A/N: Another chapter of It's Got To Be Love, but sadly this chapter is the last. I didn't plan this to be the last, but there you go. Please enjoy the last ever chapter of It's Got To Be Love, thank you for everything :3
It's Got To Be Love-AkuRoku
Chapter 14: Forgiveness
"Are you alright Roxas? How's your leg?" Dr. Cunnings asked, I shook my head, he's been babbling on ever since I left that damn hospital room. It had been a month since the accident, and Dr. Cunnings said I could go back home, I'd finally have some time to myself without being watched continuously throughout the day. I smelt the fresh air as Dr. Cunnings continued to fret.
"Is your arm itching? Those casts are never comfortable. Okay make sure to take your pain killers before bed and when you wake up, or you'll be experiencing a lot of pain. Be sure to come every 2 weeks, just so we can check on your state of health alrigh-"
"Yes Doctor. I hear you. My legs fine, and no my arm isn't itching. Xemnas will be sure to take me here every 2 weeks alright? Now can you quit fretting?" I sighed.
"Sorry Roxas, I don't mean to fret, I just want you to be well. That's all. Okay, Xemnas said he would be here at 10 sharp. Ahh, there he is" Dr .Cunnings pointed towards a BMW parked right outside the hospital entrance. Dr. Cunnings waved at Xemnas as he slowly pushed me towards the car; Dr. Cunnings helped me into the car and folded up my wheelchair. Xemnas refused eye contact as I tried to spark a conversation; Xemnas would give me one words answer or wouldn't say anything at all. I must have really pissed him off.
The journey was silent. Dr. Cunnings told me to be good and watch for cars, he gave me a farewell hug and walked back inside the hospital. Xemnas didn't speak until we pulled into the drive. He turned in his seat and stared at me with his piercing amber eyes.
"I am extremely disappointed in you Roxas" Xemnas murmured. I looked down at the cast on my leg, struggling to say anything.
"That was extremely dangerous to run into the road without looking and in rush hour too. You could have died Roxas, you could have easily been put into a coma, but you were lucky Roxas, you're still alive and breathing" Xemnas swallowed "Although, the accident has put me out of a job. They thought I should have been supervising you, and that if I did the whole accident would have never happened. I'm leaving tomorrow. I just thought I should let you know before I tell the others." Xemnas looked at me disappointedly.
"I'm sorry Xemnas; I didn't think this would happen. I was just so angry that night that I didn't use my head" I looked at Xemnas, hoping he'd accept my apology. He nodded and patted my shoulder. He soon got out of the car and unfolded my wheelchair from out of the car boot. I let myself out as I leant on the car; Xemnas helped me into the wheelchair as he wheeled me inside on a ramp that I hadn't seen before. He opened the door with a silver key and pushed me inside, the room was empty, the floor was polished clean and so were the stairs. I looked up at the light that dangled over my head. It was eerily quiet; I looked up at Xemnas who frowned at the silence.
"They must all be in their rooms then. Alright, I'll just take you up the stairs and I'll help you into your bed. You'll need rest for your leg to get better." Xemnas sighed. He helped me out of the wheel chair and put my arm round his shoulder for me to stand up. I used my free hand to grab onto the railing. Why did I have to break my arm as well? I started hopping up the steps with Xemnas by my side. He was holding my wheelchair as he helped me up the stairs. A sigh of relief escaped my lips as I finally reached the landing, Xemnas unfolded the wheelchair, he helped me in and he pushed me into my bedroom and flopped onto my bed exhausted.
"Okay Roxas, I'll get you a drink and some lunch, what would you like?" Xemnas panted.
"Could I just have water? I'm not very hungry..." I whispered. Xemnas nodded and walked out of the room swiftly. I tried to heave myself onto my bed, but I was too far away from it to sit on it without falling over.
"Need some help?" A deep, sad voice asked. I turned my head towards the voice. Axel was standing by the door, looking at me with bloodshot eyes.
"Have you been crying?" I asked him, ignoring Axel's question. He wiped his eyes but didn't say anything.
