I turned my head in the other direction. As if, I'm really interested in the flyer that was pinned up on the wall. Even if I was, it's not like I could read it if I wanted to, my eyes were filled to the rim with foggy liquid making it hard for me to see anything. I couldn't blink though, or the tears would fall and I am NOT letting him see me cry over some stupid girl, that probably doesn't have a GPA higher than a seventh grader. He seemed quiet anyway as he was getting his coffee ready and I'm not putting in the effort to talk to him when my emotions are running so high.
He reached for the coffee machine, making me slide away a little too eager. He didn't seem to notice my abrupt movement of leaving the room, and if he did he didn't say anything to make it known, that is. Probably too caught up in the thought of his wonderful new conquest, that's just so nice and funny.
The thought of her made my blood run cold, the thought of him being with her made my blood run hot, a burning sensation of jealousy that I couldn't quite learn how to hide. It's odd really, I use to never get jealous of women as much as I do when it comes to women with him. Me being a woman of power, I never really worry much about what my man is doing. Then again Castle isn't technically my man, but he's my partner isn't that enough for him to know that I care about him? Do I really have to tell him that I love him? Shouldn't he already know?
Of course not that's preposterous, we may be on the same page with most things, but when it comes to our feelings there's a mental blockage between us.
" Well detective Beckett it's been a true pleasure." Collin said to me as he packed up, he was a British detective we worked with on the case, and he really is a charmer. He was nice to, unlike someone I know at the moment.
"The pleasure was all mine detective inspector Hunt" The smile on my face, wouldn't leave. He was attractive, what can I say, I'm only human.
His eyes were warm, and welcoming as he said "Please Collin."
I nodded with a smile.
"Kate" It was odd working with a new man that was so perfect, but I still couldn't help to think of Castle who was only about fifteen feet away, on the phone with… well that's not important.
Collin seemed hesitant before he started to speak again.
"You know, I have a few hours before my flight Kate, can I persuade you to let me buy you a drink?" Is this guy a charmer or what? My heart fluttered a little, I was flattered after all. This attractive man asking me out for drinks.
It was a shame that I couldn't except, though Rick has been something awful to me lately, I can't shake off the feeling of guilt if I went out with this guy. I care about Rick too much, plus I really do need to talk to him, before he goes off to where ever he is going.
"Um…" I turned my head around towards Rick who was still on the phone, he looked nice tonight, was he going out himself? That red shirt always did well with him. When I turned my head back to Collin, you could see the disappointment but understanding washing over his face.
"I'm sorry, I have a bit of paper work to do." Man was that a terrible lie, not really a lie, I do have some paper work, but on normal circumstances, it could wait till later.
"Another time" He said as he began to walk away. A shame I had to let him go, he could have been something different.
"Where's Scott land yard off to?" Castle came up behind putting his phone away.
"He's going back to London.. Um, Castle do you have a second can we ta-" He cut me off before I could finish my sentence, which hurt a ton.
"Actually I don't, Jacinda has the Ferrari double-parked on the loading zone." He said all but too cold, like I was the last person on his mind, he had better things to do. This ticked me off.
"Wow! Four dates in three days…you like her?" The smile on my face was completely fake, I couldn't let him see what he was doing to me.
His smile made me want to cry "Yeah, why?" He seems oblivious.
My heart clenched at the fact that he said yeah, get he likes her. When I didn't answer right away, he noticed but didn't say anything. His eyes drew in questions that he wasn't willing to ask.
I shook it off "eh, She doesn't seem like your type."
"Well she's fun and un-complicated, think that's what my life needs right now." His words slit threw me, it's as if he knew it would shatter my heart. He walked away, he walked away and he knew that it hurt me, no way did he not.
Oh so he wants un-complicated and fun? I can't believe he would say that. I can't believe he would deliberately call me out like that? Plus I am fun? I can be fun, I thought he thought I was fun, I thought he loved me, I guess I thought a lot of things, I guess I'm just too complicated for him. I'm not worth it anymore. I sat down in defeat, grabbed my phone wanting to wash away my sorrows of the night and called him. By him not Castle, that heartless ass had enough of me, obviously. No I called Collin, the nice guy who is not being a complete ass, that doesn't mind going out for drinks with me, instead of some…ugh.
"Hi.. it's uh it's Kate…" Should I be doing this? "Do you still want to buy me that drink?" I was hopeful, not wanting to go home to my empty apartment just yet.
"What happened to your paper work?" Hunt asked, seeming confused.
"It can wait till another time." A shy smile creeping up on my face.
"Hmmm, alright then Kate, meet me down stairs?" He said charmingly.
"Of course" I giggled a bit, it felt good to smile after being mentally stabbed in the heart.