A/N: Hello my lovely readers :) I'll like to say I'm really sorry for the long wait, it's just school began and I went back being busy again, and on top of that I had a few personal problems that needed my attention first. Anyways, I also like to say happy belated Valentines Day! Ok, here is the long waited chapter 19. This chapter was a hard one to write, I really had no idea what I was going to write when I began it. I hope it turned out just the way you guys want it.

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All those arrows you threw, you threw them away
You kept falling in love, then one day
When you fell, you fell towards me
When you crashed in the clouds, you found me

Oh, please don't go
I want you so
I can't let go
For I lose control

Get these left handed lovers out of your way
They look hopeful but you, you should not stay
If you want me to break down and give you the keys
I can do that but I can't let you leave.

Please Don't go - Barcelona

Chapter Nineteen - Breaking Dawn

I didn't sit around much after Godric left. I immediately tried to find my phone, hoping it survived the explosion. I found my green purse looking all battered. When I opened it, I was surprised to find everything just fine. I thought everything would have been ashes in there with the way the outside of my purse was tattered up. I pulled out my phone and snapped it open. There was 16 voicemails and 22 missed calls, and all of them were from Sarah. I quickly dialed her number hoping she hasn't freaked out too much by now. It only rang once when she picked up.

"Anna! Oh thank god. Are you alright? Please, tell me you're ok?" She asked frantically. I could tell from the sound of her voice that she had been crying. She must have been quite worried. "Yes, I'm ok. I'm perfectly fine." I told her as convincingly as possible. There is no point in letting her know what happened. It would do no good to anyone. "Oh my god, I thought I lost you. You have no idea how worried I was." She let out a sigh as she spoke, her voice going fragile. "And the last time we talked was… I-I don't want things to be like this between us, sweetie. You're my baby sister, and I love you." She said sincerely as she started to cry again. I could tell she was terrified with the thought of my almost death.

"It's ok, don't cry. We might fight all the time, but at the end of the day, we're each other's family. It's just the two of us now, and we have to look out for each other. I might not say it as often as I should, but know that I love you too, Sarah." I spoke sinking my teeth into my bottom lip, forcing myself not to cry also. I could hear Sarah sniffling through the phone. "It's just been a long day for both of us. Go take a hot shower and go to bed. I'm sure you're tired." I advised softly. It's like five in the morning, and I'm positive she has been sitting around and waiting for my phone call. She seemed to agree, probably too worn-out to argue, I guess the fact that I'm alive was enough for her, at least for now. She has been through too much in one day. After we said our good byes and hang up the phone, I decided to follow my own advice. I needed a hot shower too, for I still have dry blood sticking to my hair.

The bathtub of the hotel was enormous, almost like a hot tub. Everything in the bathroom was decorated in a creamy color, giving it almost a soft glow. It didn't take me long to soak myself in a warm water finally relaxing and enjoying everything. When I was done with my shower, I realized I didn't have anything to wear. Everything I brought with me was still in my car, and I guess they must have left my car at Godric's place. Since I didn't want to stand around naked, I put Godric's shirt back on again.

I have to get my stuff back somehow, so I walked to the living room, towel drying my hair, and called room service. After all, Godric did say if I need anything I should call room service. When a man on the other line picked up, I asked if they could send someone to pick up my car. I thought it would sound weird to ask them to fetch my car, but the man immediately said he'll send someone to pick up the keys. It was as if this was normal to them, like they get unusual requests all the time.

I must have been lounging around for a minute when there was a soft knock on the door. That was quick. I thought as I went to open it. I was surprise to find out it wasn't my room service standing behind the door, no, it was the vampire I met earlier that day. It was the beautiful Latina woman called Isabel. She looked tired, even for a vampire and her eyes were slightly red, like as if they were bleeding or something. I opened the door wider, "Oh, Isabel, are you alright? Is there something I can do for you?" I asked a bit concerned as I took in her appearance. She was dressed in a long golden brown dress as she stared at me sadly, like I should know why she was there. There was a moment of awkward silence between us as I waited for her to say more. It took her about a second before her eyes widen in some unknown surprise. "Oh my god, you don't know." She snapped as if to herself. I stood there not knowing what's going on, while still in nothing but a shirt. "Please, you must go see him… do something." She stated desperately as her hand gripped my shoulder. I was shocked for a moment in the speed she moved to grab me. "Wha—what are you talking about?" I asked staring at her troubled eyes. All I could tell was that she was panicking.

"It's Godric. He's going to meet the Sun." she replied. What? What the hell did that mean? It took me about a second or two to understand what she was talking about. My body seemed to freeze in shock as my heartbeat seemed to speed up and slow down at the same time. At that moment everything seemed to blur and go in slow motion. It was as if my mind was zooming out of my body as I felt lightheaded and nauseous. This was the second time I felt like this. The first time it happened, I was 14 years old. It was the night when the cops came knocking on our door to notify us the death of our father. But unlike dad, I wasn't going to let Godric leave. Beside why would Godric do that?

