Be Calm

"As I walk through the streets of my new city, my back feeling much better I suppose,"

Kurt walked along the sidewalk, although you really couldn't call what he was doing 'walking' it was more like limp-hopping. He wasn't used to Westerville yet, it was strange and foreign, even though it was only an hour from Lima. He didn't know anybody there…or so he thought. He should have known that this new haven was too good to be true, and what made him think he could ever really escape his nightmares? He stopped mid-stride and twisted his middle, a sharp pain shot through his back, nothing like it had been before, but it stopped and rung through him with a dull ache. He continued to walk

"I've reclaimed the use of my imagination, for better or for worse I've yet to know."

He imagined thigns as he walked, he imagined he'd taken Blaine up on that offer for tonight, he imagined he hadn't been so stubborn, hadn't gone out by himself. He took a deep breath to calm himself, ther was no use in dreaming up things when it was too late.

"But I always knew you'd be the one to understand me, I guess that's why it took so long to get things right."

He doesn't exactly know when he'd formed such a connection to Blaine, but earlier the boy was really urging Kurt not to go out alone, Kurt had assured him that it was only a shopping trip and that he really needed a new scarf. He'd been so stupid. They'd been doing this dance for so long he doubted they'd be able to stop, useless flirting with nothing to come of it, it was just what they did, it was them.

"But suddenly I'm lost on my street, on my block, oh why, oh why, oh why haven't you been there for me, can't you see? I'm losing my mind this time, this time I think it's for real I can see"

But lately they'd been growing apart. Blaine with his school work, Kurt with missing his friends. They still considered themselves best friends, but they both wanted more and it was eating away at them until they could hardly look eachother in the eye without nearly admitting their feelings. Because both thought the other wouldn't reciprocate. Because bother were kind of oblivious.

"The tops of trees are turning red, the beggars near bodegas grin at me I think they want something I close my eyes and tell myself to breath"

Kurt slowed his pace once more and waited for the treetops to stop spinning. He couldn't get that smile out of his head, it wasn't friendly, far from it. It was thin and full of teeth and malice. It was nothing like Blaine's smile, not warm or welcoming, it was cold and it made Kurt want to throw up and run as far away as possible, he couldn't deal with this, he needed to run.

"And be calm. Be calm. I know you feel like you are breaking down, I know, it gets so hard sometimes. Be calm."

Kurt took deep breaths as he walked, the icy air stung his lungs and froze the tears in his eyes. He tried not to cry, he really did.

"But with every single buck I've made I'm saddled with bad luck, it came the moment I was baptized or when I found out one day I'm gonna die if only I could find my people or my place in life and when they come a'caroling so loud to break the Theremin, will lead us to a chorus where we all rejoice and sing a song that goes"

Kurt knew that he was going to die, sure, he didn't belive in what many thought happened after that death, but he really hoped he wouldn't find out so soon. He had friends, yes, Mercedes was his friend, Brittany was his friend, even Finn was his friend. But none of them were his friend like Blaine was. Someone he could always talk to no matter what, always felt comfortable with, someone who made him feel like he belonged. He saw the house now, warm light leaking through the window, though he knew Blaine's parents weren't home.

"Oh be calm. Be calm. I know you feel like you are breaking down, oh I know, that it gets so hard sometimes, be calm. Take it from me, I've been there a thousand times, you hate your pulse because it thinks your still alive, when everything's wrong, be calm, be calm."

He knocked on the door. Hard. He wrapped his arms around his middle because he felt like he was going to fall apart if something didn't hold him together. The door was flung open and there was a gasping noise and a contracting in Kurt's chest and he wasn't exactly sure when it happened but he was in Blaine's arms, Blaine was shushing him and although he had no idea what happened he was warm and comforting and just there. So Kurt just let himself cry because he could, because he knew he wouldn't be judged, and that Blaine would always be there for him, no matter what.

"It just gets so hard sometimes, be calm, be calm."

(AUTHORS NOTE: I love this song, so much, and this scenario just kept playing in my head whenever I heard this and I just had to write it out. Tell me what you guys think!

Ps. Always accepting prompts ;)

The song is "Be Calm" by Fun)