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OH AND THANKYOU SOOOOOOO MUCH TO megacoffeequeen BECAUSE YOUR REVIEW MADE ME SMILE! :p and Alice825 : Yes I do, I personally say every word in the whole chapter out loud to get a feel on their voices and what descriptive words should be added. No joke. Keep reviewing! It helps A LOT! AND TO ALL THE REST OF YOU THAT REVIEWED I LOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU ALL SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!

JASPER

"Why?"

Rosalie's scream split the heavens, I didn't have the will power to even cover my ears. My head felt heavy in my hands, I couldn't life it up for the death of me. (AN: Get it? Because he's a vampire and not…breathing…and stuff….no? Well ok…) In that moment I just wanted to be able to sleep. To forget about all the bad things till morning, take a breather of sorts. But that was impossible, so I thought about the secret love of my life. Bella Swan. I wasn't interested in her because I wanted to eat her, and not simply because I wanted to play. She was my real soul mate, a type of vampire imprint maybe, but nothing like what Alice and I had. I still loved her, but secretly I knew it wasn't meant to be, and probably shouldn't have been in the first place.

This whole situation was complete shit in my book. I was pissed off because I never really knew Bella, furious because of Edward's stupid decisions, sad because of the new Alice and Edward development, I was a giant ball of crazy emotions but there was one that stood out above all others. Confusion. Did Bella kill herself, did Laurent kill her, was she really even dead to begin with? Was this whole thing a giant hoax to accomplish something? I couldn't fathom what making us believe she was dead would accomplish, but I guess it was something to go on.

Hope that is. Hope is what we had to go on. If none of the facts matched then there was an error, and there are no errors in death. Either your dead or not. Plain and simple. The fact that she may still be alive gave us a tiny bit of hope that we may actually find her. With blood still flowing through her veins and a small smirk on those soft pink lips.

As long as we had this small sliver of hope, I knew my little broken family would survive until the truth was found. We would find her, we would make it.

WELL GUYS ITS LIKE LATE RIGHT KNOW SO IM GOING TO GO TO BED AND TRY TO ADD MORE TOMORROW. HOPE YOU LIKED IT!

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