Chapter 7

After leaving Jason's penthouse Sam need to distract herself so she called Maxie and asked her to decorate the two guest rooms she had.

The next day Sam sat alone in her office Spinelle, Lucky, and Dante were working a case leaving her to herself.

Sam only had 4 more days before she would be finally reunited with her kids and she was nervous and jumpy after telling Jason the rest of the story. She somehow convensted herself that Balthazar father would come after her and the kids.

Looking at the picture's that grace her desk her eye's landed on the one with her mother and sisters smiling at the camera.

CRAP

"What happened Sam are you ok Jason said running thou the door."

I thought I locked that after the guys left'

"Well olisvitly not what's wrong you look stressed?"

Smartass. I complety forgot to tell Alexis and the girls about Adele and Hayden. I mean how are they going to feel that I kept something like this from them. Then I asked Maxie to help me with there rooms but no Maxie takes it upon herself to decorate the rooms. I have no say so in the matter every time I try and suggest an idea she shoots me down claiming it's her job . Claudia and Carly are calling me pitching to me why they should god mom. I don't know anything about my own kids what they like how they dress who there favorite band is, favorite movie or book. I mean are they anything like me or like that bastard. Then on top of that who are they going to hang out with I mean I would have to go to work and I will not hire a damn nanny or leave them alone. I mean Michael and Kristina are 2 years older than them and Molly and Morgan are 2 years younger. Michael already admitted he was jealous of them and he hasn't even mete them. I don't want Kristina around Adele teaching her how to be a bratty teenager. Oh god that sounded horrible.

"Sam calm down and take a deep breath. If you want I could go with you when you tell your family. As for Maxie maybe you should let her do this that way you have more time to register them for school. And everything else we could deal with later."

Oh god I forgot about school ugh.

And do you mean we are going to deal with everything later she said raising her eyebrow.

"Did you really think I was going to let you do this alone Sam, these kids are apart of you so I care about them like I did Lila."

Well I don't know I didn't really think about it. Everything has been like a blur to me since finding out I could get them back.

Jason lets be real for a minute who in there right mind would let me raise a child. Look at my background I was raised by a con artist, helped steal car's, made a living marrying men for money and then divorcing them,.

I was arrested for murder twice one being Bill Monroe and the other Diego Alcazar. Stole from Jax and Sonny, got pregnant by a married man, slept with my stepfather, was stalked by three psycho's, watched a child your child get kidnapped. I was stabbed and shot how many times broke out of jail had brain surgery am I missing something.

"Yeah you helped rescue two kidnapped boys one being Jake the other Michael. Saved a hotel full of people one being my son's mother who you couldn't stand. Helped when the hospital was on lockdown from a poison outbreak. Rescued two teenagers who ran away and then were kidnapped by your mother's ex. You helped Michael after both kidnappings. Saved Spinelle from the FBI and helped track down Anthony Zacchara. You did the PCPD job by going undercover and getting evidence that Andre Karpov was supplying counterfeit drugs to the hospital. Don't forget you helped my sister get over her rape and helped save me more than once and you saved Carly. Oh and you got Jake help after Cam set the house on fire. And got Joe to let us go in that hospital even thou he had nothing else to live for."

"Sam you have done more good than bad you care about almost everyone you come in contact with. Your kids would be lucky to have you for a mom. Hell your like a second mom to Sonny and Alexis kids so stop worrying" he said giving a small smile.

You really believe in me not to screw them up. Because Jason I don't want them to turn out like me I want them to have everything I didn't . That was one of the main reason's I gave them up besides being safe.

My biggest fear is them turning out just like me and having to struggle and fight for everything in their life like I did.

Sam had teary broken eyes and she spoke in a soft whisper I don't want Adele to have to go down the same road I did. I lost my virginity at a young age and in a threesome at that. I never had an chance to be a kid and experience stuff like having a boy pull my hair because he liked me or having a best friend. I didn't get that until coming to Port Charles and meeting you she said smiling at him.

I had no self confidence and out on the tuff girl role and acted as if nothing effected me like everything people said rolled off my back but that was a lie. Every time Alexis told me to have some self respect or that I was pathic I believed it. Carly was always in my face saying I was a whore and a bed warmer I believed it and that was another chip in my ego. Then when you started to pull away and lean on Elizabeth that hurt and I really thought that what Carly said was true and that was another chip to be tossed aside like I was nothing. I don't want my baby to feel like that.

And Hayden I don't want him to treat girls like there objects for him to play with and toss aside. I want him to have respect for any and every women even ones who don't deserve it. I couldn't take it if my son turned out to be like his ass of a father.

"Sam I am so sorry that I made you feel like that he said with the most sincere look and voice. He looked like he was fighting back tears after listening to Sam. If Hayden is anything like that I would gladly make him reconsider it and Adele will have you to guide her Sam there is nothing you can do about there past but you can change there future".

Jason lifted her head up and wiped the tears under her eyes. Sam gave an watery smile and mouthed thank you. Jason couldn't take it any more so he gave her a soft but passionate kiss on the lips .

Lets go tell your family there are going to be two more members he said standing up holding out his hand.

Sam took it smiling brightly and touching her still tingly lips.