"Why were you crying?" I questioned him, he couldn't have been crying about me, or what happened. That was month ago; he must be over it surely.
"Sit down Ax, we need to talk." I said sternly, Axel sat down on my bed, looking down at the floor.
"I think you need to explain Axel. Explain why I saw what I saw" I whispered, Axel looked at me sadly, and started to explain everything.
"Well, after you phoned me I just got so angry and I didn't think. I phoned Larxene to come over, as Xemnas said I could have some friends round. I knew what I was doing was wrong but I was just so angry and I guess I just threw myself at her. We only kissed for a few minutes I swear! Then you walked in and... I released what I had done, and how much I really regretted it." Axel sighed "I'm really sorry Roxas..."
"It's okay Axel. I'm not angry anymore" I stated, Axel looked up surprised.
"Yo-You're not angry?" Axel stuttered "After all the things I did?"
"No Axel, I'm not angry, I just feel betrayed and ashamed that I wasn't enough for you. I mean, if I kept you satisfied and made a bit more of an effort, then maybe you would have thought twice about being with Larxene. Anyway, spending a month by yourself gives you a lot of time to think, and I know what I want now Axel." I murmured. I looked Axel in the eyes, blue locking with green.
"And what's that?" Axel asked, he frowned as I took a breath.
"For you to be happy." I whispered quietly.
"So, so what does that mean?" Axel frowned; we made eye contact again, Axel's eyes watering.
"We can't be together anymore..." I stated, I stared at the ground sadly. I wanted to be with Axel so badly, but I obviously wasn't enough.
"What? B-but Rox, I thought you had forgiven me, I thought life would feel normal again. I want my life to be like that Rox. I want to spend it with you..." Axel croaked tears slowly trailed down his cheeks; soon my tears did the same.
"Exactly Axel, I'm normal, boring and plain. You'll get fed up with me again, like you did before. What you need Axel, is someone that can keep your fire burning inside you, someone that will make you happy. You'll get fed up with my constant change of moods; you'll get fed up of my moans and pathetic nagging, Axel you get annoyed of just being around me." I said quietly, Axel looked up at me with his swollen eyes.
"But Rox, I love you! I'd do anything for you, I'd jump off a cliff, and I'd jump in front of train all for you Roxas. Why can't you see how much I love you?" He sobbed; he put his head in his hands. I wiped away my tears and lifted Axel's head up, and cupped his cheeks as I wiped away the tears with my thumb.
"I love you too Axel. So much. But you know, there's a saying, if you love someone, you'll let them go, and I love you Axel. So I'm letting you go, you deserve someone better, you can get someone better, easily. You're funny, caring and a great boyfriend, anyone would be lucky to have you." I smiled wearily, ignoring the salty tears.
"But what if I want you?" Axel swallowed. I shook my head.
"If you wanted me enough Axel, you wouldn't have even thought about phoning Larxene now would you?" I asked him, I wiped away Axel's tears once again.
"So we can't be friends?" Axel asked me, he held my hands in hope.
"Of course we'll be friends Axel. Look, we'll always be friends; you will always be my first for everything. But we can't be together; I don't think I can manage my heart to be broken again, by the person I love the most." I held Axel's hand tighter. Axel nodded, I think he finally realised this was for the best.
"I'll always love you Roxas, even if were not together." Axel smiled, I smiled back.
"I'll always love you Axel." I whispered.
Axel lifted me onto the bed, where we hugged like friends. Not boyfriends, just friends. I soon felt happier, relieved in fact. Of course Axel will always be my first, my first time, my first boyfriend and my first kiss, and even my first friend. Axel was everything to me, and always will be.
I guess I can let Axel go, but I guess I can still love him...as a friend.
A/N: Sorry, it's just so, so short I know! I tried to make it longer, but I guess I just gabbled on a bit. Well anyway, what do you think? Please don't remind me about the ending, its bad I know, extremely bad! Well, let's just say I'm not a fan of endings. Sorry, I'm just gabbling on like this, anyway I'd like to say a really bigthank you to these fantastic, amazing and just simply awesome people:
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