Grammar is fixed, there should be way ess errors now. I'm starting to see that most of this is because of my keyboard keys. Some of them take more pressure than others... But anyway here it is the newly revised chapter 3.
I finally made my way out of bed, realizing that I wasn't going to get any more sleep. I walked out of the room peeking around the doorway to a long hall extending on both sides. The left side ended with a door to another room I guess and the right went out into a sitting room. I walked towards the sitting room where I could hear the sound of plates knocking together. Guess it was almost time for breakfast. As I walked into the sitting room I could see Akane and Miss Suguwara cooking up what food they could get for breakfast n the kitchen across the room. Looked like just some rice and maybe some soup. Mich was quietly sitting at the table with one of her scripts. I don't think the others were up yet.
"Uh, good morning, guys." I said awkwardly. They all turned to me, all with smiles; Michiko with the greatest.
"Couldn't get back to sleep, huh?" Akane said with her back to me, attending to her cooking.
"Good morning, Mari." Miss Sugawara said, starting to set the table.
"Mari, how are you doing?" Mich asked hesistantly. Guess she was being careful not to upset me.
"I'm... better, I think," I replied, I walked towards the table to take a seat next to her. "Not sure how I am, honestly."
"Well, I hope you feel better soon, Mari." Michiko said softly. "I know how close you two were and..."
"That's enough, Michiko." Akane snapped without wavering a bit from her cooking. Everyone was silent, including Miss Sugawara making for a pretty awkward moment.
"Sorry, I was just trying to help..." Mich finally said with her head hung. Seeing her like that kinda made me mad that Akane would do that to her.
"Hey, you didn't have to yell at her." I turned to Akane who was now scooping rice into bowls from the steamer. She continued like she didn't even hear me. "Akane!" I said again. This time a bit louder. This seemed more like her rather than before in the room.
"Miss Sugawara can you finish breakfast? Everything's already cooked all you have to do is serve it." Akane asked sternly.
"Sure..." Miss Sugawara replied with a confused tone.
"Michiko, would you mind telling the others it's time for breakfast?" she said, this time much more calm.
"Yeah." Mich said before she walked back down the hall.
"Wakatake, you and I need to have a talk outside." she said to me as she walked down another hallway parallel to the hall where the rooms were. This one was much shorter and led to a balcony outside. I followed, not really sure what more she'd want to talk about. She walked down the stairs from the far side of the balcony that overlooked a wooded are not too far for the camp grounds. You could see roofs of other cabins but those were kinda far off.
"Did you ever wonder why I roomed with you and not Michiko?" Akane asked before we were even half way down the steps. She turned and rested her hand on the thick wooden railing.
"It crossed my mind..." I replied, placing my hand on the railing too.
"What she said to you in there, I was trying to prevent that." she said with a serious glint in her eyes.
"W-what do you mean? She was worried about me! She wanted to make sure I was okay. What's so wrong with that?" I snapped back angrily.
"What she did is remind you of your loss." she returned with a voice as serious as mine. "I knew if you roomed with her all she would do is remind you of what you lost and hope that you could pull yourself together enough to maybe try to move on. I'm trying to help you to get over this and move on so you can be stronger."
"So you just want me to turn my back and ignore this like it never happened?" I shouted. "Look, in case you didn't know, I love Hagino and I always will. But she's dead because she wanted to protect us. I understand that what she did was important and I'm proud of her. But it doesn't make it hurt any less."
"And you can't bring her back." Akane said.
"...I know." I said through clinched teeth, tears falling from my eyes,
"There's nothing you can do about what she did." Akane said again.
"I know." I sniffed. I gripped onto the railing as hard as I could.
"So what are you going to do now?" Akane said again. "Are you gonna sulk and cry? Just be pathetic and depressed about it? I already told you that you know she wouldn't want you to be sad about it."
I tightened my eyes shut as I pulled my arm across my face, wiping away as many tears as I could. "I know."
"I'm not trying to tell you to forget about her." Akane said with a softer tone. It sounded like she was headed for that 'tender' voice again. "I'm trying to tell you to live on because of her."
"It's only been a day, but every time I think about her, I just want to be with her." said between sniffs. "To see her smile, to hold her hand, or hear her voice... It's just so hard to try to imagine myself without her even though we've only been together for a short time. And I... I've been so stubborn, denying how I felt all this time. I just wish I had more to spend with her. And now... she's..." I struggled to speak with every word until I could hardly speak anymore, My body trembled from head to toe. I felt a gentle hand guide my head up. My eyes opened to Akane's dark gray eyes. I didn't know she was that close...
"Let it all out, Mari." she said softly. "Let it out and let it go. Only hold on to her memory for motivation to keep you going. Don't let what she gave her life to do for you be in vain." I closed my eyes as that haunting star flashed through my mind. Tears fell from the sudden jerk of my heart. I felt Akane's arms wrap around me again as I fell back into another sobbing mess. I never looked at it from Akane's point of view but she's right. Hagino wouldn't want me crying over her. She would want me to keep going. Besides, if I did keep crying over it she would take all the blame for it anyway. I felt Akane's hand brush across my head, lightly rubbing my hair. It made me feel comfortable. I could feel my face turn red, kind of embarrassed that Akane of all people is comforting me like this. This side of Akane I'm not used to at all. But it's nice that she's willing to help me. Guess I can't really help how she does it. I lifted my arms to return her embrace.
"Thank you, Akane."