AN: I am terrible sorry for all those who have been waiting for an update from me!*bows repeatedly* Please forgive me! I've just been so busy and never had the time to go and type up the chapters, but I'm going to try! It's just that, I lost the motivation to do this story. And I've been so busy writing my own original stories, that this story flitted to the back of my mind. The farthest I've gotten in this story was to chapter seven when I stopped. And now, I'm re-editing all the chapters as I go along with typing it up, especially since my writing has changed since I wrote this story. So, I'm sorry.

I think the reason I lost motivation for this story is because I've gotten my own original stories to worry about and I'm using Kaisu as one of the main characters, but he's not the bottom, he's the top. I've stopped seeing him as a bottom a while ago, so that's probably why. Even with my other stories that have my original characters, I've changed a lot of things with them. They're paired up with someone that I created and I'm using them for my own story. So, I'm dreadfully sorry! I just need to get motivated to do my stories again, that's all.

So read, review, etc. Help get me motivated to do this story again, please. I need to know if I need to improve in my writing and if I'm doing good.

Disclaimer: All characters that are associated with Final Fantasy 7 is not mine. They are the rightful owner of Square Enix. So don't bug me about this, I'm posting this for the last time.

'...' - thoughts

"..." - speech

*One Winged Angel's Apology*

Chapter 2

Slamming the door shut of his house Kaisu walked over to the couch and collapsed on it. He grabbed the cushion that laid on the couch and buried his face into it to scream. 'Damn it,' Kaisu screamed in his head. 'Why is it that when I finally thought I could forget everything and move on, he comes back into my life? Why can't he just leave me alone?' Kaisu asked himself bitterly. His heart and mind was already in chaos from everything else that happened in his life and this bombshell was too much. He just didn't want to think about any of this, especially when it involved that man.

Shortly after, his phone began to ring. "Just leave me alone," Kaisu said as he buried his head in the cushion and curling in on himself. Still the phone continue to ring against his wishes. Sighing deeply Kaisu reached into his pocket and answered the device without looking at the caller. "What do you want?" Kaisu growled out.

"Kaisu," a calmed voice answered on the other end. "It's Cloud."

"Sorry about that Cloud. What is it? Need help with deliveries again?" Kaisu asked as he slowly sat up from his position. Hearing his friend's voice was certainly helping to calm his nerves at the moment. It was refreshing because he knew that no matter what, Cloud was always going to be there for him.

"I heard from Reno about what had happened. Are you alright?" Cloud asked, concern for his friend evident in his tone.

Kaisu sighed. Of course Cloud would have found out, Reno didn't know when to shut up. "To be honest Cloud, I'm not sure. I mean, I just wanted to forget about everything and move on, but..." Kaisu paused not knowing how to say what he wanted now. His mind was confused from all that he went through from before the Nibelheim incident to after. Although he really did want to forget everything and move on. It was just that how could he when the past keeps on returning and each time it was more painful than the last? "Cloud, what am I suppose to do?" Kaisu asked, the tears he's been holding in for so long finally escaping down his face. "Why is it that every time I'm ready to move on, he shows up? Cloud... I really don't know what to do anymore."

As soon as Cloud heard the other male's soft cries, he felt anger towards Rufus for putting his friend through this. Kaisu didn't deserve to be hurt anymore than he already was. Especially when he finally started to heal.

"Kaisu, I'll be at your place in a hour," Cloud informed the male. Cloud knew that the other was suffering terribly at the moment and it pained him. The first time that Kaisu had suffered by the hands of that man was horrible. He could still hear the screams that Kaisu had first let out for that man, while Zack and himself was forced to watch the entire ordeal. What was worst was that they couldn't do anything, but watch as a part of Kaisu had died that day.

"Thank you, Cloud," Kaisu thanked gratefully. He was glad that he had someone like Cloud to keep him company.

"I'll be there in a little while."

"Right." With that, Kaisu hanged up his phone and tossed it to the coffee table in front of him. He wiped whatever tears that had fallen from his face with the sleeve of his jacket and waited for his blonde friend to come.

Meanwhile, Cloud was speeding to Reno's apartment. To say he was pissed would be the understatement of the year. He was beyond piss, all because another certain blonde had to go and decide that it was best for his still healing friend to see what they had found. Thus ripping open already healed scars.

Upon reaching the red head's apartment, Cloud went straight blonde swordsman barely registered that the door to the apartment was practically ripped off of it's hinges. He had a feeling that it had to do with the male he had talked to not only five minutes ago.

"Yo Cloud, what brings you here?" Reno asked upon seeing the blonde storm into his apartment.

"Where's Rufus, I need to talk to him," Cloud asked, already walking into the hallway.

"Bedroom."

Nodding his head in understanding, Cloud headed towards the room he was certain that Rufus was staying in. The master bedroom. There was no doubt about it as Cloud was about to knock on the door. But before he could, the door opened to reveal Rufus on the other side of the door.

