AN: Sorry, sorry! I know it's late and everything, but I did promise by the end of the week or the week after. So without further ado, you may begin reading.

Chapter 4

"I know..." Kaisu said softly as he took a seat at the dining table.

Cloud also sat down and silence quickly fell between the two friends. Both unsure of how to start the conversation that needed to be said. It wasn't until Cloud had finished his fifth bite of food that he spoke up.

"Kaisu, what are you going to do now that he's back?" Cloud asked. He knew that he couldn't speak the silver haired male's name in the other male's presence. If he did, he was certain that the other would go into hysterics.

"I don't want anything to do with that man. It was his fault that everything had happen so far," Kaisu growled out as he glared at the the food was great, Kaisu couldn't help the glare that he was directing at the food. The mere memories of the past just wouldn't leave him of the past that hurt him so much that he wished that he could forget them and undo all of the mistakes he had made up to this point. At least that's what he keeps telling himself.

"If you don't want anything to do with him, then why do you still have that ring?" Cloud inquired as he stared pointedly at the ring on the other's hand. The blond knew exactly who had given Kaisu the ring, he had know since Kaisu had first gotten it. And why the other still had the ring, but he wasn't going to say anything. Cloud wanted the other male to realize it himself-realize why he hadn't thrown the ring away.

Kaisu stopped all movements as he stared at the ring on his right hand. Kaisu, himself, didn't know why he still kept the ring he had for nearly eleven years ago. Not when the past ten years had been filled with pain and despair, not when he knew exactly who had caused it all. He hated that man and yet, he still never tossed it. Was it because some part of Kaisu had clung onto the idea that the man he loved would return to him as he once had been?

"Kaisu," Cloud called softly.

At the sound of his name, Kaisu shook his head to clear his thoughts and looked at the blond. "I don't know Cloud," Kaisu said in a soft tone. And in truth, he really didn't. He didn't know what to think or feel. "I loved him so much, but... I can't forgive him so easily. He betrayed me when I loved him so much." Kaisu's head was now hanging low at the last sentence.

"I'm not asking you to forgive him. That decision is entirely up to you if you want to or not," Cloud said. He stood up from his seat and made his way to put away his dishes. He wasn't sure what Kaisu would do next, but he hoped the other would make a choice that would leave him happy. That was all he wanted for his friend. "Just think about it Kaisu."

Kaisu didn't say anything as Cloud went into the kitchen. He didn't know what to say to his blond friend.

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For the next month, Kaisu barely left his house and when he did, he never stayed out for long. The The only places he would go to were the Seventh heaven or when he had a job to do. Other than that, he was always inside his house. Kaisu didn't leave because he didn't want to chance an encounter with him. He wanted to avoid the man as much as possible.

At the moment though, unfortunately for Kaisu, he had to go shopping for the essentials to live. He was running low on food as of the moment. Sure he didn't want to go out and bump into the one person he was avoiding, but dying of starvation wasn't at all appealing to Kaisu.

Kaisu went out and quickly did his shopping. After he had gotten everything, he headed back to his house. As he did so, his mind began to wander on its own. It traveled from trivial things to memories of the past. Memories that caused him to contemplate on how different things would've been if he had done certain things. Though as his thoughts headed to forbidden territory, Kasiu shook his head to dislodge the thoughts. The raven didn't want to remember that past.

Kaisu was so deep in thought that he never noticed that he was about to bump into someone-someone that he didn't want to meet for a long time. Fate really was being cruel towards the raven at the moment.

When Kaisu crashed into the person, he nearly lost his balance if it weren't for a pair of hands grabbing his shoulders. This allowed Kaisu to quickly regain his balance. He would've thanked the person for helping him until he saw a flash of silver hair. Kaisu could feel his heart stopping at that moment. This was exactly what he was trying to avoid.

"Kaisu are you okay?" Sephiroth asked. His expression filled with worry and concern for the younger. His expression went amiss by the smaller male.

Kaisu didn't say anything as he pulled himself out of the other's grasp. He turned and walked away as quickly as he could. He didn't want to face the the man. Not now, not ever. The raven did everything he could to get away from the other, but it wasn't enough. Sephiroth was still following him. When Kaisu turned into an alley, he wanted to kick himself when he hadn't realized that it was a dead end until it was too late. Fate just really felt it was appropriate to screw his day.

"Stop running away from me Kaisu," Sephiroth said as he saw that the other was trapped. He was grateful that the alley was a dead end as Sephiroth was hopping that he could finally settle things between himself and Kaisu. They needed this talk, even if the other didn't want it.

"I'll do whatever the hell I want Sephiroth," Kaisu snapped.

"Kaisu, can we just talk?" Sephiroth asked instead, ignoring the other's words. "I'm worried about you."

"Don't worry about me. Better yet, don't even talk to me."

"How can I not worry about you, Kaisu? How can I not talk to you when we need to have this talk?" Sephiroth inquired. He slowly walked towards the other male as he said softly, "I love you, Kaisu, more than anything." He placed a hand on Kaisu's shoulder lightly.

Right then, something snapped inside Kaisu as the man's hand was placed lightly on his turned around to face Sephiroth. His eyes were narrowed as he glared at him. His words spoken softly, but loud enough for the other to hear. "Just leave me alone Sephiroth."

Sephiroth wasn't going to back down. He wasn't going to be pushed away from the other no matter what-he wasn't going to allow it.

