be there for her. Even before last night he started to fail in his job of a good husband. The fights they had he knows were her defense of being scared, but Randy just kept on pushing. Was she right, was it Randy's pride, he ego that prevented him from giving the word? Did he not want to come off as weak, cowardly, a failure? John could handle Kane, why couldn't he? He turned off the shower not even sure how long he was in there, his mind still a swirl of thoughts as he got dried & dressed.
He picked up the phone calling Paul. "…Hey…honestly not good, please tell me something good…" Randy sighed a defeated tone to his voice. "Did you contact her parents in Philly yet…Hold off on that I'll handle it in the morning….Well it will take about ten hours to get there even if I pull out now, that might place me at the host around eight. I don't know if I want to see them that late with this news…you want to know if I can handle it. Honestly I don't know, but it is better I tell them to their face then have it from a phone call from the offices. The hardest I am sure will be her mom…God I was such a jerk to her recently. What if something happens?…You can't guarantee me that Paul, no one can!" Randy took a deep breath sitting on the bed his voice kept changing from a man enraged to a man on the verge of completely breaking down.
"She was scared, I should of seen it, the moment he even came near her I should have had you try to pull the plug. I was more wrapped up in myself, I'm her husband for crying out loud…I'm not just talking about the fucking ring Paul…the last few weeks we been fighting, she even tried to have me fucking see my ego was getting in the way of my fucking common sense. NO, no I just had to see what made the big freak tick. I just had to know why, why the fuck was he doing all this. Then I found out, found out he blames me to destroying the monster he was suppose to be in the ring, I made him appear human. So he goes off & some how destroys that humanity in him. Destroys it & now comes back to try to destroy me. He knew she was my weakness, as he called it my spark of humanity."
Paul tries to get a word in edgewise telling him not to be so hard on himself. He is just as much to blame, he should have had Kane stopped before now. He was foolish over the company to let the Cena shit happen, then Kane attacking family. Not just Jade, but Randy too, he was a brother in law after all. "You know what I'll talk to you later Paul, the sooner I get on the road the better." He hung up before moving to the front telling the driver to pull off setting a route to the Raw host hotel in Philadelphia. Randy just takes a seat in one of the captain chairs looking out the window. Sadly at times he was feeling if it was later he would so want to staring at the bottom of a beer bottle.
One point the called his parents, mainly his dad. He knew his dad would just listen while he vented. He had so much guilt & self loathing within him he just had to let it out or he would be letting Kane win letting it eat him up inside. He wasn't even sure how long he talked he felt a little better but not much. "Dad you don't know how much I wish I had a drink right now…Well yeah I have some beers on board…because I know I would be drinking to try to forget the pain…because I know it is the wrong reason, I know I did it slightly at Thanksgiving over Punk, or more so the pain I saw from Jade dealing with the Punk situation….it wasn't right then, I caved…I guess she changed me dad. She went through a lot of shit in her life & hasn't drank for a long time….It's not my place to go into dad…I know you are family, just say there are some things that would drive quite a few to turn to booze or drugs to escape & she remained strong. Now it's my turn, I need to be strong for when we find her…hope is all we have right now dad. I need to keep that though. I need to keep hoping we can find her soon & unharmed."
Hearing a beep he looked at his phone. "Damn dad I been talking your ear off for like three hours….Thank dad…yeah better then the other I guess, but I really need to plug this in incase Paul tries to call." He hung up the phone moving back to the bedroom area placing the phone on charge before laying down to try to rest. He also made a promise to himself anyways he was not going to lift a drink unless it was to celebrate. He couldn't allow himself to drown his grief, he had to stay focused, even if it took the two week till he face Kane in the match…no not match this was a flat out war between The Monster & the Apex Predator.