Lily Evans

1. When she was a little girl her best friend was her dad. The other kids at her school always made fun of her for being weird and until she turned eleven and went to Hogwarts she had mixed feelings about Severus. She got along fine with her mother and she looked up to her older sister, Petuina, but her dad was the one person that she always loved being with. She knew that no matter what he would always be there for her.

2. She was extremely good at reading body language. She didn't realize till she was much older but on the first train ride to Hogwarts she actually learned more about Sirius Black then she initially processed. When he said that all of his family members had been in Slytherin he had been so sad and his face immediately changed when it was obvious that James had every intention of being his friend despite this fact. And James. In James she had seen bravery, intelligence, loyalty, and an air about him that almost screamed nobility. She thought that he seemed like a good person, although she didn't figure out she was right until much later.

3. In fifth year she realized that your friends say alot about who you are. It was in that year that she decided that she couldn't be friends with Severus Snape anymore. It almost broke her heart because he was her oldest and most trusted companion but she could not stand what he and his "friends" did to completely innocent people. After the mudblood incident she noticed things in other groups of friends. There were four fifth year Hufflepuffs that were supposedly best friends but Lily noticed that one of the girls hated another, she didn't know what for but it was obvious to her and she figured that the other girl must have done something to deserve it. The Slytherins, of course, were another group that caught her eye. In conversations and the way they moved around each other she could tell that no friendship actually existed. In its place was tolerance, in the place of comfort was loneliness, and in the place of loyalty was fear. The people she spent the most time observing, however, were the four Gryffindor boys who had managed to turn her life upside down without even trying. No one could come between them. They were a closely knit gang, led by James Potter and Sirius Black. It confused her so much. Potter was a complete and toatl arse yet he had at least three people, with whom he held no blood relation, that were willing to do anything for him. As she watched them she realized that this unswerving loyalty was due to the fact that Potter would do anything for his friends. It was the first time she wanted to actually know him.

4. At the beginning of sixth year she overheard a conversation between Potter and Black. She had been walking back from the library after hours and was terrifyed of getting caught by a teacher when she heard Sirius's voice. James was sitting on the ground eating what looked like a turkey sandwich.

"Knew I'd find you here," he had said.

"Yes well the kitchens are where I come to sulk. What can I say, food makes my soul happy." James laughed unconvincingly. Sirius rubbed his face in his hands.

"Mate, you've got to stop doing this to yourself."

James sighed, "It's not a choice Sirius. Trust me, if it was up to me I would have given up a long time ago."

"Then why don't you?"

"Have you ever had somebody hate you so much for reasons unbeknownst to you?"

"Yes," Black said as if he was reminding his best friend of something.

"Sorry man," James apologized. "I know it's been hard for you, but with Lily it's different." He paused for a moment, lost in his thoughts. "Everyday I sit down and I think about how beautiful she is, and how kind, and smart, and loving, and amazing she is. I think about how much I love her and how I've always loved her. Then I think about how much she hates me, how the girl who was best friends with Severus Snape for almost ten years can't stand the sight of me. And we both know some of the horrible things that he's done." Sirius nodded his head understandingly. "It just makes me wonder what kind of person I am that's all."

"This is ridiculous. I have watched you pine after this girl for almost six years. I don't know what

the hell goes on in the mind that is Lily Evans but I do know that you are my brother and an amazing best friend to me and to Peter and especially to Remus and I will not let you keep doing this to yourself for another two years. If you don't confront her about this, I will."

"Sirius, no. That won't help anything."

"Then you promise me that if that stupid girl hasn't said yes by the end of this year you will try as hard as you can to move on and forget about her."

"Fine. I promise."

"Good. Now let's go back to the dormitory. Moony and Wormtail are waiting with a game of Exploding Snaps." They got up and left the corridor.

Lily sat in the same spot for Merlin knows how long just thinking about what she had heard. He loved her? No that wasn't possible. James Potter didn't love her. The only reason he kept asking her out was because she kept saying no.

That was day that Lily Evans decided maybe James Potter wasn't quite so bad after all.

5. She had almost forgotten about the promise she had heard James make too Sirius when one day during the summer before seventh year Sirius Black had shown up outside her house. She had only seen him look this serious once in all the time that she knew him. He made no pleasantries when he saw her instead he got right to his purpose for coming.

"Do you think you will ever say yes to him?"

She was stunned to say the least. Before she could answer he continued.

"Is it even in the realm of possibilities that you will ever see that he is totally in love with you for Merlin knows what reason, and he has been killing himself for the past six years trying to get you to give him a chance? Will it ever get through your incrediblly think head that he really likes you and will never give up until you realize this?" He continued to stare at her as she said nothing. "He deserves a chance to move on and find someone who will actually love him the way he deserves so if you know for sure that you will never give him the answer that he wants stop yelling at him every time you see him and honestly say to his face that you will never love him. Because you never will, right?" Without waiting for an answer he sneered at her and said, "That's what I thought." He apparated away leaving a very suprised Lily in his wake.

After that conversation Lily started to think about James a lot more. And not just because he was an arrogant toerag.

6. She was absolutely shocked during seventh year when James left her alone most of the time even though they sharred the Head's Dormitory and most of their duties. He even rearranged the schedule so they wouldn't have to make rounds together. She was suprised by how much she missed him.

7. After about three months of never seeing him she let one of the fifth year prefects take a night off so she could intentionally be around him. They were patrolling the seventh floor which was virtually desserted when she suprised him by breaking the silence.

"What are you thinking about?" she asked.

"Huh? Oh I'm just thinking about the Christmas holidays," he said with a pensive smile on his face.

"Oh yeah? What about them?" she inquired.

"I was thinking of the first day of Christmas break. My mum always waits to decorate the house so me and Sirius can do it when we get home." He was still smiling, almost as if he didn't realize who he was talking to. It was the first time Lily had seen him talk this ungaurded since last year. She couldn't look away from him.

"That sounds nice. I can imagine you and Sirius going crazy with the decorations." They both laughed at that.

"Yeah Sirius and I tend to go a little crazy when it comes to Christmas. He's like a little kid hyped up on sugar. What about you? What does your family do for Christmas?" She wanted to hear more about him but since he had asked her a question she couldn't just not answer.

"We usually have family over and it gets really hectic. It's really hard to be in the same house as all those people you know?"

"Not really. I don't have a very big family. Usually over the holidays it's just me, my parents, Sirius, and sometimes Remus."

"You're lucky. It drives me crazy."

"I don't know, I think it would be really cool to have a big family."

"Most of them don't know about me being a witch so its hard to keep something like that from people and still feel like I know them. Magic is such a big part of me and they can't know anything about it so they really don't know me either."

"Sounds tough."

"Eh it's not so bad. I rarely see them anyways."

After that the conversation died down. James didn't know what to say to her and Lily was contemplating the events of the night and of the past year. Right when James thought he did something wrong and was turning to apologize she stopped. When he realized that she wasn't walking he stopped too. He turned back and before he had time to say anything she spoke.

"Do you want to go out with me?" she blurted. She looked almost as suprised as he felt.

"What?" He asked. Lily realized that he probably thought she said something else.

"Do you want to go out with me? On a date," She repeated again.

"Uh...I...um...what...uh...sure?" He phrased it like a question.

"Great. We can go to Hogsmead this weekend." She kept walking leving James behind.

She was a little distance away when she heard him say, "What just happened?"

8. They had been going out for a year when he proposed. They were having a casual conversation sitting in the living room of his parents house when he said, "We should get married."

"What?" she asked.

"It makes sense. We love each other, our families love each other, I want to be with you forever and there is a war going on and if I die I want to know that I did everything I wanted to do in life an one of those things is marrying you." He looked calm but Lily was sure he was about to pee his pants from nervousness. She thought about it as he sat there.

"Uh, hello?" he asked as she stared off into space.

"Shhh." She said. The seconds were ticking by.

"Lil-ly" he whined.

"Hold on I'm thinking." A few more seconds passed.

"Isn't this where you say yes and hug me?" he complained.

"James quite." She continued to think about everything thing that had happened between them for as long as they knew each other. As she thought about this she kept James waiting in anticipation.

"Okay, let's do it." She said.

"Yes! Oh thank Merlin, you had me nervous for a second there." She laughed at him and he picked her up and spun her around before landing a rather passionate kiss on her lips. Seeing him this euphoric made her even more sure that this was the man she wanted to spend the rest of her life with.

9. He knew from the second she saw Ginny Weasly when she was first born that Harry was going to grow up and marry her. She had take him with her to the Order's Headquarters one day shortly after the little girl was born. The whole time they were there Harry could not stop looking away from that beautiful little girl. He was inticed. Just like his father.

10. She does not regret the way she died for one second. Her only regret is that Harry never knew how loved he was. Even in death.