"Cloud, what are you doing here?" Rufus asked. He wasn't really surprised to see that the blonde had come over to meet him after what had just happened with Kaisu.

"Why did you tell Kaisu that he was back?" Cloud inquired, venom dripping from his voice. He couldn't bother to hide it as he knew that his friend was in pain because of what the other blonde had done.

"Cloud, you as much as I do that Kaisu had the right to know that Sephiroth was back. It was better that he found out now then later."

"Kaisu has suffered enough without you having to drop this on him, Rufus." Cloud was seething on the inside. He couldn't believe what Rufus was saying! But he knew, in his heart, that Kaisu had to face this sooner or later.

Rufus sighed as he dragged his hand through his blonde hair. "Well, there isn't much I can do now."

"And what do you mean by that?" Cloud's eyes narrowed at what he was saying. He had a bad feeling in the pit of his stomach that he wasn't going to like what the strawberry blonde had to say next.

"Rude is bringing Sephiroth to Kaisu's home at the moment."

Cloud stiffened at what he heard. He couldn't believe what he just heard! Before saying anything, Cloud turned on his heels and exited the apartment. Though before he did, he hissed out towards Rufus, "Why don't you fuck off and leave Kaisu alone."

Kaisu sat on his couch, patiently waiting for Cloud to knock on his door. He wasn't sure what he was going to expect Cloud to say to him, but he knew that it had something to do with dealing his past. After all, everyone else had managed to move on, it was just him who hasn't. He was the one who was being left behind, like always. His parents left him behind, the people he was closet to in ShinRa had left him, and worse, Sephiroth had left him multiple of times and it had hurt worse than the last. Everyone he had cared for had left him when he needed them most.

When the doorbell ranged, Kaisu was pulled out of his slight depression. He failed to notice that it wasn't the time that Cloud said he was going to be there. He only focused on answering the door, a mistake he was going to regret shortly after.

Instead of his blonde friend at the door like he expected, Kaisu was faced to face with the man who had hurt him multiple of times. Kaisu didn't even want to think of the man's name, even if he was standing in front of him.

"Kai-" the silver haired male started, but had to stop when the door was about to be slammed in his face. He held his hand out to stop the door from closing fully and placed enough pressure on the door to ensure it would stay open. Sephiroth wasn't going to let the younger close the door until they finally talked. "Kais, please listen to what I have to say. Let's talk about this," Sephiroth said softly.

"DON'T CALL ME THAT!" Kaisu screeched at the taller male. "You have no right to call me that or even talk to me!" Kaisu tried to shut the door, but the other still held it strong and it was pissing him off. Why couldn't the other get it through his thick head? "You! The last time I tried to talk with you, I was nearly killed by your hands!"

"That wasn't me Kaisu!"

"Yes it was!"

"You know I would never do that, Kaisu. I lo-"

"DON'T SAY THOSE WORDS! Don't call me by my name!" Kaisu's voice rose with each word spoken. The tears stinging the back of his eyes as he got more frustrated from being near the man. And not only that, the reminder of the betrayal he felt all those years ago were still fresh in his mind and the immense pain he felt from it. "You chose that piece of alien shit over me and left me for dead after stabbing me. I would've been dead if it wasn't for Hojo!" The tears were threatening to spill over now, but Kaisu still held it in. He wouldn't cry in front of this man, never again. But it was so hard with the other there. "I wish that I had never met you or joined SOLDIER for that matter! So leave me the fuck alone!"

The grip Sephiroth had on the door slipped as he heard what the other had said. The other had wished he had never met him or joined SOLDIER. That was what had shocked him. He knew it had been the younger's dream to join SOLDIER, so saying that he didn't, it was bad.

Seeing the opportunity to shut the door, Kaisu quickly took that chance. He slammed the door in the other's face. He was panting from all the shouting and had leaned against the door to collapse to the floor. He was exhausted both physically and mentally and he just wanted to release his cries. And that was what Kaisu did. He released the tears he's been holding back for so long, his body curled into a ball against the door. He stayed in that position until he passed out.

On the other side of the door, Sephiroth was still standing in the exact spot he was when Kaisu had slammed the door mind racing through what the raven haired boy had said, but not making sense of any of it. There was no way he would've stabbed Kaisu to the brink of death, he wouldn't even lay a hand that would hurt the other! And even though his mind knew it was best to do as what the younger had shouted to him to do, his heart wouldn't let him. He couldn't leave the one he love in this much pain, especially when he knew he could do something. He needed Kaisu with him, but why couldn't the other just let him? Even if there was good reasons as to why.

Sephiroth didn't know how long he stayed rooted to that spot, but when the sound of a motorcycle reached his ears, he looked towards the source. His eyes landing on spiky blonde hair that he could recognize a mile away. Even when he couldn't recognize the male's face.

"Cloud..."

AN: Once again, sorry about the crap update.

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