It must be some sort of misunderstanding. There was no way he was going to burn himself. I mean, He was just here about half an hour ago telling me about vampire's blood. I kept telling myself that, somehow hoping if I truly believed it, it would come true. It was then when the female vampire shook me back and forth. "Snap out of it, Anna. He needs you," said Isabel. When I looked up into her eyes and saw fear in them, I knew, as much as I wished for it, this was really happening. Godric won't do that, he won't leave me. "Where is he?" I asked as terror started to well up in my heart. "He's on the roof. Please, you need to hurry." She urged. With that I broke out in a run. I did not think for second the fact I was only in my panties and Godric's shirt. I just ran down the hallway, through the fire exit. I just ran what it seemed to be the never ending steps, and like any other never ending steps the faster I ran up, the longer and longer the stairs seems to get.

Before he left when he said—good bye my angel— it was him saying good bye forever. How could he do this to me? After everything we have been through, why would he want to do this now? I thought it was over, I thought we didn't have to worry about him meeting the sun, through the fellowship or not. That look in his eyes, I knew something was wrong, I felt it. Why didn't I say something? Why didn't I ask? Why didn't I insist that he stayed with me? I need him to stay with me. I will not live my life without him. We were meant to be together, somewhere deep down in me knew that he and I belong together from the first moment I met him, from our first conversation. And I will not let it end like this when we finally found each other. My eyes were stinging as the tears came in waves, running down like waterfall.

After what seemed like forever I took my last steps up to the roof, and I was greeted by the blonde girl that I saw in the church. She was standing there dressed in a pink sundress as she gazed at somewhere to the right. I paused for a second to catch my breath before I followed what she was looking at and I was met by another surprise. It was Eric on his knees, crying at Godric's feet as he spoke in some language I do not know. The last thing I ever expected Eric to do was cry. From my first impression of him, Eric seemed a rather as emotionless as a rock. In fact, I thought he was a bit cocky and egotistic. But emotional as to cry was the last thing I would say about him.

Godric looked down softly at Eric who was still sobbing, but instead of tears, it was blood that was leaking down from his eyes. "Let me go." Said Godric as his eyes seemed to plead Eric to do just that. That was when everything hit me at ones as I bit on my bottom lips to keep down the sob the threatened to escape, while my tears cascaded down like it was never going to stop. He really was doing this, he really was leaving me. My feet seem to take unconscious steps toward him. "I won't let you die alone." Eric spoke looking up sadly at Godric with his blood streaking face. Godric closed his eyes as he placed his hand on Eric's head, brushing his hair back. "Yes, you will." Spoke the older vampire, his voice soft yet demanding at the same time. "As your maker… I command you." He said tenderly as they said their good byes. Godric's eyes soften as he gave Eric a soft smile as if to tell him it was ok. Eric slowly got up and walked away, his eyes glancing at me as he walked passed me. His beautiful crystal blue eyes held so much pain in them; it was almost unbearable to look him in the face.

Godric looked toward me, his eyes moving from Eric to me. His lips craved up as he gave me a soft smile that always warmed my heart. Just the idea of not seeing that smile ever again was heart breaking. The tears seem to pour down, wetting my cheeks and drowning my soul. I have gone through too much, lost my loved ones so many times. Felt this pain repeatedly, over and over again, with mom, then dad, and once again with Claire. But it was never like this, I never felt as helpless as I did now. At least with them I knew it was God's decision, it was their time to go, no matter how painful it was. But with Godric… I—I cannot let him go. It took me too long to find him, and I won't let him leave me. "Why are you doing this?" I questioned as I walked closer to him, my voice sounding like a whisper. "It has to be like this, Anna. I'm making amends." He replied as his face softened at my crying face. Doesn't he understand that he is a martyr in this situation, a willing victim? "It doesn't have to be like this. This is not the way to do it. This isn't right." I quickly moved closer, closing the space between us as I grabbed on his shirt for dear life.

"We are not right. We don't belong here… I don't belong here, Anna." He spoke, his voice trying to comfort me, but I could tell the sadness that was masked behind his sweet voice. "Yes you do. You belong here with me." I sobbed as my hand moved to the back of his head holding on to him tightly. His fingers moved to wipe my tears before resting on my neck. "There are reasons why you're here on this earth, Godric… God created us all so beautifully for a reason. We have purpose here and… you can't just… There are other ways to make amends. You can find redemption and salvation in God's name. We can do it together. I'll be by your side each and every step of the way until you're happy with yourself… just don't leave me." I was getting desperate beyond control. I was not going to let my first love burn to ashes in front of me.

