Title: For Now
Rating: K/PG
AN: Please just assume that Rachel and Blaine are canon, or that at least they're deeply in love with each other, despite their respective boyfriends.
The First Time (3.05) drabble: romance/angst – It sounded innocent, but Blaine knew what she truly meant.
Blaine's eyes began to blur with tears as Rachel spoke: "Tony and Maria were soul mates, okay? Against all odds, they found each other. I know what that's like. And you do, too."
He knew; there was no question. He knew what it was to find his soul mate. He knew the peace and comfort that only comes when all the pieces life had stolen from your heart returned and fell into place. All at once, there was a reason for it to be whole.
He also knew the pain; the twist of the knife plunged so cruelly in his back by fate. He'd found his soul mate in the most unexpected person, at the worst possible time. He was already too far in love with another, with whom the parts of who he had thought himself to be didn't add up to what his entire existence yearned for.
He found all of that in her and he knew, she in him.
"We just have to play that."
And they would. They would play it out, for months, for years, maybe for the rest of their lives, and it would be worth it. Because in her words – simple, earnest words if overheard would sound completely innocent – she spoke of her faith in him; in them and who they were together. It didn't matter they were both currently in love with other people. It didn't matter than he would never be her first, or that she would never be his. They could have been, and they both knew it, but these things that were so important to other people, these things couldn't shake them. These things didn't exist between them.
They were more than the result of one kiss, one act, one night. There would be no alternate ending, no second take. He knew, without a doubt he knew, that once everything in their lives fell away, she would find him at the end. He would be waiting.
It was lingering just off in the distance where they could both see it, but sometimes it felt too far away. He wanted nothing more than to hold her in his arms, they way he did when they were alone; his hands would fall just past her waist and she would lean into his chest. It would be warm and secure, every thing they had been searching for in the past week. He knew he would find it in her.
It wasn't their time, and in moments like this, he greatly wished it were. Instead he would have to pray she would hear him the way he heard her. Pray she saw his understanding in the curve of his lips, his love in the sheen of his eyes, and that she would know the strength she had given him.
She smiled, soft and sweet, and he knew that she did.
For now, that was enough.
AN2: /self-indulgent headcanon/ Reviews are lovely and if you have any Rachel/Blaine bits you might like to see, let me know and I'll see what I can do with it.