"No Kaisu. I won't leave you alone, not when I love you," Sephiroth declared.

"If you love me, why won't you just stay dead?" Kaisu screamed at the taller male. Tears began to sting at the back of Kaisu's eyes, but he wasn't going to release them. Not in front of this man. His fists clenched tightly around his groceries, his nails digging into the palm of his hands. "You... You left me alone to be with a piece of fucking alien shit that Hojo said was your mother! How do you think I felt when you pushed me away and turned your back on me? I loved you so much, but you stabbed me and left me to die! If it wasn't for that bastard of a professor, Hojo, I would be dead!" Kaisu was getting hysterical. He couldn't stop the words that were flowing from his lips as the memories kept flashing in his mind. No matter how hard he tried-they just wouldn't stop. "Maybe it would've been better if I had died! Then I wouldn't have to see you ever again!" Kaisu's voice cracked at the end as he tried to stop the tears that were threatening to fall.

"Kaisu, please understand that I really do lo-"

"Stop! Just stop! Stop saying those words like you mean it! I don't wa-" Kaisu's words were cut off when a pair of strong arms wrapped around his lithe frame. His entire body stiffening at the sudden contact. His mind going blank for a moment before he began to struggle. "Let go of me! You have no right to touch me!" Kaisu screamed. The bags of groceries falling to the ground in order for Kaisu to hit the older male in the chest.

"No, I won't let go, Kaisu. Not now, not ever. Not when you're in so much pain from this. Not when I love you, not when you're the only one I want to love," Sephiroth said, his grip tightening on the smaller male.

With each hit Kaisu threw at Sephiroth, he couldn't hold back the tears that wanted to fall anymore. Before Kaisu realized it what he was happening, he stopped his assault only to grab onto the taller's coat. The tears falling harder as he tried to understand what was happening now.

"Why?" Kaisu whispered brokenly. "You left me to-"

"I would never leave you if I was myself, Kaisu, not when I love you with everything I can give," Sephiroth whispered. He gently tilted the other's chin to have those deep blue eyes he loves so much to look at him directly. "If I could do anything to prove that what I said is nothing, but the truth, I would do it a million times to prove that I love you, Kaisu." Sephiroth slowly leaned towards Kaisu to place his lips gently on the other's own lips. The silver haired male praying to any gods or goddesses out there that Kaisu wouldn't push him away.

Once those lips touched his, Kaisu wasn't sure what to do anymore. The Sephiroth in front of him was just like the Sephiroth he loved, the one who was always gently and patient with him. It was as if the past tens year had never happened in the first place as soon as those lips touched his. It was almost like the past where Sephiroth would steal kisses from him while they were working at ShinRa.

It wasn't long after that Sephiroth leaned away to look at the other's face. He could see that the other was still lost by the kiss, but was slowly coming out of it. The ex-general didn't miss the slight flush expression on the other's face or that Kaisu had yet to push him away. The small ray of hope entering him as he thought that there might still be a slight chance for them to start over.

When Kaisu finally regained his senses, he quickly looked away from the face above him. His heart beating a mile a minute from sharing a kiss with the man he had loved so much. And Kaisu couldn't deny it anymore. The feelings he had for the ex-general were resurfacing once more, but this time it was coming at full force. He now knew that the man holding him was his Sephiroth- the man he loved all those years ago. Kaisu knew that the feelings were never going to stop. He was going to love the other again. And truth be told, a tiny part of Kaisu wanted to love the other again.

"Kaisu," Sephiroth called softly. He wanted to see if the other would respond since the other had been silent for too long.

At the sound of his name Kaisu looked up at the taller male. The concern was clear on Sephiroth's face and had caused Kaisu to blush slightly. The kiss still fresh in his memories. 'Stupid kiss!' Kaisu thought angrily. 'Why can't he just let me hate him?'

"Kaisu, I love you and won't stop loving you whether or not you tell me to or not," Sephiroth declared. He slowly released his hold on Kaisu as if he was afraid the other was going to run away from him again. When he saw that Kaisu was only picking up his fallen bags, he helped as well.

"i wish you would," Kaisu mumbled. When he grabbed half of the fallen bags, he didn't notice the flash of hurt in those jaded cat eyes. "Too bad I can't either."

The words were said in an almost nonexistent voice, but Sephiroth heard it none the less. And though it didn't show on his face Sephiroth's hopes began to rise. With the rest of the bags in his hands, Sephiroth looked at Kaisu hoping against hope that everything would get better between the two. "Does this mean-" Sephiroth trailed off leaving the question vague to see what the other would say.

"Maybe," Kaisu answered as he knew what the other had meant. It was the only answer that Kaisu could give. With the bag picked up Kaisu headed home with one more person in tow. Someone he had never once thought would come into his home since he came back, let alone for Kaisu to start feeling the first pangs of love begin to stir. Maybe things were finally going to get better after having to hold in the years of pain and loss he felt.

AN: Well I finally bring chapter 4 to you lovely readers. Sorry for its lateness, but I have many other projects going on. And don't worry this isn't the last chapter. There's plenty more to come. I'll give you a small preview of what's to come in the next chapter, so anticipate what might happen next.

Next chapter:

"Kaisu Silverheart," the double said, directing his sentence to the real Kaisu. "It's good to finally meet one another."