AN: Since I am determine to get this out to the readers or those of you who read this, I am going to post this before I go on my vacation. There won't be any Internet access there. So I'm going to post this now. So please review and tell me how I did.

One-Winged Angel's Apology

Chapter 3

Once Cloud knew that the sleeping male was tucked in his bed, the blonde headed out to the porch. There he saw Sephiroth looking at him for answers. He knew what those questions were as they would no doubt pertain to what was going on with Kaisu. And though he knew that he had to answer at least some of the questions, he didn't want to. He knew that the cause of Kaisu's drastic change was because of the man in front of him. After all, what would one do when the man you love ultimately betrayed you for something that wasn't even human?

"Cloud, can you tell me what's wrong with Kaisu?" Sephiroth asked with concern clear in his voice. "Kaisu said that he wished he never met me or joined SOLDIER and you know as well as I do that that was his dream."

Cloud sighed softly at the other's words. It was true that Kaisu had said that his number one dream as a child was to join SOLDIER and it had remained the same even when he had finally joined. Though it had all changed when Kaisu had been betrayed. He lost his smile and never forgave himself for everything that had happened and blamed himself for not being strong enough to kill the silver haired male.

"You've tried to kill Kaisu countless of times in the past," Cloud answered after a few moments of silence. "It really hurt him each time he had confronted you."

"I would never do that," Sephiroth denied. "I could never kill Kaisu or hurt him. Cloud you know that as well as I do."

"That's the thing. You did and came close to actually killing him on numerous occasions in the last ten years."

"That wasn't me."

"What exactly do you remember of the past ten years?" Cloud inquired. He was curious as to how far the absent of memories there was. And so far, from what he was able to tell was that it was before he had gone insane.

"Ten years?" Sephiroth questioned softly. He couldn't believe that ten years had passed, but that did explain why everyone looked so different.

"Yes."

"All I remember is walking up to the reactor at Nibelheim and after that it's a blank. But could, has it really been ten years since then?"

"It has. So you don't know anything at all." Cloud had frown set on his face as he said that. His mind was going to the slumbering male and how he was going to react at this news. He just hoped that the other one wouldn't have a break down or do anything drastic.

"What happened on the Nibelheim mission that caused Kaisu to change do drastically?" When Sephiroth had asked this question, he wasn't sure if he really wanted to know the answer or not. He was unsure of how he would react to whatever he did to get Kaisu to act the way he did to him.

"You lost your mind when you found something. When you lost it, you destroyed Nibelheim and many of those who lived there. Zack, Kaisu, and I went up against you to stop you, we were nearly killed in our efforts," Cloud said as he looked away from the other male. His heart clenched slightly at having to say his dead lover's name.

"How did you survive?"

"Hojo, the rest is self explanatory."

"What did he do to you three?"

"He used us as experiments. He deemed us as failures after a while and left us to die or something. It was pure luck that Zack managed to get me out of there," Cloud said the last sentence softly. It still pained him to think that he had left his friend there to die. Even though he knew that Zack was only able to carry one of them out to safety and since he was comatose and the raven's lover, it was obvious who would go. He wished he had been stronger to help Kaisu get through the pain of it all.

"What happened to Kaisu, why didn't he escape with you two?" Sephiroth questioned sharply. Why didn't they take Kaisu with them? Why did they left him to die?

"I don't know the full details of that. You would have to ask Kaisu about that." Cloud turned towards the entrance of the house. He had nothing more he had to say to the other male. There was no need as the rest was up to Kaisu. The male had to decide once and for all. But at the moment, Cloud knew that Kaisu couldn't make the right decision right now. "I wouldn't try to do anything risky that involves Kaisu at the moment. He's not in a stable state of mind at the moment," Cloud warned. With the warning said, Cloud entered the house.

Once the sound of the door's lock being turned, Sephiroth let out a long sigh. His mind was digesting all that Cloud had told him so far and at the moment, he couldn't believe it. He had almost killed the one he love and it wasn't just once, but multiple times. Though he couldn't believe it, he knew somewhere in his mind that what Cloud had said was the truth. And it frightened him that he would harm those closest to him.

"What had made me go insane to the point that I would hurt the one I love?" Sephiroth asked himself. His heart was clenching painfully at the thought of what he had done to the man he love. Worst than that was the possibility of losing the one he love and trusted the most for the rest of his life. "What do I do?" The feeling in his chest expanding even further. He never had felt hopelessness before and had no reason to, until now.

It was nearly morning when Kaisu had finally woken from his slumber. He knew he was in his bed, but didn't remember how he had gotten in it in the first place. All that he was certain of was the migraine he was currently sporting from all the events that had happened yesterday. It was no wonder Kaisu had broken down.

Slipping from his bed, Kaisu went to the bathroom to take a shower. He needed to clear his head and try to forget everything that happen and the best way was to take a hot shower. The ex-SOLDIER peeled off his clothes as he waited for the water to turn to a scalding hot temperature. Once it was to his satisfaction, he got into the shower. Under the water, Kaisu felt all the tensions leave his body.

It wasn't long that his mind began to wander to places he thought he had long forgotten. Memories of the past, emotions that had belonged to them, many of which was a reminder of what he had failed to do. Looking at his right hand-his sword hand-Kaisu let out a long sigh.

'Would there have been so much sadness in this world if I had killed him? More importantly, would I have been able to do it if I could do it again?' Kaisu questioned himself. Shaking his head, Kaisu clenched his hand as he said the answer he knew would come out from him. "No I wouldn't... I couldn't... can't kill him, even if I knew that all of this would've happen."

Stopping the shower, Kaisu stepped out and dried himself off. Dressing himself in a black turtle neck and black jeans. The male paused as he spotted the gold ring that laid innocently on the counter. Hesitantly, he picking up the gold ring and placed it on his left ring finger.

Stepping out of the bathroom, Kaisu could smell bacon and pancakes being cooked and went to the kitchen. He was curious as to who was in the kitchen, but knew that he had nothing to worry about. After all, the only people who had a key to his house was Cloud, Tifa, Barrett, and Vincent. So when he rounded the corner that would lead to the kitchen, he wasn't surprise to see a head of wild spiky blonde hair. Seeing that Cloud was busy making breakfast, Kaisu went to the fridge to grab something to drink.

"Good morning Kaisu," Cloud said as he finished the last of the preparations needed for breakfast.

"Morning Cloud," Kaisu greeted back. He grabbed a bottle of water and took a sip from it. "Thanks for coming over."

"You're welcome."

Kaisu didn't say anything as Cloud went to place the plates on the dining room table. He wasn't sure what the blonde was going to tell him or talk to him about. After all, it was Cloud who had offered to come over. So instead he followed Cloud.

After a while of silence, Cloud was the one who finally spoke up.

"Kaisu, we need to talk about Sephiroth."

"I know..." Kaisu said softly.

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