"This is my punishment for all I caused, Anna. I must meet true death. I have—" Godric began but I cut him off before he could finish his sentence. "God does not punish, in fact everything he stands for teaches about forgiveness." I spoke as one of my hands moved to his cheeks, caressing his soft, flawless skin. "And I promise to be by your side until you do not want me anymore. I promise to share your pain, to be there for you when you need me. Just stay. Please stay… I—I need you."

I pressed myself tightly to him as if I could just merge my body to his. "We can runaway if you want, go somewhere new, start fresh. Just tell me, whatever will fix this, anything and I'm willing to do it." I voiced feeling desperate like never before. In all the tears and blurry vision, I could see light smoke coming off the vampire's shoulders, and that was when I freaked. "No, no, no." I wept as my hands moved up and down his shoulders, somehow hoping I could take the burn and shield him from it, while my tears came down tenfold.

But he seems to be calm and collected as if nothing was happening, but his eyes spoke more than words could. "Please don't cry, Anna. I beg of you, don't cry. It makes… it makes my heart ache." He pleaded as his fingers moved to wipe my tears again. My tearful eyes gazed into his, "you must know by now, I cannot live in a world where you don't exist." My lips were shaking. My fingers were shaking. My legs were shaking. But my heart seems still.

"Yes you can. You will live a happy life. You will find a man, a human man, who will love you, treasure you, give you kids, and grow old with you. You will find someone who deserve you and give you everything that... that I cannot." He voiced sincerely as his eyes gazed at me with such affection that it made my heart feel heavy. Oh how I wish that man was him, how I wished he was the one who will love me, and be everything he just said. But he can't … and I don't mind that at all, I'll take what I could get.

"I will give all that up … just for a day with you." I sobbed, and he seemed surprised by what I just said, for his eyes widen slightly for a second before softening again. The sun was rising, and the smoke was coming off of him thicker now. He was burning. My hands gripped, tightening around his neck, if that was even possible, as my legs seem unable to support me. From the sight of breaking dawn, I could tell I only have a minute with him. "Choose me, Godric. Choose me like I would choose you over everything. Choose me." This was all I could say, all I could ask. I don't have the power to physically drag him back to the room and keep him safe. All I can do was ask him to pick me over death.

There was a moment of quietness as I waited for his answer, holding on to him with every fiber in my being, letting my eyes tell him how much I love him. His eyes gazed into mine before he looked toward the sunrise. His eyes were holding some sort of unreadable expression that I could not define, and there was a conflicted look on his face before he spoke. Then just like that, he said the words. Just like that, he gave me those four words that could end everything. "I choose you, Anna. I choose you." And just like that, there was a WHOOSH, and he was gone. I don't know how or when he had my tight grip removed, but one second he was there and the next he's not… he was safe. Just like that, it was over.

I stood there for a moment trying to work my legs as my tears came harder again, and my hand shot up to cup my mouth and swallow a loud sob. This cry was not in sadness, no, it was the opposite. He chose me. This cry was in happiness. The blond girl I saw earlier, the one that was witnessing everything that was happening on the roof came forward. "You did it." she smiled in happiness also as she wiped the tears in her eyes. "Come on, he's waiting for you." She shed, moving me toward the stairs. We both quickly moved down the steps where Godric and Eric were waiting. Well, where Godric was waiting while Eric was speaking to him quietly.

The second my eyes were laid on him and saw he was perfectly fine, completely different feelings hit me at once. I felt angry, betrayed and most of all… hurt. He was planning on leaving me, without even saying good bye. Just when my foot touched the last step of the stairs, my fist connected with Godric's chest. If I had turned around at that moment, I would have notice Eric take a threatening step toward me, but it's not like I would have cared. All I felt was the pain, and I wanted to beat Godric to a pulp. Again and again and again, my fists connected repeatedly with his chest. Angry tears burned my eyes, and I wanted him to feel the pain he caused me, and part of me screamed make him feel it. He let me beat him for a moment before, with a quick vampire speed, he grabbed my arms and yanked me forward and pressed his lips to mine.

My anger melted right away when his soft lips touched mine. I grabbed on to his shirt, pressing myself firmly to him. The kiss was rough and passionate as I forced my tongue passed his lips. Godric seemed taken-back only for a second before his tongue roughly met mine. His sweet taste was almost intoxicating, as my tongue and lips pushed farther craving for more. His hand gripped the back of my head, his fingers digging into my hair. I completely forgot how to breathe as my lips fought against his as I bit and sucked on his lips and tongue. One of his hands grabbed my thigh, lifting me up. My legs immediately moved to wrap around his waist. If even possible the kiss deepened as our tongue danced together. When I couldn't take holding my breath any longer, I broke the kiss. I gasped for air as my arms moved tighter around the vampire's neck. He buried his head in the crook of my neck while I kissed the top of his head and any part of him my lips could reach. We were so wrapped up in each other; we completely forgot we had an audience.

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