6 : Confused

Clove's POV

Thwack! I shouldn't love him. Thwack! It's just wrong. Thwack! I should just stay away. Thwack! But I can't. I think... I love him. I soon get tired from throwing knives and go to a more calm station. Knot tying. Trying knots actually calm me down. Some are very difficult so I really have to put my mind into it. It makes me forget my deep thoughts for a while.

After completing the knots, I go over to the archery station. I'm not really good with a bow and arrow. I improve a little bit but I leave soon and get back to the knives station. It's been a long time since I've seen Cato in the training center. I remember the kiss. Why did he? He told me he wasn't the one who kissed blondie. Then he kisses me. Shit. Why did I kiss him back? It just made me more confused. I look around to see where Cato is. I spot him near the spear throwing station with Marvel and blondie. They're talking and giggling and stuff. I want to barf and throw a knife towards them. After throwing a few knives, Atala collects us and sends us to our rooms. It must be late already. Training is over. I go to the elevator and press the number two. The door was about to close when I saw someone's training boot stop the doors from closing. The doors open and I see Cato standing in front of me with an awkward smile. He goes in and there's an awkward silence between us. As soon as the door opens, I walk fast to get to my room.
"Is that what you're always gonna do? Run away from everything?" I hear Cato say. I have the urge to scream at him. Instead, I confront him in the most proper way I could. I walk fast towards him and whisper loudly so I won't wake anyone up. "You don't know what I'm going through right now, Cato. You don't know how confused I'm feeling right now. You had to kiss me. You just had to. I don't want to be a part of your games. Flirting and making out with blondie?" Shoot why did I use blondie? "and then kissing me?"
"You kissed me back Clove. You kissed me back. You can't say that it's my fault you're confused because you kissed me back!" We're now shouting. Nobody's waking up though.
"You know what Cato? Maybe it'd be better if I just stayed away for a little while, okay?" I say calming down.
"No, clove I"- he tries to finish the sentence but I cut him off.
"It's okay Cato. Just let it go. We'll just pretend that nothing happened. Flirt with Glimmer. I don't care what you do. Just forget everything." I walk away and he doesn't try to stop me. I go to my room and cry myself to sleep."

Cato's POV

Damn. What did I just do? Seems like yesterday we we're still best friends. Now we're avoiding each other. I go to my room and take a bath. This is good because I can think in here. Why the heck did this happen? Now I'm not too sure what my feelings are. Do I love Clove? Does she love me? Are we just best friends? Why did she kiss me back? I'm getting confused and angry that I punched the bathroom walls several times. "You have to control your anger." Clove said this when I almost lost it in the training center back in 2. Control my anger… I stop and notice that my knuckles are bleeding. I wash it then close the showers. I dress up in gray boxers and a black muscle cut top. An avox knocks on the door and gives me medicine and bandages. Hmmm, nice timing. I put medicine on my knuckles and wrap bandages around it. I lay down my head, not yet sleeping because a million things are running through my mind.

A few more thoughts, then I doze off.

Clove is standing in front of me, "Clove?" I say to her but she does not respond. "Clove," I repeat but she still doesn't reply. She throws a knife at me and it hits me on the chest right at the heart. But it doesn't hurt. "Clove! Talk to me please! Please!" I'm screaming at her but she doesn't say a thing. I hold her close to my body but she vanishes into the air. "No! Don't leave me Clove!" I scream until my voice runs out. The land beneath me starts to crumble. I let out a big scream and then I see my room.

It was just a dream. A crazy, scary bad dream where Clove ignores me. I go back to sleep for a few hours more but I hear Faye half saying half singing, "Rise and shine! Second day of training today!" I stand up and take a bath. I wear a black shirt and green comfortable pants. I head to the dining table and sit on a chair beside Brutus. Clove hasn't come down yet. That's odd. She always gets here before I do. Maybe she didn't have a good night either. Minutes later, she goes to the dining table and sits across me as usual. I look at her but she's avoiding my eyes. There's a silence across the room. Which is weird because Faye and our stylists talk a lot while eating. Finally, Brutus breaks the silence… but his topic isn't really one to get happy about.

"So what happened during lunch?" Oh shit. Maybe another saw us and told Brutus and Enobaria. He repeats the question, "I said, what happened during lunch?"
"We ate, of course. Then some things happened… But it won't happen again. I'm sure. We've sorted it out," Clove says looking at me then quickly looks at her plate.
"Just make sure okay? You can't let people show how weak you are. Falling in love and shit. Don't go kissing each other anywhere. You have to show them that you are fierce, strong and emotionless. No flirting with each other." What the hell just happened…
 "Yeah, yeah. I won't happen again. We've talked about it," I say.

After breakfast, Enobaria pulls me to a corner. "Cato, I need you to stay away from Clove. I think she's falling in love with you. I know what you're trying to do. You're trying to protect her so she'd go back to 2. But just stay away. She's getting more emotionally wrecked because of her feelings. Just act like nothing happened. Just act as allies. Nothing more. Just allies."
"It's going to be hard Enobaria. I'll try."

We go to training and I go to the fire making station, edible plants and knot tying station. I got bored quickly so I head back to the sword station. I look around to see Clove. I see her with Ronnie and Fiona. "Hey Clove!" I try talking to her. But she doesn't respond. Is this a dream again? It isn't. But it feels like it…

Notes: Uh, yeah. Review? :) Oh and guys, this fanfic focuses more on Clove and Cato's romantic relationship. Not really on the games.. So yeah. REVIEW! c: