Chapter 12 I'd love you to love me
I woke up, leaning over 2D to look at the clock. "Ugh 6 a.m.?" I thought to myself as I laid back down cuddling in to his arms. His room was cold and I didn't wanna get up but I couldn't sleep anymore. I finally got up crawling over 2D and out of bed, grabbing the first hoodie I could find. It smelled badly of cigarettes but I put it on anyways. I decided to go up to the studio, I wasn't very hungry and since 2D and I no longer had to sneak around I rarely ate breakfast. I sat in the swivel chair grabbing the acoustic that I had been playing the night before. I thought about that conversation with Murdoc remembering that I told him I loved 2D. Ive never truly been in love before. Actually Ive never been in a real relationship before. I always traveled while I was in the U.S. and back in stoke there definitely wasn't anyone worth getting to know. I strummed the guitar while I sat thinking about when Noodle first showed me the picture of him, when I first came to Kong and he gave me a hug, our first encounter in the dark hallway, and our first real kiss in the kitchen. My day dreaming was once again rudely interrupted by Murdoc who snuck in and decided to turn his bass amp all the way and start playing. I swiveled away from him continuing to play with the guitar.
"Nikki darlin' come over here and sing" He said in to the microphone that was set up near him.
I turned on my chair shaking my head, I'm not really a singer.
"Come" He said waving me over.
"Ugh Murdoc no, I'm not a singer!"
"You sang for me last night"
"I was messing around you idiot"
"Just come"
"Fine but only a little...what am I singing anyways?" I asked walking to the mic.
"you choose, nothing Gorillaz, I wanna hear something else" He said sitting in the seat I had just occupied.
I thought for a second, the started strumming as I began singing while I thought of my love 2D.
"I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm beggin' you to beg me
I shine up my old brown shoes
I put on a brand-new shirt
I get home early from work
If you say that you love me
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?
Feelin' all alone without a friend
You know you feel like dyin'
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?."
I stopped singing when I saw 2D standing in the door way watching. My face turned red and my hands moved quickly to cover the embarrassment on my face.
"No' bad" he said walking in grabbing another chair, sitting next to Murdoc.
"I'm done" I said blushing
"No no keep going you're good" Murdoc said trying to get me back up to the mic.
I shook my head as I sat down on 2Ds lap laying my head on to the curve of his neck. Murdoc looked away, I knew he still hated the idea of us being together but there was no stopping it now, not after what I told him last night. 2D was still a bit nervous to show affect towards me with him around. I could see him glace at Murdoc every few seconds just to make sure he wasn't about to get hit.
I grabbed the guitar off the stand again still sitting on 2Ds lap as I strummed the tune I did the night before.
"Had a family friends and a future, sold it all for the life I live I scream, I could take on the WORLD I scream, with any girl I scream well what kind of love are you dreaming of when you're heartless?..." I sang as he quickly got up leaving the room
I laughed when I saw him come back around the corner about to say something, I quickly interrupted him with a loud strum as I said "HEARTLESS"
He gave me an evil glare as he looked at 2D "She loves ya, don't break 'er heart"
I set the guitar down getting instantly mad at him for telling 2D, he said he wouldn't tell anyone. Ugh I guess that's what I get for trusting him. "Fuckin bastard!" I yelled but all I could hear was his stupid laugh as he walked away down the hall. My anger was quickly taken away by 2Ds lips connecting with mine as he pulled me close to him. I remembered Noodle telling me about the girls he had loved before me, all taken away from him by Murdoc. She told me it was hard for him to love and trust someone because of him, but she thought he may be falling for me since Murdoc wouldn't go there, not with me, that would be disgusting.
"Wha's wrong" 2D asked pulling away from me.
I realized he was talking about the disgusted look I had on my face from the thoughts I just had. I smiled leaning in, kissing him. "Its nothing just a thought about something Noodle said yesterday" I told him reassuring him the look was not for him.
"You love me?" He asked awkwardly looking down at the floor.
"Umm, well..." I muttered "ugh I've never said I loved any one before" I thought to myself still trying to find the right words to say to him.
"Cause I fink I love you too" he said looking up waiting on my reply.
I sat for a second processing it through my head. "He loves me? wait? He freaking loves me? really?" I thought as a huge smile moved across my face.
"I do, I love you 2D, I've never loved anyone before" I told him wrapping my arms around him. I was gonna kill Murdoc for making me tell him this way, its still wayyy to early to really process whats going on, but at least I knew now he loves me. "he freaking loves me" I thought leaning against him, placing my head back in the curve of his neck.