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Chapter 14

Sophie

I frowned in the mirror as I took one look at the bruise. It was going away I'm assuming it's taking its sweet little time in doing so. I wiped my eyes and I had a feeling my sleeves are already wet.

The sun was starting to set so I'm guessing dinner is over by now. I did hear voices earlier outside of my room, but I didn't pay attention to whose they belonged to. I saw that I looked like I've been crying for days meanwhile I have cried for almost a few hours. My eyes were puffy and I was glad that I didn't wear any makeup on my eyes.

I decided to go down to the beach and just be by myself for awhile. It's not like I was going back in the woods anytime soon. I grabbed my sweatshirt I left my room and shut the door as I tossed my hood on my head and headed downstairs; trying to go unnoticed towards the door which led outside downstairs.

By the time I got outside, it was starting to get a little cool. I didn't care that I was wearing shorts at this point. I walked through the rose garden and down the little path that lead to the hill which lead to the beach. I jogged a little bit as I got down the hill. I made it down there without a scratch which is a shock.

The waves were coming in back and forth as I made it to the shore line. The sand was soft underneath my feet as I walked towards the ocean. I dipped my feet on the wet area from the waves and I felt the water tickling my feet. I closed my eyes as I unzipped my sweatshirt and tossed it behind me.

I walked back towards where I tossed the sweatshirt and lied on the sand, resting my head on my sweatshirt. I stared up at the sky, just letting my mind wander off as I thought about what I'd experienced in Narnia as I was trying to calm down.

This whole experience has been well; I don't know how to describe it. It had it good moments, some weird moments and a few bad moments but it was definitely a roller coaster ride I'll tell you that much.

I sat up being restless as I am, and stared out at the ocean. I felt a few tears coming down my face as I remembered the events from earlier.

How could I've known that those men were somehow related to Calormen?

How was I supposed to know that they were after people from Narnia who went in the woods?

Why were they doing it?

So many questions with very little or no answers. I mean I did know that Narnia and Calormen weren't getting along recently but this was getting out of control.

And if a war broke out because of my stupidity, then we're screwed.

I rested my chin on my arms as they hugged my knees. Who knew that my life would end up like this?

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw something heading in my direction. I didn't really care who it was since I wasn't really in the mood to talk to anyone or hear anything from them for that matter. I was certainly in no mood for a lecture that's for sure.

"I knew you would be here" a voice said. I looked up and saw it was Edmund coming towards me and he was standing over me.

"How did you find me?" I asked, turning my attention back to the water.

"I saw you walking out of the castle when I was heading to see you" he replied. "And the fact that I knew it was your special place to go to get away from everything."

"Where else would I be?" I asked distantly.

"You were missed at dinner" he said.

I simply shrugged as I continued to stare ahead. "Soph, what I said before I didn't mean it" he said.

"I wouldn't be surprised" I said.

"You could've been hurt or worse" he said.

"And you don't think I know that?" I snapped angrily at him.

"Calm down…"

"You have no right to tell me to calm down" I said as I stood up from my spot and started to walk away from him.

"Well, with the way you're acting these days what else do you want me to say?" he asked as he caught up with me. "Sophie, tell me what's wrong."

With one look at him, I started with the tears all over again. "I screwed it up didn't I?" I asked.

"Screwed what?" he asked confusingly.

"The whole Narnia and Calormen war crap whatever it's going on" I replied.

"You didn't do anything wrong" he said.

"Yes I did!" I yelled. "If I didn't go in those woods, I wouldn't have killed that guy and almost drowned. Ever since I came here, I tried nothing but my best to fit in with you guys and either I do something different that I get weird looks from people or I do it wrong and I feel that it's my fault."

I looked out at the ocean again before I looked over at Edmund. "You know what really sucks? You, Caspian and your siblings have done nothing but being nice to me since I've been here" I said.

"Except I was being an arse to you" he said. I smiled a little at that memory. "But there is something else that's bothering you also, right?"

I nodded. I felt a finger underneath my chin as I looked up at him. His dark eyes were boring into mine and I couldn't help but try and figure out what they were trying to say.

"Please tell me what it is" he pleaded.

I wanted to so bad but I don't know how he would react. Never in my life would I have to tell a guy how I feel about them, especially being in this situation. I mean, how would I know if he doesn't have the same feelings as me. I was so screwed up.

"Ever since the summer ball" I said. He waited for me to finish. "I, well, um I've sort of…"

"Well…"

The words were at the tip of my tongue but they wouldn't come out. They were right there but it just wouldn't come out.

"You know what forget it" I said, breaking away from him. I jogged over to get my sweatshirt. I couldn't do this. I don't know why I'm backing out but I just can't do it.

"You can't just start to talk about something and walk away" Edmund said with a bit of anger in his voice.

"Gee I'm sorry but I guess it wouldn't matter if I was going to tell anyways" I snapped.

"What in the bloody hell, Sophie you need to stop acting like a child" he said, walking towards he when we're almost close to each other.

"Well maybe if you would stop worrying about me then I wouldn't have to act like one" I said.

"What the…"

"You think that I would somehow get seriously hurt or killed. I'm capable of taking care of myself. But everywhere I look, you're there almost all the time. I mean don't get me wrong, you're kind, understanding, strong, trustworthy to me at least and maybe just a little bit overprotective of me and trust me I would know, I've seen it before. But there are times it's like why would you hang around me when I have absolutely no idea how this world functions and I'm just so different here. I mean I'm just a punk gothic freak who has no clue on how to survive in this world let alone-"

My rant was cut off as Edmund stepped towards me, cupped my face into his hands and pressed his lips on mine making me drop my sweatshirt.

A/n: Just so there won't be any confusion the 'punk gothic freak' bit is Sophie's words. Though back in times like Narnia they would never say those words but it's just Sophie's way of saying it out on frustration.

Hope you guys enjoyed this! I bet you guys were wondering when the hell they were going to kiss? So they did but what will happen afterwards that will be revealed in the next chapter.

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Signing out for now,
Spikeluver89